Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Storm Clouds ❯ Chapter 6 ( Chapter 6 )

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Recap: Janice doesn't like Heero anymore (at least Heero thinks so) and Heero's superior Derosia knows something about him that Heero himself doesn't know. Heero has a nightmare and Duo offers him comfort by spending the night with him in his bed.

Warning: Hmm... mild sexual situation ahead... rejoice!

Note: This chapter was betaed by Dragonborncrystal! Thank you SO much for catching those slippery little mistakes I make everywhere all the time!

Chapter 6: Know Thyself

Duo started talking to me again. It was as if nothing had happened. I had woken up before him the next morning and had left to make coffee. He had joined me in the kitchen fifteen minutes later. We bickered a little about his laundry still not done and we didn't mention last night at all.

He was talking to me as though nothing had happened in the nightclub.

He did ask me what Derosia wanted to talk to me about and I told him the truth - I didn't know.

Last night had changed something between us. There was a small amount of strain. Perhaps I was the only one who felt it, being a paranoid person that I am, or maybe the strain was not because of just last night… it was everything that had happened. Our recent fight, me catching him with the blonde bitch - ugh, thinking about it still causes a strange fire to erupt in my heart - everything just causing a strain, a tension considering we still saw too much of each other to be able to think it all out…

Then again, maybe I'm just plain thinking too much.

Two days before we left for L1 to pick Relena, Duo took me to an amusement park.

“You need to relax.” He'd said. I had not wanted to relent, I had too much work to do - going over the mission parameters, looking over the profiles of the previous two agents, and looking over the reports from the police and investigators about the suspects…

And he wanted to go to the amusement park… which was an hour away to boot.

Well, he managed to get me to the car kicking and screaming, minus the kicking and screaming and more of silent glaring and threatening but you get the idea.

The whole ride there, I acted like a jerk. I asked him about the mission so I could make him guilty about going to the amusement park instead of working. His response was a quick, “That's why I have you Hee-chan,” and a flash of the grin and then he asked me if I had ever been on a roller coaster.

I didn't grace him with an answer… but I had never been on one.

In fact, I had never even been in an amusement park. I had seen the huge Ferris wheels, lit with colourful dazzling lights as they lazily turned from the cockpit of my Gundam, right before they had been caught in a blast and the whole place destroyed, but I had never actually been in one.

It turns out I never should trust Duo to do anything right. He brought a picnic basket. It was empty.

Now I will not repeat what gibberish he said trying to defend himself because I didn't listen to any of it, but we ended up filling it up with burgers and fries and sandwiches and cotton candy bought from the park itself.

We ate as soon as we got there. Then we went on the rides.

See how I told you never to trust Duo to do anything right? Well, I had never been on a roller coaster so I did not catch the problem before it presented itself before us. Eating and then going on the coaster can have very uncomfortable results.

I felt sick. Several times.

Duo did too.

In fact we got sick several times side by side as I held onto his braid and he supported me with his arm around my back and we puked. All we left was a big puddle of puke and if you asked me, I would not able to tell you which half was mine and which was his… it was all mixed together… like a disgusting puke medley…

Then we had some more cotton candy.

The haunted house was by far the most nerve-wracking experience I have ever had. Every time a ghost popped out I pulled my gun out. Duo confiscated it after I threatened the third cardboard cutout while reprimanding me for bringing the gun to a public place to begin with.

The lack of a weapon only got me more nervous and when a man dressed as a vampire jumped in front of me and yelled, “boo!” I broke his nose.

Overall, I loved the day. It didn't matter that we had been `politely asked to leave the premises immediately' I still enjoyed it immensely.

Of course I didn't tell Duo that. He, instead, decided to scold me for bringing me a weapon there to begin with and then end up getting into trouble.

I enjoyed that too.

I was so happy and cheerful at the end of the day that I freaked Duo out when I didn't yell at him once for not letting me work… instead I let him pick a movie and sat on the ground near his legs.

I haven't sat on that couch since… well… you know.

We had fallen asleep right there, I don't even know when the movie ended. He fell asleep on the couch, stomach down, face turned towards me mouth hanging open and slight snores escaping him. His hand dangled and his fingers twitched every time they came in contact with my leg.

