Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Pleasure, Pain and Promises ❯ Chapter One ( Prologue )

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//la la la// thoughts

la la la - emphasis

~*~la la la~*~ - Dream/flashback

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He walked down the dark hallway making his way from the kitchen to his room. He had woken up at around three o'clock desperately needing food. So now, after taking care of that need, he was going to take care of his need of sleep. When he reached his door, he slowly turned the doorknob, trying to be as quiet as possible so he wouldn't awaken his roommate. But once inside he found his efforts weren't really needed for his roommate wasn't there. //Good, I didn't wake him// was his sleepy thought. Once he was back in his sleeping bag, tucking himself warmly inside of it, he realized that something had to be wrong. Heero wouldn't be awake unless something was wrong, like a sneak attack, a bomb, or some other thing like that. Now fully awake, he decided to find his missing partner.

He left his room, still only wearing a pair of gray drawstring sweats, and quietly walked down the hall. He listened to everything, looking for anything but silence and when he heard running water, he followed it.

It led him to the bathroom and he knocked on the door "Heero? Are you in there?" The silence was his affirmative. He slowly opened the door, giving Heero time to stop him if he wished, he didn't. He walked in to the bathroom and saw his friend leaning over the sink, his hands supporting him and his head was hung low.

"Heero?" He was a little shocked to see his friend like this. It looked like he'd been through hell. It wouldn't be so bad if it were anyone else. "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine"

"You don't look like your fine"

"I said I was fine, Duo" his tone held a warning in it but it didn't effect the other boy a lot, if at all.

"Yeah I know that's what you said and I said that you were lying" //I think I know what it is// Duo thought, //he had a nightmare; we've all had our fair share// "You had a nightmare" His voice was soft and sincere.

He couldn't tell him, not about this dream, this nightmare. He wanted to throw up again; there was so much blood and cries. He had been having this dream a lot lately and it still disturbed him. In his dream he caused it, he caused the pain.

"I said that I was fine and even if I wasn't, its nothing I couldn't handle"

"Heero, you've had a nightmare and it helps to talk about it"

"What would you know about nightmares?" Heero demanded

"I've never told you, have I? I have a lot of nightmares, if you could call them that"

"What do you mean?"

"Nightmares are things that your mind creates to get rid of thoughts, images, and other things in your subconscious. They are mixed up and normally they are released in just dreams, pleasant or weird but sometimes you have too many negative images and they turn into nightmares. You can't call what I dream a nightmare, its more of a flashback of things in my past" Duo explained and Heero was a little shocked. He knew that the other boy was intelligent but he didn't think that he possessed this much wisdom and logic. He sighed, one more addition to the enigma known as Duo Maxwell. He was a little more than curious as to know what in his past could cause him nightmares, but wouldn't give him the satisfaction of asking.

"Anyways, as you know, I'm an orphan, like you. I was abandoned on the streets when I was four…

~*~ Duo POV

"Honey, don't follow mommy" A woman said to me. I didn't know why she didn't want me to follow her she was just standing there. She was perdy and big!

"Why, momma?" I asked her, didn't like this place, it was dark and there were monsters and it was cold and wet and there was no teddy bear.

"Umm, honey, you have to stay here because I have to leave you. I can't look after you anymore because… because… just because"

"Momma, I'm hungy and why you go?"

"Because I didn't want a child and I don't want you! You're a little brat and your holding me back!" Why was momma yelling at me? Was I bad? I don't think I was. I look around and I can hear the monsters in the dark. I don't like the dark, its scary.

"There are monsters, momma, I don't want to stay, they are gonna eat me for supper"

"I don't care!" And then momma ran away and I sat there. I didn't follow her like she said and I started to cry. I heard the monsters coming out, now that there was no big person to hurt them, there was only me. I'm scared.

"Momma, come back, I'm scared of the monsters. They're gonna get me, momma. Don't go away… please" then I stopped talking because momma was gone. I started to cry more.

My eyes hurt now. Its dark and the sky is black.

CLANG!!!

The monsters are coming now! I get up and run fast, faster than ever. I run away from the monsters and the dark place. But, but, why is everything dark? Where is my house? I don't know this place and there are a lot of people who don't know how to walk right. I looked for a house but I couldn't see one. Only places that smell bad and people who smell worser.

I find a bunch of old blankets and I walk over to it. I'm tired and it looks warmer than the ground. I see a person in it already and I hope they know how to share.

"'Cuse mister" the guy looks at me and smiles. Where are his teeth? I thought big people had lots of teeth but I have more than him. "Umm, can I share them with you?" I point to the blankets "Momma left me where the monsters were and now I'm tired and I can't find my house" he doesn't smile any more. And he nods

"Sure ting, kid. Yous can stay here for da night"

"Thanks" I crawl in the blankets and I cry more, trying to be quiet so that the man doesn't leave me like momma did. My eyes close and I am so tired. Mamma

I'm eight now and I know that my mom is not coming back and somehow, it doesn't bother me anymore. I had just stolen some bread from the baker and I think that he's going to catch me one day. I laugh. He should really pay closer attention to his stand, its so easy. I run around the corner… right into the fruit guy… Who I stole from yesterday! Uh oh. He's seen me and he's coming up to me. I turn around and start running in the other direction. I don't get very far when he grabs my arm.

