Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ To See You Again ❯ Duo Exposed ( Chapter 6 )

`Okay, I will tell you, although you might not want to stay with me when I'm through' Duo had said. What did that mean? I wasn't about to guess what it meant, and calmly waited for Duo to start. He looked down at his mug then looked up at me, trying to search my eyes with his own, seemingly trying to find something in them. I just stared back, my eyes locked on his beautiful violet ones; he eased up and blinked, then sighed and gave me a determined look.

"Heero, what I want to tell you is a private matter and I want you to swear to me, that you will never tell anyone. I am trusting you to keep this to yourself, but if you ever have to talk, come to me or Trowa or Quatre, they are the only ones I trust completely. Please swear that you won't tell anyone." His voice was lowered and his eyes pleaded with mine to make me understand that this was very important to him. How could I not promise him?

"I promise you Duo, I won't tell a soul other than the ones you would allow me to. You have my word." I reached across the table and put my hand on top of his. He smiled faintly, and then began.

"The reason I am telling you this is because I like you. I feel drawn to you some how and know that I can trust you. I don't really understand why. Maybe it's fate dealing me another curb in my life, but I don't mind as long as you hear me out and let me explain myself. I don't want to find out that you only like me because of the way I look or because I am the club dancer that you had a great time with. Although I'm glad you did and would love another dance any time you decide to drop by. I want you to see the real me, not the face in the club, or on the street but the real Duo Maxwell that Quatre and Trowa see. There's something about you Heero and I want to find out more, but just so I get things straight between us. I am not looking for a slam-bam-thank-you-man sort of relationship, in fact I would rather start out as friends first and go from there."

"I want to be friends with you too Duo and I understand what you mean. I want to know more about you, as much as you are willing to tell me. I will tell you about myself too of course, but what is it that you need to tell me before we even begin? I already consider you as a friend and I'll keep your secrets, I promise you." I tried to reassure him and he smiled faintly at me, but I could see the determination in his eyes.

"I want to tell you about my last relationship Heero, why I am so wary of starting one again and how I want you to, no, make you understand me. I won't tell you his name, cause frankly it hurts too much and it brings back all the nightmares I had to face, which is why I don't like to sleep a lot. If I don't sleep to deeply, I can wake up from them before they hurt me too much to bear, but I want to tell you anyway okay?"

"Okay, Duo. Tell me everything you want me to know." I told him softly. He took a deep breath and in a low voice so only I could hear he began to tell me of his nightmare of a relationship.

"About six months ago, I was involved in a relationship with this guy that I met at a party, my friend Sally was throwing. We got along great the first thing and continued to keep in touch after the party was over and would meet for lunch almost every day, with or without Tro and Quat. We always had something to discuss, whether it was the weather or our jobs. It didn't really matter to us, as long as we were together. I felt like I could tell him anything and trusted him almost as much as I did my closest friends.

"Then one day he asked me out and went to dinner at this French restaurant downtown. It was beautifully decorated and had pictures of the different places you could visit in France. The food was really good too and we had a wonderful time. He asked me if we could go out more often as a couple, he wanted me to be his boyfriend, and I enthusiastically agreed to become it.

"I began spending more time with him every day, when we both didn't have to work or he had the afternoon off and we went to lunch together. We would spend time at each other's apartments making out and enjoying each other's company. How naïve of me to think that he would want to stop there."

Duo stopped for a moment and looked around to see if anyone had come near us since he began to tell his story. No one did, and Carol didn't come back to see if we needed anything. Something told me she knew she should stay away from us for a while. I was grateful for it. I didn't want Duo to clam up again, and after taking another deep breath and locking eyes with me he began again.

"One night after he got home from work, I surprised him and showed up on his doorstep. I just wanted to see him and talk to him like we usually did, but he…he seemed to have something else in mind. He told me that he thought it was time to complete our relationship, that we should fulfill it utterly. I had no idea what he meant by that, so I agreed that we should commit fully to it in whatever way we could.

