Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ To See You Again ❯ Hope is Necessity ( Chapter 10 )

Chapter 10: Hope is Necessity

A/N: This chapter is dedicated to Kenji Katan and Camillian who reviewed and mentioned what happened to Wufei and Zechs? There is a mention of them in this chapter. Thanks to everyone who reviewed the more reviews I get the faster I update. ^_~

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The movie had ended and as I looked down, I saw that Duo had fallen asleep. `He must still be tired from all those tears he'd shed.' I thought to myself and gently shifted him in my arms, cradling him against my chest. I picked him up and took him to my bedroom and placed him on top of the covers. He didn't have a shirt on, but neither did I. I went over to my linen closet and got out a soft sheet and gently placed it over his sleeping form.

He looked so fragile to me. I wanted to know why he came in on me like he had. What did he want to ask me? Whatever it was it could wait until he woke up. He needed to rest at the moment and I wanted him to be comfortable for the moment and not think about what he had done more than an hour ago.

In my mind, I still saw that perfect body he had and my desire to keep him safe grew stronger. He was the most beautiful person I had ever seen. Sure I had dated a few men and each of them were good looking in their own way, but I couldn't seem to get close to them like I had Duo.

Duo whether he realized it or not, had turned my life upside down. I had never felt this strongly about anyone or anything in my entire life. I had never loved anything or anyone, as I did Duo and his willingness for me to be near him, touched me deeply. I couldn't help but want to keep him near me at all times, but I knew that was a fantasy.

Tomorrow I had to return to Zero and I wouldn't be able to see him until later at night, if he wanted to see me as well. I hoped that he hadn't changed his mind, but I really didn't know. I wanted him to go on that trip with me.

The trip! I had to ask Margo if I could take that week off. I knew I had vacation days stored up, especially since I hardly ever went on a vacation. Angela teased me last year when she went on hers and came back to see me still at my desk. She told me that I had to loosen up or I would get old to quickly for her taste. I smirked to myself as I looked over at Duo once more before leaving the room. Angela found out that day that I was gay and I told her I doubted her taste was in dating gay men. The shocked look on her face had been priceless and we still teased each other about it from time to time.

I walked over and turned off the TV and VCR. I didn't feel like doing anything but watching Duo as he slept, but knew that was probably a bad idea if he woke up to find me looking at him. If he did, it would probably scare him enough to have a heart attack or make him think that I had been lying to him all along and wanted him for sex like he thought I would.

My thoughts turned to what he did in my room. He had told me that he would strip for us to be even and then he kneeled on the bed waiting for me. That had horrified me the moment I realized what he was doing, but another thought panged in my head. If Duo had been raped wouldn't he want to have stay as far away from the prospect of having sex? He also told me that everyone he had ever dated wanted him for his body. I could see why, but still, it nagged at me.

I had wanted to ask Duo to tell me more but another part of my mind argued that it was probably better if Duo told me on his own time, rather than interrogate him. Yes, that was the right thing to do. I would let Duo decide when he would tell me more about himself. We just met after all. I couldn't and shouldn't expect him to bare his soul to me the first thing. I never did with any of my past boyfriends, so why should I expect this time to be different?

`Because you want it to be different,' my mind said and it was right. I did want this time to be different. I had never felt so whole in my entire existence, as I did when Duo was in my arms. I wanted it to last and never end. I wanted Duo to be the other half of my soul and be my lover for the rest of my life.

`Brrrrrrriiiiiiiiinnnnnngggggggg' I jumped startled from my thoughts. That was the phone, duh. Why should I be afraid of a phone? I quickly walked over to the phone and picked it up before it could ring again and wake up Duo. Who would be calling me?

"Hello."

"Heero, it's Wufei. How are you?" Wufei, I should have known. I smile etched on my face at his voice, he sounded happy.

"I'm doing well, better than that actually. How are you?"

"I'm in love, Heero. You know that guy I met at the club?" Well that was a different answer, one that I hadn't been expecting.

"Yeah Zechs, you and him were having a heavy make out session when I left with Duo. So what about him?" I teased.

"He's my new lover. Gods, Heero, the guy is so caring and sweet but also so loving. After you left us, we left the club and went to my apartment and we made love for hours. His touches were driving me crazy, it felt as if fire was burning my skin wherever he touched me and left a permanent mark on me. I was so exhausted after we were through, but he just held me for hours until he had to go to work. But, I've never felt this way about anyone. You know about all my relationships Heero, I really think this one will work out."

"For your sake I hope it does. You sound so happy. So when are you seeing him again?"

"We are supposed to see each other tonight again and go out for dinner, but I want to come and hang out with you first. I'm outside your apartment. Can you come down and let me in?"