"Caught you! You little brat! Your going to the cops" My eyes widen. The cops?! No! I remember them hitting a little girl until she didn't get up and all she did was steal an apple! What would happen to me?

"Please mister! Don't! I'm sorry! I'll do anything! I didn't…" I saw the man's eyes go wide and he fell to the ground holding himself. Behind him stood a boy with hazel eyes and dark hair. He looked a little older than me and was wearing a smirk.

"You ok kid?"

"Yeah thanks!"

"Nah! No prob, I know what the cops are like here" he said "Name's Solo, what's yours" Suddenly, I realize that I don't know my name. I remember being called kid, honey, brat and boy but that's it.

"I don't remember"

"You don't remember your name?" I shook my head a 'no'. "Hey, that's ok, I'll find one for ya"

"Why?"

"Cause I like ya! I want you to come and live with me and my gang. We kids gotta stick together, ya know?" I smile widely and nod. He smiles and takes my hand. "Come on Sky"

"Sky? Is that my name?"

"Yeah, your eyes are the color of the sky just after sunset"

"Ok" I smile "Thanks, Solo"

Three years later, Solo and me are best friends and I have to admit that I like him a little more than that. I found that he was three years older than me. I can't help liking him though, he's saved me more than oncw and has never yelled at me. But he and I noticed that a lot of the gang members were getting really sick and they were coughing up blood. Along the ally at least half of our gang was down, against the walls or on the floor.

"Solo, what's going on?"

"I donno" He said and coughed a little and I knew he had it too. I saw the blood on his hand even if he didn't mean to show it. I didn't let on though.

"Well, we gotta do something, they look like their gonna die"

"I know" he said. I left trying to find some information, I saw him looking at his hand when he said that.

After walking for about an hour I overhear two cops talking to each other, I stayed behind a large crate to listen. I only picked up some of it, key words and such but it was enough. "Plague" "cure… 15 credits" "wipe out" "street urchins" I knew what it was and I ran back to tell Solo. But by the time I got there, he was leaning against a wall breathing really heavily.

"Solo, its plague! They released it on the streets to get rid of us kids! The cure is 15 credits per person! I'll go and get some! Just, don't die while I'm gone ok?"

"Yeah, if anyone can get it, it's you Sky" Solo said "you're the best thief I have ever seen" I took off towards the nearest hospital.

Once inside I dodged the nurses and doctors and went straight to the cold storage room where I knew where they would keep the medicine. I made sure to find out how much to give, it was 30mg per person. I knew it would be easy to get into the storage room and to grab enough bottles and needles, and a lot harder to get out. I looked around the room, through the glass cupboards and drawers until I saw the right stuff. The only word I saw was plague and I grabbed five bottles of the yellowish liquid and shoved it into a bag. There was 300 mg in each. Then I looked around the large drawers. I opened them and shut them quickly, looking for needles. When I found them, I grabbed about twenty of them, putting them in my bag.

My head shot up when I heard talking outside of the door. Uh oh! I waited until they had the door all the way open. Just a little more… There! I sprang and ran out of the room, pushing through the doctor and nurses. I heard them scream for security and I pushed my legs to move faster. I remembered the way out and used it to my advantage. Once outside the hospital I didn't stop running until I got back to where our gang was. I was so tired I could have collapsed, but I didn't. I knew that the lives of my friends was more important than me being to tired.

When I opened my bag, I saw that I only had one bottle left; the others had broken on my way home. I quickly did the math; it was enough for 10 people… there were 11 people who needed. What am I supposed to do? I can't let anyone die! I… I'll go without. I don't seem to be sick and everyone else is. I made up my mind and I started to give the other kids the serum. After every shot, I got another needle.

The last person was Solo. It took me a while to get the needle ready but I did. I looked at him and saw that he was flushed and his breath was shallow and if you didn't look, you'd swear he was dead. But he's not. He can't die!

"Solo? You still there?"

"ye…'m glad…ya…got… back"

"I got the medicine Solo," I said as I lifted his arm for him, he was too week to do it himself, and I gently pushed the needle into his arm.

"Don bother… 'M too far" He said. I felt my eyes start to sting and soon there was tears rolling down my cheeks. I looked at Solo and found that he was staring at me, his eyes were unfocused and clouded but I knew he saw me.

"Solo, your gonna live and get through this than when you and me are older we're gonna stick together forever"

"don cry… yer too… perdy" Solo said to me and my eyes widened. Did he just call me pretty? I-it can't be, he can't. It's not fair!

"Solo, if you die, I'm going to as well! I didn't take the serum! I can get more, but I wont if you die!" I pleaded with him, hoping that he would make it. I know he can make it! He has to…

"Kid… donno how… ta say this… I… love…you" His eyes started to close even when the others were already getting better.

