Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Too Much Love Will Kill You Someday ❯ Too Much Love Will Kill You ( Chapter 1 )

Author's Ramble: Wrote this so long ago, don't really have anything to comment on that the disclaimer and/or warning(s) will not already cover… Just read the NOTE at the bottom bitte!

Disclaimer: Not mine, I don't own. That applies to both Gundam Wing and Queen.

Warning(s): YAOI IMPLIED THEMES HERE PEOPLE! DON'T READ IT IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE IT! I also use many songs in this… Just read the lyrics and you will understand the fic better (I hope). This is Non- AU (for once…), but the characters may be slightly OOC. Fear my god powers.

Summary: Duo Maxwell comes home to three interesting messages left on his answering machine. Of the first two, who will he choose: Heero or Wufei? Only time will tell… (Pairing as of yet undecided, but no three somes.)

TOO MUCH LOVE WILL KILL YOU

BY Kimiki

Walking into his apartment, Duo Maxwell pursed his lips in slight annoyance when he saw that there were three messages on his answering machine. Duo would bet his braid that at least two of those messages were from a certain sexy, perfect, suicidal Heero Yuy, who also happened to be a past lover. Oh yeah, Duo remembered the many years that they had spent together, during and sometime after the war. However, after all the fighting was finished, Duo began to wonder if their nights of passion were just a way for the perfect soldier to relieve some pent-up stress. And so, the braided man had waited a month, just to make sure that his hypothesis was correct, and was heartbroken when he realized that it was. Leaving a note on the fridge for his lover, Duo had then left Heero Yuy's life, intending to never see the man again. Unfortunately, they had both been Gundam Pilots together, and Heero was easily able to use those old skills to track down the man. No, he hadn't been stalking, but he would constantly call, every other day or so, asking Duo to just talk to him. Sighing, the braided man pushed back his bangs from his unusually colored eyes (purple), and pressed the flashing button, immediately sending the tape into playing the recorded messages.

"Message one…" the robotic voice said, before a silence came over the speakers. Blinking, Duo closed his eyes when that slightly nasal voice began speaking to him.



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I 'm just the pieces of the man I used to be

Too many bitter tears are raining down on me

I'm far away from home

And I've been facing this alone

For much too long

Oh, I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me

About growing up and what a struggle it would be

In my tangled state of mind

I've been looking back to find

Where I went wrong


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"Duo…" Heero began, sighing softly as he tried to think of something to say that he hadn't already said to the braided man. Duo could see, in his mind's eye, how Heero would look at that precise moment, shoulders slightly slumped, eyes closed, covering the beautiful Prussian orbs, bangs falling and casting shadows over his well formed face. Those oh-so soft lips moving with the next words…

"Onegai Duo." Blinking his eyes open, Duo wondered for what Heero could be asking him.

"Just hear me out this one last time, Duo." Heero said, pausing briefly, almost like he was hoping that Duo would pick up the phone and answer him. The braided man could swear that he heard Heero sigh softly before saying, "I just wanted you to know that I am leaving. The Preventers offered me a high ranking position, and since I have nothing to tie me here anymore, I thought, why not? So, I just wanted… Damn it Duo, I don't know what I want!" Heero exclaimed, finally letting Duo hear how lost and confused he was. "I just decided that I would ask you to come see me off… That is, if you still want to try to work on our relationship. I still don't understand why you left me in the first place… I sent all the information to your e-mail…" Taking a deep breath, Heero's voice shook as he said, "If you don't show up, I won't contact you anymore. Just… Gomen Duo, for whatever it was I did to ruin our love. Onegai Duo-kun, aishiteru."

Staring at the machine, Duo blinked back his tears as the robotic voice came back on, telling the man, "Message two…"

"Duo," a familiar voice said, the one word causing the owner of the name to blush at all the emotion held in the person's voice.

"I just wanted to let you know that I am back in town for tonight, and I was wondering if you would want to go to dinner with me." Chang Wufei asked, causing Duo to see the man, once again in his mind's eye. Duo could just imagine Wufei in his black Audi, driving down some highway, cell-phone in hand as he spoke with Duo's answering machine. Wufei had been shocked when he had got the news that Duo had broken up with Heero four months ago, yet that did not stop the Chinese man from asking Duo out on many dates. `Well, maybe not `dates', per say, but pretty damn close.' Duo thought to himself. The two were still basically on second base, and the braided man knew that Wufei would soon make a try for a home-run. Focusing his mind back on the message, Duo listened intently while Wufei told him, "I will pick you up at six, and will take you to your surprise dinner. I know that you will love the food there, and I am looking forward to spending the night with you." Blushing, Duo's gutter washed mind filled his head with all the innuendoes that could be found from that last sentence. Forcing his attention back to the message, Duo heard Wufei tell him, "Can't wait to see you. This is my only day in town, and they're making me go to Boston. But, I thought that I would drop by and see you. Pick you up at six…"

Nodding his head in thought, Duo walked to his computer and connected to the internet while the voicemail told him, "Message three…"

"Mister Maxwell, this is the city library, calling to remind you that your three books were due last week. Your fine is up to a dollar and seventy cents. Please return them Mr. Maxwell, for they are on hold for some of or other members. Thank you, and have a nice day. " The anonymous librarian told him, her message ending, causing the answering machine to beep. However, Duo was to busy to pay it any mind, too absorbed in reading his e-mail.

