InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Forbidden Pain ❯ Chapter 3

So. The formatting is still screwed up and I can't stand it! It's all clumped together, but that's….Gotta do for now. Anyway, I don't own any of the characters and stuff. You know that.

 

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Chapter 3

 

Yusuke refrained from chucking the compact and went to get some water from Kurama's request from moving Kagome. “I can't feel her blood moving.”

Hiei spoke sitting near, but against a tree. “Her mental defenses are still up, she'll live…Surprisingly.”

“Indeed. Perhaps she will trust us now Hiei.”

“If not you two do now.”

Kurama looked up at him. “And you Hiei?”

“Hn.”

Kurama smiled. “Very well then. Perhaps we can all try to get along now with some level of peace.”

Kagome opened her eyes the next day noticing she was flopped over Yusuke's shoulder. She felt like shit. Not wanting them to know she woke like this she faded off into sleep until they stopped for the night where she would be put down.

“Kagome chan. Look!”

Kagome lifted her head up from her oversized yellow bag and went over to where Sango was standing. “Yes Sango chan?”

“A hot spring!”

Kagome's eyes glittered with excitement. “Wow! I mean I haven't had a bath in two days! This is great Sango chan!” She turned to Miroku making a fire with matches. “Miroku kun tell Inuyasha when he returns from catching fish that Sango chan and Shippo chan and I are going to the hot spring.”

Sango gave him a glare. “And houshii sama if I so as find or think you were looking at us you won't know what hit you until you wake up.”

Miroku smiled pleasantly with his purple eyes. “Ladies, ladies, there is no need for such hostility. I am a man of the cloth, I will do no such thing.”

Inuyasha returned with a pile of fish. “Damn liar. Buddhist priest my ass I don't know what got to you.”

“Such foul moods will bring bad karma around to you Inuyasha.”

“Same as a bad headache and a knott on your head when hirotkious connects to your head pervert houshii.”

Shippo jumped into Kagome's arms. “So stay here Miroku, watch the kuroinu for us all-“

Inuyasha stood. “-The fuck is that supposed-“

“-Oswarii…Inuyasha don't curse around Shippo chan. Don't encourage him. Bad enough he has to be around Miroku kun.”

“I am offended Kagome sama.”

She smiled. “Right.”

Inuyasha noticed. “Hey Kagome, why isn't there any Ramen cooking?”

“Because we ran out yesterday Inuyasha. I'll need to go back to my time for some more…Then I can catch up on my homework! So can I stay for six days Inuyasha? Then I should be able to stay for a bit longer until my next test.”

“Six days!? Are you crazy wench we have to collect shikkon karea you can't be meeting Hobo while we're sitting here waiting for your as- uh butt.”

“Please Inuyasha? I haven't even seen my Mom in a long time and she gets worried as well. Besides, you said you would teach Souta how to use a sword some next time I came back.”

`If I go back, her kassan will make me food.' Inuyasha spoke. “Fine. Six days.”

Kagome smiled running off to the stream. Sango spoke. “Actually, Inuyasha my sword is in need of mending since I had to use it when Hiroktus was batted aside. I'll need about six days as well to return to my village to repair it-“

“Why not the whole fuckin' world take six days off allright! Go bathe your butt so you can go and I can get this girl back to the bone eaters well…Feh.”

Kagome opened her eyes. Dreams… She still felt like shit splattered against a fan in a house hit by a hurricane in the path of an atom bomb. She staired up at the sky for a while noticing how far east they had gotten and wondered if she actually did wake herself up a few hours later or if it had been longer. She listened to Kurama and Yusuke.

“Yusuke. It has only been two days. If she were a ningen she would be long dead, and even for a youkai she would most likely be dead.”

“So when's she waking up then.”

Kurama raised a brow. “Too heavy for you Yusuke?”

Hiei spoke from his low tree branch. “Or are you just too weak.”

Yusuke gave them both a look. “I'm just asking all right! Gesh.”

“Perhaps in a few days at the least. I'd imagine if she woke now she would feel…Very bad.”

“Putting it mildly.” Yusuke said. “So you think she'll trust us now? I mean we didn't turn her in while she ran off doing whatever and we stood up for her and didn't kill her when she's like this. And she defended us against that wind witch and those koiyoukai.”

“Just because we trust her does not mean she has to Yusuke.”

