Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 24 ( Chapter 24 )

Chapter 24

 

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I felt the blood in my veins turn to ice at the sight of Quatre. The voice in my head was quickly telling me not to panic, to just remember my raining and act like I didn't know the blond man from my past. Walker didn't seem to notice how I froze and was quickly making introductions between myself, Relena, and Quatre. Quatre just shook my hand and pretended to be pleasant but I knew he was probably seething inside. If I were in his place I probably would be too.

 

“Excuse me Walker, but why is Heero here?” Quatre asked innocently. He seemed to be sizing me up as well as if I were a threat that needed to be dealt with effective immediately.

 

“He's here to escort Miss Relena Darlain for his new position as her body guard. The Vice foreign Minister is very concerned for his daughter's well being and we needed a new bodyguard to protect her.” Walker answered in kind.

 

“Father is always worried Quatre, he just means well. I'm sure we'll get along fine Heero. My father must like you if he's making you meet me here.” She smiled at the both of us seeming to sense that Quatre was wary of me.

 

“It is an honor for me to meet you, Miss Relena.” I bowed and allowed a small smile to spread across my lips. I had to win her over in order to complete my mission. I could not fail. Unfortunately, Quatre seemed to feel the need to have some say in the matter.

 

“I'm sure all is fine then. Walker might I talk to Heero in private for a moment. I would like to hear about his previous bodyguard positions.”

 

“Certainly. Heero meet us by the car. Please come with me Miss Relena.” With that said they left and Quatre was quickly tugging at my elbow as he approached his own car. Quickly, looking around to see if anyone could overhear us Quatre turned to me with murder in his eyes.

 

“How dare you Heero! What is the meaning of this and what the hell have you been doing? You raped Duo when he was so sick and up and leave him! What is wrong with you? Where the fuck did you go for so long? Was Duo just an amusement to you? Did you sit and laugh behind all our backs when you left after how we've cared for you? Are you such a cold blooded asshole that you don't care who you hurt just as long as it's for your own good?” Quatre hissed at me and getting redder in the face after all the accusations he threw at me.

 

“I didn't want to do that to him or leave him Quatre. The voice made me do that to him. I have no choice but to obey.” I calmly told him and he suddenly looked ill.

 

“What voice?” He sneered.

 

“The one the doctors put inside my head. It tells me to obey them to do what I'm told and if I don't the voice gets louder and hurts me. It hurts so much when I don't obey. It made me severe ties with Duo, even though I didn't want to. It told me it needed to be done for the sake of my mission amongst other things.”

 

The voice suddenly screamed at me to stop, telling Quatre was a breach in security and he could be compromised. Quatre took what I said but his hatred for me that was in his eyes didn't clear for a minute. He didn't feel sorry for me. He thought I was a threat to those he loved.

 

I was. I wouldn't deny it and I told him as much.

 

“I've said too much already. I must get back to my post.” I turned to leave but Quatre grabbed me one more time.

 

“Heero. If what you said was true, then you aren't doing this because you want to?” I shook my head. “Does Duo still mean anything to you?”

 

“Yes. But I fear that I have ruined things beyond any repair. I wish I could apologize to him and take everything I did back, but it's too late. I know he hates me and that's the way it must be to keep him away from harm.” I turned then and went to join Walker and Relena, leaving Quatre standing stunned by his car. The voice was shrieking at me, but I ignored it. It made me lose my friends and my lover, all because of my mission. A mission I never wanted in the first place, but I one I couldn't get away from just yet.

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Walker told me my duties while Relena seemed to be flirting with me the entire time. Walker seemed rather amused by this but I took it in and was set to not return her affections. She was just a protected target, nothing more. I could see that she was pretty, in a naïve sort of way, nothing at all like my Duo had been. Duo was too stunning for words to describe him, but I could no longer be in his presence. I wondered if Quatre told Duo about me, but the thought hurt as well.

 

I could just imagine Duo balling his eyes out and telling Quatre what he told Duo was lies and then finally realize it for the truth it was. I had no doubts in my mind that I had hurt him far worse than anyone ever had before. Even Zechs and Hilde never hurt Duo as much as me. Maybe Zechs was taking advantage of Duo's heartbreak right now.

 

I felt the anger spill over me and make my eyes go red. The voice was silent, probably not understanding the rage that I suddenly felt, but as it consumed me I realized very suddenly I did not have an outlet for the rage I felt. I was not in a place I could just lash out without raising suspicion. Especially while I was on the job with Relena and Walker. So taking a few deep breaths I let the rage subside and came back into myself as Relena asked me some questions about myself. They were all lies, but she didn't know that. It was just a practiced lie H made me recite until I could speak it as if it were truth.

 

The rest of the car ride was uneventful and I stood my post while Relena prepared for her meeting. I made a mental note to myself that if I saw Zechs anytime soon and he said anything negative about Duo I would kill him in the slowest most painful way I possible could and the voice supplied me with ideas and images of how I could do it.

 

The rest of the day, I spent going through the pros and cons of each way I could think of while my charge ran to her meetings and I remained her vigilant bodyguard, leaving her very much unaware of my darker thoughts.

 

When I was relieved of my duties and debriefed about what I need to do the next day, I returned to the doctors and told them of my success. They were very pleased and let me go into my training room for as long as I needed to that night until my body craved rest.

 

My mind however couldn't stop running around in circle as the voice yelled at me for not telling them about Quatre. I ignored it and didn't crack underneath the pain it sent me. It was the price I had to pay for betraying my friends and I deserved it. But to reveal them to the doctors of their importance to me and make me seek them out and hurt them worse by having the voice make me tell the doctors about Quatre, Duo, and Trowa, would betray them. I couldn't do that no matter how much the voice disapproved. I wouldn't sell out my friends and if I had to die to protect them, so be it.

 

TBC....