I was sleeping on the ground, my head propped up by my arm, one leg bent and the other stretched straight. His fingers brushed my stretched out knee and he ended up grabbing my leg in his sleep.

I didn't mind the small area of warmth on my leg either. It felt good. We had been incredibly close all day today… and I absolutely loved it.

I had never felt happier.

I suppose that should have tipped me off. But I was just so happy in my little world with Duo that I didn't even think of it.

I should have known that when something good happens, something bad would happen. When too many good things happen, then your life is going to go to hell very soon.

But I stayed ignorant and blissful.

And I was happy.

“Look what I found Hee-chan! Isn't he the cutest?” Was all the warning I got before he shoved his hand, palm up, in my face and on it was a fairly large black, hairy spider lazily moving its several legs.

I believe this would be the perfect time to disclose a small and insignificant secret about me - I suffer from a very, very mild case of mild arachnophobia.

Did I tell you that it was mild?

I, of course, make sure that no one knows this itsy bitsy detail about myself otherwise if it got out it could be used as a torture tactic.

Not that I am worried about that. As I said, it was a mild case.

Getting back to the moment, I jerked away from his hand and, in my attempt to put as much distance between myself and that hairy monstrosity in as little time as possible, I forgot that I was seated in the uncomfortable chair and working.

So I, as expected, tipped my chair backward and fell hard on my head. But the pain in my head took a back seat as I jumped up and warily watched his eyes widen as he put two and two together.

Remember how I said it was a mild case? Well, it's not that mild.

“You're afraid of spiders.” He stated blankly, his face frozen into a state of shock and disbelief.

“I am uncomfortable with them.” I stated with a glare and made sure my eyes were as narrowed as possible.

Duo, as usual, didn't get the message and his face split into a blinding grin as his eyes sparkled and shimmered with mischief.

“Oh my god! Hee-chan is afraid of spiders!” He exclaimed with glee and did this strange dance where he tried to make sure not to jostle the spider too much while at the same time trying to shake every part of his body to an invisible tune. Sometimes I wonder why nobody's put him away in the loony bin.

“I am not afraid of them! They are merely an inconvenience.”

But my pleas went unheard as he continued his dance of victory and pranced around the living room.

“This is perfect!” He exclaimed again and turned to look at me… that grin must start to hurt by now… “You know why this is perfect? No? That's because this means you're not perfect! If you were perfect then you would know why this is perfect but obviously you don't which means that you're not perfect. Isn't it perfect?”

I don't think even he knows what he just said. I just stared at him blankly.

“I'll tell you why this is perfect! This means that Hee-chan is afraid of something! That means that Hee-chan is not the perfect soldier! Which means that I now hold something over you….” It seemed that he had not made that connection before as his eyes widened even more.

“I know what Heero Perfect Yuy is afraid of. I know something that can make you scream…” He whispered as though talking to himself. I won't lie… he was starting to make me nervous.

“You know what this means Heero? You have to listen to everything I say otherwise I'll let loose this little bugger on your pillow.” He said with a manic gleam. I felt the need to squash that gleam and so I did.

“Think what you will but I am not going to go along with your stupid little schemes just because you have a spider.” I said in a dead monotone and picked up the chair, placing it back in front of the table and resumed working.

I felt, more than saw, his face fall and he dragged himself dejectedly to the living room.

Mission accomplished.

The plane ride to L1 was fairly uneventful except for this one instance when Duo started flirting with the flight attendant and she gave him extra peanuts. Now I don't particularly care for peanuts but Duo must like them more because he ate them with relish and then offered to share the fruits of his labour with me.

I politely declined.

For the next several minutes Duo could not stop making eyes at the lady and, pretty as she was, the whole scene made me sick. Can't that guy go anywhere collecting a fan group? Honestly! What did the girls see in him anyway?

Okay, maybe he has pretty hair. That's a definite asset but that still only means he looks good from the back. Yet all the girls fall for him anyway.

Dating is a complex world. I would like to keep myself out of it.

But the question kept nagging me until I decided to turn and look at the now slumbering Duo to try to find out exactly what the girls found attractive about him.

Was it his personality? He always sounds like a loudmouthed baka to me. But he does have a very warm undertone to his voice. It is deep for sure and has a nice tenor. Maybe it is his voice.

But then again, often he just looks at the women and they fall for him. No talking involved. So it's not his voice.