“Awh come on! Hiei trust me and I was just a measly mainly ningen then and now I'm whatever… Now I've grown on him to some level he dosen't call me ningen any longer and doesn't try killing me any longer. Hiei?”

“I'm quiet aware of the fact.” Hiei said.

Yusuke sighed. “I hope so anyway. We all got a raw deal, but hers is rare.”

Hiei gave him a look. “Your logic pains me.”

“Yeah I make sense sometimes.” He smiled. “Besides, she's not bad once she's been around ya for awhile.”

Kurama turned towards him. “Isn't that the same thing you said of Kieko when first meeting her?”

“Wanna make something of it?”

“Just inquiring.”

“Then you should inquire about her and Hiei. Two of a kind. Both short though Hiei might have gained five centimeters since Toguro.”

“You will also have the same aspects of the fish you are eating if you don't stop talking.”

Yusuke smirked. “He threatens more though and oddly talks more, counting “hn” of course.”

Kurama joined in. “As well, oddly enough, she is more stubborn.”

Hiei `hn' and the two laughed some. The girl faded asleep glad dreams were avoided and woke an hour before dawn. Eyes open, she stood feeling everything inside of her cringe with pain and almost collapsed again. She fell down to one knee noticing she had woken up the three from their half sleeps.

Kurama spoke quickly getting up not wanting her to further injure herself. “Kagome, please be still you are not yet- How could you Koenma…“

Kagome, on one knee, threw up another load of freshly made blood. She gasped for air but whined as Yusuke spoke. “Damnit the hell?! It's still going on? Days ago.”

Kurama took out a seed. “Perhaps I can make a tea to make-“

Kagome threw up another load of blood and fell onto her side. In pain. Pure pain. Pure thriving agonizing waking needles pain. Hearing a river she forced herself to stand coughing up some blood and walked off towards it.

Kurama noticed it. “She can barley walk.”

Yusuke looked around. “Where'd Hiei go?”

Kagome threw up slightly less blood while a few meters from the brook but still fell down. Struggling and arms buckling she forced herself to stand and went to clean herself and her feudal/modern clothing. She left the brook spitting more blood out of her mouth and took about five steps until she threw up more blood, all that was left, and fell down. She couldn't get up. She was angry, seething in pain. Weakness.

“If you keep forcing yourself like this you'll get yourself killed before you can kill Koenma. And it isn't weakness to be alive after expelling all of the blood in your body. Strength.” Kagome still tried to get up. Hiei lightly kicked her down. “Stay down.”

Kagome was on her side energy spent. “Why are you here.”

“To make sure you don't get yourself killed. Hard enough being forbidden killing yourself will make it all seem worthless.”

“Why do you care, you can blend in.”

“Just because I can pass as a fire youkai doesn't mean I always have been able to. I know in part what you've been through - Stay down.”

Kagome gave in and sighed. “Fine. How are you able to blend in though.”

“My mother was an ice maiden, weak. So my fire half could easily dominate it. As well I have a twin sister who never showed any fire attributes and doesn't even know she is forbidden and no one does and that's how it will stay. Yours are strong, equal.” He looked down at her. “And tearing you apart inside.”

“I can control it.”

“You will kill yourself if you don't listen to me and stay down.” Hiei saw her crystal change colors. “Better. Why did you help us with the lesser youkai and koi youkai. Easily could have let those two die.”

“What would I gain from their deaths…Exactly.”

“You trust them to some extend though.”

“Keh.”

“Hn. Exactly.” It was quiet for a while. “Why did you leave ten days ago.”

Kagome was quiet for a long while. She had no idea if she should tell him anything, he'd go back and tell the other two, and the ningen youkai hanyou with the black hair would tell Koenma, who she now hated and wanted dead more than Naraku…Almost. But for some strange reason she felt as if even this “hi” youkai did go and tell the others, she could trust him, to some extent of course. Because no one can live a life of solitude and still live a life. Maybe he could be some type of ally. Nothing more would come from it and she would not let anything more come from it. She didn't want anything more. But she didn't want someone else near her, close to her to die. Thinking of her family in Tokyo didn't hurt her surprisingly any longer. Inuyasha betraying her, fucking Kikyou was a slight bruise, but the only thing that still hurt her was the fact that -

“My son is dead.”

