Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Hurt That You Caused Me ❯ The Hurt That You Caused Me ( One-Shot )
By: Sefarina Malaika
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the GW. Besides there is absolutly no point in suing me for the simple fact that I have absolutly no money what so ever.
Warning: Shounen ai, yaoi, language
Pairings: 1x2/2x1, 3+4/4+3 later on.
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The Hurt You Caused Me
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Duo walked into his apartment, He had just finished a 12 hour shift along with 4 hours of over time. Kicking his shoes off, he threw his coat on the floor, to be picked up later, and walked to the kitchen. Starting up the coffee maker, Duo sat down at his two seated table. 'I need to take some time off, these 12 hour shifts and overtime are killing me. But I guess that's what happens when you're the best. I wonder how everyone is doing? It's been about 4 years. The only one I've been able to keep in touch with is Trowa. Even with him being in the circus, he was the easiest to keep track of. Quatre moves around to much, I always end up missing him by a say or so. Wufei, well he could be any where's and Heero. Well Heero can shove it.' Having been lost in thought, Duo never noticed the coffee maker going off. "Shit" getting up he started it up again.
It didn't take to long for the coffee to heat up again. Making himself a cup, he made his way to the living room to watch the movie he had rented a few days ago. It was late but he hadn't gotten a chance to watch it yet, so tough for them. Sitting down on the single chair, Duo took the remote and pressed play. Stripping down to his boxers, he settled himself into his double bed and fell asleep almost instantly.
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'5:30 am, I hate this job. I have to have to be there at 7 and it takes over a half hour to drive.' Duo mentally cursed his job as he got dressed for work. Sitting sown at the table he began to eat his bowl of mini-wheat's. Once he was done he placed his dishes in the dishwasher, picked up his coat off the floor, put his shoes on and left to go to work.
Starting up his forest green jeep, he turned up the radio, put it in gear and drove off.
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The first half of work went by pretty fast. He was now in the employee's lounge eating his lunch.
"Hey Duo, this just came for ya." Mike, one of his co-workers said as he handed Duo an envelop.
"Really? Who's it from?"
"Have no idea. One of the other guys gave it to me and said to give it to you. Open it man." Mike urged.
Duo chuckled, "alright, I'll open it." Ripping the envelop and taking out the paper, Duo began to read it out loud. "Duo, I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I'm sorry about what happened between us. I was hopping that we could start over. Please meet me at the Canvours tonight at 8. H" Duo put the letter on the table his face impassive.
"Man oh man, Duo. Who's H?" Mike inquired.
"Some one I used to go out with a long time ago." Duo stood up, "well lunch is over. Gotta go back to work." 'Ya right like I'm gonna get any work done after what Heero just pulled. Ha! That's a laugh.' He mentally added.
"Ya work, heh almost forgot. Later man." Mike called out to Duo.
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After work Duo headed home. He had been debating on whether to go to the Canvours or not. 'ah hell why not. I don't have any plans for tonight anyways.'
When Duo for back to his apartment he did a quick change of clothes. When he left the house he was wearing a pair of black jeans, and a silver button up shirt, tucked in. his hair was in it's usual braid.
As he pulled into the parking lot he almost turned around and went back home. 'why am I here? He was the asshole. You're here to hear what he has to say. now get your ass out of the jeep and march up to those front doors now!'
"I'm going." Duo muttered to himself, stepping out of his jeep, Duo made his way to the front door. When he saw Heero, he really did turn around, but his legs wouldn't carry him back to his vehicle.
"Duo!" Heero's way of saying hello. Walking up to his ex, he placed a hand on Duo's sholder.
"Heero." Duo commented as he casually shrugged off the hand. "you wanted to speak with me?" It was more of a statement then a question.
"Yes, let's go get our table and then we can talk."
"Sure, let's go in."
Heero led the way in the doors of the restaurant. He had made reservations, so they didn't have to wait long for their table to be ready. Only after they were seated and given their menu's did Duo speak, "so, how have you been?"
"Good, you?"