I felt the blood drain out of my face. Wufei was outside waiting for me to let him in, but Duo was here and how would he react if he saw Wufei? He must have seen him at the club, since I was sitting with him after all. This revelation made me feel better, until I heard Wufei's panicked voice on the phone.

"Heero? What's the matter? Answer me damn it!" His angry voice just made me smirk.

"I'm here. Stop yelling, I'll be down in a minute." I hung up the phone and grabbed my keys that were on the coffee table. I quickly went into my room to see if Duo was still sleeping. He was. I grabbed my shirt off the floor, putting it on as I left and softly shut the door. Wufei was waiting for me.

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"It's about time Heero. What took you so long?" Wufei had a scowl on his face but it was quickly replaced by a smile and he came and hugged me. I returned the embrace. It was one thing that always surprised me about Wufei. He may seem prideful and self-righteous most of the time, but he was also very compassionate and loyal to his friends. He was always willing to go with me anywhere if I needed him and I always returned the favor when it arose.

Pulling back, I noticed his bright onyx eyes looking at me in wonder. I smirked at him and then remembered what I had to tell him. I led him inside since it seemed that storm clouds had covered the sun and it looked as if it were about it rain any second. I led him up stairs and then when we got to my floor, I turned to him.

"Wufei, before we go into my apartment I have to tell you something."

"Okay so tell me what it is. You look so conflicted, Heero. Your face looks like it is raging a war inside your head. What's going on?" I took a breath and looked at him seriously. I had to make him understand.

"The night we went to the club, I met someone, the club dancer and it went more than just dancing and winning the prize. I got to know him, like him, and…love him. He's in the apartment right now as we speak, that's why I stopped taking on the phone so suddenly on you. I didn't want him to hear you or me talking, but I want to talk to you now. I don't think Duo will wake up while we talk but if he does let me handle him. He might freak when he sees you, ok?" I gave him a stern look.

"Wow, Heero, you really have fallen hard haven't you? Just like Zechs and me. So did you suck him off like some of the other guys you dated? Or let him give you a hand job? How many times did you drive him into the mattress?" He smirked at me and I just shook my head.

"None."

"What?" Wufei looked at me incredulously.

"I said none. We didn't give each other hand jobs, or blowjobs, or have sex. The only thing we have done is go out on two dates and I stayed with him last night, but nothing happened. We just slept, that's it and now he's taking a nap in my bed." I told him truthfully.

"You're still unwilling to sleep with anyone aren't you? But I can see your point; you want to make sure this is `the one' as you put it. I don't have that kind of self-control at least not when Zechs is around." He laughed a little and I allowed my mouth to twitch a little bit. "Well now that I know he's in there, can I still come in? I promise I won't touch him. He's yours and besides, Zechs is very possessive of me."

"Okay, you can come in." We walked over to my apartment and I let him in. There wasn't any sign of Duo so he must still be sleeping. I led Wufei over to the couch and gave him a look. He just glared at me, and then his eyes softened. "So how is Zechs possessive of you? I want to know." I kept my voice down so I wouldn't wake Duo and Wufei noticed, so he did the same.

"We went to eat Chinese yesterday, and stop that smirk I know is going to erupt on your face. I do love and enjoy my heritage, Yuy."

I tried to keep a straight face but it wasn't working, so Wufei just rolled his eyes at me, sighed and continued.

"As I was saying, Zechs and I went out for Chinese last night, at this little restaurant that you and I used to go to all the time, The Red Dragon, remember?" I nodded. It was one of my favorite restaurants to go with Wufei, since we both loved our heritage and would go out to eat whenever we could. "So any way, we were sitting at our table and the waiter who wasn't bad looking, started to ask us what we wanted him to prepare for us. I told him that we wanted the pork stir-fry, vegetable rolls and wonton soup. He kept staring at me and I felt like an animal in a cage. Zechs must have noticed because he stood up and went over to the waiter and told him he better keep his eyes to himself because if he didn't stop staring at what wasn't his, the waiter would find himself blind."

I laughed at that. It did sound as though Zechs was possessive.

"So what happened after that?"

"Oh we got another waiter, this time a girl came and served our food after cooking it in front of us. But when we went back to my apartment, Zechs and I had mind-blowing sex and he asked me to tell him I was his. He kept telling me, that no one else should touch me the way he did, or lust after me unless they wanted to find themselves an early grave. I told him not to worry about it. After all, I had no intention of running off with strange men while I was with him. So I think you're safe, Yuy. Unless you want me to change your mind about having sex with a certain someone or have finally come to the conclusion that you're still in love with me."

"Get over yourself Chang, you're not my type."

