Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Torture or Salvation ❯ Caging ( Chapter 8 )

Chapter 7: Caging

She was running. It was all she knew to do at the moment. To run and run from what was after her. But what was after her? She couldn't even see it so why was she running? Maybe she was looking for something. Running so fast, desperate to find it. Seeking it with all her heart and soul. So which was it, running to or from something? To or frow To or frow To or frow To or frow To or frow To or frow, sang one of the voices in her head. She quieted it quickly the singsong voice getting on her nerves. Her head throbbed never missing a beat from the increasing pace of her feet.

Her feet hurt oh God they hurt. Every step she thought she would collapse and every step she kept going. She was being driven, being pushed past her energy lost and to inhuman speeds. Faster, faster she had to go, had to keep moving. The darkness that surrounded her smothered her, slow her down.

"NO I HAVE TO KEEP GOING" she pleaded with the blackness and the cold. She picked up her pace again and closed her eyes willing for the darkness to leave.

The ground fell away and Relena gave out a cry in surprise. Now she was falling. Down and down faster and faster. She tensed and waited for the floor to connect with her fragile body. To crush into pieces much like her broken heart.

But the impact never came, the peacefulness from death didn't welcome her.

She opened her eyes and they slowly widened as she realised what had happened. She was pressed against some invisible wall, in a spread eagle position. She tried to move away but some force was holding her into position. She started to struggle as panic kicked in. She had to break free she didn't like being kept in place. Bad things happened when that occurred. She felt like a child, all she wanted to do was curl up in a corner and be held by someone.

Memories flashed before her eyes. Ones of Heero with a gun to her head, ones of her father's death, ones of Libra and ones of a man with grey eyes. She shuddered at the thought of her torturer, shivers and goosebumps were all she felt, like a plague slowly consuming her. The prickly feeling covered her body again as she noticed a figure approach. Relena's body ached with anticipation.

Prussian eyes bored into her own as Heero walked into a spot of light that had appeared. She stared at him wide eyed before gaining her sense and called out to him. He was in his tank top and spandex get-up. His eyes bore into her own as she stared at him. Empty prussian depths and sky blue clashed as his face formed a smirk. Relena stared in shock at his change in attitude. Normally he would give her a grunt or scoff, hell he even gave her a raised eyebrow now and then. But this was different he was smirking, and at her situation.

"Heero please help me!" she called to him. Only Heero just smirked even more and walked off. His silhouette grew smaller and smaller as he left for the shadows.

"No Heero please don't leave me…I need you…please." The last word was uttered as a whisper. Her voice cracked and she could speak no more, barbed wire constricted her throat. All hope vanished in her heart as it shattered to a million pieces. Heero was gone and he ripped away all her being while he did it.

Slowly the black consumed her. The numb feeling that she had felt more then once returned. She had nothing left once again so she welcomed it with open arms. Her blood ran cold through her veins and her mind started to slowly cloud over. She drifted in the dark totally alone but content at being so.

But unease crept upon her. A dull pain presented itself in the base of Relena's neck. As time went on the pain grew more and more intense. It pounded with in her skull and she let out a whimper. But the pain wouldn't heed. It felt like 9 inch nails were being driven in the back of her skull…

It wouldn't stop. Flashes of her past whizzed by her, past wounds opened. She couldn't take it, it was too much. Relena let out a blood curdling scream… She shot up out of her bed sweating. Her clothes clung to her body as her chest heaved and she gulped in as much oxygen as she could in one breath. Her whole body shook in the aftermath that the nightmare had had on her. Relena brought a quivering hand to her heart, trying to soothe the panic of her heart. But the panic only intensified.

She needed out, she needed the cool air to brush over her damp skin. So she ran.

// Some nights I feel like I have died

Or something deep inside is dying

I try to understand my crimes//

She ran through the corridors as fast as she could go, panic enhanced speed making her fly almost. She wanted out, she needed out. She breath would hitch in her throat before releasing only to be grabbed again as Relena gasped. She came to the stairs and continued down them in her frenzied speed. She stumbled now and then before picking up moment. She jumped the last few step's landing on the cold tiles of the hall. She missed the soft velvet like carpet already as she continued down the corridor to the kitchens.

//But there's nothing here that really matters

I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you//

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Relena shook at the shock and silent betrayal Heero had bestowed upon her. Didn't he even trust her to tell her he was with Silvia? She slowly backed up to a wall. Shock and hurt written all over her face as she slowly came out of her daze. Anger replaced the shock, she shouldn't be here Heero might spot her. Slowly as first, she made for the kitchens, but picked up her pace as her hurtled to the door to the gardens.