"He seemed thrilled at the idea and then proceeded to undress me where I stood. We had fooled around a little, you know? Grinding, jerking each other off, giving each other blow jobs that sort of thing, but he was always a little rough and was more into getting the most pleasure out of the experience then giving it back. I didn't really mind at first because I loved him and thought maybe it was supposed to be like that. One of us had to be more aggressive than the other, but as time went on, he became rougher and rougher and it wasn't about us anymore. It was all about him and his needs.

"He took off all my clothes and told me to kneel on the floor on my hands and knees. I didn't understand why he wanted me like that, but then soon found out.

"He came up behind me a told me to relax, said that I would feel even more complete after we had a little `fun.' I tried to relax but found that I couldn't do it. I had no idea what he was doing behind me and then I felt him. He pushed his way into my ass and I felt like he had split me in half. I sobbed helplessly into the carpet, it hurt so bad, I started to beg him to stop, to pull out of me the pain was too much.

"But not even my pleas stopped him, he just kept thrusting in harder and harder, trying to find the most erotic feeling he could by taking me and not even caring that I was in agony. I finally felt him shudder and felt a warm liquid splash inside of me. He finally pulled out of me and rolled to the floor, fast asleep. All I could do was look down at him and feel anger and sadness overwhelm me. I had to get out of there while I could, before he could wake up and take me again.

I saw a shudder pass through Duo's body. How could his boyfriend do that to him? What kind of monster was he? I felt tears well up in my eyes, but I refused to let them escape and let Duo see them. My heart clenched in my chest and told me I needed to comfort this young man that sat in front of me. I rubbed the back of his hand lightly, trying to soothe him, it wasn't much but the tremor that passed through his body died down a bit and he continued.

"I could feel blood running down my legs from my rectum and it hurt to walk but I managed to do it. I quickly put on my clothes and walked as fast as my legs could carry me, all the way to my apartment. I got home and locked the door and barricaded it with the coffee table as extra protection, then ran to the bathroom and took a shower.

"The warm water burned me but I needed to feel clean, to be pure again but that just wouldn't happen. I felt stained, broken, and dirty. I realized he had raped me, used me like I was nothing but a play toy for him to take and make himself feel good with. The one person I loved had raped me and I couldn't believe it. I didn't want to believe it, but the blood that seeped down the drain with the water proved the horrible truth.

"I cried the entire night, my backside throbbing, afraid to go to sleep, afraid of going outside, afraid that he would come to my apartment and find me and take me again. I didn't want to see him, but I knew sooner or later he would come to get me. I called Quatre and told him, what he had done; he said that he and Trowa were coming over to help me.

"I heard a knock on the door a little bit later and got up to let Quatre in. Only then I looked out to see `him' waiting for me to come and unlock the door. I ran back to the couch and collapsed onto it. I wouldn't open the door. I wouldn't do it, after seeing his face through the peek hole, all the horrors of what he had done to me the night before made me cringe into a little ball on the couch. I heard him outside pounding on the door and demanding I let him in. I stayed quiet hoping he would just go away, and Quatre would be here soon, but my wish wasn't going to be granted.

"I suddenly heard the door unlock and much to my horror and belated realization that I had a spare key outside my door on top of the door frame was found by him. My fear escalated to an all out panic and I couldn't stop the tears form escaping my eyes. He pushed the door open, shoved the coffee table to the side and looked at me, with this evil smirk on his face. I was frozen where I sat and the only thing I thought of at that moment was Quatre. How I wanted him to be here and just keep me safe, and make him go away. I had never been so terrified in my entire life.

"He got closer to me a split second later and grabbed me. I screamed and struggled but he overpowered me and I was frantic, he hit me to shut me up but I just couldn't stop. I begged him to stop and just go away as he ripped off my clothes and unzipped his fly, he rolled me over and I stilled as I felt him enter me again. He quickly started to pound into me, the only sound that escaped me, were whimpers of pain that emerged from my throat. I shut my eyes tightly though the tears kept coming and escaping down my face. I fisted my hands in the couch cushions' trying to detach my mind from what was happening to me again, wishing that Quatre and Trowa were here and would save me.