He then tackled me to the floor and straddled me. I yelped in surprise, forgetting that Duo was sleeping in my room at the moment. We started to wrestle as we sometimes did, even though we were both in our twenties. We never grew tired of it. I finally managed to get Wufei off of me when I flipped him over with my legs. I lay there on the floor and started to laugh and soon Wufei joined in.

"Thanks Wufei I needed that. We haven't done that in a long time." It was always fun to be with Wufei. We had always gotten along and even when we didn't, we knew that we could always come back and make up. We were best friends after all.

I heard a gasp and turned my head towards the sound. There in the hallway, stood Duo, still without his shirt on staring at me on the floor. What I sight I must have made for him, with my clothes rumpled from wrestling with Wufei, who was leaning against the door in the same state as I was. His face tinged pink from our playing around. Duo took in my appearance then looked over at Wufei, who looked the same and something dawned on Duo's face. Something I didn't like at all. His eyes darted back and forth from me to Wufei and then I got up.

That was the wrong thing to do.

Duo backed up as I kept getting closer and closer to him, in order to hold him and try to explain. I got closer and then Duo backed up into the wall. He panicked and tears started gushing from his eyes, deep sobs started wracking his thin body. I grabbed his arms, and he looked terrified as if I was going to do something to him.

"Please Heero, let me go. I want to leave, please let me go. Don't rape me please." He looked at Wufei and Wufei's eyes went wide and he stared at Duo. I turned back to Duo and his body started to shake uncontrollably. "I beg you, just let me go. I don't want him to hurt me, please let go of me. Heero, why did you bring someone here? I thought you said you loved me. Why did you bring someone to rape me again? What did I do wrong? You can take me. I want you to take me, but not someone else. Please don't do this! Don't do this! Don't do this to me! I love you Heero! Please don't do this to me! " He continued to speak, but it was so garbled from the tears that I couldn't understand him.

He thought that I had brought Wufei here to rape him? Why would he think that? Well, I speculated why he would think that, but he didn't even let me explain why Wufei was here. I had to get him away from Wufei so I could explain. I turned to look at Wufei, who was still staring at Duo and abject horror was written on his face, and sadness as well.

"Wufei, I'll be right back. I have to talk to Duo." Wufei nodded once in understanding and I pulled Duo to me and picked him up, taking him back to my bedroom. I kicked the door shut and then placed Duo on the bed then went to lock the door to my room.

Turning back to Duo, I couldn't help but feel tears threaten to spill from my own eyes. I approached Duo and kneeled before him on the floor. Taking his hand in mine and stroking it with my thumb he looked at our hands then turn his gaze to me, searching my eyes to see what was going on.

"Duo, that was Wufei in the living room just now. He's my best friend just like Quatre and Trowa are your best friends he is mine. He came over to tell me about his new boyfriend, Zechs. They were at your club the night we met too. They won second place in your dance contest remember that? Do you remember them?" Duo looked at me then nodded.

"Well he and Zechs met at the club and they've been together since, like the way we met as well. He didn't come here to rape you. We were just talking and then started to wrestle like we do sometimes. We've been friends since I was thirteen and he has a permanent invitation to come here whenever he wants to or needs to talk to me. He wouldn't hurt you. He won't hurt you and I won't let him.

"Duo, tell me why you thought he would hurt you? Why did you think I would bring someone to rape you? Does it have something to do with your ex? Or something that happened after your ex raped you?"

Duo took a deep breath and closed his eyes. Then opened them again and locked his gaze on me.

"After my ex raped me, Quatre stayed with me until I was fine to be by myself. I still had nightmares, but I didn't want to worry Q any more than I had to." He sniffled then tugged on my hand and pulled me onto my bed with him. I let him pull me and he wrapped his arms around me and snuggled into my chest. I waited for him to speak, I wouldn't push him, and he could take as much time as he needed. He settled down with his head propped up on my chest as I allowed him to lie on top of me.

"I didn't want to tell you before Heero, but I want to tell you now. After everything got cleared with my ex and he was sent to jail, I went back to my life. It was a little hard during the first two weeks, but then I made up my mind that he wouldn't let my ex beat me and make me live my life in fear. I felt pretty confident until one night, I was at the club and I didn't feel so good so I told Quatre to lock up cause I wanted to go home and sleep. Q said he would and I left. When I got to my apartment I found my door wide open. I figured I had been robbed or something like that, so I looked in.

"Nothing seemed to be stolen, so I went in and looked around. I didn't hear anything or see anything out of place. I guessed that maybe my landlord had stopped by for an inspection and forgot to lock the door. I closed it and locked it. I just wanted to take a shower to get the smell of smoke and liquor out of my hair and off my skin. Going into my bedroom, I didn't hear anything until I was knocked down on my stomach. I could hear feet all around me and looked up. I saw a man I knew; kneel down in front of me. He was a friend of my ex. He said that he had heard from my ex that I was a good fuck and should try me on sometime."

