Hellsing Fan Fiction ❯ Descent Into Sin ❯ Waking Up to the Truth ( Chapter 5 )

Her concern about the man who saved her life was growing. Sometimes he would stay away from her for days. When she would question him he would only joke about it and tell her not to worry. But, how could she not be concerned? Something was wrong and he was pushing her away. She hoped it was just temporary and soon the old Pip would be back begging her to take showers several times a day so he could look at her body. She grinned at the thought. Then, she realized that the last few times she showered he had not even woken up.

Seras Victoria, are you ready to go on the mission we discussed yesterday? Alucard asked her through their mind link.

Yes Master, I'll be there in a few minutes.

Seras finished getting ready and met Alucard in Sir Integral's office. They were discussing something but stopped talking as she entered the room. Seras thought that she heard them mention her name, and Pip's. “Master, I'm ready.” She said.

“Good. I've decided that you can handle this mission alone, Seras. It should be nothing more then a handful of weak vampires. If you get into trouble, I'll know. With the amount of power you now have, you should not need me on every mission.”

“Yes, Master.” Seras smiled; finally Sir Integral trusted her to go on missions alone. They gave her the details of the mission and Seras left at once. She formed two dark shadow wings and flew to her location. Seras had to admit it was one of the perks she enjoyed with being a vampire.

As Alucard watched his fledgling fly he couldn't help but be disappointed. Why does she use wings when it would be so much easier to turn into mist?

“Do you think this is wise, Alucard?” Integral stood next to him and learned on the terrace railing.

“It's the only way, Master. He won't even talk to Seras when I'm around.” Alucard glanced at Integral. He could smell her delicious blood and wanted a taste more then anything. He stroked her hair affectionately. He wished Seras could be more like his Master.

“Are you going to watch her?” Integral asked, closing her eyes. Alucard's touch was hypnotic but felt wonderful. She would have to be careful.

“I suppose I should, Master.” He leaned in to her ear. “I would rather stay here with you, Integral.”

As tempting as the thought was to her, she had to deny herself. And him. Doing anything but would upset the balance of power between them both. She pulled away from him and walked back inside. “No, you better go.”
Seras did a sweep of the building and did not find or even feel anything. She wondered if it had been a false alarm. She looked at the map again. What am I missing?

As she was getting ready to give up, she heard his voice.

Cherie, do you need my help? His voice asked softly.

Yes! Pip, where have you been? I've missed you.

And I've missed you and your beautiful body but now is not the time to talk. I need to help you locate the monsters. Pip wondered to himself if this was wise. His darkness always grew when Seras fought. It might be harder to control. He pushed the thought aside. I'll just lock myself away before the fight.

So Pip, do you see anywhere I missed. I've been all over this bloody building. Seras sighed. She was wondering if this was some sort of stupid test of Alucard's.

Look Seras, at the bottom of the map. I think it is in the basement. There is a door. Pip explained to her.

I don't remember seeing a door there. I might have missed it. Seras headed back to the basement. She could feel Pip there although he was silent. It felt good to have him back. Once Seras reached the basement, she found the door. It had been hidden by boxes. She sensed other vampires on the other side. Are you ready, Pip? She asked him.

Yes, I'm ready, Cherie. Pip had decided he would wait till just before the fight. There was no harm in that was there?

As soon as she opened the door, shots were fired at her. Seras grinned. She was going to enjoy consuming these monsters.

Pip could feel her blood thirst growing along with his darkness. He wanted to see her kill these monsters and taste their blood. It had been so long since he had fought or even watched Seras fight. No harm could come from just watching. He watched as Seras ripped the vampires' limbs off, as she sunk her fangs into their neck. Pip could feel her exhilaration as she consumed the blood of the first vampire. Oh, how he wanted it to be him.

Seras, let me take over your body, like I did in the fight with Zorin.

Not now, Pip. Seras responded as she was hit with gunfire in her back. It took her a minute to heal but now she was pissed.

Pip used her anger to fuel his darkness and power. How could she say no to him? He had saved her life. She would be dead if it wasn't for him. His soul was the more powerful of the two and overtook hers. She was still present but had no power to stop him. Now it was she who watched and he who fought.

Pip felt the power of the other vampire inside of their body and he wanted more. He turned on the vampire who shot them in the back and ripped into his neck with her fangs. Pip drained the vampire and threw him down. There were only two vampires left. They both looked at what he had done and started to run. “I don't think so.”

He used her speed to catch them both. He held one tightly under her arm as he sunk her fangs into the others neck.

