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Humanity

By Joyfulmusic

 

Disclaimer: I do not own Fullmetal Alchemist or Inuyasha. Never have, never will. This fanfic contains some spoilers. I haven't seen the whole series of either show so I'm not sure how they end. But that's why this is a fanfic

 

 

Chapter 18: Depression

 

Edward stood with her as Willa washed off in the lake water. Inuyasha and his friends had made a fire close by. The alchemist's cheek was bandaged with Kagome's supplies, but nothing could be done for his arm. His love hadn't spoken since she'd changed back. All she did was cry painfully every now and then.

 

Sadly she returned to stand beside him. Her clothes were wet where she'd try to rid them of the rancid smell. She couldn't bring herself to look at him. `I'm not human. Not anymore. I'm a monster without control. I can't stay with him.' But she knew his thoughts, knew he wouldn't let her go, not even now.

 

With a slight smile Edward held his hand out to her. “You need to come sit by the fire, so you don't get sick.” She nodded without taking his hand. Pained by her reaction, he slipped it around her waist. Lightly he kissed her cheek before leading her to the small fire the group had built.

 

Kagome smiled warmly, patting the grass beside her for them to take a seat. The couple did, with Willa at her side. The miko could see the sorrow in the girl's eyes. It was the same look Inuyasha'd had the day he'd killed all those bandits. The difference was that she didn't bother to try and hide it as he had.

 

“Would you care for a fish?” Miroku offered, holding the perch out to the depressed girl. But after swallowing hard she shook her head, refusing to even glance at him. He sighed deeply then put it back over the fire to cook a little more. The monk wasn't sure what to say. She'd attacked him, but he knew she hadn't meant to.

 

Sango felt the same way as she watched the redhead. “Perhaps we could have a sword made for you. Inuyasha has Tetsusaiga, maybe that's all you would require to be able to control your powers.” But the girl's eyes didn't change. They were still concentrating on the fire before her, as though she hadn't heard.

 

Shippo had just finished his fish. The boy wasn't really sure about this new girl. However he did realize that she was confused and depressed. Her scent had changed from human to hanyou during the day. After the transformation he noticed that her original smell hadn't returned. He was sure she'd noticed that as well, but didn't ask.

 

With a huff Inuyasha spoke up. “It's not the end of the world you know!” He glared at her but Willa didn't move. “You need to get over yourself. We don't have time for you to have a pity party. We've got too much else we have to do.” The hanyou stopped speaking when he saw that familiar look in Kagome's eyes.

 

“Inuyasha… SIT!” With the command the prayer beads around his neck glowed. In moments he crashed against the ground, face first. After seeing her handywork the miko turned with a sympathetic look to Willa. “Don't pay any attention to that jerk. He's such a child sometimes.”

 

But the girl only nodded slightly. The rest of the company frowned. It seemed as though nothing could reach her now. Her mind seemed to be closing off the world around her. Nothing they said or did was enough to bring her out of the state she had gone into. The thought of what she'd tried was just too much for her to handle.

 

Edward stood, pulling her with him. The others watched as he walked back toward the edge of the lake. “Where does he think he's going?” Inuyasha questioned in a mean voice. It was getting on his nerves the way this guy was stepping in. Although he loved Kagome, he felt Willa should be under his protection. Guilt made him believe it was his fault she was no longer human. After all, it was his blood in her veins.

 

“Oh shut up!” The miko complained, crossing her arms. “He is her boyfriend Inuyasha! He's trying to help her. Unlike another certain someone!” She was maddened by his response. Hadn't the hanyou kissed her the day before? And now he was acting like he cared for this new girl! `Men!'

 

 

“Willa, please speak to me.” Ed pleaded as they reached the water's edge. “You can't just quit talking like this. I need for you to tell me how to help you. Please Willa, don't leave me.” She shook her head as if to say she hadn't. “If you don't speak then it's like you left me. Now say something. Let me know you're still here.”

 

She turned to look up into his golden eyes. Her lips parted slightly but quickly closed again. What was she supposed to tell him? Staring at the moon she sighed heavily. She would have to say something. After all, she didn't want to keep hurting him. “I'm here.” Her voice was low enough he almost didn't hear it.

 

He griped her chin, pulling her gaze back down to meet his own. His hand moved behind her head, then pulled her into a soft kiss. He could taste the tears on her lips, and hear as more began to fall. It broke his heart to think that he could do nothing to help. All he wanted was to relieve her pain, even if it was only a little.

 

Pulling back she could see the hurt in his face. A finger brushed the bandage. “I'm sorry you got hurt.” She murmured before turning to gaze back at the water. “You shouldn't have tried that. Now you'll have to get a new arm made.” Her heart ached at the thought of his leaving. But he'd have to go into the city for repairs at the very least.

 

“It wasn't your fault.” He confirmed, placing a kiss on her hand. “Besides, I could use a new arm. Maybe a stronger one this time.” His smile was contagious. Seeing the grin on her face he caressed her cheek softly, glad the purple marks were gone. Her head turned allowing him to look down into those beautiful blue eyes.

 

She shook her head a little, but the smile still didn't fade. “I don't deserve someone like you. I haven't done anything to be worthy of such loyalty. Why do you stay with me?” Her voice was soft to make sure Inuyasha wouldn't hear the question. She needed this time alone with the man she loved.

 

Ed's eyes glistened in the moonlight. “Because.” He murmured. “Even if I did leave, my heart would stay behind. Now how can you expect me to leave something so important behind?” His grin was the same one he used to give as a teenager, when he knew he was right about something. It made her feel better, remembering having seen a similar one years earlier.

