Harry Potter - Series Fan Fiction ❯ A lot of steps to take to love ❯ One-Shot

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

A lot of steps to take to love

Disclaimer: I do not own HP and company, they belong to Miss, Mrs, Ms. J. K. Rowling.

This is my first go around on male/male, so, here we go! Enjoy!

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Remus walked the halls of Hogwarts in silence, he wasn’t the happiest 6th year student, but he was sure he could manage it, he had for the past, and he would for the present.
Remus looked around the corner of the hall to make sure no one was there and kept on walking when there wasn’t. Remus walked around like this for hours, then finally, he sat in a dark corner with his head down, replaying yesterdays event, it might just have been the worst day of his life. He had been a werewolf and he almost killed someone, because someone else decided to be stupid. Remus clenched his fist in anger, Sirius, the dumb git, decided to show Severus what him, Sirius, James, and Peter did some nights, and he almost got killed.
Remus was about to proceed with his thoughts when he heard clinking, like nails hitting the floor lightly, Remus back further into the dark, he knew who it was, and he didn’t want to deal with him.

Sirius walked slowly through the hall, he knew Remus was here, just didn’t know where. Sirius sat, then barked softly, trying to show Remus he was here, if he didn’t already know,
“Go away.” Said Remus darkly.
Sirius followed the voice and found him sitting and staring darkly at him. Sirius whimpered, trying to show submission,
“Go away Padfoot.” Said Remus, pushing him.
Sirius whimpered some more, then hunkered low and put his head in Remus lap,
“No, go away.” Said Remus again pushing him away.
Sirius transformed,
“I’m sorry, I know what I did was stupid, and I’m sorry.” Said Sirius, trying to touch Remus with his hand,
“No! Go away!” Whispered Remus harshly, then stood up and started walking away,
“I’m sorry.” Said Sirius, then watched Remus walk away.

It went like this for the month, Sirius would try to talk to Remus and he would ignore him. Finally, when the night of the full moon came, Sirius sat in the dorm room while James and Peter were getting ready,
“Guys, I think, you two should stay here, I have to finish this, me and Remus cant go on forever like this. So, you two stay here, please.” Said Sirius, then walked out.

Padfoot walked into the entrance of the tree and kept walking lightly, he had knew he made Remus mad beyond belief, but it wasn’t his fault, it was that git, Snape.
He had told him that Remus was in love with Lily, now, he didn’t believe him until he showed him pictures, they were of the two, laughing together, then they got close to each other, as if telling a secret, and after it, Remus just smiled, then he grabbed Lily’s hand, then they went back to what they were doing. Now Sirius didn’t have a claim on him, but it made him sad, and angry, in fact, he had to tell Dumbledore about it, so he wouldn’t get expelled.

Padfoot walked up the stairs and entered the room that Moony was bristling in, and knew that he knew that the other’s weren’t coming. Padfoot walked over to Moony slowly, while showing his neck, showing submission, and stayed still when Moony growled.

Moony looked at Padfoot and wanted to hurt him so bad, he knew that the other’s weren’t coming, and he knew he was angry at this one. He moved forward while showing his neck, Moony realized he was showing submission, and growled. He knew that this one had cause a lot a trouble for him, and that he wasn’t getting off that easy. Moony stepped forward and clawed him in the face, growling in pleasure when he was hit into the nearest wall with a whimper.

Padfoot whimpered as he hit the wall, then stood up shakily, and showed his neck again, watching as Moony seemed to grow angrier, then swiped at him again. Padfoot hit something sharp, which made him whimper as he hit. Padfoot tried to stand, then faltered, then stood, knowing whatever happened this night, things would change, and he knew if being beaten to a pulp was what was gonna happen, then it was going to happen.

Moony growled, growing angrier as he stood up again, Moony charged at him biting his back and growing angrier as he still did nothing, still showed submission. Finally, Moony grabbed his back leg and threw him across the room.

Padfoot hit, and knew he wasn’t going to get up, not that he didn’t want to, but because he couldn’t. He looked at Moony and showed him his neck, and Moony charged at him again, and finally, Padfoot flinched.

Moony stopped, and was inches from Padfoot, he then used his nose to make Padfoot turn on his back, then sniffed him, making sure he posted no threat, then laid beside him, while holding his throat in his mouth, letting him know if he made a wrong move, he wouldn’t live the next sunrise.

