Hikaru No Go Fan Fiction ❯ The Crystal Tear ❯ Sai's Madness ( Chapter 1 )

The Crystal Tear

Kal Kally

Disclaimer: Hikaru no Go does not belong to me.

Warning: This is a dark Sai/Hikaru fic. Death. A little violence. Non-graphic rape. Yaoi. An evil Sai plus a suffering Hikaru. Oh well, you have been warned so don't flame me.

Chapter 1: Sai's madness (Sai's POV)

I remembered very clearly. It was a rainy day. For the first time in two years, I stood in a dark, dusty chamber without Hikaru beside. On my two sides were various demons, watching me with curious eyes. In front of me was Shi, the most powerful demon of Japan, I think.

"What are you willing to sacrifice in order to be alive?" He asked from his thrown.

"I'm ready to sacrifice anything." I answered, determined. After a few seconds, I added. "Anything except him."

"Then..." Shi left his thrown to come to me and whispered into my ear words that were poisoning my mind, even until now. I felt something heavy in my right hand. Somehow, Shi had managed to slip into my ghostly hand a gem, the Crystal Tear.

However, it wasn't exactly my fault. Those words had left me shaken, and being a coward, I didn't dare to put it into implementation. I did bury it deep in the broken shards of my memories.

It was you who brought those words into life. It was all your fault.

Do you remember? Days when you came out of the shower wearing nothing but a towel. Nights when you occasionally tossed your blanket away, baring your beauty to my eyes? Desire burning but always had to face with cruel reality. Look and worship but cannot touch.

You pulled Shi's words into the surface. And my desire, my guilty hope fed on them greedily.

They grew to the point I could barely control myself.

Then in this dark alley, Touya kissed you. You should have pulled away. you should have felt disgusted. But no, of all the things you could have done, you had to return his affection.

The dark side of me took control. Something inside crawling and hatred setting free. When you parted with him, I stayed. You were too happy to even notice that. Touya stayed in the alley for a while. Either he was too happy too, or he just didn't want the world to know about his little secret.

I felt something appear in my hand. The Crystal Tear. It was the gem given to me in Shi's chamber. I looked at it, hesitated. But when I looked up, there was a dreamy smile painting on Touya's face. Was it hope that I saw there? How dare he to have what was supposed to be mine?

The crystal turned brightly hot. Its heat burned away the last of my sane thoughts and breathed into me an alien strength. "Just follow your instinct and release me." I heard someone whisper.

That when I struck. From the crystal, a blinding white light was released in the form of an arrow. It disappeared into Touya's body through his back and came out from his chest. Too bad it missed his heart. Anyway, the impact sent him flying to the opposite wall.

Touya painfully turned to me, leaning heavily to the wall. His shirt wasn't torn but the blood that stained there started to spread. A thin line of blood trickled down from the corner of his mouth.

"Who are you?" He whispered, eyes wide. It surprised me that he hadn't screamed in pain yet.

I chuckled. Facing with death and that question was all he could think of. Poor him, in my mind, there was nothing except thoughts of murder. "I am Sai."

Touya's eyes widened more if that were possible. They looked terribly huge and glassy. "Why?" The word was breathed out as tears started to fall down.

"Because you dare to touch my Hikaru."

"No! I didn't..."

"Shut up bitch!" I growled and shot a series of lightning. Most of them missed, only two met the target, buried deep in his right arm and groin, then faded. I watched in fascinated horror as blood painted the wall behind him in red. A strange elation mixed with panic grew in me.

Touya had fallen down, his face twisted in pain. He bit his lips so hard that they were wet with red fluid. I didn't understand why he refused to scream, to cry for help. Then he looked up. I expected only fear. But the pain of broken trust I saw there pinned me right where I stood. For a moment, I thought of stopping.

That stupid Touya, if he had just shut the hell up, he would have been still alive. Unfortunately for him, he didn't. "Why? This is not the Sai I knew. Please stop. If not for me, then for Hikaru."

White-hot anger again consumed me. Touya's tone was full of sympathy but not fear. I felt as if he was mocking me. And he dared to call Hikaru by his first name. That could not be forgiven.

I raised the gem to my face and whispered to it, made sure that Touya could hear me all the time. "I can't understand why Hikaru likes a rat like him. Maybe because of his beautiful face. What do you think my beloved treasure?"

The gem glowed in return, this time in crimson light. Vaguely I heard someone chuckling.