"Me? I've been good as well." Shrugging, Duo opened his menu. Silence fell upon the two ex Gundam pilots. 'you were always the conversationalist weren't you Heero?' Duo shook his head at the thought. "So what was it that you wanted to talk to me about? It must have been real important to get me to come to the Canvours." Duo commented.
"Hn, well I just wanted to see how you were doing. I figured it had been a while since I'd seen you. so here I am." The nervousness in his voice was slightly visible.
Duo began to laugh, he couldn't help it. "Oh Heero, Heero, Heero, you decided, that out of the blue, that after 4 years you would see how I was doing?" he laughed again. "For peat's fucking sakes Heero, what is wrong with you?! Now if you had said that to me a year or two after you left, I would have said, sure it's been a while. But 4 years Heero? Sheesh, what is wrong with you?" Duo shook his head.
Heero opened and closed his mouth a few times but didn't say anything.
"Now, for real, why did you, after 4 years, decide to meet with me?" Duo asked a bit more seriously.
"Duo, I..." Heero started.
"Spit it out already." Duo casually waved his hand.
"I'm sorry." Heero said looking down at his utensils.
"Sorry hey? Well that must be a new addition to your vocabulary or somethin', cause I've never heard it come out of your mouth before. Although not much came out of your mouth back then and it appears that it's still that way." Duo commented. His voice slightly detached.
"Duo..."
"yes well we all know you can say my name, which is a surprise that you remember it, now lets see what other words you've learnt to say." The sarcasm dripped from each word.
"Duo let me finish..."
"Why? Why should I Heero? It's not like you ever listened to me. So I don't see why I should listen to you? hey can you tell me that?" Duo leaned back in his chair and folded his arms across his chest.
"I don't know. Duo I'm really sorry about what happened. I wasn't sure about what I felt for you or anyone else for that matter."
"So? What do you want?"
"I want and would like to start over. I understand my emotions now, as much as it is possible to understand them."
"You want to start over?" He looked at Heero as if he had three heads.
"Yes, I would like to start over. Duo please."
"No"
"Why? Is there...is there..."
Is there some one else?" Heero nodded in confirmation. "no there isn't'. But there has been. And if there's a problem with that, you can shove it, cause I really don't care." Throughout this whole ordeal Duo managed to keep his voice at a minimal. "and let me tell you this, they were a lot nicer as well as gentler for that matter, than you ever were."
"Duo...I'm really sorry. I didn't realize I'd hurt you so much."
"Well fuck Heero, ya know beating the shit out of someone after they tell you that they love you is not the best approach. Telling them to fuck themselves isn't either, but telling them to fuck themselves after you beat the shit out of them and then leaving because they tell you that they love you, well that's just fucking peachy. Don't you thing? You must, because you did it."
"I don't Duo, I'm sorry, I didn't know how to react. It scarred me."
"So what are you going to do, huh? Beat up everything that scares you? or just me?" Duo asked calmly. "I sure as hell wasn't going to wait around for you Heero. I loved you, yes, but I wasn't going to put up with your shit. Don't get me wrong. I still love you. but just because I do doesn't mean I'm willing to put up with the beatings and you leaving every time I say or do something that you don't like." His voice began to crack.
"Duo, I've changed. You have no idea how much it hurt after I left you. I was so afraid of what I had done that I couldn't face you."
"I have no idea huh? Well I think that I do. You weren't the one to confess your love for me. You didn't get the shit beaten out of you and then left on the floor unable to walk or breath for that matter." At Heero's confused and horrified expression, Duo elaborated. "That's right, you broke both of my legs and half of my ribs. I'll tell ya, when I finally got to the phone and called Trowa I could barely breath. When Trowa saw me, it took all my persuading to stop him from going after you and using his gun. Trust me Heero I know how much it hurt, but I do believe I would have rather have had the shit beaten out of me then to have had my heart broken. That hurt a lot more than anything. And here you are asking me to start over? Go fuck yourself." At that Duo got up and headed towards the front doors.