Of all of the things he was expecting of her to say that was not even a possibility. Hiei was shocked and his face showed it slightly. Part of her past indeed. Why did she leave him here if she went back to Tokyo in modern area? And when did she have a son? What happened to the father? Why would he leave her? Was he killed? Who took care of her son while she was in school? Who did she find someone to mate with, who would obviously knew even if she was in a ningen guise that she was forbidden when mating. Was she rapped? More likely, but who would still defile themselves with a forbidden child? That would bring the possibility of a forbidden hanyou. Did he die of natural causes? Illness? Or was he killed? When she found out obviously the change in emotion, alerting Koenma… Was she sad? - Why the hell did he care. Hiei had too many questions in his head as he spoke.

“You didn't know when you first came here. Why did you leave.”

Why did she leave? She did catch Sango and Miroku in the air, but she had as well when leaving the bone eaters well. She didn't want them to know she was alive. They were safer, happier, better off even if they didn't think so knowing she was dead. Dead as a ningen, not alive as a forbidden child. What would Sango think if she found out and had to slay the forbidden child who was once like a sister to her? If Miroku had to kill a woman he groped and cared for as a true friend? They didn't need to know that. But why had she gone towards their scents? She didn't know Inuyasha was in the area. She was going to go and kill him and Kikyou on her own when the spirit detectives didn't see her, personal, private… But in all honestly -

“I don't know.”

Yet another answer that baffled Hiei who was never baffled. How could the onna not know why she left? Must of been coherent otherwise they would have been alerted. Nice trick getting the fire wood too… But if she didn't know, and it wasn't on instinct, and nothing was calling her, could she have met someone down there? The father? A lover? She doesn't have a lover, Kurama would have picked up on it at least. But, who then? Or what?

“Then who killed your son.”

Didn't she kill Shippo? Kikyou had a part of her soul in her, her soul, or was it really her soul? Regardless, she let Shippo die. He went after her when Inuyasha tried killing her, and did for all purposes. She died on that day never to go back to the same Kagome. Her death cause his. Shippo didn't deserve to die. Thinking of Kikyou with Inuyasha hurt her some, barley, but thinking of Kikyou killing her son…It was her fault…She was glad she had strong control over her emotions for her crystal to stay the same color. Don't tell the hi youkai you killed your own son.

“Kikyou.”

“You killed Inuyasha as well.”

“Yes.”

“How old was he.”

Shippo would never again have a birthday. She remembered when Shippo first told her how he knew the day he was born. His father had showed him the stars and a certain alignment. When it was so, that signified a full year had passed since he was born. He smiled in the memory of his father. And when she saw the same alignment in the stars, she let him eat all of the pocky he wanted and spent the entire day with him. Some memories she wanted to forget, but nothing would ever take that one from her.

“Nine.”

So she was rapped and left on her own to take care of him at such a young age. Honorable, instead of tossing him aside to survive on his own like they both had to -

“His father told him how to know the night he was born.”

Hiei was not expecting this at all. His father? So they were mates, or did he rape her then keep her around? Why would he do that? Were they in love? Did he die or leave her? What the hell happened to this boy's father? Would she love again if so - Why did he care?!

“What happened to his father.”

The thunder brothers. Hiten, and…The other one that was nothing like his brother. They killed him and used him as a pelt, poorly fashioned, because it looked exactly like his father. Shippo was brave that day, but when the fight was over and his father's spirit did leave, he cried. The poor kit cried. She couldn't stop his father from getting killed, but she could have saved his son.

“He was killed about four years ago.”

So maybe they were mates then if he was killed, but then again, he could have been killed after leaving her. She wasn't really cold once you weren't an ass to her, so maybe he didn't leave her and they were in love. Meaning she wouldn't love again - The fuck was he thinking?

“It's done with now. Where are we headed.”

“Kurama picked up a shard in a youkai trying to control a number of villages and will give it to you. We are headed west.” Hiei said.

