Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Roses Lose Their Luster ❯ Roses Lose Their Luster ( Chapter 1 )

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Roses Lose Their Luster
hi! *wavewave* well, this is the companion fic to "Nothing but
Perfection" and it's from zechs' pov. umz... gw isn't mine, though i
wish it was! i'd make them draw pretty, pretty pictures of 6x13 for
me! tee-hee!
(jade) you've had WAY too much sugar today.
(ex) *sigh* i know.
(jade) oh well. *turns to audience* hi. i'm jadeite, otherwise known
as jade. pls, read this fic and tell her if you liked it or not!
she's desperate. this one's called... "Roses Lose their Luster"
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Such a pretty face for a man; with his tilted sapphire eyes, high
cheekbones, and full mouth. His hair even seems pretty. At least,
when he hasn't done anything to it--especially when he's fresh out of
the shower.

And, gods, that body... He has legs that could wrap around you
TWICE! Of course... more often than not, that same body is marred by
bruises and bites.

That's my fault.

Yeah, that's me... Zechs Merquise, Rapist Extraordinaire. Gods, I
can't believe I just said that. I am NOT a rapist. Okay, I'm
lying. I... I do sometimes take him against his will and... even
when I'm gentle, I still manage somehow to hurt him. And that
really... well... it's painful, knowing that the man I love most in
the world is being hurt and shamed and raped by me.

He needs someone who'll be good to him. Someone who'll realize just
how fragile he can be. He needs someone that he doesn't have to beg
to leave him alone.

I know that his childhood was really fucked up. He doesn't talk
about it much, but someone took advantage of him. How do I know?
Because he never fights me when my desire is one-sided. He lays very
still, with wide, blank eyes, and stares past me until I'm finished.
Not only that, but he has nightmares... wakes up in the middle of the
night, murmuring about 'daddy's little doll' and he cries and... I
really shouldn't get into them.

I guess... I guess that's why I'm dating Noin. Maybe if he sees me
often enough with her, he'll leave me and find someone else. Gods, I
hate doing this. I hate using Noin and I hate seeing the pain in his
eyes everytime he sees she and I.

A few days ago I found bloodstains on his balcony and on the ground
below. I'm scared of what he's doing to himself. I don't want him
to hurt himself at all...

Tonight, Romafeller is holding a ball. Gods, if only it was him I
was dancing with and not Noin.

***

We had our first real arguement last night and I said... things...
awful things to him. I told him that I felt nothing for him. Today,
I'm here to apologize, but he's not in his rooms.

What's this? I run a finger along a wall, noticing a faint red tinge
to the cream-coloured wallpaper.

Oh gods... it's blood.

***

I can't stand it anymore. I have to see him. I have to be with
him. I love him so much! I'll get help if I have to, to stop
hurting him, but this separation is killing me.

When I told Noin, she smiled sadly and nodded, saying she
understood. She's such a good woman. If I didn't already love
Treize, she'd be the one I'd want. She deserves someone who'll love
and appreciate her.

But I belong to Treize.

I'm at the top of the stairs now, ready to open the door. I don't
know why my heart is beating so fast or why I'm so worried.
Setting my resolve, I push open the door and...

Oh no... no, no, no...

The room is completely destroyed, blood smeared everywhere.

So much blood.

And the picture that had always stood on his vanity, the one of me
with my arms around him? It's laying shattered on the floor.

I glance up, feeling eyes on me, and see him. He wears a bathrobe
and I can see that he's hurt himself. His face... ah, his face is
prettier than I ever remember, with lined eyes, hair in soft curls...
and... blood on his mouth?

His eyes... oh no. I can feel my own begin to tear up as I stare into
his. There's a hint of madness there now and I'm the cause of it.

I swallow and try my voice. "Treize... "

Suddenly, he smiles, opens his arms, and without hesitation, I go to
him.

After all...

I Love Him.

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(tomo) well, i'll take over where jade left off. *clears throat* yes,
she's very desperate. she wants feedback. pls, email her or just chat
w/her on ICQ. her # is 50594140.
(ex) very well done, tomo-chan. i'll have to drag you and hotohori
out more often.
(tomo) yes, you should.
(ex) ok.
(tomo) *evil 'kakakaka' cackle. definitely tomo* yes! i get more time
on the screen!
(ex) *sweatdrops* be good, tomo, or i'll sick nakago on you.
(tomo) *eyes sparkle* really?! *goes SD* you'd do that for me?
(ex) oh dear... maybe i shouldn't have said that...
(jade) *sighs; waves* ja!


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