Heero got up to follow, having not ordered anything, he caught up to Duo pretty fast. "Duo, please stop. I'm trying. I realize that I probably deserve this treatment, but please. Just one chance. If I fuck up, I promise I'll leave and you'll never hear or see from me again. I love you. I love you so much that it hurts. Every time I think about what I did to you I start to cry." Duo gave him a speculative look. "Yes the 'perfect soldier' cries, he loves and he feels pain." Heero's eyes filled up with tears. 'After 4 years of not seeing him, what did you expect? For him to come running back to you. you left him on the floor of a living room half dead, and you expected him to open his arms and take you back? Fuck Heero you baka!'
"I can't do this Heero. It hurts to much..."
He got cut off by Heero, who began to speak again. "Duo please, just one chance for me to prove that I've changed and that I love you. please, I truly am sorry."
Sighing, Duo leaned against his jeep. "I'll think about it. I've got to go. I have work tomorrow. Bye." Duo opened his jeep door, started the engine and left Heero standing in the parking lot.
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Heero stood there for a while, the initial shock of the conversation slowly wearing off. "bye." He said to nothing in particular. "Kuso. I totally screwed up. Kuso, Kuso, Kuso. How could I have expected him to let me go back, after what I did." Having walked to the restaurant, Heero called a cab.
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Having parked his jeep, Duo was now sitting in front of a blank TV screen. 'what the hell is his problem?' his line of thought was interrupted by the phone ringing. "hello?"
"Duo, it's Trowa?"
"Trowa? Oh hi."
"what's wrong Duo?"
"huh? Wrong? There's nothing wrong. Why would you think that?"
"well for started you sound like shit." Duo's vid screen came on, " and second you look like shit as well. Now what's wrong?"
"Well shit, nothing gets by you. let's put it this way, I just had dinner, well lack of dinner, with an old friend."
Trowa's eyes narrowed. "Heero?" The harshness in his voice as he spoke the name gave Duo a chill.
"Ya, Heero."
"What did he want?"
"Hahahahaha, you'll never guess." Seeing Trowa's look of puzzlement, Duo continued, "he wanted to start over. He must have apologized at least half a dozen times." Duo began to shake his head. Trowa's one visible eye widened. "he was serious. What should I do man?"
"I don't know. It's up to you. I can't make that decision for you. but what ever it is, I'll support you all the way. How ever if you decide to try it again and he does any thing at all to hurt you, I will not stop myself from repaying the favor a second time. Do you understand that?"
"Yes I do. Thanks man. Hey I'll talk to ya later." Duo waved to the vid screen and hung up. "Well what so I do now?" Duo asked himself. Getting off the couch, he walked to his bedroom. Stripping down to his boxers, he went to bed.
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The next day ar work, on his first break, Duo received another envelope. This one contained an adress and phone number. It read:
"For fuck sakes! Why are you doing this to me?" Duo shouted to no one in particular.
"Are you ok DUo?" Duo jumped at his name, turning around he came face to face with "Mike! Shit man you scared me. Ya I'm ok. Well back to work."
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Two slow agonizing months went by. Duo still hadn't made a decision, he still loved Heero, but he wasn't the type to just accept some one back after they hurt him. "I hate this fucking shit! Why do I always have to be in this possition?" Duo threw the book he had been trying to read accross the room in frustration.
Getting up from the couch, Duo left his appartment to take a walk. He found himself walking in a poorly constructed park. Sitting down on one of the swings he began to contomplate his situation once agian. Slowly he began to swing back and forth.
"Duo!" Turning his head this way and that Duo found himself looking at "Quatre!" Duo jumped off the swing and ran towards his friend.
"Hey Duo. How's it going?"
"Pretty good I guess." He said half heartidly.
"Um...you don't sound to sure about that." Quatre commented.
"That's cause I'm not." Duo shrugged as the two of them walked back towards the swings.
"What's wrong then?"
"oh just some social problems that have to do with a certain asshole that's all."
"Heero." Quatre stated more than asked.
"Yeah. How did you know?"
"Trowa got a hold of me the other day and told me. I'm really sorry for not contacting you. I never got any of your messages. Those that I did just arrived about two weeks ago."