My stomach twisted and the French toast we had eaten earlier threatened to rise from it. What Duo had just said, enlightened and appalled me. I now understood why he was so afraid of Wufei and why he thought that I brought my friend over to rape him. I was even further enraged at what Duo's ex had told his friend. It seemed like his ex was just using him as if he were a whore and his ex was the pimp that would give his boyfriend, to his friends so they could use him. How could someone do that to him?

"He looked me over and said that his friend wasn't lying about how good I looked. He then told me he and his other friends would enjoy taking me. I remember being hauled to my feet and thrown onto the bed. So many pairs of hand grabbed and tore off my clothes, until I was as naked as the day I was born. I was already feeling sick and what they were doing to me, terrified me to my core. Six men took me that night, drove their cocks into me and didn't care how much I screamed, begged, pleaded or even cried until my throat was raw. All they cared about was the sexual gratification they got from using me over and over.

"When they were done they said I was nothing, worthless, and was a whore. They said that if I ever wanted to `play' again to stand on the street corner and wait for them. They laughed and then left. I could feel my backside burning in pain, tender, and very sore. I could feel blood run out of me and down my thighs. I couldn't move it hurt so much. I just lay there, too scared and in too much pain to move. I knew I had to get up and clean myself off, even though it hurt so much, I managed to get to the shower and clean myself. The water stung my skin, causing me to cry in pain, but no one heard me. I was alone.

"After my shower, I went out and made sure the door was locked and then went back to my room. Even though they had raped me, there on the bed, it was the only thing I had to lay on that was comfortable enough, so the pain was bearable. As I lay on my stomach with all the pain that filled my body, I knew I couldn't let Quatre find out. I moved out of that apartment, into the one I'm living in now so I could get rid of all the bad things that happened there. I never told anyone about being raped by those six bastards, but I wanted you to know Heero. I want to be able to trust someone and love someone who won't hurt me. I want that person to be you."

Tears fell freely down my cheeks and I hugged Duo to me. Deep sobs started to wrack my form and Duo tightened his hold on me. I should be the one comforting him not the other way around, but I cried. I cried for Duo, for what he had to endure at the hands of those sick things, which couldn't be human, that had raped him. I cried for myself because I was the only one who knew this secret of his and wouldn't tell a soul ever. I cried for the both of us who were hugging each and didn't want to let go.

"It's okay Heero, it happened a long time ago. I just-I just wanted to tell you. I didn't know if you were going to do to me, what they did. I'm sorry I thought you might, but I couldn't help it. I-I just…I can't …handle things like what just happened. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I doubted you."

Duo was apologizing to me at his actions. No. This wasn't ok.

"No Duo, it's not okay. I would have never let Wufei come here if I knew you would act this badly to him being here. He wouldn't hurt you. I'm the one who should be apologizing. You suffered so much, and I just want to protect you and love you, but it seems I've hurt you before I could even start to protect you."

Duo looked at me and shook his head.

"No Heero. I know you love me. I can see it in your eyes and how you touch me, that you do love me. You didn't do anything wrong. This is your apartment and you are entitled to bring anyone here you want. I-I just got so scared when I saw how rumpled your clothing was and that other man was there with you. I thought for a second that you and he were lovers and had just- you know…kissed and did…other things but I know I was wrong."

"He's my best friend Duo. I won't let him touch you. Would you like to meet him?" Duo hesitated for a second then nodded. "How about you meet him after we get cleaned up?" Another nod. "Okay."

I leaned forward and brushed my lips against Duo's. He flinched and I pulled away, and he got off my chest, onto the bed, then before I could move, he pressed his own lips softly to mine. We kissed for a few moments before he pulled away. His eyes red rimmed from the tears and I gentle wiped his cheek with my thumb. He leaned into my hand, then brought his own hand to my cheek and wiped my own tears away. I nuzzled his hand and then pressed a light kiss into his palm. He smiled at me; it wasn't a big smile, but a small gentle one.

I got up and grabbed his shirt off the floor since he was still topless and brought it over to him. I wanted to dress him and he looked at me in wonder, at why I hadn't given him the shirt.

"Mind if I dress you?" He blinked then put his arms over his head. I moved the t-shirt over his arms and pulled them down towards his head, but first. I kissed his stomach, then his chest, and then gently pulling the shirt over his head I kissed his lips once more. He smiled and then took the hem and pulled the shirt the rest of the way on. He took my hand in his and we went to the door. Ready to face Wufei.

TBC…

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