Hunter X Hunter Fan Fiction ❯ A Killer's Heart and Darkness ❯ Fights and Feelings ( Chapter 3 )

(A/N) : *ahem* I GOT THE OVAs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAIWAIWAIWAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need the Killua/Gon drama cd, the plushies, and the keychains, then I will b OFFICIALLY obsessed and outta my mind! YAY!!!!

Ya know........I just might start on a Killua+Gon fluffy ficlet. I dunno........people want kawaiiness and crap, and this fic is DARK later on, so it doesnt really qualify, but........*shrug* maybe......

Same disclaimers apply. Sorry I killed off the Shinobi guy, and there WILL b angst on Killua's part, but since thats coming first, he's gonna get over it, and THEN the dark/drama stuff.

K, I'll shut up now *V*

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Hours before the whole incident with the unfortunate Shinobi soldier, Killua and Gon made their way to the first arena where they would soon start their competitions. More and more hallways were what they encountered as they made their way there, after just barging in through the entrance a few minutes earlier.

They sped up as they both heard and saw before them the cheering crowds, who were almost hassling each other just to see the fights taking place.

They darted through the people and looked for themselves.

Gon gasped in amazement. They were standing at the top of the beginning of *many* flights of stairs leading down below to numerous rows of seats. Looking farther out over the arena, the sight of so many concrete squares with a pair of somewhat strong people battling each other on each shocked and delighted Gon as he stood there, awed. Bells rang out, people cheered crazily, and the announcers over the loudspeakers gained the arena fans' undivided attention, only if, though, a good fight was to be ensured.

Gon was dazzled. "*Suuuuuggeeee!*"

He saw Killua shrug beside him, however, watching the whole scene below with a disinterested expression. "Ehhh, it's still the same...."

"Nani?"

Killua shoved his hands in his pockets. "Same as before."

Gon stared wide-eyed at Killua. "You were here before?"

Killua shrugged again, trying to pass off as being bored, but after hearing the somewhat awed praise in Gon's voice, an uncomfortable, flighty feeling began to stir within his stomach and shoot through his veins. "Aa, but I didn't get very fa-N-Nani?" Before completing his sentence, he turned towards Gon and saw his best friend gazing at him with sparkly, shining eyes. Killua SD before he could stop himself. "NANIIII?! WHY ARE YOU *LOOKING* AT ME THAT WAY?!!!!"

Gon sighed and smiled dreamily out over the arena. "Because.....you're so kool and you've been here before. This is my first time, and I have to admit, I'm pretty lost. I don't even know if I'll make it past this round."

Killua saw the smile turn into a somewhat dejected frown. Looking at the person he cared most for and seeing that kind of expression pulled at the only string wrapped around his heart. He knew he had to do *something*-there was no way he would allow Gon to feel the way he seemed to be feeling. Not if Killua could help it.

He stepped forward and a little awkwardly placed his hand on Gon's small shoulder. He faintly blushed when he felt a shiver slice up his arm and straight to his heart because of the contact.

"..................."

Gon turned and stared. "Wha?"

Killua cleared his throat and looked away, pretending he was concentrating on the fights down below.

".......I-I believe in you,......Gon."

Almost anticipating another sparkle from his best friend, Killua turned, but was shocked to find.....to *FEEL* Gon grasp his hand and smile broadly. "And that's why I love you, Killua! C'mon! We have to grab out seats! We almost forgot about that part! They won't see us if we aren't seated!"

Killua: O.O He was a statue. He felt as if his blood had frozen, his organs had turned to lead, his feet as if they were stone......Gon waved his hands in front of him, and when his best friend didn't react, he waved them more frantically and shouted, "Oi!Oi! Killuaaaaaaaaa! C'MON! C'MON!!!!" He jumped around a few more times, before sweatdropping.

Killua felt complete terror! Emotions were rushing through him so quickly, they made his head spin. His heart felt like it was doing flip-flops and somersaults, while his veins coiled up afire. He knew he needed to say *something*, *ANYTHING*, whatever it took to keep his kool and seem collected. He......couldn't.