“Please, please, leave me alone. I-I-I promise, I'll leave London. Just don't hurt me.” The last vampire was a young girl who was quite appealing to the eyes. She trembled as Pip approached her.

Pip could feel what he was about to do was wrong, that he shouldn't do it but he couldn't stop. And she was a monster wasn't she? Seras just killed several vampires how was this one any different?

“Shhh, Cherie. I promise it won't hurt.” He pinned her against the wall and sunk his fangs into her neck. Her blood was the most delicious thing he that he ever tasted. It was so much better like this. He didn't have remnants of the taste like he when Seras fed. He didn't have to feel her pleasure second hand when she fed. The sensation was only his, he wanted more. Pip continued to feed draining the vampire of her blood.

Watching this from inside her body but unable to stop it, Seras was horrified. She screamed at him to stop. This wasn't the way it was supposed to be. Seras pushed her will but was not strong enough to overcome his power. What if he didn't let her regain control?

Seras Victoria, it seems the other vampires are the least of your worries. Alucard spoke inside her mind.

Seras was relieved. He was here, somewhere nearby. Maybe he will tell her what to do. Master…I don't know how it happened. What do I do?

There is nothing you can do, Seras Victoria. I suppose I'll need to take care of it.

Seras sighed, resigned to her situation. She hated the idea of Alucard rescuing her. He would never think she was strong if she needed him to save her. This time she had no choice, but never again, she told herself. Fine, Master.

Don't sound so disappointed, Seras.

She watched as Alucard materialized just a few feet away. Pip dropped the female vampire and turned towards the Nosferatu.

“I think you've had enough for tonight, Captain.” He said walking closer to the body that contained the souls of his fledgling and the mercenary. Alucard grinned as he felt his fear. Now, Seras. He is getting weaker now. Take control.

Seras could feel Pip's strength dwindling. She concentrated and wrapped her soul around his and tried to push him away. It was hard at first but then she felt him give up.

Mignonette, I'm sorry. I don't know what happened or why.

Seras would have kicked him in his balls if he had been there in person. She did not respond to him but addressed her Master instead. “Master, I'm back.”

“Good, Seras. It is about time. Let's return to Hellsing.”

 

Seras kept waiting for her Master to yell at her, tell her how pathetic she was for allowing Pip to control her body. But it never came. She didn't bring up what had happened and neither had he. The whole thing was just so bloody bizarre. He had only warned her that the next time it happened, he may not be there to help. When she asked him what would happen then, he only told her that if she didn't know the answer to that question, she more pathetic then he thought.

The truth was Seras did know the answer to the question; she just wanted to hear him say it. She would be trapped, unable to control her own body's actions like she was for those awful minutes when Pip attacked the young vampire. The attack had not been the worst part even though it had been bad enough. She could still hear the young girl's voice in her ears, begging for her life. The worst part of the whole ordeal was the feeling. She felt a darkness in Pip that had never been there before. It had chilled her to the very bone. Although she never thought it possible, the darkness rivaled that of her Master.

She was so furious at Pip for using her like that; she didn't talk to him for days. He tried, told her how sorry he was but she blocked him out and told him to go to sleep. Seras just couldn't deal with him. She no longer felt safe and it was all because of him. She had asked Sir Integral for a week off from missions. She had to figure out how to control him. Seras even found herself wishing she could control him like Alucard controlled the souls he had consumed but then she would be as heartless a monster as him.

 

Pip couldn't stand it. She would not talk to him. He had been living in silence since that night: The night when he fucked everything up. If only he had listened to the voice inside himself that told him it was a bad idea. But no. He had listened to the other voice, the one that seemed to be taking over who he used to be.

Alucard probably thought he wanted to hurt Seras but nothing was farther from the truth. He had felt a little of her blood lust and euphoria before - Pip just wanted to have it all. It sure as hell didn't seem fair that he had to just have a shadow of a life when Seras had it all. Maybe if he explained it to Alucard then the vampire would talk to Seras. Maybe she would let him take control once in awhile. At any rate he had to get out of this room. Seras had not left in several days and he was going stir crazy. She was sleeping now. Taking control of her body wouldn't be hard and she would probably never find out. Besides it was as if he was doing anything wrong.

Pip figured Alucard was probably up with Integral. He headed to her office. The sun was shining in and damned if it wasn't making him tired. He knocked on her door.
“Sir Integral?”

“Seras? Is that you? What are you doing up at this hour?” Integral asked. “I suppose you can come in.”

“I couldn't sleep.” He lied.