Plastering on his usual grin, Duo looked at his friend. "Heh, don't worry about it man. It's no biggy. So what do you want to do?" Duo asked, changing the subject.
"Well, you could show me your apartment. I never did get to see it."
"Hey sure man, follow me." Duo jumped off of the swing and started walking in the direction of his apartment.
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Duo's apartment...
"This is pretty nice Duo. I didn't know you had such a homey design." Quatre looked around in awe.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Duo asked in mock anger, soon ruined by his laughter.
"Well it's just that I always expected you to have your house all black." Quatre shrugged.
"nope. I got over that after the war. Not that I don't still love the color, but to have a house in black, well my personality is not that gloomy."
Quatre began to laugh, abruptly stopping as soon as he had begun. "Duo, you must be lonely, living alone for so long."
"Lonely? No I haven't been alone since the war." Quatre gave him a speculative look. "What? You think that after Heero left I would stay single? You did, didn't you? Well I'll tell you the same thing I told him, I don't have anyone at the moment but I have, and I was treated a lot better by them."
"I'm sorry Duo, I didn't mean anything by it." Quatre apologized.
"I know. It's ok." Duo finished his 'grand tour' of his apartment in the living room. Making his way to the couch, he sat down and heaved a sigh.
"Duo, Trowa told me about Heero's letter, what are you going to do?"
"I'm not sure Quatre. I still love him but I don't want to go through what I did last time again." Duo sighed, again.
"That's a dilemma isn't it? Well Duo. do what's in you heart but don't ignore you mind."
"Thanks Quatre. I'll do that."
"Well, I hate to cut this meeting short but I've got to get going. What ever you decide I hope you're happy. Oh and here's my personal number. Call some time and we'll hook up and talk again. Ok?"
"Ya sure, thanks man. See ya later. Oh by the way, you and Trowa should meet up again. He missed you." Duo grinned as his friend blushed.
"I'll do that Duo."
Duo walked Quatre to the front door, When Quatre was half way down the road, he closed the door. Walking over to phone, he picked up the piece of paper beside it. "Well Duo my man, you have two choices." he snorted "As if you didn't before. You can call the man that you love and give him one chance, or you can rip this paper up and never see him again. What to do? What to do? Fuck!" Duo picked up the receiver, and dialed the number.
"Hello?" Duo's words got caught in his throat.
"Hello? Is anyone there?" Heero's voice asked impatiently.
"Heero?"
"Yes? Can I help you?"
"It's Duo."
"Duo?! Hi, this is a surprise, I was in the middle of packing. How are you?"
"Heh, heh, hi. I'm doing ok. Listen I've been doing a lot of thinking."
"Thinking? About what?"
"Us."
"Us?"
"Yes, us...um...I'm willing to give you that chance that you were asking for."
"You will? That's fabulous."
"But Heero, I swear if you hurt me in any way, I'll personally go after you and I won't be alone. You hurt me once I won't let it happen again. You got that?"
Yea I understand. Ninmy Kanryou."
"Ok, so are you busy this weekend?"
"No."
"good, you're coming over to my apartment for the weekend."
"Um Duo, where am I going to sleep?"
"Don't worry, I'll figure something out. So I'll see you Friday night at about 8?"
"Ya ok,"
"Well bye."
"Bye."
Duo waited for the click on the other line before he hung up himself. A huge smile was plastered on his face.
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The rest of the week went by pretty fast. Duo got home from work at 7:45 and he was now getting everything ready. Heero showed up tight on the dot at 8. As the doorbell rang, he muttered "always the perfect soldier when it comes to times aren't you Heero? Have you ever been late before?" Duo opened the door and smiled as he met Prussian eyes. "Hi, come on in."
"Hi."
Noticing Heero's bag, Duo pointed to the living room, "you can put your bag in there."
Heero smiled.
"Did you eat yet?" Duo asked as he made his way to the kitchen.
"No," replied Heero as he followed Duo.
"Ok, well I made some taco's. What?" asked Duo when the look of surprise appeared on Heero's features.
"I didn't know you could cook."
"I was always able to cook, Sister Helen taught me how."
"Then why didn't you?"