~H-He said........he said he l-lov-ed me. No one......no one, not even my *father* has said that to me before. Why did he have to *say* that to me. Why *now*. Does he mean it? No, no, he couldn't. But........if he did.....~ Images of Gon and his smile ran through his mind-the way he laughed, grinned, smiled, and even the way he *looked*........it was all blazing through like it had been held down for too long and was just now able to burst through. A dam had been broken, incoherant thoughts swam through too quickly.

Never had Killua felt such a strong emotion before. He had Leorio and Kurapika as his friends also, but never had *these* feelings been present with them. His two other friends were special to him, yes, but Gon....Gon was different. *SO* different in fact tha Killua couldn't even see life *possible* without him. He knew......he just *knew* what that emotion was........he knew, but........he didn't want to admit it. Never could an assassin feel that for someone. .....Never........

Gon had started to poke his immobile friend. "Killua? Please Killua, answer me.........Killua?"

"......I'll help."

"Nani?" Gon pressed his face closer to his friend, making the other boy turn away and grumble. "I-I'll help you........if you need me to,......yeah......."

Gon grinned madly. "Honto?!"

"A-aa........."

"Arigato.......Killua! *^_^*" He looked again at the arena, then gasped. "OI! The *seats*! Come *ON* already! We're gonna be late if we don't hurry! Hiyaku! *Hiyaku*!"

He quickly grabbed Killua's hand and ran down the steps of the aisles, dragging a badly blushing boy along behind him.

"HERE WE GOOOOOOOOO, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! THIS IS THE TIME WE HAVE ALLLLLL BEEN WAITING FOR! WE HAVE SHIZAKU ON SQUARE #3, FIGHTING BOLITU , the successor of the bolitu clan! Then we have fukimi on square #6, fighting.......some weak guy!!!! then, yes, yet *another* famous face-it's Arami of the deathclouds' Quartet! he's gonna be fighting Junahuh, an ex-marine! Now *That's* terror if I do say so myself!!!!" *TONGTONG*

The boys found their seats near the very front of the arena and sat to await their rounds. Gon stared in awe at the fighters in the squares, watching as some shot up and beyond or just over and away, most very forcibly. He began to get nervous. He saw how bored Killua had been with the whole thing, and after finding out he had partaken in the arena many years back, Gon decided that Killua was *definitely* stronger than Gon could only *hope* to be. He felt left out, I guess you could say. He didn't show his feelings on the outside, but instead, hid them with a smile.

Three more bells chimed throughout the arena, and the loudspeakers again crackled to life.

"NUMBER 1973- SANU, VERSUS NUMBER 2055-GON! COME TO THE CENTER ARENA AND EMBRACE YOUR DESTINY!!!!"

Gon smiled nervously at Killua and stood up. "That's me. Wish me luck?"

"Luck?" Killua suddenly grinned and motioned for Gon to lean down and come closer, then whispered something softly in his ear.

Gon's eyes widened. "*Honto?*"

Killua nodded. "Aa," he grinned more widely. "Just listen to me."

Gon smiled a little more confidently, but as he waved at his best friend and made his way down the aisles, his confidence vanished like water down a drain. Most of the crowd jeered at the size of him, while others simply pointed and laughed like crazy. The previous victims could be heard moaning and groaning in pain as they were wheeled out on stretchers and cots, but the majority were glaring at being ridiculed so by a mere boy taking their place.

Gon's steps became shaky.

"GON!"

Gon hesitantly turned back to Killua. "N-Nani?"

"You opened my family's door, right? Just do what I do!"

Gon scratched his head, thinking. ".......But........I don't have claws, Killua!"

Killua: ~.~() "BAKA! What kinda idiot *are* you, huh?! Do what I just *told* you to do! Now, GET DOWN THERE!!!!"

"H-Hai!" Gon, again, made his way slowly towards the end of the row and was now heading towards the center where his opponent and referee were waiting.

Speaking of opponent, Gon saw the guy was *HUGE*. Never had he seen such a big man before, unless you counted the "taste-tester" they had at one of their exam's houses. Gon gulped loudly, but still made his way, slowly, to the center arena.