A bolt of light made it way to Touya's abused form, piercing to his cheek's tender skin. The deep wound it caused did not stop there. The skin around the wound turned blistered and bloated, then it spread. At various places on his face, the skin started to fell of, revealing flesh behind. Flesh that rotting way hundreds time more quickly than a decayed corpse.

Touya held his face in his hands, his mouth gaping. I guess he wanted to scream now, but his deformed mouth wasn't capable of making any sound. Funny.

A series of low, horrible sounds filled the alley. I quickly realized it was my own laughs. I felt so happy. Happy to the point of insanity. I didn't stop, excited by Touya's agony. I hold the gem out. It continued to release both white and red light bolts. It didn't stop until the light bolts weakened and faded out.

I breathed heavily, shaken by the violence I had just committed. The prominent young Go player of Japan was now only a bloody mess, which did not even resemble a human form at all. I doubted there was still any life in him.

And now, when everything was over. I slid down and wept. I used to like this boy so much. I used to admire him for his persistence in Go so much.

And...

...now...

...he was dead...

...killed by me in a moment of blinding wrath.

The look on his face when he first heard my name returned to me with full force. It was the expression of a boy that had put all his belief in a childhood hero, only to have the one he idolized betray him in the worst way possible.

Strangle, there was no regret. Even though my heart swelled with guilt… Even though Touya's blood must have somehow slipped into my mouth somewhere during the minutes of violence, it made me felt horribly nauseous with it sweetness.

The gem was still burning in my hand. Why was it still burning? Wasn't everything over now? I shakily raised my hand and examined it closely. A gasp escaped from me. My body, started from the hand holding the Crystal Tear, was materializing. Within myself, I felt life energy. Touya's energy.

I stood up slowly. The happiness of finally being alive pushed away the last trace of guilt. And then, my Hikaru, I left the alley to go back to you.

Oh yes, I never once regretted.

People kept giving me curious glance. I guess it had something to do with my ancient clothing. Luckily, I murdered Touya when I was still a ghost so his blood had not yet stained them.

Problems occurred only when I reached your house. Stop being a ghost meant no more being able to pass through the walls to come in. I pressed the bell. Your mother peered out.

"I want to go to Hikaru's room." I explained. Your mother eyed me from head to toes, then slammed the door shut without a word. What am I going to do? I asked myself.

Then I heard a whispered. It cost me several seconds to realize that the source of it was the Crystal Tear. "Fool. Hypnotize her. Control her." I didn't feel surprised, remembering the earlier chuckle. Instead, I transferred it my thoughts. How am I going to do it?

"Direct your power to your eyes. Willing her to follow your order. This is an easy spell. Remember the more powerful you are, the more effective the spell would do."

Powerful? I asked it but it refused to answer. I shrugged and gave it a try. As I pressed the bell again, your mother pulled the door open. "What? It's you again?" She yelled.

I used all my will and stared hard into her eyes. My eyes suddenly burned, seeing thousands of flying stars in only several seconds but when I could see normal again, your mother's face had gone blank. I knew I had won.

"Let me in." I ordered. She bowed and held the door widely open.

You were reading a mediocre comic book, sitting on the floor, back lean to the wall when I entered your room. Not bothering to look up, you just asked. "Where have you been?" It seemed you did notice my absence, but unfortunately, too late.

I got near to you and kneeled down, which got your attention at once. You looked up and an expression of wonder appeared on your face. "Sai, you are..."

Whatever you wanted to say was cut off as I grabbed your chin and lifted your face up to try a kiss. I meant to be gentle, but you failed to respond. In my mind, a memory of a dark alley flashing by, it awakened my anger. It urged me to deepening the kiss, to savoring your lips as harshly as I wanted. I did. After all what I had done, there was no point in returning now.

You groaned into my mouth, your little hands came to my chest and tried to push me away. No. Fucking. Way. You accepted him but resisted me? I growled and broke up. Grabbing both of your wrists, I lifted them over your head, slammed them hard to the wall behind you and held them there.

A startled gasp escaped your mouth, full of disbelief. I grinned and resumed what I was doing, now the harsh kiss turned into brutal. That feeling of crazy happiness returned.

I licked and bit your tender lips, ignoring your cries and my own logical mind's cries. Even if I wanted, I would not be able to stop now, not when your blood on my tongue tasted like heaven, addictive and made me feel dizzy.

