Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 13 ( Chapter 13 )

Chapter 13

 

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Warning: Un-beta-ed so there might be some errors, that will be fixed at a later time. I'm posting so soon since my computer is been acting up. Hopefully it will be nice to me when I write the next chapter.

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I gasped and pulled back, realizing that Duo was awake, but then was yanked forward by my hand and I jerked and fell on top of Duo.

 

"Ugh!" He exclaimed and wrapped his arms around me as I landed on his chest. "You okay?' I nodded. I couldn't look Duo in the face though. I felt him move a bit then felt his fingers in my hair. He was stroking my bangs gently and it felt so nice. "Heero?"

 

"Hm?" I mumble and tilt my head into his touch more.

 

"I asked if you were okay. Are you?" Duo asked and cupped my face in his hands. I look into his eyes and note the concerned look he's giving me.

 

"I'm fine. I'm sorry I woke you up. I just... wanted to kiss you." I whisper softly. I felt his soft fingers caress my cheeks and couldn't help closing my eyes at the light touch.

 

"Don't be sorry. I liked it. You can kiss me whenever you want to. You don't need my permission for it." He told me and I couldn't help the huge sigh that escaped me. Duo knew just what to say to make me feel better all the time. I just wished I could return the favor some day.

 

"So I can kiss you whenever I want to?"

 

"That's right. Whenever you want. I like your kisses. They're so soft and shy, like you are, it reminds me of how precious you are to me."

 

"Why is that?" I asked a bit confused. Duo always took care of me even when that man had... I froze.

 

"You're my friend Heero. Friends take care of each other." I listened to Duo. I heard his words, but that man had still tried to use me. Duo had stopped him, but why?

 

"Why did you stop that man?" I asked and looked up at Duo. He looked at me horrified.

 

"What do you mean why did I stop that man? He was going to hurt you. I had to stop him."

 

"But why? If he hurt me, you wouldn't want me anymore?" Why was I asking this? I scolded myself.

 

Duo shook his head. "No Heero. I'd still want you even then, but no one has the right use another person like that. No one."

 

"But what if they already had?" Duo sighed and rolled over so I was underneath him and he pinned me down. I couldn't move. Duo stared at me hard and then leaned forward and kissed me. It was soft, gentle and left me breathless. He broke the kiss a moment later, but it felt like it lasted a long time.

 

"You already told me about that and it wasn't your fault. What he did to you was sick and evil and he used you, like that man in the guest room wanted to use you. Of course, I was going to stop it! You're my friend, I love you too much to let someone take advantage of you!" He said firmly. I looked deep into Duo's beautiful eyes and saw the strength he held within. It gave me hope that I was doing the right thing.

 

I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him more firmly on top of me and hugged him tight. "I think, I love you too. You're the only one who decided to save me. I'm happy that it was you who saved me. I need you." I hugged him close then felt as Duo moved and we were cuddled together on our sides, our bodies still in each others embrace.

 

"I'll always save you. You don't know who scared I was to find you in there with that man trying to take off your clothes. I was so afraid that that bastard had raped you. I couldn't let him get away with it. No one should do something like that to you. Never."

 

We stayed cuddled up like that for some time and I realized how much it meant to me that Duo was always a comforting presence beside me. Hesitantly, I leaned up and claimed his lips in a gentle kiss. "Thank you, Duo."

 

"For what?"

 

"For making me realize how much I need you. I don't think I could've stopped him." I admitted. "It scared me to think he was going to use me like J had, but..."

 

"Go on." Duo urged me and I continued.

 

"But to be honest, that wasn't what scared me the most. I was afraid that if that happened, you would be disgusted by me and would want me to leave. It would kill me inside if that happened. I wouldn't be able to handle being alone again. I don't want to leave you, ever." I whispered the last part. I felt like I was going to cry.

 

"Shh. I know how that feels, but try to believe me when I say this. No matter what happens, I'll always be here for you. I never want you to leave." Duo seemed to be thinking a bit more of what to say, but his words comforted me. It made me feel better to be reassured. I was doting on my thoughts when Duo's next words stopped them dead.

 

"Why don't you move in here permanently?" I blinked at him. He couldn't be serious. "You already live here and most of your things are already stored around the apartment. We just have to move a few of your other things here if you want to and you'll be set."

 

"You're kidding?"

 

"No. I'm dead serious. You could move in with us for good. I mean, when was the last time we went to your house?" I had to think about that one.

 

"A few months ago, when I first came here. Has it really been so long?" I said to myself, but Duo answered any way.

 

"It sure has. It's been nine months since you were back there. What do you think? Do you want to live here permanently?"

 

"YES!" I hugged Duo hard and tight, not wanting to let go.

 

"Okay, that settles it. You're staying for good. We'll tell Quatre as soon as he's up." Duo grinned and hugged me back.

 

"Consider me told." I snapped my head towards the bedroom door. I hadn't even heard it open. "We'll put Heero's name on the certificate and verify it with the landlord as soon as I get dressed and eat. The signing won't take long at all. Welcome home Heero." Quatre said to me then left and calmly shut the door.

 

"See? It's alright." He kissed me gently and hugged me some more before letting go. "Breakfast sounds like a good idea. Let's see what Kat's cooking up." He offered me his hand and I took it gladly. I felt like I was truly home and in a way I was.

 

Duo was my home. Anywhere he was with me, made me feel safe and happy, and this new offer that was going to become reality... Well, it was an even better feeling than I ever felt before.

 

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Quatre made us breakfast and set it on the table before going to get Trowa who was still asleep. When I saw him more disheveled than usual, I couldn't help but giggle a bit. He ate his food quietly then got up, caught Quatre by the wrist and lead him to the bedroom once again. Duo and I heard a soft thumping start up then turned back to our meal. Who knew how long they'd be at it.