That was something she did not want to deal with. Sesshomaru. The taiyoukai of the west. The greatest inu there is. Most likely the strongest youkai in all of Japan, not like she could compare him to other countries. She was sure he was stronger than all of those in her group, and if he succeed in growing his arm back, which he would be pist at her for, stronger than all four of them. Still a probability he was now. True, they were half brothers, but nothing alike. Except for those eyes. Amber eyes that could show you so much emotion yet were always hidden. But with Sesshomaru, stone cold. Then there was the possibility that he could be pist that she killed Inuyasha, not him. She learned that after a while of `trying to kill Inuyasha for tetsigua he only showed to test his skills to make him stronger…Meaning he cared for his brother…But then again, no one would know what he thought if he didn't want them to. So then if she thought he would want her dead for killing his brother aside from basically removing his arm, she was wrong. Unless he wanted her to think that? Nothing would come from confusing herself so she figured when, and they would, they crossed paths with Inuyasha, she would tell him of his brother's death, which he would already know about, and present him with the tetsigua, which she would have to leave on her own, again, and get. How was she able to touch it anyways? Would he kill her? Did she even care any more if she lived or died? She was heartless anyway, she killed the first person she ever loved in that way and can't even cry a tear at the memory of her own family's death. He wouldn't let them further into his lands, he would just kill -

“What has you thinking so much.”

Hiei's words snapped Kagome out of her train of thought and onto what was most important. Getting Tetsigua. Fifteen days until they were west, ten days until she would actually be fit to be on her own though she could easily bluff, four days to make it back to them leaving one day gap in between them and the east, including being attacked. Possible.

“When we enter the Western lands the youkai in charge of his lands is very powerful and may not let us through.”

“Then we fight him.”

“Keh.”

Why did you close yourself off again? “Hn.”

Kurama walked up a few hours before dusk in seeing as how they would be staying the day. “Will she be all right.”

“Hn.”

Kurama walked back. “I'll tell Yusuke that her past is need to know information then.”

Kagome woke cursing herself that she let herself fall asleep. Not like she could really tell her body not to. She sat up thriving in pain still, but minus the atom bomb being dropped. She went back to where she sensed Yusuke and Kurama finding them awake and stood. Yusuke stood as well with a dork smirk on his face.

“All right then let's get moving before Hiei sprouts from waiting.”

Eight days passed with normal youkai attacks. As they continued walking with Hiei in the trees as always he heard a voice in his head.

`I see the girl is doing better.'

Hiei thought to Yoko. `She's still recovering just hides it extremely well. Tires easily.'

`I never said she was better Hiei. I figured add an extra day onto it in seeing as the time you were with her she might be a bit sore, not too sore from you of course though Hiei.'

Shuichi sighed aloud. `Yoko please, go back to sleep.'

Hiei thought. `Bold fox.'

`Why should I? You haven't let me out in quiet a while and I've never seen a female ice and fire youkai, only three males. Before your time little Hiei. You two would make a cute couple, proper heights as well.'

`Perhaps I should let you out so Hiei can knock you out.' Shuichi thought.

Yoko chuckled. `Shuichi you are getting there, try bedding her-`

Shuichi sighed and kept walking as Yusuke spoke. “Wazamatter.”

“Yoko is being Yoko, again.”

Yusuke smirked. “Wa'? He either wants you to bed with Kagome or for you to let him out and let him screw her? Go for it! Unless Hiei already did in the hours no one saw the two.”

`I like him. Why didn't I chose him to inhabit and not such a stiff?'

Shuichi sighed. “You are not helping Yusuke.”

His smirk grew wider. “So I was right. Let him out if you don't want to, I'm spoken for and she'd kill me, so I'm out of it. Five yen says he thinks she has a good figure.”

`Don't take the bet.'

Shuichi glared at Yusuke. “Yusuke shut up, keep walking.”

“Peh, teshy.”

Noticing the direction they were taking to the Western lands and the proximity to the village she figured she would have to leave tomorrow. Still recovering, but she could do it. But could she avoid the wind tunnel? No. No youkai could. And she didn't want to harm Sango or the villagers - Damn she still cared. Wait unti they grow old and die and hope their children do not look like them. She would find a way. When they set up camp she was in charge of making a lean to from the rain. They figured she would stay because of a downpour, and they could keep a watch on her at base. Keh.

“Why the hell won't she tell us where she's going and why? At LEAST when so we know something.”

Kurama spoke walking in the rain the next morning. “Perhaps, yet she still has her reasons for not doing so.”

Hiei didn't like it. “Hn.”

She had to leave early because of the rain. It would hinder her hearing but she hoped other youkai would not be out on the hunt because of it. It stopped a day later and she ran still towards the village only getting attacked once. Thank Buddha or Santa. Miroku and Sango were out somewhere. Their scent was old. She entered the hut using a shikkon karea to get her inside the barrier, put Tetsigua on her side, and ran off taking the karea out once cleared leaving a note. She was still soft. They were dead to her from now on.