Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Meaning of Alone ❯ Chapter Two ( Chapter 2 )

Title: The Meaning of Alone : Chapter Two

Author: Datiye

Disclaimer: Not mine. Don't sue.

Warnings: See Chapter One

Authors Notes: See bottom.

*Duo's POV*

The hospital room was dark. The nurse had turned off the lights when she left so that he could sleep. The room was so silent. He could distantly hear the nurses having a conversation down the hall. He couldn't quite make out the words but he knew who they were talking about. His eyes idly scanned the room. No windows, no TV, no radio. Nothing to do but lie there and stare. Or to think.

His mind wandered to the last words that Heero had said to him.

//"But I never told you that I love you."//

Duo closed his eyes. Why did he say that? He couldn't have possibly meant it. Heero didn't love him. Heero hated him. He made it clear every day. He made it clear tonight.

// "Dammit Duo. Only you could put yourself into this kind of situation." "You're a fucking alcoholic." "-if you weren't too busy getting wasted and acting like a slut-" //

Duo took a deep breath. He had to try and look at this on a deeper level. Right now Heero was in the ER and no one knew if he would live or die. It was because Heero had let him shoot. Why did he do that? Did he really think Duo was too weak to shoot or was it something else?

// "Leave you alone? Why? So you can go and get yourself killed like you almost already did? No Dou. I won't leave you alone."//

Wait. Stop. Backtrack. Now that he was not freaking out anymore he was noticing some stuff about tonight that he didn't before. His voice had been different. More strained. And if you thought carefully about what he was saying, up until the point when he told Duo to shoot him,. It was almost like he was trying to force Duo to understand. Like he wanted Duo to see how much he was hurting himself.

Duo decided to delve further back to see if he could find any other evidence that Heero might care for him. Just a tiny thread of hope that he could hold onto.

// Duo sat in the bathtub with his head on his knees. He stared into the red tinted water. He winced when Heero ran a soapy sponge over the cuts on his back. Heero gently cleansed and rinsed all the cuts and then proceeded to wash the blood and dirt from the rest of Duo's body.

"You fucking idiot. Why would you let him do that to you? Why do you act like such a slut? Your just asking for that sort of thing to happen. You just let a guy do whatever he wants to you, don't you?"

Dou hugged himself tighter and shivered in the cooling water. Heero grabbed a towel and wrapped it around Duo, lifting him form the tub. "Come on. Before you get sick." He led Duo into the hotel room and sat him on the bed. He took fresh clothes out of the backpack he had brought with him and started dressing Duo. "We have to hurry if you want to get back in the house without the others noticing. I hope you weren't stupid enough to let him do anything that will impair your walking."

Duo winced when Heero had him stand and walk a few steps. He tried his best to hide it but Heero noticed everything. Heero cursed and lifted Duo up into his arms and walked out of the room. "Why do you always fucking do this! Now I have to carry you ass all the way back. I hope we get back in time I don't wan to make up another fucking story about another fucking mission that never happened to explain your fucking injuries. I should just leave you here and let someone else deal with you." But he didn't. He carried Duo back to the safe house, not another word said.//

Duo blinked in confusion. No matter what he was saying while he was helping him Heero was always very gentle. He never noticed it before because he was concentrating too much on the words. But even the words showed concern. It just seemed like Heero didn't know how to express it.

Duo rolled over and stared up at the ceiling. So Heero did care about him. And now it might be too late. Because he shot him. Point blank, right in the chest.

TBC

Notes: First of all, thank you to all of my reviewers. Oh and thanks for helping me make a decision. The fate of Heero has been decided. You'll find out next chapter (if you haven't figured it out already). Sorry this chapter is so short. I already have the next two chapters written I just have to type them. Oh and sorry I took so long. There might be gaps between updates `cause I'm working on two new websites and that's taking a lot of my time. I'll try to update as often as possible. Please review. Any input you have helps me a great deal.