Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Stinkfist ❯ Stinkfist ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Title: Stinkfist
Author: Kendra
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: 1xR
Warnings: Lemony, angsty.... Relena POV
Disclaimer: *bows to Maynard* He owns this song w/ Tool and Sunrise
owns GW.
Notes: *backs away from Rose* I'm sorry that I didn't watch over
Heero and relena but I'm a writer and I got him by 1xR inspiration for the first time in a week!
I'm so soorry!!!

Stinkfist by Tool


//Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden
Anyone should bear.//

I feel his lips on mine as his body comes in contact with mine. Heero is so strong yet so gentle when he's with me.

I can tell that when he's with me, he feels calm, at peace. Without me, he's in confusion. Why can't he realize that?

//Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
and I wouldn't have
It any other way.//

As his hands grasp my body, bringing me into needful contact with him, I tell myself the answer. Heero refuses to accept that he needs me. He likes me, he lusts after me, but he refuses to love me.

I can understand his recluctance, he has issues from his past to deal with.

//It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.//

But I need more from Heero. I need his heart, his love, his acknowledgement of our relationship. This, this relationship we have right now isn't enough any more.

I have his trust, but I need his love to be whole.

//Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.//

As his hands lift my legs around his waist, I sigh a little in regret. All of the sex in the world couldn't make up for what I need the most.

His lips nibbling on my neck cannot make up for what I need the most. My fingers careening down his back cannot make up for what I need the most.

//I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be
Well upon our way.//

I feel the wall against my back as Heero tightly presses our bodies together. I know that this time, it will be rough, not as gentle as it usually is.

His fingers rip open my shirt as his lips attach to my breast. I feel a new urgency inside him, an urgency that was never there before.

//Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.//

I heard Heero's grunts as he struggled taking his shirt off. I helped him undress by working on his pants. I was already basically naked as my skirt was hiked up around my waist, my panties discarded long ago. I could feel the intensity building. Something special would be started tonight, I could just feel it.

//It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.//

His need almost overwhelms me as he is poised at my entrance. His eyes bore into mine, asking if its okay. I nod, I want and need him anyway that I can.

He enters, nice and slow, just how I like it. But I know it won't last as the warrior spirit inside of him aches for release. I wrap my arms around his neck, keeping him close as he thrusts inside me.

//Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.//

I feel his lips nibbling on my ear as our rhythm because faster, rougher. I don't feel alarmed because I know that Heero would never hurt me. The pressure of his hands on my hips becomes almost bruising as we both strive to reach our peak.

I come first, loudly, screaming Heero's name as my orgasm is beautiful and complete. In my daze, I hear Heero say, "I love you," before screaming my name.

//Something kinda sad about
the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?//

I lean my head against the wall as I feel my orgasm ebbing away. Heero's head is laying on my breasts as his harsh, labored breaths cool my skin. I brush his wild hair with my hands as Heero's grip relaxes.

Heero then looks up at me, his Prussian-blue eyes serious and intense. He says, "I meant what I said."

//How can it mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?

I'll keep digging till
I feel something.//

I feel elatement in my heart as I digest what he just said. As he picks me up and deposits me on the bed, I feel complete. I, we are now whole.

//Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. Turn around and take my hand.//