Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 26 ( Chapter 26 )

Chapter 26

 

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It seemed like every attempt I made to heed H and kill Relena met with failure after that night Duo followed me to the house. There's no way to express how much just seeing him come after me made me feel. H thought I wasn't trying hard enough and kept upping the dosage whenever he felt like it. S warned him to monitor it better since he knew after a while the drugs would no longer affect me like they should be. A fact that I had over heard and had already realized was starting to happen. The voice was growing weaker each time H attended me. The dosage itself was ten times as strong so it kept up the other physical effects, but the mental ones were slowly breaking down.

 

The once silent murmur in the back of my head was now in full control once more. Yet, the after effects of physical endurance, stamina, strength, and speed increased a bit and didn't seem to be fading. I was quite glad for it to be honest, although I worried that my act to make them believe the drugs were affecting me like they always had was always on my mind. Often times I felt myself thinking things over while running errands for them and picking up supplies. Just being seen in public was a hassle since my mind was always analyzing those around me, looking for threats, and just being hyper aware of anything that moved.

 

It was on one of those days that I needed to go to town and pick up some food H and S had requested. The farmers market seemed like a good choice at the time since it wasn't enclosed like a normal store would be. It was on that fateful day that my instincts seemed to be lacking somewhat and I didn't notice that I was bumping into someone until we collided. The other person landed on the ground while the things I had been carrying fell to the ground.

 

“Sorry. I must not have been looking where I was going.” I apologized and started grabbing my things.

 

“No, it's my fault just as much. Something caught my eye and...” The other person stopped abruptly and I wondered why as I finished stashing my food back in the canvas bag. It was only then that I looked up and noticed what the other person looked like.

 

“Heero?” He whispered and I nearly dropped my purchases on the ground again.

 

Those features and voice that haunted my dreams and memories for so long. He was finally right in front of me staring at me as if he had never seen me before. I knew then that I had to get away before he started asking questions. Before I did something I no longer had any right to do. I scrambled to get up and get out of there as fast as I could, but Duo seemed to have other plans.

 

“Oh no you don't!” He hollered and latched onto my arm without thinking and tugged me with him. I wondered briefly as he pulled me towards the parking lot that even though I knew I was stronger than him, I still let him lead me to wherever he wanted to go. We stopped near an all too familiar white van, never letting go of my arm. He fixed those beautiful blue-violet eyes on me and fixed me with a harsh glare. “I want answers this time Heero and I planned to get them.”

 

I felt my body tense and he must have felt it too when his stern look softened a fraction. “I know something is going on with you. Something bad from the looks of it and yet you didn't tell me. You just used me and left to do what exactly. I don't know, but when I followed you that night after I went to see that speech with Tro and Kat and saw you there... I figured something was wrong. I even kinda knew when you raped me.”

 

I hung my head, no longer able to look at him when I noticed the tears filling his eyes. That night I remembered all too clearly. The voice making me do the unthinkable to Duo. I hurt him more than I had ever hurt anyone that night, even if it wasn't really me.

 

“What do you mean it wasn't really you?” He asked me and I realized with a start I had been talking out loud. “Heero tell me what you mean by that!”

 

“I- I can't.” I mumbled and suddenly I found myself slammed against the van.

 

“Yes, you can and you will. What the fuck was wrong with you then, for right now even? You owe it to me to let me know what the fuck happened.”

 

“The doctors did this to me. They drugged me, made me... made me do that horrible thing to you so you wouldn't follow me . The voice they stuck inside my head told me what to do. How much to hurt you. Told me how much you wanted it to be like that and I was too weak to stop it. Please forgive me Duo. It wasn't me that was touching you like that. I love you so much I never wanted to do that to you... but I did. I did hurt you.”

 

“Yeah, you hurt me bad. You fucked me like J used to fuck you. I don't even understand half of what you're saying Heero, but I want to believe you. I don't know if I can though. Whoever these so called doctors are did this to you. What did they do exactly?”

 

“They made me ZERO.” I stated. There was no point to hold back now. Everything was coming to the surface, my crimes, my training, my sins.

 

“Huh?”

 

“They made me ZERO. It's a drug that makes you a super soldier. It's something J was working on and his colleagues have finished his work even though J's dead. They wanted to see his tool, his ZERO. That's what I was supposed to be after my training was completed. He wanted me to be his perfect soldier. A tool that would do anything that is commanded of me and carried out without question, alteration, or delay. H and S modified it and wanted me to be their private assassin to carry out their plans. Well, they are more H's plans than S's.” Duo stared at me for a few seconds before taking a deep breath and letting it out.

 

“So that's why you live in that house now.” I nodded. “And why you did all those things to me?” I nodded again. “Why didn't you try to fight them?” I looked up at him shocked.

 

“I tried to, but the drugs induce pain unimaginable when at their full potential. I was in constant agony whenever I went against orders and the voice would often take over.”

 

“Then they aren't at their full potential now?” He asked, sounding hopeful and I get relieved.”

 

“No.”

 

“Then why don't you come home with me. Things won't be the same, not- not for a while any way, but...”

 

“I can't.” I interrupted him. There was no way I could go back with Duo. H would figure things out and kill him. He might even find a way for the drugs to work again. I couldn't let that happen.

 

“Why not?” He asked and I told him what would happen and even though it startled him, he nodded in understanding. “So you're just pretending to keep them in the dark about your condition?”

 

“Yes. I can't let them harm you, Quatre, or Trowa. Besides I also need to protect the vice foreign minister's daughter; Relena Peacecraft.”

 

“That's why you were on stage with her?” Duo exclaimed and suddenly seemed to realize why I was her guard. “H and S want you to kill her?”

 

“Precisely. Even though all my attempts have failed so far, which I'm relieved about but it makes H madder every time the mission is unsuccessful.”

 

“I can see why if that's the whole reason why you're guarding her.” Duo looked down at his watch suddenly and swore to himself before looking at me again. He seemed to be memorizing my face before he suddenly leaned forward and kissed me hard. I stood there stunned at the feeling of his warm lips on mine. It was a hard kiss, one that I never thought I would receive again and enjoyed it even though it was too brief for my liking. I would be content though, that Duo still had feelings for me even if I didn't deserve them. Duo pulled away just as suddenly and stared at me sternly as if reminding me without words that I couldn't reach for him.

 

“Promise me this Heero, when you finally think it's safe and these bastards don't have this hold or whatever on you, you'll come back to me.” He jabbed his finger at my heart. “Promise?”

 

“I promise even though I don't know when I can make it happen.” I swore to him and he gave me a half hearted grin.

 

“That's all I ask.” He finally pulled away and let go of me. I missed the contact already even as I turned away from him and carried my packages back to the house. Duo was gone from my sight a moment later as if he hadn't even been there. But that kiss still tingled on my lips and left me with a strong reminder of my promise.

 

I didn't know if it would come to light any time soon, but the hope it spawned in me didn't die even as I closed the door behind me and prepared for H's ranting for the day.

 

TBC...