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// I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you

I don't want it, I don't need it//

She reached the kitchen's door to the garden and wrenched it open. The sudden coolness of the air made her shiver in pleasure. She swung open the door wider and picked up the pace again. The grass was cool and moist from the dew. It caught the moonlight causing it to sparkle. She admired some of the scenery this time, breathing in the fresh air until her lungs ached. Everything was silver and bathed in the full moon.

// I don't want it, I don't need it

I don't want it, I don't need it

I don't want it, but I can't stop myself//

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Her feet were numbing under the chill the earth gave her. The mud squelched in between her toes as she continued to run. She had to Move as fast as she could…But there was a problem, if she had waited a little longer she would have seen what happened…

***Just after Relena ran off***

Heero pulled away from Silvia and fixed a glare upon her. What was she up to? Why did she throw her self on him. She merely smiled innocently at Heero. She looked over his shoulder, into the house and smirked. Relena HAD seen them. A sly smirk crept upon Silvia's face.

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// Now endless questions fill my head

Some nights I'm frightened by the answers

no you can't hurt me, nothing's real//

Relena reached a clearing with a bench on the edge of it. The clearing was surrounded by Elm trees. They loomed over the clearing like gymelefs, casting shadow everywhere. She walked to the bench and sat down. Her aching muscles finally kicking in to the strain they had been in while running. Relena sighed and rolled her shoulders only to stop abruptly. Someone was here.

//No pain you cause can last forever

I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you//

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Something grabbed Relena out of nowhere. A strong steel like grip encircled her waist and threw her to the floor. The wind got knocked out of her as a great weight settled itself on top of her back. She wanted to cry out but all that came was a gasp. Her instincts kicked in and she started to thrash under the weight of the body. The same vice like grip held her arms behind her. The other brought a foul smelling substance to her nostrils as she held her breath. But one can only do that for awhile so eventually she had to breathe in the foul substance. Immediately she felt like she had been hit by a bus, she was numb, drowsy. But as she turned her head, her eyes locked with those of the person on top of her. Ash grey eyes with a cruel taint in them stare back. She glared back but soon fell into oblivion.

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// No pain you cause can last forever

I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you//

She whipped around and off the bench. Someone was in the bushes and they were close. Her body tensed and her heart raced as glanced rapidly for the intruder. Where was he? She turned again and hit something hard causing her to hit the ground with a thud. She looked up at the object that hit her and gasped in shock and mortal fear.

***At the mansion***

// I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you

I don't want it, I don't need it//

Heero felt an unease fall on him in his semi-conscious sleep. It had only just occurred, there was this dull pain in his chest, his heart. It had happened before but he could never push it away. He sat up in his bed, the guests bed, he had lost his room the moment Relena had been kidnapped. Relena…that name instead of lifting the weight off his shoulders like it always had now plagued him. It was a weighing him further down and added guilt upon his laden soul. He ran a hand through his sweaty chocolate brown hair. He needed a drink. So Heero kicked off the covers to the `guest' bed and proceeded down to the kitchen.

// I don't want it, I don't need it

I don't want it, I don't need it

I don't want it, but I can't stop myself//

The cold tiles of the pristine kitchen chilled his body and rid it of the last reminisce of sleep. He moved slowly towards the coffee pot and put in on. He returned to the oak breakfast bar and rested his he on his forearms. He stared idly at the pot containing the sludge that he practically lived on. As he stared into the murky depths he came upon the conclusion that it symbolised his soul. Black, unhealthy, bitter. All these things himself and the coffee could relate to. Heero let out a bitter and humourless laugh at the irony of talking to oneself in the head and then going as far comparing your soul to coffee. He shook his head and banged his head on the table.

//One night I swore I'd die for you

There's nothing else I'd rather die for

But I'll try to live another night

There's too much hate to be forgotten//

Cold hit the back of Heero's neck and he shivered. The breeze rustled the hair at his nape. Wait… a breeze?

Heero looked up from the table to the door. It was open. Heero stared at it for awhile. Why was it open? How the hell hadn't he noticed. He cursed him self for being so stupid and walked to the door. He noticed that it had been opened from the inside so he determined that it was one of the pilots or a guard. Heero decided to wait outside and berate the numbskull when they returned. As Heero walked outside the cool air attacked his bare torso. A smile but only a ghost of a smile mind you appeared on his chiselled features. He closed his eyes and embraced the tranquillity surrounding him but is wasn't to last.

A gunshot filled the air, tearing the silence to shreds. The unease tripled until it was almost painful as he reached out to his chest uttering one word to the breeze.

"…Relena…"

//I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you

I don't want to believe in you

I can't believe in you

I don't want it, but I can't stop myself//