"`Chicago International Airport…'" Duo read aloud to himself. "`Flight 1120,' Heh, irony… `Departure time: 8:30 p.m.' Aw crap… `Landing in:…' Santa Fe?! He's moving that far away?!" Duo asked himself, and then looked back at the departure time. "Crap, why does it have to be at eight fucking thirty? Because of security, he'll have to be there at least two hours early… Wait, I act like I want to go see him off…" Thinking hard, Duo mused to himself, "Maybe I do…"



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Too much love will kill you

If you can't make up your mind

Torn between the lover

And the love you leave behind

You're headed for disaster

'Cos you never read the signs

Too much love will kill you - every time



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" I don't know!" Duo yelled to himself, grabbing his head and curling his back so his forehead was touching his knees, trying to hide himself from the decision.

"I run, I hide, but I never lie… Hee-chan, I've already run from you, hidden from you, and now I have to make sure that I don't lie to you. If I go see you off, you will think that I want to try our relationship over again, when I'm still so confused. But, if I don't go and see you, then you will think that I don't have feelings for you anymore, when that is a lie itself." Feeling moisture prickling at the edges of his vision, Duo mumbled to himself, "I just don't fucking know…"

Looking up, he said to himself as he stared at his computer, "And then, there is Wuffers. I never knew that he liked me, loved me even, but now I do, and I have chosen to be in a relationship with him. It was rocky at first, but he has stuck through it with me, and now is asking me to dinner… and maybe something more… What do I do? Hell, I might love him Hee-chan, so I would do good by going to dinner with him. But, then again, I think that I still love you, as idiotic as it sounds. So, either way, one of you suffers. But, how the hell am I supposed to choose?!"



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I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be

And it seems like there's no way out of this for me

I used to bring you sunshine

Now all I ever do is bring you down

Ooh, how would it be if you were standing in my shoes

Can't you see that it's impossible to choose

No there's no making sense of it

Every way I go I'm bound to lose

Oh yes,



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Standing, Duo walked to his bedroom and unbuttoned his shirt and pants, stripping down to his boxers. Glancing at the clock, he saw that it was still only 3:48. Deciding to try meditating in order to clear his thoughts, he was hoping that he would be able to focus on this dilemma: Who did he love? Sitting on his bed, Duo began to regulate his breathing like the doctor had taught him back before the wars. The teen had often times turned to meditation to focus his attention on a mission right before he blew up an OZ base or pack of mobile suits. Now he was using this calming ability to try and decide what to do tonight. However, he somehow allowed his body and mind become so relaxed that he fell asleep, his mind playing memories in the form of dreams.



[[[dream]]]



Crying out Heero's name, Duo felt himself cum into the Japanese's hands as said man spilled his own seed inside the braided male. Looking at his lover through half-lidded eyes, Duo smiled when his love leaned down to gently kiss him on the lips. Pulling himself from Duo's tightness and warmth, Heero stood and said that he would go get a washrag for them. Watching him walk into their shared bathroom, Duo softly sang to himself a song that had just now popped into his head.

"Don't touch me now

Don't hold me now

Don't break the spell darling, now you are near…" Walking back into the room, Heero smiled as Duo's eyes locked onto his and the braided man continued singing softly, "Look in my eyes

And speak to me

Those special promises I long to hear

Las palabras de amor

Let me hear the words of love

Despacito mi amor

Love me slow and gently

One foolish world, so many souls

Senselessly hurled through the never ending cold

And all for fear, and all for greed

Speak any tongue but for God's sake we need…"

"I thought that you didn't believe in God Duo." Heero said as he began to clean himself and the sheets up. Sticking out his tongue, Duo retorted, "It's how the song goes, smart one."

"Good thing we agree on that. I am smart…" Heero smirked when Duo grabbed the washcloth and hit him on the arm with it.

"Shut up!" the braided man demanded, immediately beginning the song once more, like he had never stopped.

"Las palabras de amor

Let me hear the words of love

Despacito mi amor

Let me know, this night and evermore

This room is bare

This night is cold

We're far apart and I'm growing old."

