Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Torture or Salvation ❯ Bad day ( Chapter 6 )

Chapter 5: Bad Day

This chapter is dedicated to my friend Louise. I hope that this chapter will cheer you up on your bad day.

She slammed the door in to the gardens behind her in frustration. That damn doctor, god she wanted to rip his head off. That sounded very pacifist like. Screw pacifism she had changed and she had only just realised that when she had stormed out of the study. She started to walk through the gardens in anger.

She needed to cool down so she headed to the maze. She loved her maze and the best thing about it was the fact that no one accept herself and her brother could navigate through it. It was a Peacecraft secret. Peacecraft, did she even deserve to be named after her ancestors? She had lost all belief in total pacifism after the Mariemaia Incident.

Over the past 3 months she felt her humanity leaving her. That's why they decided to kill her, she had practically lost her soul so why would she have any reason to tell them the information they needed, she wouldn't of cared if she died. God she sounded like Heero used to. She shivered unconsciously at his name.

She couldn't quite remember when she had started to lose her belief in pacifism. Was it during the Chinese Water torture or the Electric Shock torture? She laughed bitterly, a ghost of a laugh. One that she didn't own anymore, it didn't even sound like her. She stopped dead in mid stride towards the maze.

What was her? Who was she? She didn't know anymore.

Relena stared blankly in front of her. Trying to fathom an explanation that her brain could understand. She came out with nothing. A strange look entered her eyes. An accepting sadness, a realisation that had finally surfaced. She was no longer Relena Peacecraft but neither was she Relena Darlian, she was nameless. For some reason she felt even more secure with herself and her surroundings, knowing that. Both names came with a big responsibility that now she couldn't handle. In a way she was free, like a child who had stumbled on something they weren't allowed to see. She had escaped the guilded cage.

Relena continued on her path to the maze. She felt like a tremendous weight had been lifted from her shoulders. And for the first time in a very long time a ghost of a smile graced her lips.

**Earlier that day**

She burst into the study looking wildly around her for any potential enemies. She left the door open as she slowly walked into the room. Her eyes fell upon a man in one of the leather bond chairs. The man looked to be in his 50's and Relena got the same feelings from him as she did with the other politicians. She hated it; it made her feel insignificant and childish. All she needed was some ass hole who would talk to her as if she were mentally retarded. She let out a sigh and watched as the guy looked at her and then wrote something on his little pad.

Relena's eyebrow twitched, this was going to be a long 3 hours. The guy had been staring at her for 5 minutes, neither making a single move. He just stared at her like he was making his judgement already if she was crazy or not. She slowly walked to the seat opposite to him, her eyes on him all the time even when she had sat down she continued to look, never missing a movement that he made. He wrote something else in his pad before looking at her again.

She got a good look at him now, short silver hair that looked as wispy as that of a new born. His face was all wrinkly with age and his eyes were a dark shade of hazel and looked critically at her. She stared back a silent challenge, daring him to do something. His suit was navy with pin stripes while his tie was black. He looked as if he were going to a funeral. He finally spoke.

"Miss Peacecraft I am Doctor Spencer" he drawled as if she were from a foreign country. Her eyebrow twitched again. Great he WAS one of those people who treated everyone as if they were retarded. She kept staring at him, not uttering a word. He seemed slightly offended by the silence but recovered quickly. Still, now Relena knew his weakness, she could win this battle.

"Well let us get down to business shall we?" he kept his tone the same while writing in his pad. That pad, what was he writing in it? It was getting on her nerves, the way he constantly wrote in it, as if he were going to report her to Milliardo. She watched it warily like a cat would a mouse.

"Can you tell me about what happened when you were captured?" He got a reaction. Relena had totally frozen and her body all ridged. Eyes full of fear panic and despair locked onto his as she slowly started to back away from him. Her head was screaming, no not that place, no. Her mind reeled with flashes of the past.