 

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The signing went well and Duo drove us to my former home to get whatever else I wanted to move into the apartment. I decided to move the rest of my clothes out of my bedroom and went into J's old room and went through some of his things.

 

I knew he had a lot of things on file, so I shifted through his possessions until I found what I was looking for. In a drawer of his dresser was sealed disks that held all my training files, J had recorded on me. There were computer files and programs, disks with sealed documents on them about his accounts and some recording of his experiments. I took them all and put them in the duffel I brought with me and put them at the bottom of it and put my clothes on top of them. I didn't want Duo to find them.

 

"Everything okay Heero?" Duo popped his head in just as I zipped the bag closed and picked it up and slid the strap onto my shoulder.

 

"Yeah. Every thing's fine." I sighed and went to him. He picked up the other bags that I had filled and headed out to the car.

 

"You know, this is a really awesome house. I looked around while you were packing."

 

"I told you that you could." I told him as I locked the door and we headed to the car.

 

"I know, but I was just thinking about how neat it would be to live in it." A shiver passed through me, but I don't think Duo noticed.

 

"It wasn't neat, as you put it, when I lived in there. It was frightening. I only began to like it after J died." I told him and opened the trunk and placed the bags inside. I looked at Duo and waited him to hand me the bags, but saw him look at me sadly.

 

"Do you think you'd ever want to come back here and live in it?" He asked and placed the bags in the trunk then turned to look at the house. I sighed and looked back at it too.

 

"I really can't answer that. Maybe some day I will want to, but right now, I just want to be with you at the apartment. Maybe when we decide to move out of there, all of you can come live here with me." I suggested and Duo smiled and shut the trunk. He slowly leaned forward and kissed me. My eyes fluttered shut to the soft press of his lips.

 

"Some day. But I'll be happy to keep you occupied until that day comes and even afterward." He whispered against my lips then pulled away and got into the car. I got in too, a second later and blushed all the way home.

 

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Trowa and Quatre made dinner for us and then helped me put my things away. I kept the one duffel away from them and slid it underneath the bed. "It's my summer clothes." I told them and they just shrugged and went back to what they were doing.

 

Duo made sure I was warm and comfortable as we turned in for the night and he was soon asleep, with me resting against his side. When I was sure he was asleep, I slipped out of bed and took out the duffel I had pushed underneath the bed and took out one of the file disks J had and put the rest of them underneath the bed once more. I got my laptop and slowly exited the room and went out to the living room and booted up the laptop.

 

It soon came to life and I inserted the disk into it and after waiting only a few seconds, the file booted up and was read by the system. A message appeared and asked for a password. I had a feeling about this and typed in one of the passwords I knew J always used for this type of file.

 

Perfect Solider.

 

The password was accepted and the file was actually a movie file. I had a bad feeling about this, but proceeded to see it. The file was a documentary about me and how J went about 'breaking me in' and my training. I watched it all happen again. The tests, the obstacle course, the way J took out his anger on me, and that's what lasted the most.

 

I couldn't tear my eyes away, even as I felt the ghostly pain of old wounds and pain flow through me. My body started to tremble and I couldn't help but feel the cold chill that was spreading throughout my body.

 

"Heero?" I jumped and slammed my laptop shut and turned to see Duo behind me. There were tears streaming down his cheeks and he slowly reached for me and pulled me to him in a strong embrace. "I'm so sorry." He whispered and tightened his hold on me. I was confused. Why was he sorry? For watching what I went through? It wasn't his fault!

 

"Why are you sorry?" I asked, still sounding shaken.

 

"You told me what you went through, but I didn't know it was that bad. Why do you have something like that on your laptop? Why not get rid of it?" He asked and sounded as broken as I felt.

 

"I wanted to see what kind of records J had on me. I guess I know now. I thought you were asleep."

 

"I was, until I felt you get out of bed." He pulled back and wiped my tears away then wiped away his own. "Come back to bed Heero. Don't watch this," He pointed to the laptop, "anymore. That's enough for tonight. You need sleep, Heero. Come on."

 

He picked up the laptop and put it on the table and popped out the disk and handed it to me, then picked me up. "Put it away or destroy it if you want to, but that part of your life is over. What happened in the past stays in the past and there's nothing you can do about it to change it. You're with me now and I won't do that to you." He carried me to the bedroom and set me on the bed. I reached out and put the disk in the drawer next to the bed then turned back to Duo. He got in and pulled me against him, with his arms wrapped tight around me.

 

"No more tonight Heero, just rest." He kissed my forehead and stroked my hair and back in a soothing gesture and I was soon falling asleep, as his gentle hands made my relax and cuddle up against him.

 

I realized we had slept in yet again when I woke up the next morning. Duo was getting dressed when I opened my eyes. He had his black pants on for work, but his shirt was no where to be seen. I must have made some kind of noise, because Duo turned to me and smiled.

 

"Morning sunshine." I blinked at him as he crawled onto the bed and kissed me. "You were really out of it this morning, so I let you sleep in. We have to go in to Howard's today, so go take your shower." He told me and went back to looking in his drawers.

 

I got out of bed and did as he asked, but I still remembered what had happened last night. Still remembered what Duo had seen. He didn't act differently towards me, so he meant what he said last night. That part of my life was over. It didn't matter anymore. I couldn't change it and I was with Duo now. He cared about me.

 

As the finished drying my hair, I put on my clothes for work and breathed a sigh of relief. I couldn't change my past, but I could make sure my future would be a happy one.

 

A happy one with Duo.

 

Yeah, that's what I wanted.

 

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TBC...

 

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