Then it must be in his looks. Maybe his eyes? They are, I admit, a beautiful violet colour and a very rare shade. I like his eyes the most.

But then again, the hair is unique too. Maybe I like the hair more?

Losing the hair would be a shame… But the eyes are gorgeous.

Okay, mystery solved. The hair and the eyes make him appealing to women.

At this point Duo mumbled something in his sleep and smacked his lips a couple of times.

Hmm… but he has nice lips too. Definitely masculine, they don't look at all like girl's lips while at the same time they were perfectly shaped and plump.

Derosia had girly lips. Duo's were better.

And his lips are surrounded by smile lines, which make his face even softer. I have frown lines… my face looks stern. I don't have smile lines… I don't think I can get smile lines.

You know… Duo has a lot going in the way of looks… I had not realized that before. He had a natural grace that was often hidden by his antics. He has very soft looking features that scream that he is a kind and gentle guy.

If I were a girl I'd fall for him too.

It would have been perfect if he were a girl. Then maybe we could be together…

Hmm… Duo as a girl…

I imagined Duo with breasts and girly lips wondering if I would fall for a girl Duo…

I shuddered. Duo looks better as a guy. No breasts thank you.

But then that means I would have to be a girl to be with him. How can I be with him if I am a guy?

I don't want to be a girl.

But I don't want Duo to be a girl either.

So do I want a relationship with Duo, who is a guy, and I, a guy as well?

Do I really find the guy Duo attractive?

I glanced at Duo to see if I could answer my own question… and yes, he is very attractive….

My breaths started becoming shorter as I panicked.

Okay calm down. You are not in love with your best friend. It's a simple attraction, nothing more. I will get off the plane, take a shower and have coffee. I will then forget I ever had this thought.

But he is attractive.

Do I really want to have a relationship with him?

I stared at his lips again. I remember being disgusted when Janice tried to kiss me… would I feel the same if it was Duo instead?

I imagined him leaning in, his lips brushing across mine and I felt shivers run through my body at the mere idea of it.

There was tingling in my head and I felt warm all over as I imagined him get bolder and kiss me harder. I imagined his mouth opening and him pushing a tongue into my own mouth.

I felt my cheeks and ears light on fire as a strange heat encircled my body and then concentrated between my legs.

I had never felt like this before. It felt powerful and overwhelming and I realized that I had lost control over my thoughts. . That realisation was scary, but at the same time the thoughts felt so right, though that, in and of itself, was also rather terrifying.

I felt his hands on my back and in my hair and he pulled me closer. I felt his tongue slipping and sliding against mine. I felt his hands pull my shirt out and reach inside it to touch my skin.

I felt the heat building stronger and stronger and the area between my legs began to ache.

I tried to figure out my feelings but my daydream continued without any heed.

I saw him slip his hand down the front of my pants and suddenly I threw my head back and felt a moan escape my lips.

I squashed it before it got out fully and the sudden panic snapped me out of my dream.

It turns out I had fallen asleep. And it also turns out that Duo was now awake and had heard that half moan.

“Who were you dreaming about?” He asked me, staring down at me with his intense violet eyes trying to pry my thoughts open.

I tried to get my thoughts coherent but for the first time in my life, it was proving to be difficult. My cheeks were still heated and my erection was straining against my pants. It seemed to have sensed Duo's presence because I was even harder than before.

“N… No one…” I gasped out. My voice was raspy and husky and I got further embarrassed. My breath was still short and shallow. I tried taking a few deep breaths to calm myself down. It seemed to work.

“I don't believe you.” He whispered to me. Then he waved his hand over my cloth-covered erection and gave me a perverted grin, “There's someone you like isn't there?”

“Shut up.” I glared at him and put a pillow on my lap to hide my problem.

He laughed and then returned to sleep.

I stayed awake for the rest of the flight, mortified beyond belief… afraid that I would repeat that whole incident again.

My erection didn't die down until I thought of Janice naked and that only further confirmed it for me.

I was attracted to Duo. Sexually.

A/N: Finally a realization! Now this story can get somewhere.

Now onto the good news. My exams r over and they went excellent so I am not suffering through the usual bout of depression that usually follows exams and so I will be writing like crazy coz for the next two weeks I have absolutely nothing to do!

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Until next time,
Persephone