Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Rediscovery ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )

Rediscovery

 

AN: I DO NOT own any of the Gundam Wing character.(no matter how much I wish I did.*sigh* oh well. At least this story is all mine.)

 

CHAPTER 5

 

Heero woke the next morning filled with a feeling of apprehension.

They know. They've known the whole time and they still helped me. Why? How can they stand being near me and not be disgusted?

 

Slowly Heero got out of bed, heading to the bathroom to get a shower, suddenly feeling filthy.

 

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The breakfast that had been set on the table was growing cold. Trowa and wufei had eaten earlier before heading to HQ and Quatra had gone to town for a meeting. Heero, well Heero was no were in sight. Usually he was one of the first up and ready, yet today had still hadn't come down for breakfast. Duo was worried even if Heero had slept in he would have been down already

 

I better go cheek on him

 

Once at Heero's bedroom door, Duo knocked softly. When there was no response he knocked louder. Still Heero didn't answer. Slowly Duo opened the door and peered inside. Heero wasn't in the room.

 

THen the faint sound of running water reached his ears, and he headed towards the bathroom to knock on the door.

 

"Heero, are you ok?"

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The water pelted down on him, he washed and scrubbed at his body, and still he felt dirty. Used. Slowly he slid down the wall of the shawer, not caring as the water continued to pour down on him.

 

Soon he begain reliving what had happened. It wasn't like the nightmare he'd had last night. no he wasn't in bed dreaming, but they were there, forcibly pressing him to the cold floor. Rough hands pulling at his cloths, brining pain as they rean over his body.

 

Shaking Heero wrapped his arms around his knees, lying on his side, trying desperatly to bring his body into a more protected position.

 

Why is this happening?

It shouldnt't have happened.

I should have been able to prevent this.

I'm the Perfect soldier, it shouldn;t matter what happenes to me.

Nothing is supposed to get to me.

Then why do I still feel so worthless, pathetic. Weak?

 

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When the silence dragged on, and Heero still hadn't responed, Duo cautiously made his way into the bathroom. steam filled the room, fogging up the glass. At first everything seemed normal, until Duo spotted a still body huddled up on the shawer floor.

 

"Oh God. Heero?"

 

Quikly rushing over and turning off the water, Duo turned and crouched down beside Heero's quivering form. Gently Duo placed a hand on Heero's shoulder.

 

"Heero, common get up."

 

Duo's frown deepened when he realized that Heero had curled even more in on himself, whipmering, when he had touched him.

 

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Someone else was there. But who? At first it seemed as if it was another one of THEM, intent on hurting him, but then a clam soft voice spock. Gentle hands rubbing his back in a soothing gesture. Ever so slowle Heero relaxed eniough to look up, unsure as to why this person wasn;\'t hurting him. Confusion flashed through dark blue eyes when they fell upon a concerned Duo.

 

"D-Duo?"

 

Carefully Duo wrapped his arms around Heero, lifting him off of the cold card floor to carry him to his bed.

 

Heero was still tense when Duo picked him up, unasle to relax and trust Duo completly. Even though he knew that Duo or the others woukd b=never intentionally hurt him. Heero rested his head against Duo's shoulder as feelings of calmness and safety enveloped him with DUos arms wrapped securly around him.

 

Once Duo had Heero sitting on the bed, he quickly wrapped a blanket around Heero.

 

"Heero?" Are you ol?"

 

"H-Hai"

 

As soon as Duo settled on the bed nbeside heero, Heero leaned into him, oonce again resting his head against Duo's shoulder.

 

"Heero, what happened?"

 

Not wanting to tell Duo what had happened and how worthless he felt, Heero shook his head and held tighter to Duo.

 

Safe. He felt safe with Duo's arms wrapped protectivly around him. But could he tell him everything that had happened and what he felt without loosing those he so desperatly needed in his life.

 

There in lies the problem, he trusted these people, but he was scared. the only place he felt trully safe in was whith Duo and the others. Being near them, cared for by them. He didn't want to lose that.

 

"I'm scared"

 

Heero's shy voice was barly heard because he kept his face resting between Duo's neck and shoulder. Duo began to brush his fingures through Heero's damp hair in a soothing gesture.

 

"Why are you scared?"

 

"It's my fault. Everything. If you knew the truth you'd hate me."

 

"Heero what are you talking about. Nothing, I repeat, Nothing could ever make me or the others hate you. What could you have possibly done to make you think that we would?"

 

"It shouldn't have happened. it was a simple mission, go in get the data needed and leave. But I got carless, i was weak and got caught."

 

Shuddering Heero squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block out the images that once again flashed through his mind.

 

"I'm a soldier. the perfect soldier. I shouldn't have goptten caought and if I did then Nothing theyu did to me was supposed to get me. no matter what they did it souldn't have effected me. But it did. they hurt me. They diliberatly and purposly forced themselves on me with the intent to hurt me.

 

Slowly DUo begain to rock his distressed friend back and forth.

 

"Shh Heero, Shh."

 

The words that Heerio spoke tore at Duo's heart. Quatre and Trowa and told him and Wufie that Heero had remember everything concerning his capture, but Duo hadn't thought that what had happened would make Heero question their friendship.

 

" Heero, You're not an unfeeling soldier. you're a human being and have feeling and emotions. What happened to you wasn't your fault. you did what you were supposed to do, but because of some false information you got caught, and was severly mistreated."

 

Pausing Duo looked down into Heero's thought full gaze.

 

"You're not weak Heero, to have made it this far, through the war, your training and your mosy recent capture, you've triuphed. You're strong. One of the strongest people I know."

 

Duo stoped speaking and just held Heero close to him, kissing him on the fore head. Duo slowly eased back so that He was lying on the bed, with Heero curled up against him.

 

"Go to sleep Heero, I'll stay with you"

 

Hero's grip tightened around Duo as he felt the braided man shift slightly.He didn't t want to sleep alone, if he did he'[d just end up reliving everything in his nightmares.

 

"You'll stay. You promise that you won't leave?"

 

"I promise."

 

Sighing deeply Heero's eyes drifted shut. His dreams for once deep and peacfull, free of the nightmares that often plagued his sleep.

 

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