Fighter 1973 was impatiently looking about, giving the "evil eye" to the sweatdropping referee, then turning back to continue his search. He completely overlooked the small boy that had hesitantly walked up to him.

The referee looked closely at Gon's ID, then turned to the larger of the fighters. " Number 1973, Sanu, your opponent, number 2055, has arrived. Face each other respectfully."

Sanu turned then did a double-take. "Maji, kodomo?" He looked at Gon with stone-like disbelief.

Gon scratched the side of his head nervously. "Uuhhh, maji...."

Sanu looked at the ref, then back at Gon. ".........Three seconds."

"Nani?"

"Three seconds. That is the time it will take me to beat you. I will win in three seconds."

After hearing this, the crowd went WILD. They stood and jeered as well as applauded. Many yelled at Gon, but others gave their crude words of encouragement to Sanu to tear Gon apart.

Gon stood his ground and waited for the ref to announce the start of the match.

The referee stood betweeen the two fighters, held up his hands, and held his breath. "Readyyyyyyy......."

Gon tensed.

Sanu didn't move in the slightest.

"*HAJIME*!!!!"

Suddenly, Sanu charged. Gon saw everything move so slowly. The only thing he could actually make out was the numbers Sanu was counting off outloud. "San........ni......"

Killua's image quickly blotted out his view. Gon remembered what he was told to do.

Heart slightly racing, and without taking a breath, he lifted his arm and held it straight out in front of him, palm out towards the quickly charging Sanu.

"..........Ichi."

The crowd grew deathly quiet as the contact between the two fighters was made and as a loud crash was heard.

Killua scanned the fighting area, trying to see through the quickly gathering smoke that had enveloped the two contestants. He felt an odd ache as he tried to hone out Gon's figure, but the smoke was getting too thick.

~Smoke? Hold on.........~ THERE! The area cleared, and Killua pin-pointed Gon standing in the same spot as before. The smoke.........was coming from all the still-falling debris resulting from Sanu's......heavy landing. Clear across the other side of the arena, and now, unconscious under a pile of rubble, lay Sanu, his head bent to the side, and tongue sticking lazily out.

"SHOORISHA-GON!"

After the ref had announced the winner, the crowd went wild yet again. No one had ever SEEN such a feat displayed so easily before. From the start, as the large Sanu had rushed at him, Gon stood confident. As his opponent was about to strike, he held out his arm, palm raised forward, and simply did what he was told to by his best friend.

Just like the time he had pushed open Killua's home gates, he had waited `til Sanu's bellow had slightly touched his hand, then PUSHED with all of his might. Sanu didnt have a CHANCE. He went flying, put off guard by not being able to even hit Gon cleanly. As the rubble's dust had cleared away, Gon had shockingly seen the damage he gave.

Sanu was unconscious.......and probably WOULD be for a LONG time.

The crowd's cheers died down a bit, and the ref gave Gon a check of some sort and instructions for the next place he was going to. It was the 50th floor! He grinned widely.

After thanking the ref, he ran off the platform, calling Killua's name and eagerly waving.

Killua shrugged to himself. ~I don't think he'll need me as much as I *thought*. *And*, I was worried for nothing......baka na.....~

"Ne, Killua!" Gon climbed up the steps and ran towards him. "Did you see me? I did what you said, and I *won*. Hora!" He giddily waved around the flimsy piece of paper in Killua's face.

"Wakata, wakatayo," Killua grinned, playfully trying to swipe the check. He raised out his hand for a high five, and Gon happily slapped it.

As Gon continued to beam, Killua studied his best friend's face. When he smiled, it was like a light started to burn within Killua, and since Gon smiled ALOT, the light inside of Killua had started to almost turn into an inferno. He felt as if he had to say *something*, but.......he didn't know *what*. That part was getting aggrivating. The only thing he knew was that.....he loved looking at Gon's smile, and that he wanted to feel the way he always felt around Gon forever. Zutto zenzen[1].

The arena's bell gonged again. "NUMBER 2059-OWARUTO, VERSUS NUMBER 2054-KILLUA! YOUR FIGHT WILL COMMENCE SHORTLY. COME TO THE CENTER PRONTO!!!!"

