Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ To See You Again ❯ Common Ground ( Chapter 22 )

Chapter 22: Common Ground

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I slipped out of bed and gently settled Duo onto a pillow since he was still in the land of dreams. His peaceful face so angelic and innocent, but I knew that underneath all of his beauty, his heart still held secrets that were as black as charcoal.

My thoughts were still running through what happened just hours ago and I knew I would have to do something about it.

I love Duo with all my heart and soul but yet, he becomes so frozen when anything goes wrong. It's almost as if he is waiting for me to blame him for anything that goes wrong. He should know by now I won't turn into that…that. I had to stop my thoughts. His ex-boyfriend did this to him! Duo told me of the horror he went through with that man, even though he wouldn't utter his name, but still he was still comparing me to him.

I could feel a small bubble of anger rise up in me but then I squashed it. It wasn't Duo's fault that he was comparing me with that man. He was only trying to protect himself and look for some kind of sign that I might turn into someone like that.

I didn't know how bad Duo's reaction had been after his ex was in prison either. I wasn't around and didn't know him then. The only ones who would know about that were his friends, which met I would need to call Quatre and Trowa and it was about time that I gave them a call.

I dug my cell phone out of my suitcase and scrolled down the address book until I found Quatre's cell number and sent the call. Moving into our large bathroom so I wouldn't disturb Duo's sleep, I waited until I heard a sweet voice answer.

"Hello."

"Hello Quatre it's me, Heero." I moved further into the bathroom and quietly shut the door behind me. I sat on the tub and waited for Quatre to reply.

"Heero? What's going on? How are you? Are you okay? How is Duo? We miss you guys so much; it's not the same without the two of you here. Did you see the falls yet?"

"Wait, Quatre slow down and let me answer before you swamp me with more questions." I told him. Quatre could talk as fast as Duo when he wanted to. "We are at the hotel, Duo's asleep. We are both having a great time and we miss the two of you as well. I want to thank you for being so generous with the money you gave us to spend, though I think you gave us too much. No, we didn't go see the falls yet, but we will in the next few days. I have a favor to ask of you."

Quatre was quiet for a minute then spoke. "What do you need to ask me?"

"I need to know what Duo was like after his ex boyfriend went to prison." I told him slowly.

"Heero, I think it might be better to ask Duo…" Quatre started to say but I cut him off.

"No Quatre. Duo told me most of what went on, but I need to know what went on from your point of view. I love Duo you know that. I wouldn't let anything happen to him, but sometimes he acts so strange."

"What do you mean?" I told Quatre all about the fountain incident and how Duo reacted. He listened not interrupting me at all and just let me talk.

"I also told Duo that he should be the one to penetrate me first. I know he was raped and I don't want to cause him to have more nightmares or fear me if I did the same to him."

"I understand that, but… you really shouldn't worry too much about that. He will know it's you who makes love to him, not his ex. You're nothing like that asshole Heero. I know you love Duo and that he loves you in return. Don't be afraid to touch him or make love to him when the time comes."

"Thanks Quatre." I told him softly. I listened for any sign that Duo might have woken up.

"You're welcome, but I'll answer your question." I listened intently as Quatre began. "Duo was jumpy after his ex was put in prison, paranoid even. Trowa or I had to stay in his apartment at night or he would stay with us. He had nightmares almost every night for about three weeks straight and we would wake him up when it got really bad. One time he woke up and screamed so loud that our neighbors called us to see what was going on.

"It was always the same nightmare too. His ex would come into his room and tie him down then rape him repeatedly until Duo just cried until he had nothing left. He would always calm down if Trowa and I held him and stroked his hair. His hair is special to him Heero and only people he trusts are allowed to touch it.

"Even though the nightmares were horrible, in the morning Duo would act happy and giddy like he always was, but Trowa and I could tell he changed. When he would dance with people at the club, he wouldn't touch them, or if he did, it happened so fast that the clubbers probably didn't notice. He didn't want anyone but us to touch him. He would linger by us and never use the restrooms without one of us with him. It was really bad.

"He sold the apartment that held so many sordid memories and it seemed that after he did that he got better. He would still keep himself guarded though, like his smile wouldn't reach his eyes and he kept a switchblade in his boot just incase. He really was a mess then, but it's different for him now.

"Whether you realize it or not Heero, Duo needs you. He is more open with you, than he has been with anyone else in a long time. Don't think that he'll jump at the possibility that you will hurt him either. I know you won't and Duo doesn't think so either, but he will assume it at times if he's reminded of things that went on with his ex. So, what I'm trying to say is, just be there for him, do what he wants to do, unless it makes you feel uncomfortable. That's all I can tell you."

"But that's just what I needed Quatre. Thank you; I'll do what you say. It's just so hard sometimes. Duo wants us to have sex but I don't think he's ready for it yet. I know I'm not, but I don't want him to think that he disgusts me either. He is so beautiful Quatre, but he doubts his own self-worth. I guess that I'll just have to remind him how much he means to me." I told him.

"That's the best thing you can do for him. If anything happens, just call me again. I don't care what time it is, or what Trowa and I are doing, we'll help."

"Thanks for everything Quatre, I better get back to Duo now."

"Right. Enjoy your vacation and have some fun. Talk to you later."

"Later." I ended the call and placed the phone back in its place. Quatre's information was helpful, now all I had to do was apply it to how Duo was reacting. I stepped back into the bedroom and Duo was still asleep, lying on his side. I walked over and opened up the covers and slipped in behind him. He wiggled a bit then snuggled his back into my chest. I wrapped an arm around him and propped up my chin with the other just watching him sleep.

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