Padfoot laid comfortably while Moony held his throat, he knew that it was over, that Moony had forgiven him, for he wanted to see him scared of him, showing him that he was able to make him fear what he might do, not just stand there and wait for it to happen. He knew Moony didn’t want him to be afraid of him, just when he made mistakes, that he better be ready for the punishment, and the punishment was fear, not the pain, but fearing of it.

James and Peter sat in the room, a few hours had passed, and they had a sickening feeling that something was wrong, that what was going on between Sirius and Remus, was very bad,
“James? Do-what should we do?” Asked Peter,
“I think we have to go get Dumbledore, me and you, a rat and a stag, cant defend our self when it comes to Remus. Come on, Peter, let’s go.” Said James, then they both went to Dumbledore.

Dumbledore sat idle, he had nothing to do, and this was one of the nights he couldn’t sleep, then looked at James and Peter who bursted in,
“Boys, aren’t you suppose to be with Mr. Lupin?” Asked Dumbledore,
“Sir, Sirius asked us to stay behind so him and Remus could get over there deal, and-we think something bad might have happened, but we don’t know, and if we went to go check them, we might not make it back out alive. So we came here.” Said James fastly,
“Why did you not tell me? This could be very bad. With Mr. Black and Mr. Lupin alone, they will no doubt be fighting, and one of them might not make it out. You two stay here while I go take care of this.” Said Dumbledore,
“NO! Wait sir, we want to go too, we have to see if there alright.” Said James,
“Fine, but if I tell you to do something, you do it, no questions asked.” Said Dumbledore, then walked out with them following.
They walked to the tree and Peter stopped the tree from moving, then they all went under and started walking in a fast pace. When they entered the house, it was silent, there was no noise. They walked up stairs, then stopped when they heard a growl,
“Oh, Merlin! He’s killed Sirius.” Said Peter in a panic,
“Shut up, Peter, we don’t know that.” Said James, when he really did.
They kept on walking, then reached the room and where the growling came from, then Peter hit the floor, Padfoot was lying on his back with blood all over him, with Moony having a hold of his throat,
“Dumbledore?” Asked James silently,
“No, his alive, I can see him staring at us.” Said Dumbledore,
“Thank Merlin!” Said James, then hit the floor as well.

Dumbledore walked slowly towards the two, then Moony growled. Dumbledore stopped.

Moony eyed him warily, he knew that this man was much stronger. Moony grabbed Padfoot and back further into a corner, then grabbed Padfoot’s throat and watched everything Dumbledore did.

Dumbledore realized that he was watching him and wasn’t going to stop, he looked at Padfoot and realized he was just watching lazily of what was happening. Dumbledore heard growling and looked at Moony, and realized, he didn’t want him looking at Padfoot, for Padfoot belonged to him.
Dumbledore chuckled, Padfoot thought that he didn’t like him that way, when in fact he did.

They stayed that way all night, well, until James and Peter woke up, then it was just a staring contest between the four of them, it would be five, but Padfoot was asleep.

Morning was coming, and Moony knew something painful was about to happen, and he didn’t want them to see, so he stood up and growled at them, stepping towards them, baring his teeth.

They backed slightly, then Peter ran out, soon, Dumbledore and James followed,
“I think he doesn’t want us to be there when he turns back to normal.” Said James,
“I think your right about that.” Said Dumbledore.

Moony whimpered in pain as something was changing, he collapsed, it hurt, then finally, after the pain subsided, he pushed up off the floor with his hands, then looked around him, and gasped, Padfoot was on his back covered in dried blood. Remus crawled over to him, checking if he was alive breathed a sigh of relief, then realized he was naked. He went over to the bed and under it he grabbed his clothes and put them on, then stood up shakily, and headed towards Padfoot while blinking back tears, he remembered what he did, he had hurt him, Remus collapsed before he reached Padfoot. He had hurt him, and he enjoyed it. He truly was a monster.

Dumbledore, James, and Peter hurried in when they heard a “thump”. What they saw shocked them, Remus was holding Padfoot, while whispering sorry over and over.

Padfoot opened his eyes, and looked into golden ones, he then opened his eyes wider at what he was speaking.

Dumbledore walked forward and bent down and grabbed Padfoot and helped Remus up. They walked out and kept on walking, then crawled out of the hole and walked towards the castle, then told Sirius to change back. They all walked in silence, while Remus held his head down in shame.
Sirius woke up and groaned,
“How you feeling, lad?” Asked Madam Promfrey,
“Sore.” Said Sirius,
“Well you should, Remus really did a number on you.” Said Madam Promfrey,
“REMUS!” Said Sirius sitting up quickly,
“Calm down, he’s fine.” Said Madam Promfrey,
“I need to talk to him!” Said Sirius,
“You need to sleep.” Said Madam Promfrey,
“I’ve slept, now I need to talk to him!” Said Sirius with wild eyes,
“Oh, fine, I’ll go find him.” Said Madam Promfrey, then went and started looking for him.
Sirius laid back down and breathed a sigh of relief.