Killua shrugged and grinned to himself. "Hai-*hai*." He made his way down the aisle to where he was supposed to be. He blushed slightly as he heard Gon shout his encouragements. ~ Gon no baka. And he better shut up, too." He shook his head and casually strolled to the center arena.

Gon happily watched his best friend, then turned to the men staring at him from one row behind. He waved cheerily to get their attention. "OI! OI! Please cheer on my friend, onegai?"

The men looked at each other, wondering how such an innocent, polite, and SMALL child could have beaten their friend, Sanu, then turned back back to him. "A-aa, we will ........try our best......"

Gon beamed again. "Arigato, minna-san!" He plopped down to watch the fight. The men behind him looked at each other then at the back of the slowly walking silver-haired boy.

As Killua stepped onto the platform, he smirked to himself, and smoothly made his way to place.

~ Rakusha, rakusha.......[2] This is gonna b *too* easy......~

The two fighters faced each other-the man named Owaruto looked at Killua nervously, while Killua merely stood there, half bored, yet smirking up at Owaruto slyly.

After the ref said everything that was needed to be said, he raised his arms, and........

"HAJIME!!!!"

The fight was over in a SECOND.

As the ref shouted and the larger, red-haired fighter had charged, Killua stealthily stepped to one side, and

easily back-handed the man in the back of his head.

He went DOWN.

Killua shrugged. "Che, I hope it gets better than *this*."

He turned to the referee. The ref was standing off to the side, and actually GAPING at him.

"Call the match. I won."

"Aa....SHOORISHA-KILLUA!"

Gon jumped up and down in his seat, cheering almost giddily. Hearing no words of enthusiasm from a certain group behind him, he turned. The small group of men was literally slack-jawed. Their mouths hung open and were almost collecting candy wrappers from off the arena's floor.

".........Onegai?" Gon looked up at them with his best puppy-eyed gaze.

"........Uhhh.......go-gomen......," the obvious "leader" stuttered. He then turned towards the silver-haired boy still speaking with the ref, and squeaked out nervously, " K-KAKOI DESU N-NE! THAT WAS........AWESOME, ........K-KILLUA-*KUN*!!!!"

Gon grinned happily. "Desho?[3]" He turned and stared in awe at his best friend. "He's so great....... *sigh* Honto ni, *sugeeeeyo*...."

He watched as Killua reached out for two flimsy pieces of paper. With his expert hearing from all the times listening to the night creatures of his island, he discerned through the crowd's cheers and listened to what his best friend was saying.

The referee gave the papers to the winner.

"Sankyuu, and I want to start on the 50th floor."

The ref stared in shock then read something on his clipboard that he had been carrying around. "Demo....Aren't you Killua Z-Zoldikk?"

"Aa."

"Then," the ref became confused. "Weren't you here about six years ago? We have you listed as a competitor for the 180th level! Surely, you don't want to waste your time with such inadequacy and trivial fights! Accept your place."

Killua glared, his eyes beginning to blaze with a masked fury. ~He better not have called Gon "trivial".....Gon is on the 50th floor, and where *he* goes, *I* will go!~ He clenched his fists, but put on an easy, lade-back smile, one that only a past victim of the Zoldikks would know was the most dangerous, if not straight-out feral.

Killua held out his hand towards the ref and the papers. "I want to take it slow......"

The ref blinked in surprise, then shook his head and sighed. "Well, it's your decision......."

"Aa."

The ref scrutinized more closely at Killua again, before handing over the tickets and check of the 50th floor.

As Killua was walking off towards the stands, Gon saw his chance and jumped up. He raced down the steps and ran to his best friend.

Once Killua saw the sight of his most favorite person coming to greet him, he stopped in his tracks immediately, while his thoughts ran crazily through his head.

The vision of Gon happily running towards him was almost to hard to believe. Never had he seen such a sight; he was so used to people shrieking and RUNNING from him that the opposite seemed almost unbelievable. Not only that, but lately, Killua had noticed little things that he hadnt cared for before........

Like the way Gon had always smiled so HAPPILY around him, and how his eyes lit up when he caught sight of Killua.