“Oh? Is it that whole business with Pip? I had hoped things had been settled.” Integral replied.

Pip found himself unable to concentrate. Not being able to have sex had taken its toll on him. He found himself staring at Integral's breast. Flashes of what he did to the female vampire ran through his mind. He wanted to do it to Integral. Her blood would probably taste even finer.

“Seras, are you listening?” Integral asked.

“Oh sorry, Boss. I was just thinking about Pip. Wondering what I should do.”

“Maybe we can meet with Alucard tomorrow? I'd like his ideas on the subject.”

“I guess.” He said, staring at her lips hungrily. Pip could feel his hunger growing. Her hunger. “I should be going then.”

“Very well.” Integral got up and walked Seras to the door. There was something not right about her but she could not put her finger on it.

Just before they reached the door, Pip spoke. “I needed to ask you something, Sir.”

“Yes, Seras.”

Pip pushed Integral against the wall. “Did you like it when we kissed?”
He crushed her mouth with his forcing his tongue inside her mouth. She tasted so deliciously wonderful to him and the scent of her blood was calling him. She was pushing against Seras' chest without success and gave up after a few seconds. He moved to Integral's neck, licking it with his tongue. Her blood was so very close to him but he couldn't bring himself to bite her just yet.

Integral decided she had enough. She pulled out her revolver and placed the butt of it on the head of Seras Victoria, as she cocked the trigger. “I would stop now, Captain, if I were you.” She stated calmly.

“I-I-I'm sorry, Boss.” Pip gave Seras control of her body. There was no sense in controlling it any more. No matter what he did, she would know.

Integral could sense the change. This had to stop even if she had to get rid of the mercenary herself. How could she have been so wrong about him? “Seras?”

“Sir, why are you pointing a gun at my head?” She asked feeling bewildered.

“I'm sorry, Seras, thank God you are all right.”

Seras saw images of what he had done. Pip had almost bitten Sir Integral. “I'm so sorry, Sir. I had no idea. I-I swear.”

“I believe you, Seras.”

Seras fell into Integral's arms. All the events of the last few weeks had been too much. Pip could have killed Integral using her body. A few tears fell onto her cheeks. She felt like such a pathetic weakling. Alucard told her she gave Pip too much freedom. It turns out he had been right all along.

Alucard picked that moment to walk in and was alarmed at the site of Integral holding his fledgling with a gun in her hand. He pried into Seras' mind and saw the events of the last hour. He pulled his fledgling away from his Master. “How could you let this happen? Are you really so weak that you would let him harm my Master?” He hollered at her.

“Alucard, leave her be. She's been through enough for today. I think he did it when she was sleeping. Coward.”

“Are you okay, Master?” He asked.

“Yes, Alucard. I am quite capable of taking care of myself. This is why I carry a gun around the house.”

Seras looked at them both with guilt in her eyes. “I'm sorry.” She turned to leave.

“I thought I told you to take care of him. Lock him deep inside your mind if you have to, Seras, or he will be the death of you.”

“I-I-I just can't.”

“Then you deserve whatever he does to you.” Alucard scolded her.

“Good night, Sir.” Seras left the room. There really was nothing more she could say.

Pip didn't wake up until the next morning and he wished that he could continue to sleep. Images of what he almost did haunted him. The girl vampire had been different. She fed on humans and deserved to die. And so did he.

The more he thought about, Pip realized that the dark part of him, had wanted to hurt Integral. Why else would his mouth have been at her throat? He had no bad feelings towards the boss. The whole thing just didn't make a bit of sense.

Don't deny the truth, Captain. You know why. Alucard spoke into his mind.

But I don't. I went to look for you Alucard. I'd never hurt the boss. She's a human, an innocent. I only killed that vampire because she was a monster.

Stop lying to yourself, Captain. You wanted to drink my Masters blood. And do other things to her. I know what you desire. You cannot lie to me, I'm not Seras. Alucard showed Pip all the images that he had seen in the mercenary's mind.

Pip cringed seeing the things that he had thought, there was no way he could deny it. He had wanted Integral's blood. The darkness in him wanted her dead. Then Seras wouldn't long for her. Care for her. What have I become?

Yes, indeed, what have you become? Alucard asked as he laughed maniacally.

His mind was made up. Pip knew what he had to do. There wasn't much time either. Seras would be awake soon. If he didn't do it now before she woke up, tomorrow might be too late or he might lose his nerve. He got up, picked up the phone and dialed the number for information.

“Information, what city please?”

“London. Do you have a listing for the St. Vincent's orphanage?”