Remus was sitting in the library, not really reading, just spacing out, thinking of how he was ever gonna face Sirius again when Madam Promfrey came in and told him that Sirius wanted to see him,
“Um, I cant, I have to....study.” Said Remus,
“Fine, but that boy isn’t’ going to be happy.” Said Madam Promfrey, then walked away.
Remus puts his head on the desk and cursed, he was so stupid.

Sirius sighs as he just lays there, he had nothing to do and no one to talk to. He looks out the window and sighs again, was the only thing that he really could do, and Madam Promfrey said he wouldn’t be out of bed until tomorrow for sure. Sirius then thought to his self wickedly, he could just get out of bed and do whatever he wanted. So he did.

Remus walked around, he didn’t know what he was doing, he just knew he was doing it, guilt had ridden him since he finally remembered everything that took place, he was about to go deeper in his thoughts when a scream was heard,
“SIRIUS BLACK!” Hollered Madam Promfrey.
Remus gulped, he knew what that meant, Sirius was out and about.

Sirius trotted with his tongue hanging to the side, it was a nice day, and he planned for it to stay that way. Sirius turned a corner and stopped, there stood Remus, he gulped, he couldn’t stand to be here, even if Moony forgave him, it didn’t mean Remus did, and that’s what mattered. Sirius took a silent step, then almost jumped out of his skin, for Madam Promfrey had hollered his name, he then grinned, somehow.

Remus looked up and gasped, a black dog stood there grinning, but after he realized that he was staring at him, looked at him,
“Sirius.” Said Remus softly, then ran. Knowing he could not bare to look at him, not after what he done.

Sirius looked at his retreating back and sat sadly, Remus didn’t forgive him, and he didn’t blame him for it either. He had done an awful thing. Sirius looked around him, then transformed back to normal and headed back to the hospital wing, he didn’t feel so good.

Remus didn’t arrive for lunch or dinner, which and James and Peter confused, but they couldn’t question, for they could never get a hold of him. So they just had to think.

Remus laid on his bed, he didn’t know what to do, so he did the most thing that would maybe unconfuse him. He walked down the hall, and he didn’t even know why he did this, it was like he was at peace doing this, walking, it was like he was walking down a hall that never ended, and when it did, it was because he wanted it too.

Sirius walked the halls of Hogwarts, he really didn’t know why he did, but it was like he was walking down a hall that never ended, and when it did, it was because he wanted it too. Sirius turned a corner, then stood still, Remus was standing there not noticing that he was here. Sirius took a hesitating step forward, then spoke softly, his words bouncing off the walls,
“I’m sorry.” He said quietly.
Remus quickly looked up at Sirius,
“For what?” Asked Remus,
“HA! For what? For being a stupid git.” Said Sirius,
“You weren’t the only one, I hurt you, I could have killed you!” Said Remus,
“Well I told that dumb ass about your secret! And it all was because I was jealous!” Said Sirius, he wanted to stop what he was saying, but he couldn’t,
“About what?!” Asked Remus,
“About you and Lily being together, because I wanted it to be me and you together!” Said Sirius where he stood, fist at his side,
“Me and Lily? Ha, never.” Said Remus with eyes growing dark with lust and love,
“Then what the hell were you doing when you two were holding hands?! And being all-cuddly!” Said Sirius,
“Me and her were talking about her and James! She wasn’t sure if he liked her, so I was telling her that he did, and I was comforting her!” Said Remus, taking a step forward,
“You don’t lie to me?” Asked Sirius, taking a step as well,
“No! And why don’t you hate me? I almost killed you! And I enjoyed the pain I put upon you!” Said Remus, taking another step,
“I would too if I was you, and someone did that to me!” Said Sirius, taking a step,
“You don’t lie to me?” Asked Remus, taking three steps,
“Never.” Said Sirius, taking five,
“I’m sorry.” Said Remus, then took six long strides,
“As am I.” Said Sirius, then took to two long strides,
“I love you.” Said Remus softly, taking two steps,
“I love you too.” Said Sirius, then took the rest of the four steps, then they kissed.