Again, *that* feeling swelled up within an untouched territory in Killua and made the darkest place beat wildly with a pure......HAPPINESS, if Killua had ever KNOWN such a thing before.

Killua shook his head slightly, annoyed at such thoughts that had been popping up lately. They were just WEIRD! He shrugged, then started to jog towards his best friend.

They finally reached each other and high-fived.

"WOW, you were GREAT, Killua! I hope I never fight *you*!" Gon smiled at the silver-haired boy.

"Iiiiiie," Killua yawned, stretching his arms behind his head. "It's gonna be boring `til we get higher up." He blushed slightly, already contemplating how he would phrase the next sentence. "Plus, .......I would *never* agree to fighting you. Errrr...., yeah...."

Gon gave a lop-sided smile.

After a few minutes of just staring at the other competitors, Gon looked back at Killua. "Ne, what do we do *now*? Do we fight again?"

Killua looked up towards the arena's clock. "Since we got here so late, I think we have to wait `til the morning. The whole thing ends at 9 for tonight, since it's the beginning." He turned to the exit and looked over at Gon. "We should go and settle in out rooms for now, and take it from there."

Gon smiled and complied.

As they were climbing the stairs again to get to the hallway that opened at the top, Gon finally figured out what had been bugging him.

"Ne, Killua......"

"Hm?"

"If you think it's boring right now, then *why* did you tell the ref that you wanted to take it slow and go to the 50th floor? He said you could've gone to the 180th level! Why would you want to start all over again if it bores you? .........Killua?"

Just ahead of him, Killua had stopped walking, his back turned. Everyone else saw a VERY shocked and quickly shading crimson boy.

After about a minute, his blood rushing straight up to his face, Killua whirled around and glared fiercely at Gon, blushing badly. "*NANIIIII?* *Uruse*, Gon! You don't know what you're talking about! It's no fun if ......it's no fun if I beat this whole thing in two days! *Baka.....*!" Killua continued to glare, just DARING Gon to say something that went totally against what Killua just said.

Gon sweatdropped, his smile wavering. "Heheh.....gomen, gomen....." He waved his hands, dismissive, and was already wracking his brain on changing the subject.

Killua huffed and turned back around, still slightly pink.

Gon: *_*()

A few rows below and to the right, a darkly- dressed figure smiled cruelly to himself. Not only had he anticipated the sight of the figure of his prolonged hatred, but two things had also OBVIOUSLY been brought to his attention, one that was just to hard to believe.

First of all, even though the object of his rage had gotten stronger, he seemed to hold back now on his killing instinct. It unnerved the man. Seeing a killer not perform a perfect KO was just unbelievable, ESPECIALLY when it came to a renown Zoldikk.

The second thing that had shocked him so badly was the apparent friendship and something MORE between the killer and the small-dark-headed boy in the green outfit. Never had the man seen such a moment between a Zoldikk and one not of their own. Even WITH family, he had never seen such an affection displayed between two people as he saw between the two boys.

It SICKENED him, to say the least.

But......it was almost actually ......AMUSING. The dark-haired boy-Gon, the ref had said- seemed to not only bring out a ......humane quality in the Zoldikk, but also had a somewhat CONTROL over him, too. The immediate coloring of the silver-haired boy proved that and said more at the same time.

The man smirked. This was actually becoming more interesting.

He focused, again, on Gon.

At first, his breath had been caught as he studied the small boy. An ....INNOCENCE completely vibrated around him, and seemed to make him more vulnerable than what he was, since his competition proved that he was quite strong.

Not only was the man caught by the boy's innocence, but his strength entranced him. The way he moved and fought yelled out strength, but his apparent image was just PURE vulnerability. This amused him, also.

He knew now. He knew how to enact his revenge against the Zoldikk, and also possess the thing he wanted most now.

What he wanted most now.......What he was hungry for now........What he lusted....... And would something keep him from what he wanted? Would someONE? ......... Iie.

He smiled dangerously, his eyes glinting with a powerful light.

He loved it. The options of having a challenge and victory......He was going to take what he wanted, and kill anyone and anything that tried to stop him......