Rubbing the damp cloth over his body, Duo removed any of his (or Heero's) semen from his body, still singing to his lover,

"But while we live, we'll meet again

So then my love we may whisper once more…"

Looking Heero in the eyes, Duo softly continued,

"It's you I adore

Las palabras de amor

Let me hear the words of love

Despacito mi amor…"

Throwing the rag to the ground, Duo looped his arms around the usually stoic man's neck, placing their forehead together as he whispered huskily to the man,

"Touch me now - oh wooh hoo

Las palabras de amor

Let us share the words of love

For evermore (for evermore)

For evermore

Wooo…"

Kissing the Japanese man, Duo began pulling the somewhat shorter man below him. But when Heero sat up and picked up the discarded washcloth, he left Duo to blink in confusion after him. What was going on? Determined to ask the man just that, Duo sat patiently in bed, and waited until the other man had lain down beside him before voicing his question.

"Damn it Duo, why do you have to be so needy?!" Heero had asked, causing everything in the room but the bed and its occupants to fade into black. Staring into Heero's suddenly cold eyes, Duo felt his heart rip in two when his lover told him, "I don't want to cuddle with you or anything. Can't I ever have a moment of peace? You always want my attention. Just give me my space!" Suddenly feeling like he was falling, Duo found that he was walking down a Chicago street, alone, singing a song softly under his breath.

"Oh yes I'm the great pretender (ooh ooh ooh)

Pretending I'm doing well (ooh ooh ooh)

My need is such

I pretend too much

I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh yes I'm the great pretender (ooh ooh ooh)

Adrift in a world of my own (ooh ooh ooh)

I play the game

But to my real shame

You've left me to dream all alone…"

"Duo!" someone yelled to him, causing the man to look up and focus on the face. Seeing Wufei, Duo slowly made his way to his friend, still singing to himself,

"Too real is this feeling of make (make believe) believe

Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Oh oh, yes I'm the great pretender (ooh ooh ooh)

Just laughing and gay like a clown (ooh ooh ooh)

I seem to be what I'm not you see (ooh you see)

I'm wearing my heart like a clown

Pretend that you're still around

Yeah-eah, wooh hoo…"

"How are you doing Maxwell?" Wufei asked, jumping into the `let's catch up on what we've been doing of recent' talk. Duo, however, was spitting his attention in half, one part of his mind listening and responding to Wufei, while the other continued the song.

"Too real (real) when I feel (feel) what my heart can't conceal…"

"So, Duo…" Wufei asked seeming slightly nervous. That captured Duo's attention quickly. Since when was the Great Justice Obsessed Guy nervous?

"Yeah?" he asked.

"Would you like to go to dinner with me tonight?" Wufei asked him, a small blush covering his nose and cheeks, making him even more nervous. And, even as he agreed, Duo sang to himself, "Oh yes I'm the great pretender

Just laughing and gay like a clown (ooh ooh ooh)

I seem to be what I'm not you see

I'm wearing my heart like a clown

Pretend that you're

Pretend that you're still around."



[[[end dream]]]



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Too much love will kill you

Just as sure as none at all

It'll drain the power that's in you

Make you plead and scream and crawl

And the pain will make you crazy

You're the victim of your crime

Too much love will kill you - every time



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Sitting up, Duo blinked, wondering what that strange dream possibly meant. It was a very rare dream, being that he remembered every detail of it. But, was it just his mind worrying, or did it actually mean something? Standing, he looked to the clock and saw that it was 4:39, and he decided to take a quick shower. Either way he went, he guessed that he should at least look presentable, and not like he had just rolled out of bed.

After his steaming hot shower, Duo sat at his kitchen table, observing that it was only fifty minutes until Wufei would come by his apartment to pick him up, and only fifty minutes until Heero would begin looking for him at the airport. But, what was he supposed to do? Lowering his head onto the kitchen table, Duo asked the appliances, "Which one?" as he closed his eyes, hoping to decide in time.



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Yes, too much love will kill you

It'll make your life a lie

Yes, too much love will kill you

And you won't understand why

You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul

But here it comes again

Too much love will kill you

In the end

In the end



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Author's Note: Okay! You get to tell me who little Duo-chan should choose! Here are the choices (there will be no threesomes…)

A. 1x2x1, 5+2

B. 5x2x5, 2+1

And, if I don't get any responses, I'll just go with the choice that I prefer… But I'm not gonna say! Don't wanna influence you decision and all that!

(Ps: How did I do on the songs? Did they make sense? When I heard `The Great Pretender', my first thought was, `This sounds like Duo.' Oh, and I don't know if the next part will have a song in it or not. It just kinda depends…)