 

“Don't you two think you should come back to the camp?” Willa rolled her eyes as she heard Inuyasha scream angrily at them. Then she could hear the inevitable command from Kagome and the thud that always followed. “Kagome!” He moaned with his face in the dirt.

 

Willa frowned a little observing the scene behind them. Then she turned back to Edward who was watching her intently. With a wary smile she wrapped her arms around his neck. “I love you so much.” Then she pressed her lips tightly against his, but almost instantly she could taste his blood in her mouth. One of her fangs had pricked him. Before she could pull away Ed forced her into another kiss, careful of the fangs this time. He could feel her try to back up but held her steady with his arm. She didn't resist much longer. Instead she relaxed, her hand running behind his head. He could feel the others watching but didn't care. All that mattered was Willa and the love he held for her.

 

His hand slipped into hers as he took a few steps back towards the camp. But when she didn't follow he turned to look back at her. She was blushing slightly so he moved to stand before her again. “What now? Are you embarrassed?” She nodded but then shook her head.

 

Peering up into his eyes she wasn't sure what to say. “I am embarrassed because they were watching. But…” She glanced down at the ground. “It's also what I did… earlier. I attacked them and… they only wanted to help. But something made me not want to change back, made me want to stay like that.”

 

Ed brushed her cheek gently. “It's alright Willa. They understand. Just ask them to forgive you and they will. They've been through this with Inuyasha. But about them watching…” He gave her an evil grin. “Let's give them a good show.” With that he moved to kiss her more passionately this time.

 

She didn't try to resist. This was what she needed, to be loved, and to know it. `It has been too long.' Her eyes stayed closed as his lips pressed against the side of her neck. “Hmmm.” She mumbled softly. He pulled her closer as his kiss returned to her lips, adding to the mounting passion.

 

Ed could hear his heart pounding in his ears as he continued. He wanted so much to please her, but knew they would have to stop. As he backed away she gave a deep groan. That pout was almost more than he could take. But there was something in her eyes that told him her wild side was surfacing again. It would be wrong to press her any further in her current state. He knew she wanted to wait. Besides that, he had his own morals to think of.

 

This time as he led her toward the fire she followed. The girl's head was down as they took a seat beside Kagome. His arm slipped behind Willa and gave a slight squeeze. It seemed to give her the strength she needed to speak, but not enough to raise her head. “I'm sorry, for what happened earlier. I couldn't seem to help it, couldn't stop myself. Please forgive me.”

 

“Don't allow it to concern you.” Miroku told her reassuringly, his gaze on her. “It's nothing we couldn't handle.” While the lady beside him was distracted, his hand moved to stroke Sango's butt. With a quick slap his hand was on the side of his red cheek, a stupid grin across his lips.

 

Willa looked up with a slight smile. The demon slayer was frowning at the monk but turned to speak with her. “It will be fine. We wish to help you, but you will have to allow us to do so.” She slapped Miroku as his hand returned to grope her again. “Lecher.” She growled in a low voice.

 

Kagome shook her head with a frown. “He'll never learn.” Then she turned to look at the redhead with hope. “We can have you a sword made like Tetsusaiga. That's what keeps Inuyasha from changing into a full demon. Maybe we could have it made so that it would suppress your mind reading powers too.”

 

They all turned when Inuyasha huffed. He had moved to sit cross-legged on a large rock. “Oh sure get her a sword like mine. I'd like to see her use one. She won't even kill a rabbit for lunch.” His gaze moved to meet hers. “I don't even think she's ever held a weapon in her life. She's just a weakling.”

 

With a roll of her eyes Willa got a wicked smirk. “Oh sure that's why you're mad. It has nothing to do with the fact that Edward actually knows how to satisfy the woman he loves.” She glared at the hanyou's shocked face. “Meanwhile you can't get it in your own thick head that you're in love with Kagome.”

 

A deep blush spread over him before he exploded with anger. “How dare you! You can't just go around saying stuff like that!” The young miko was flush now too, embarrassed by the truthful accusations. “And I'm not in love with Kagome!” Once the words were passed his lips he regretted them.

 

Kagome frowned at him, anger filled her eyes. But Willa placed a hand on her arm to ward off the command that would have come next. “Oh who are you kidding? Everyone here knows you're in love with her! So get over yourself and admit it!” She gave that sly grin again, knowing she was right.

 

Inuyasha growled before standing to walk away. He didn't have to take this from some girl! It wasn't any of her business what he did or didn't feel for Kagome. But when he turned back he could see how hurt the miko was. A pain rushed straight to his heart. He moved to take her hand and pull her with him.

 

She allowed it, only because the woman at her side prodded her to do so. Walking with her head down she scolded herself for thinking he cared. `He's in love with Kikyou, not me. I know that. I've always known that. But why would Willa say what she did? Is that really what he's feeling for me?'

 

Pausing at the water's edge the hanyou turned to look at her. He dare not go any farther; Tetsusaiga's power could only reach a certain distant. His arms wrapped around the woman he truly cared for. “Oh Kagome. I do care for you. I just don't know how to show it in front of them.” He pulled her close. “They're so nosey, and I'm supposed to be strong.”

 

“Oh Inuyasha.” She pressed her head against his chest with a sigh. He wasn't as open as she had seen Edward be with Willa, but this small movement was enough. She knew even this much was hard for the hanyou. So she closed her eyes, holding on to the moment for as long as she could.