They said greed existed in every creature. I guessed it was right. I didn't mean to hurt you. I only wanted to have a taste of your lips and then let everything return to normal, but soon, a kiss became not enough. My free hand started unbuttoning your shirt while I placed quick kisses on your neck. I. Wanted. More.

"Sai, stop." You were still fighting me, bugging your body pathetically. Little did you know how much your effort excited me. "Please..."

I did stop, releasing your wrists. Neither because I wanted to nor because of your plea. But my body was fading. Damn. I had used up all Touya's borrowed life energy.

I stood up. You slowly looked up at me with fear, broken trust and something else I couldn't make out. Those emotions really irritated me. "Quit looking at me with your pathetic eyes." I snapped.

You turned your eyes away in shame.

The next day came quickly with you ignoring me all the time. I had been thinking. What I did may be a crime, but I could not stop, and didn't even want to try to stop. Not when I had finally tasted you after months of one-side desire.

The sight of your body under mine the previous night, lips bruised, confused and helpless, was like an addiction slowly poisoning my mind. I craved to see it again, to hold you in my arms and mark you completely mine. Did it make me a demon then? I did not know and I did not care. I just knew that I must have you at all cost without being interrupted again.

That was why tonight I left you to go out on my own. Hunting to please my blood thirst. I chose a dark park to start my game. It wasn't fun any more if there were a big scene, was it?

I didn't have to wait for too long. Here came my prey. A short-hair young woman dressed in leather with too much make-up. A common whore. It wouldn't hurt anyone to sacrifice this slut.

"Don't shot too many times." I heard the Crystal Tear say again. It seemed its words could only reach my ears. The woman continued to walk without any notice. "The energy you use is taken from the sacrificed. Use more and receive less. It's your choice."

Holding up the crystal, I fired a lightning. The dark place lightened for a second, enough for me to see the woman's body falling down. I walked to her, her eyes opened wide but her face betrayed none of her feeling. Poor lady, she didn't have time to realize what happened, or must I say lucky? I felt a new power swirling in the crystal. Why can't I materialize? I asked it.

"The ritual has not yet been completed. I need blood to connect you and me."

What does that mean? I must hurt myself? I asked it but it answered by silence. Then I remembered the sick, yet sweet taste of Touya blood and the alien life force that followed and understood. Kneeled down, I thought for a moment then placed my ghost lips on the bloody hole on her chest. Amazingly, blood wet them and the power in the crystal transferred into my body. I materialized.

Smiling, I continued to lap the blood. Ahh, delicious.

The energy I received this time was much more than last time with Touya, I guessed last time I had wasted too much in my attack. However, I didn't return to you immediately. I had to make sure I would not fade away in the middle of our fun. To ensure my existence, I needed more life force.

It was midnight that I reached your home. My clothes were soaked with blood but any drop from them disappeared once touch the ground.

I chuckled. There were only two people that saw me. A policeman and an old woman. They would never be seen again. All thanks to my precious magical crystal, it had taught me how to turn their corpses into dust, which scattered away with the night wind. It felt so good to be in control after all those centuries.

Your mother opened the door for me without any question of my bloody state. My spell on her seemed to be still in effect.

I entered your room. The light was off. Moonlight spilled in the open window, divided the room into two worlds of bright silver and completely darkness. You sat up, moonlight splashed into pool of silver on your bed. God, you looked so ethereally, so angel-like.

Straining your eyes into the darkness that was hiding me, you asked. "Sai, is that you? Why do you come home so late again?"

Your eyes were so beautiful, so innocent. Mockingly innocent, because after that day in that alley, I knew you were not. But, as my eyes travel to your lips, then to the pale flesh of your chest that the loose nightshirt revealed, a familiar feeling swirled in my groin. Innocent or not, it didn't matter. Because you were beautiful. Because I need you.

"Sai, why don't you say anything?" Your soft voice tore the suffocating silence again.

A low series of chuckles escaped my mouth. You looked startled, then scared. Your expression was so funny. It made me laugh out loud. Making my way to your bed, I came out of the darkness to stand before you in my full glory of crimson crime.

"Blood..." You trailed off, subconsciously backed away from me.

Yes, blood. So beautiful. Blood was life. I knew you would soon learn how delicious, how addictive blood was. Right now, we must pay attention to the love of us.

"Let's began the game, my precious Hikaru."

End Sai POV and so does chapter 1.