Remus tried to pour every feeling into this kiss, but knew it wasn’t possible, Remus grabbed Sirius black silk hair and crushed his lips to his, nipping at his lips for entrance, then explored his mouth.

Silently, the snook back to the hospital wing and laid on Sirius bed, kissing and touching everywhere they could, then they started taking each other’s clothes off, one by one, taking of the offending scrapes covering their lovers body, finally, when both naked, they hid under the covers, kissing and touching, trying to find every place on one another’s body, then Sirius started kissing his stomach, and when he saw a scar, he would lick it, then kiss it, and kept on his journey, finally, Sirius found what he wanted, it was standing tall and proud, with pre-cum dripping off the top. Sirius grinned and licked the pre-cum away, delighting in the sound of Remus moan. Sirius spent his time on him, licking the head, and was about to proceed, when Remus pulled him up and kissed him,
“Remus.” Sirius whispered quietly,
“Merlin! You’re a tease!” Said Remus in a hot whisper, then started kissing Sirius neck, sometimes biting it, and chuckling when Sirius grinded into him.
They spent what seemed like forever teasing one another, then finally, Sirius kissed Remus, some how telling him, this was it, they were going to change their life’s from this day forward. Sirius moved Remus legs and then looked around, there was nothing that he could use so they wouldn’t hurt one another, then Sirius cast a charm that just came to him and smiled when the tip of his cock hit the entrance, Remus gasped and Sirius just held on to him, taking it all in, then, Sirius pushed forward and entered, Remus opened his eyes wide, then bit his lip to hold back the moans, but then Sirius leaned down and whispered,
“Don’t, I want to hear you moan, I want to hear you say my name.” Said Sirius, then thrusted into him, while at the same time jerking Remus off, they did this in a fashion, Sirius would rock forward, and Remus would thrust back, back in forth between the two, then, Sirius hit a spot, oh, and was it a wonderful spot, which made them both have their orgasm with gasp and pants, Sirius thrusted one more time, and he grinned,
“Sirius!” Moaned out Remus, sweating from the love making,
“Remus, Remus, my love.” Said Sirius, pulling out and laying next to him,
“Merlin, I love you, Sirius.” Said Remus, then started to stroke Sirius hair.
They stayed like that for hours, til finally the light came and Remus left, back to his dorm, while kissing him goodbye.

Sirius moaned and moaned til finally Madam Promfrey had enough,
“Alright! You can go! My, never seen a boy so happy to go back to work.” Said Madam Promfrey with a mutter.
Sirius jumped out of bed and ran to the breakfast table, sitting down beside Remus with a smile,
“Didn’t-“ But before he could finish, Snape loudly called out,
“So, Sirius, have a good time with Remus last night. Merlin knows you two cant keep quite, and not even with that....situation. Really, it’s nasty.” Said Snape with a grin,
Remus was about to say something, but then was cut short,
“Oh, I’m sorry Snape, didn’t know you were jealous because you cant get any.” Said Sirius with a grin,
“Lest I don’t have to turn to the same sex.” Said Snape, with eyes ablaze,
“It would be scary if you did, oh no it wouldn’t, cause we wouldn’t be able to tell.” Said Sirius, then started laughing with Remus,
“Uh, what’s going on guys?” Asked James, then everyone looked at him, wanting to know the same question,
“Oh, Snape is just jealous cause he cant get any. Not like us.” Said Remus, finally speaking,
“Which on of you is getting it?” Asked James,
“Both.” Said Sirius and Remus,
“From who?” Asked James,
“Each other.” Said Remus and Sirius,
“Wait? Why didn’t you tell me you two were gay?” Asked James,
“Don’t know.” Said Remus and Sirius,
“Why didn’t you tell you two liked each other?” Asked James,
“Because that’s basically saying were gay, and we didn’t tell you that.” Said Remus,
“Okay, so....have you two shagged?” Asked James, not realizing everyone was watching,
“Yea.” Said Sirius and Remus,
“Oh. Okay. So, do I need to knock before I walk in?” Asked James,
“It would do best.” Said Sirius,
“You know, this is weird, were not even embarrassed, even when Snape knew.” Said Remus,
“No, love, it just goes to show when you really don’t care what people think when you take the steps to love.” Said Sirius, then kissed Remus in front of everybody,
“And so many there are.” Said Remus, with twinkling eyes,
“And we took ever one of them.” Said Sirius, with a grin.

R and R please!

The step to love can be confusing,
but if you just try,
you will maybe even jump a few,
to get to the end of them....