"Because I never felt like it. So do you want some or not?"
"ok, I'll have some."
Dinner went well, they talked about the times during the war that were less depressing. They talked about the past four years, about what they had been up to, trying of course to avoid the harsher parts. After dinner, Duo began to pick up the dishes, he soon found that he had an assistant. Heero had begun to pick them up as well. They made their way to the living room after placing all the dishes in the dishwasher. Duo popped in the movie Braveheart and flopped himself down on the couch beside Heero. Not liking the distance between the two of them, Duo moved closer to him. To the point where he was almost sitting on Heero's lap. Putting his head on Heero's shoulder, Duo sighed and wrapped his arms around him. Catching on, Heero reciprocated the action and pulled Duo closer.
'This was a great idea,' Duo thought to himself a she leaned against Heero. 'I may have had other lovers, both male and female, but none were ever able to replace the spot that loves Heero. God even after what he did to me I still love him. This was definitely a good idea. I'll have to thank Quatre next time I see him for the great advice. Trowa to.'
They only got through the first part of the movie, when Duo began to yawn. Having worked twelve-hour shifts all week along with some over time and preparing everything was killer on the body.
"Your tired, lets finish the movie tomorrow." Heero proposed.
"Hmmm, alright." Duo agreed as he began to get up, but failed as his legs gave out from underneath him and he found himself sitting in Heero's lap.
"Duo you baka, where's your room?" Heero asked as he picked up his ex-lover.
"Down the hall, to the right." Duo began to nuzzle Heero's shoulder.
Walking down the hall, Heero came to the bedroom, thankfully the door was open. He placed Duo gently on his bed and began to walk away, when two hand shot out and grabbed his arms, "where are you going?" Duo asked as he pulled Heero towards him.
"I'm going to sleep on the couch." He replied plainly.
"Why?"
"well is that not where I'm supposed to sleep?"
"no."
"then why did you tell me to put my stuff in there?"
"Your stuff is on the other side of my bed. I moved it earlier. Now come here and lay down. I've never made anyone sleep on the couch, unless it was me, when I had company. I'm not going to start with the one person that I love." Duo pulled Heero down onto the bed and wrapped his arms around him. "Goo'night Hee-koi."
"Goodnight koibito." Heero wrapped his own warms around Duo and they both soon fell asleep, listening to each others heart beats.
The next morning Heero woke up to an empty bed. Looking around he could see no sign of Duo. Faint music could be heard down the hall. Sitting up, Heero realized that he was still in his jeans and tank top. He made his way down the hall towards the kitchen where the music was being emitted. Walking in, Heero was greeted with the site of Duo dancing and singing around the kitchen while making breakfast to a song that had to do with a 'little black backpack' and not wanting to tango with some one(1).
Duo continued to dance and sing along with the music so he never saw Heero walk up behind him and wrap his arms around his waist. He went stiff for a moment, but soon continued to sway as the song changed to something a bit slower. Heero swayed with his as he began to kiss his neck. Duo shifted slightly so that Heero was no longer kissing his neck but is mouth.
Ending the kiss, Duo looked at Heero and smiled, "Good morning sleepy head."
"Hn, good morning" Heero replied, kissing Duo again. "So are we going to watch the rest of that video that you were falling asleep through?" Heero inquired as he continued to kiss him.
"Hmm, sure, just let me finish breakfast, ok."
"Ok" Heero let go of Duo and went to sit down.
"Get back over here."
"Huh?"
"I said get back over here."
"But..."
"No buts, I said I had to finish breakfast not for you to let go of me. Now get back over here."
Heero nodded in response as he walked back over to his only love. Wrapping his arms around him once again, he sighed in contempt. Duo continued to sway to the music.
After breakfast they moved to the living room to finish watching braveheart…
"Well that was a good movie…although I didn't really understand it." Duo commented.
"Hn, baka, that's because you slept through half of it." Heero joked.
"Oh yeah, that would make sense wouldn't it." Duo began to chuckle.
"Do you have any other movies?" Heero asked as he hugged duo.