"Solo! Don't close your eyes! Please! I love you too! Don't die! OPEN YOUR EYES!!! Dammit Solo!" I shook him genltly. I didn't know what to do. If he closed his eyes, he'd die! I didn't want him to die! His eyes were still closed. I hope this works. I crawled up onto his lap and kissed him. I saw his eyes open and I stopped, I didn't really want to but I had to.

"Sky… stay…… here… please" Solo pleaded "don… wanna…be…… 'lone" I nodded and looked at him and saw that I wasn't the only one crying, his tears were so sad… so sad.

"I don't want you to die, I-I…" I didn't know what to say

"then…… you hafta … live… for us… both" I nodded, my long hair flying. I sat down on his lap and wrapped his arms around me.

"We were the best together, weren't we?"

"ya… a duo" I turned to face him and started to sod into his shirt. I didn't care if anyone saw us. "sky…… look… at me" I did, "'member…boys don…… cry an…… never…ever…… lie" with what I'm sure was the last of his strength, he kissed me once more. Just a simple kiss, but it meant a lot to me. When I felt him go limp, I whispered over and over that I loved him and that it wasn't fair for him to die. I wished that I would die and hoped I would. When I felt his breathing slow until it stopped I pressed my ear to his heart and listened to his faint heartbeat until it too… stopped and he died. I screamed for a long time, until I couldn't scream anymore and I felt darkness claim me while I stayed in my dead friends, my dead love's arms. I smiled and soon, I knew no more.

I wont move from here, I'll let the plague get me and then I can be with Solo. I won't move.

I think a few days went by and I realized that I wouldn't get sick and I wouldn't die. I removed my former friends stiff arms and stood up. I looked down on him and I shed a few more tears before bidding my friend goodbye forever with a kiss. I swear he smiled, but… it was only wishful thinking I was now leader of my gang and I now had a name. One of the older girls, Miya, approached me and hugged me. She was a year older than me.

"I knew, I knew he loved you" she whispered sadly "He would stay awake till all hours of the night and watch you sleep. One time he kissed you and he saw me awake. That's when he told me. I'm sorry, Sky. I'm so sorry"

"Duo"

"What?"

"My name is Duo now" I said to her "I am living for me and Solo now. My name is Duo"

"And this is your gang now. He wanted it" She said and gave me a sad smile.

~*~

"That's the first part of my life" Duo said and his eyes were glossy and fogged. Heero knew it was from unshed tears. Now the two were sitting down on the floor. "I can't continue to explain this to you in such detail but after that I was caught steeling by a priest. He took me into his churches orphanage and gave me a home. His name was Father Maxwell. A nun there taught me how to braid my hair because I didn't want to cut it" he laughed at the memory "anyways, two years later, the federation came and started to be a bunch of pricks so I offered to steal a mobile suit if they'd leave. They agreed and I went to steel one." He looked sad again and it did not go unnoticed. "When I returned with the suit, everything was in ashes. I found sister Helen and she blessed me and then died, I didn't deserve her blessings. She was so pretty, even when her face was covered in soot" Duo said smiling briefly "well after that I snuck aboard G's ship and was caught. You know the rest" He stood up and went over to the sink, he ran the cold water and washed his heated face.

"Why did you tell me this?" Heero asked

"Because I think of you as my best friend and it's about time you knew. This is also what I dream about I also dream about what happened at the church when I was gone" he laughed, "I was right, it does help to talk about it!"

Heero realized that it must have been hard for him to say all of this and he was sure he'd seen a tear or two escape Duo's eyes. He breathed deeply

"Thank you, Duo. But I have one question"

"You know Heero, you didn't have to thank me, I now its not something you do often, if ever, but I should thank you for listening" Duo said "what is it?"

"Do you still love him?" Duo was shocked. //Why would he ask that?// He thought about it for a long time. //does he want to know to know more about me? Does he want to hurt me? No, that's not it, he's more physical// many thoughts passed through his head and he soon forgot that he was asked a question.

"Duo"

"Oh! Sorry! No, I guess I don't. I do in a way that I would never forget, but I'm not in love with him. Why ask?"

"Love isn't something I have experienced and would like to learn about it" //liar// he yelled at himself //you know love well//

They sat in silence and darkness for a long time until Do spoke up again

"Tell me yours"

"I'm causing pain and blood shed" Heero said. Duo didn't expect much more but there was something else

"and…"

"I'm causing it to everyone I know, you, Relena …"

"I get it. Well, we all get those dreams but I'm assuming that your not used to them" Duo said softly, Heero nodded. He didn't want to tell him that in his dream he enjoyed, causing pain… and that pain wasn't he only thing he caused… he also caused pleasure.

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Well that's it for now. There will be more chapters and and I will go into more detail in what happens in Heero's dream.

SPOILERS FOR MY FIC!!!

-Relena plays a big part

-1xR

-1x2

-Heero lies a lot (not bastardized)

-?+2

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