The quiet watchful girl had suddenly changed into what seemed to be a frightened animal. She had edged out of her seat now and was edging towards the open door. Eyes never left him, her expression the same one of a terrified animal.

"Where are you going?" Doctor Spencer asked while jotting down in `the book'. He looked up and saw her sudden change in personality again. Anger and frustration had erupted from nowhere!

How dare he! It was none of his business what she had to go through just so that her family and friends could live happily. She had sacrificed herself. He had no right to pass judgement on her. She flung around and ran out of the door, blind, full of rage at the world and what it had done to her. Sure it was selfish to think like that but it made her feel better, it was her drink so to speak.

She reached the center of the maze. All she needed to do was turn one more corner and she would be there. She could already see herself sitting under the willow that resided there. Cuddled among the ancient roots, protecting her from the world. She heard noises from the centre of the maze and stood in shook at the doorway to the middle. There was Heero and Silva, under HER tree. Silvia was drawing lazy circles around Heero's chest while talking to the stoic soldier. Relena felt repulsion well up in her as she thought back to the first time that she saw this.

She had been preparing for it ever since but the sight still made her feel like a ton of bricks had been thrown on her. She had felt so happy a few moments ago. She felt tears starting to well up.

Hang on a minute tears? Who the hell was she to cry over some ignorant ass who was as intelligent and human as a stone statue. A new burst of confidence grew on her as she walked up to them, acting as if she hadn't see them.

"Relena? What are you doing here! You should be at a psychiatrist appointment" Heero spoke in a cold tone. Relena merely looked at him with no emotion on her face what so ever. Heero seemed thrown back and Relena took full advantage of this.

"Well considering that you're in MY maze that is on MY estate, maybe I should be the one asking questions!" Relena replied coldly, her eyes blazing with so much emotion and betrayal that it made Heero finch inwardly.

"Ahem" came an annoying voice. Relena, pissed off that her staring contest with Heero had been interrupted, took it all out on the short woman next to Heero. She glared down at the girl with piercing eyes, boring into Silvia. Silvia felt naked, as if she couldn't hide anything from Relena's searching stare.

"Miss Silvia" Relena finally acknowledged her with a curt voice.

"Miss Relena how are you?" Silvia replayed in an over enthusiastic tone. Her voice had that bitchy tone that only girls could detect. Silvia was eyeing Relena's clothes with sight disgust. Relena smirked and glanced at her state of dress. She wore a large pair of black baggy jeans and a baggy black tank top, the torture scars that littered her arms showing. There even a few nail marks and bite marks from the rapes that she had gone through. But she wore them with a sense of maturity though she didn't know where it came from. It was like she had an up on Silvia, something she didn't have, battle scars. That was what Relena now thought of her kidnapping, a battle and she had won it. Relena stood tall and looked down on the small form.

"Umm Heero would you mind showing me the rest of the grounds now?" Silvia asked giving him a pleading sidelong glance.

"Hn" was her reply and she was hauled out of the maze by a seemingly pissed off Heero.

Great Relena thought. Now she would have to find another place to go without people knowing.

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The CD ended and Relena was putting it back in the case. She left the room at a quick pace. She was hungry. Her stomach growled out its say in the matter so Relena decided on a trip to the kitchen. Her shoeless feet made a soft padding sound on the plush carpet. She hopped down the stairs humming some nameless tone, while feeling as content as a cat with cream. Yes that `chilling out' was just what the doctor ordered.

She reached the bottom of the stairs and looked around the lobby. She didn't know why but she just felt the need to look around. She would soon wish that she hadn't listened to her feeling.

She looked to the door and did a double take at the sight. Her stomach clenched painfully, like it was ripping away from her body or was it her heart. She couldn't tell anymore as she was consumed by a numbness that let her feel all the pain but stopped her from any physical reaction. Her face was blank, her eyes were void of any type of emotion. And out of everything that went through her head, she could only utter a single word in a ghost of a whisper.

"Heero…?"

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