The man turned away for a second from the two boys and searched out a certain tall, bald, and Shinobi-ish soldier. He spotted the group to his far right, and watched as the group immediately got up and walked towards the exit hallway.

He turned back to the boys and almost laughed outloud.

The Zoldikk, at this moment, looked so uncomfortable and .......RED, that it was almost too unbelievable for one of THAT heritage.

The man wanted so badly to follow his hatred and desire, but knew........it would have to wait.

He looked towards the exit again.

Yeah, he knew what he had to do first. He had sensed a threat within a certain soldier, and knew if he didn't dispose the threat, he would never be able to fulfill his vengeance and newly-formed plans.

With, yet again, one last look at the boys, the dark figure smoothly stood and headed towards the opposite exit which the Shinobitachi had gone through.

After his blush had diminished and his blood pressure was under control, Killua shrugged to himself and continued to walk to the upper exit. Gon treaded closely behind.

After a few moments of silence, Gon remembered what he wanted to ask.

"Ne, Killua, ya know there's a pool on the next to our room. It says so on our card."

"Aa, so?"

"Weeeell, I was wondering if we could go swimming before we go to our room......Ii no ka?"

Killua looked over at Gon, not slowing his pace. "What would we swim in? We don't have any swimming trunks."

"I have an extra pair of shorts (A/N: yeah, I bet theyre green....~.~()) in my pack, and if you need any extra, you can buy some in the arena's shop. That's on our floor, too!"

Killua thought about this, then gave a small smile to Gon. "OK. You wanna go swimming now, then?"

"Un!" Gon smiled happily.

Killua grinned, reached over, and put his hand somewhat shyly onto Gon's shoulder. Gon smiled widely at this, but then his smile wavered as he saw Killua's eyelids upturn and two fangs poke out of the now EVIL grin that he gave.

"WHOEVER GETS THERE FIRST HAS TO THROW THE LOSER IN! HAHAHAAAAA!"

With that, Killua darted off down the hall, still laughing.

Gon stopped in shock and sweatdropped. "KIIIIIIIIILLUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAA.........!!!!"

Unbeknownst to them, this would be the start of the most dangerous of events.

Yeah, this fic WILL b long, and thanks again to all who reviewed. THANKS alot to who emailed me, 2. U guys r kool #_#

BTW, Ren-chan, if ur reading this, DAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISUKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!! *V*

Now, .........for the lil translations:

The whole "wakata" thing basically means "I got u, I understand"

"Zutto zenzen" is a kool phrase that sorta means "COMPLETELY FOREVER" Its the best translation possible.

"SHOORISHA" means "WINNER!"

"Rakusha" means "Easy" Alot of animes say this now, but they never before, so Im guessing Im sorta up to date with them *V*

"Desho" is actually a suffix, but can be used in some cases. I just luv the way Gon says it, though. It means "really? Truly? Isn't that right?" It's like HONTO, but just a suffix, too.

"Kakoi" means "kool"

etc.

Etc.

Get a dictionary

Etc.

Ok, I think that's about it.

O! Wait a sec! Ok, I wanna apologize for what I said in the beginning, in chap. 1. Since I own a few of the mangas for HXH, I never really thought about translating Killua's name in it, since I knew what the katakana of it looked like (plus, .......its on my arm PERMANENTLY *V*), but I just translated it for the heck of it during class two days ago (yeah, MATH is BORING), and it really IS spelled out as "Kirua". I guess thats where all those "Kirua people" get it from. BUT, it IS pronounced with an "L", and in the anime, it IS spelled as "Killua", I'm guessing, just for the UNIVERSAL spelling.

NEHOO< sorry for saying it wasn't spelled like "Kirua", all u manga-luvers ^_^

BTW, get the manga 2 the OVA, too. I got them AND the OVA DVD, and putting it all together helps u understand the Hiragana/Katakana better *shrug* if u wanna learn it and all........

Lemme just tell u now, I DONT WRITE LEMONS. U lookin for one, GO AWAY. U wont find one here, but u WILL get some weird/creepy/dark/whatever I think up in a few secs stuff so BEWARE. ^_^

*V*

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