"Um…yeah, let's see. I got 'The Patriot', 'The Tenth Kingdom'(2), and 'The Green Mile'."
"Well let's watch 'The Patriot', I've seen 'The Green Mile'. After that we can watch, what is it 'The Tenth Kingdom'."
"Ok." Duo unraveled himself from Heero's arms and walked over to his TV unit, he put in 'The Patriot' and walked back over to where Heero was stationed on the couch. Sitting down, he pushed play on the remote and the movie started.
Three hours later 'The Patriot' finished and Duo's stomach began to growl in unison with Heero's.
"Hungry?" Duo asked as he looked at Heero.
"For many things, but yes I'm hungry." Heero replied while smirking.
"Well someone's developed a sense of humor. Come on I'll make lunch." With that Duo stood up and pulled Heero up with him.
Finishing their lunch, Heero sat at the table and admired his ex, hoping to whatever god that existed if one at all did, soon to be lover.
"What?" Duo question brought Heero out of his trance.
"Nothing, just admiring true beauty, that's all." Duo fought to keep the blush down that was quickly rising.
Clearing his throat, Duo began, "well what do you want to do? We can watch that other movie or go for a walk?" he suggested.
"Let's go for a walk. It's such a nice day. Besides, we can watch the other movie later on." Heero pointed out.
"A walk it is then." Duo got up and walked to the apartment door, Heero followed right behind him.
They ended up in the same park where Duo had met up with Quatre a few days prior, sitting on the swings. They sat there in a comfortable silence for a while, neither one wanting it to end.
"Heero?" duo asked, finally breaking it.
"Hn?"
"Where are you going to go after tomorrow?"
"I don't know. Probably stick around town for a while, then go wandering around again."
"Oh."
"Why do you ask?"
"Well, I...I was just wondering...that...if you wanted of course...maybe you would want to stay here...with me." Duo said. Heero gave him a speculative look.
"You want me to stay in the park?" he smirk as Duo sputtered.
"Wha? No…I meant do you want to move in with me?"
"Are you sure?" Total seriousness took over Heero's features.
"Yes...I'm sure...I mean...why wouldn't I be?"
"Ok…we would have to go to the hotel that I'm staying at to get my stuff." Heero pointed out as he stood up off of the swing that he had been sitting on. Turing to face duo he extend his hand to the braided boy, "Come on it's not far from here."
"Not far from here huh?" Duo grinned. "Have you been spying on me Heero Yuy?" Duo playfully poked Heero in the side.
"No I haven't'. I like coming to the park once in a while to just sir and think, and trust me I've been doing a lot of that lately." Heero chuckled to himself softly. Thinking back on all the times he spent on that swing during the past three months. It had all started on that swing. That' where he had decided to send Duo that fist note. And it was also where he spent most of his time afterwards.
They were now back at Duo's apartment. It hadn't taken very long to get all of Heero's stuff moved in. He didn't have that much in the first place. Duo made room in his drawers for Heero's clothes as Heero unpacked then. Having finished taking them out of his suitcase, he walked up to Duo from behind and wrapped his arms around him.
"I've missed you." He began to nuzzle Duo's neck.
"I've missed you too." Duo replied as he arched his neck to give Heero better access.
"I love you so much. It just took me forever to realize it. I'm sorry for what I did to you four years ago. No one deserved that, especially you." The whole time Heero said this he continued to assault Duo's neck.
"You're forgiven." Duo said simply.
Turning Duo to face him Heero found a new target, his mouth.
"Heero," Duo began between kisses. "Are we going to watch that movie?"
"Only if you want to. I don't care as long as you're beside me."
"Ok, well we can always rent it again."
Once he finished saying this, Duo pushed Heero onto the bed.
Needless to say the neighboring apartments were able to extend their swearing along with their moaning vocabulary.
~OWARI~
Note:
(1) The song is called 'Little Black Backpack and it is sung by Stroke 9...great band.
(2) The movie 'The Tenth Kingdom' for those who have never heard of it is fabulous. It's more or less all fairy tails put into one story about a girl who is a descendant from snow white. It's about 7 hours long, but worth watching.