InuYasha Fan Fiction / Red River Fan Fiction ❯ Ereshkigal ❯ Prologue ( Prologue )

She knew she was Fate's favorite punching bag when she ended up in 14th century BCE Anatolia. Now, she must decide which path she must take in order to find out where she truly belongs. Red River xover.

 

Ereshkigal

 

Prologue:

 

For three years, she led a double life. One of which only she could fully comprehend. Being fifteen at the time when she first fell down the ancient well on the shrine grounds her family owned, she did not grasp the full knowledge of what it meant to live in history. Along with everything in life, there were rules that had to be followed. The constant struggle of knowing she could do nothing for some people without changing her future and wanting to help them tore repeatedly through her heart many times. She had the power, but it came with great consequence. At times, she felt like a betrayer; personally responsible for the lives she couldn't save.

 

Strangers called her selfless. If they only knew. No human, no matter how pure, could ever be truly as altruistic as they proclaimed her to be. No, there was an ongoing war between her mind and her heart. And though at times it seemed her heart was worn on her sleeve for the world to see, it was her mind that was winning.

 

She was only human.

 

She had her own wants, her own dreams. She loved and she hated. And yet, they made her out to be some kind of goddess in a human form. They made her seem so…perfect. When she thought of it, of all the things people thought her to be, her heart bled a little more. But it wasn't enough. Far too attached to her own life, she knew, deep down, that she wouldn't risk it if it meant that it would change the future for the worse. She wondered constantly if anyone could ever relate to her. If they, too, had to live with the burden of hiding whom he or she really was, and how he or she really felt. It was enough to make her scream in frustration and anger and sorrow.

 

How much she wished that she was that perfect goddess they made her out to be! She was so tired of the game “pretend”. In both of her eras, Heisei and Sengoku Jidai, nobody suspected the raging emotions that were consuming her mind little-by-little since she broke that beautifully cursed jewel. She knew that keeping her emotions at bay where no one would be able to notice, no matter how keen the eye or how wise the creature, was a foolish thing to do. But still, it seemed to her that all her problems, all her selfish wishes and the things that ultimately made her human, were too small in comparison to those around her. She knew of their wants and needs, the wanting to exact revenge for fallen comrades and family alike against the vile monster known as Naraku had consumed her group. She figured that it was these kinds of desires, ones that could be considered both selfish and not, that rose up before her own.

 

Too many times she had experienced what was only natural for her to experience. Too many times she stood like a board, stiff and too afraid to journey out on the battlefield to help those who were most precious to her. But, there were also times when all sense of fear had all but vanished. It would leave her feeling numb, but it was a numbness that made her feel like she could conquer the world; and in the heat of battle, arrogance can often lead to fatal mistakes. And in one such incidence, her mistake had been somebody else's fatality.

 

So she ran.

 

She ran from everything that had decided who she was. She ran from the disappointment she knew lingered around those she cared for; she didn't want to see the expressions on their faces. She ran from all the lies that she faced about herself.

 

When her feet had carried her to the well that forced her into an adventure that would be long forgotten in the era she was born into, her feudal fairytale, she couldn't help but think of a second chance, a blank slate-like life where she could completely start over. Everything could be so much better! And while not realizing that the complete Shikon no Tama laid in her clenched fists, obviously momentarily forgotten by its guardian, her heart made the wish for her. Suddenly, flashes of light consumed her vision. Reds, blues, and yellows swam before her at lightning speed, making her dizzy. Then just as the lights appeared, they dimmed and everything went black.

 

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A/N: So what do you peeps think? I know it's probably confusing right now, but everything will be answered sooner or later.

 

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