"Suddenly the pounding stopped and the weight was off of me. I stayed still and listened, I could hear a crunching sound and then something heavy landing on the floor. I felt hands grab me then and I whimpered more fearing it was him coming back to finish it, but it was Quatre. He wrapped me in his arms and I hushed my whimpers and then covered me with the blanket that was lying on the back of the couch. He cuddled me to his chest, wrapping his arms around me, saying that `he' would never come near me again as long as he could stop him.

"I finally looked down at the floor and saw him sprawled there unconscious, with Trowa next to him, ready to hit him again if it was necessary. I just latched on to Quatre and he let me hold him, let me empty all my tears that I hadn't shed earlier in the crook of his warm neck, while gently stroking my back and my hair. I felt safe in his arms, I didn't let go even when he picked me up and put me in bed. I kept a tight hold of his neck and didn't want to lose the sense of safety he made me feel for the life of me. I would rather die first then give up what he offered me. He let me hold him and cry on his shoulder until I had nothing left.

"He slept with me that night, locking his arms around me and holding me close, giving me comfort and security from everything around me. Surprisingly I did sleep, knowing the Quatre and Trowa were here to protect me. Trowa left with my ex-boyfriend after Quatre took me to my room. He told the cops what my ex had done and they put him in jail, but said I would have to bring charges against him if I wanted him to stay behind bars. I did and he has been in the state penitentiary since then.

"I still feel damaged Heero, for what he did to me, but I didn't let it stop me from living. Sure I admit it did for a while. I was too scared to do or go anywhere by myself. I am just thankful that Quatre and Trowa care for me so much. One of them stayed with me at all times so I would have someone to lean on if I needed to. I am lucky to have them. Now you know something about me Heero, other than what you've seen. Are you sure you want to waste your time on me as tainted and torn as I am? I am giving you the chance to walk away Heero, if you don't want to have any part of me now that you know, walk away." He pleaded at me with his eyes, but all I felt were tears welling up in mine threatening to escape.

"No Duo, I won't walk away, not even with what you just told me. I like you too much and am too drawn into you to just end it before we even started. I feel connected to you and I don't want it to stop. I want to be your friend Duo, more than a friend if you'll let me. I can only offer myself to you and what I feel for you is genuine. I want to be by your side and you can't scare me away before we even try. "

Duo stared at me in disbelief. It was as if he hoped that by telling me about his past, he could scare me away, like he was testing me to see if I was for real. There was no chance of that happening. I felt this enormous amount of protectiveness consume me. I wanted to protect Duo, be there for him forever, right then and there. I looked over at him and I could see confusion written in his eyes. It was like he expected me to be disgusted and just brush him off without a second thought, but I was going to prove him wrong.

"Duo, just because you told me of your dark past, you think I am going to leave? Everyone has something dark and dreadful in their past that they don't want anyone to know about, even me. I am willing to tell you about mine since you told me about yours. If you are willing to hear it?" He didn't answer just simply stared at me. I stood then and got out of my side of the booth then slid into his and sat right next to him. He blinked in surprise and in …fear? "Don't be afraid of me Duo I'm not going to hurt you."

He didn't relax, but stayed stock-still and looked at me. I reached out my hand and caressed his face with the back of my knuckles. His eyes drifted close and he tilted his head a little bit. I continued to caress his cheek then began to tell him what he so desperately needed to understand.

"Someone as beautiful as you shouldn't have been put through something like that. I like you Duo Maxwell and I want to show you that I will never be like the one, who took your innocence away. I want to show you how beautiful you really are and I want you to go on that trip with me, if you really want to come. The offer is still open and I won't retract it as long as you might still be interested. I want to show you everything I am and what I have to offer to you. I am not in any hurry to do anything but be friend and I hope you accept that for now."

