Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Tell Me Why ❯ Tell Me Why ( Prologue )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Disclaimer: I do not own any Gundam wing characters, they all belong to their respective owners. I don't own BBMAK or "Next Time", either.

Claimer: I did write the song "Tell Me Why" , so it's mine.

Tell me why
a Gundam Wing SongFic
From Relena's POV

//you saw a tear roll down my cheek
I knew what was coming you started to speak
you bid me good-bye, I sobbed, and I cried
while you turned around, and left me behind.//

"Relena, we can't be together..." Heero said.

*This has to be a dream* I thought. *a horrible nightmare. wake up, Relena, Wake up.* I thought.
But it wasn't a dream at all. A warm tear rolled down my cheek, and I wiped it away.

"I love you Heero." I said, in hopes of persuading him not to leave me.
He winced, and looked away.

"Relena, it just can't work. don't try to coax me back, because this time, it won't work."

*But Heero, I love you, I can't lose you...* I thought.

"But why Heero, why can't it work??" I questioned him. He glared at me coldly.

"I am the perfect soldier," He started, but stopped, and began again.
"Good-bye Relena." He quickly turned around, and climbed up into his Gundam.

I watched him, memorizing his every move. I sent him my feelings, praying that somehow he would receive them. * Come back to me Heero, don't leave me...Please....* Streams of tears ran down my face, and I called out his name, but he never faltered as he flew his Gundam out into space, taking my heart along for the ride.

*Goodbye, my Heero. Good-bye, my love.*


//please tell me why, I need to know,
won't you please tell me, why did you go?
the least you can do is tell me the truth,
I have a right to know.//


[one week later]

After Heero left, I stood alone. I stared at the sky, hoping to see Heero's shooting star. it eventually sunk in that he was really gone, and that this time, he wasn't coming back. I went straight home, changed into pajamas, and curled up in my bed. I've been there since, trying to figure out why he left me, when everything had been going so well. Just one day out of the blue, he had called and asked me to go out to where his Gundam was hidden, and then hung up without saying "Good-bye" or "I love you". His voice had been hard and constricted, unlike the Heero I had known lately. I had gone out not knowing what to expect, and came back cold, alone, and empty inside. I sobbed at the memory, clutching the teddy bear he had given to me months ago in my hands.

"Damn you, Heero. why did you leave?" I whispered into the thin air around me.


//all I want to know is why,
why you decided to leave me behind,
why did you take your love away,
was it something I did, something I said?//

[the next day]

I still laid curled in my bed, clutching the small stuffed bear, when there was a knock at my door. I sat up, startled.
"Who is it?" I called out.
"It's Hilde." a familiar voice answered. I looked at the bedroom door hesitantly.
*Should I let her in? maybe she knows something about why Heero left!*

"Come in!" I yelled.

Hilde opened the door a crack, and peeked in. "I brought you some food. I wasn't sure when the last time you ate was." She said.

I smiled warmly at her. Hilde sort of knew what I was going through, except her pilot was only gone on a mission, and we both knew Duo would be coming back to her. she put the plate down on the small table next to my bed, and sat down next to me.

"How are you doing?" she asked.

*horrible.* I thought. " I'm OK, I guess." Is what I actually said. she nodded, and smiled at me.

"Hilde, do you know why Heero left? I mean, has Duo told you anything, or maybe..." I trailed off.

she shook her head. "I'm sorry Relena. I wish I did know something. you know Heero hasn't spoken to anyone at all since he left. The second he calls, the phone will be yours. but right now, the other guys are worried about you. You should come downstairs."

My hopes of her knowing something were slashed. It was back to depression for me. I sighed.

"Maybe later, Hilde. I think I'm gonna take a nap right now." I scrunched down under the covers, and buried my face into a pillow. Hilde got up, and left the room, shutting the door behind her. then something hit me. I was thinking Heero left because there was something wrong with him. Wrong. Maybe there's something wrong with me. I dozed off to sleep, scolding myself for being so dumb and ignorant.

//Did you ever love me so?
if you said that you did, why did you go?//


[3 hours later]

I screamed, and sat up in my bed. my breathing was heavy, and I was sweating. Heero haunts my dreams, giving me nightmares or bringing back memories when I sleep. I had had the most horrible nightmare. Heero and I were standing in the field again, but it was different this time. "I've never loved you," he had said, before pulling out a gun, and shooting three times. there was a knock on the door again, and I heard Quatre say "Relena, Heero is downstairs." I flew out of bed and to the door. I threw it open.

"What?!" I asked. Quatre stood before me, as innocent looking as always.

"Heero is downstairs." He repeated. all of a sudden, a new voice came out of nowhere.

"No I'm not." Heero said. Quatre moved aside, and Heero now stood in front of me.

To Be Continued......Been Continued! go see part two!