Duo opened his eyes and gave me a hard look, trying to see if I was bluffing, I bet, but I wasn't.

"How about I meet you at the club tomorrow afternoon and take you out to lunch? I will tell you everything you want to know about me and if that isn't enough, I'll have my best friend tell you as well if need be. I'm sure you'd be rolling on the floor after he was done. What do you say?" My hand still caressing his cheek, I could see him weigh the possibilities in his mind, hopefully it was a good one.

"Alright, but you can meet me at my apartment instead of the club, it saves me from driving. Where will you be taking me? I want to dress appropriately and not have people stare at me the whole time." I snickered at that, not that I could blame him.

"Have you ever been to a Japanese restaurant?"

"No I haven't, but I heard the food is really good. Mostly, I've eaten Chinese but never Japanese. I really don't know the difference, to tell you the truth." He admitted.

"Then I'll take you to The Kyoto, a fine dining restaurant that has very tasty food. I'll explain all about the differences of being Chinese or Japanese cuisines while we are there. Just dress nicely, some dress pants and a comfortable shirt, nothing too fancy."

"You really mean that you want to take me out? You aren't just pulling my leg are you?" He questioned, teasing me lightly to restore a light mood once more.

"Of course not. I mean what I say and I will pick you up at noon. That should be enough time I think. Do you want me to drive you home now or do you want to finish your coffee and then go?" I asked.

"Let's finish the pot and then we can go home." He said and poured himself another cup. I stayed sitting next to him and brought my own cup over to me and poured another cup. We began discussing the differences between Chinese and Japanese customs and how we would have to leave our shoes in a holding area while we ate at the restaurant. Duo wanting to know if they ever stole the people shoes if someone couldn't pay the bill. I had to laugh and admitted I never had that problem before. We talked and talked until the pot of coffee was empty. Duo paid for it, saying that since I was taking him out tomorrow so he might as well foot the bill tonight. I let him, and then we went outside to my car.

"So where do you live?" I asked a started up the car.

"Go out of the parking lot and make a right going back the way we came. At the next stop sign make a left and go down to Sassy Street. My apartment is the small white building on the right, four buildings in from the corner." He told me and I followed all his directions and found it in a couple of minutes.

The building looked well kept and clean enough. I could see a Jeep parked next to the building and assumed it must be Duo's since he said he had one.

"Which apartment is yours?"

"I'm on the second floor door number 02, you'll see when you pick me up tomorrow unless you want me to meet you outside?" He asked timidly.

"No. I'll meet you at your door so it's official." He gave me a small smile.

I realized the trust he had in me by telling me where he lived. I felt honored to say the least, after what he told me about the last `person' who he showed where he lived. I pulled over to the sidewalk and he got out.

"Thanks for driving me home and getting coffee with me." His smile still planted on his face.

"No thanks are necessary, I had a nice time with you and I'll pick you up tomorrow at noon ok?"

"Okay. I wouldn't miss it. Goodnight Heero."

"Goodnight Duo, pleasant dreams and I'll see you tomorrow." I waved at him then turned back onto the road. He waved at my car then turned and went into his apartment.

I felt as if I would burst with happiness that I would see him again. I didn't know if I could even go to sleep I was so happy. I arrived at my apartment and got undressed until I was only in my boxers. I brushed my teeth then lay down on my bed. Sinking into the soft welcoming comfort, I tried to relax and did somewhat. My mind still reeling on that lovely man who I would see at noon tomorrow, I couldn't wait. My eyes started to flutter closed as the comfy bed was putting me to sleep and the last thought on my mind was, those beautiful violet eyes staring at me.

TBC….

Not quite so cliffhangery this time, but now I have to write about their date. I was almost crying when I wrote this, did I make you cry too? Review please and then I can get the next chapter up, as soon as I write it. ^_^