InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Possession ❯ Songs From The Heart ( Chapter 11 )

Disclaimer: All Inuyasha Characters are courtesy of Rumiko Takahashi, all Yu-Yu-Hakusho Characters are courtesy of Yoshihiro Togashi. Kamina is my own original character!

 

 

She laughed softly, the sound low in her throat as she watched her kit eat his candy bar, moving to lean back against Inuyasha's leg subconsciously; which earned a rather feisty growl from the silver kitsune on her lap.

 

She blinked a few times, running her fingers over the kitsune's tails in an attempt to calm the small being; which she had grown quite attached to in the short periods of time she spent with him.

 

She blinked once more, looking down to the small being on her lap, a smile coming to her lips as she giggled softly at the slight `purring' of the small framed kitsune. She knew some demons could transform to humans, and was wondering if he could also, shrugging the thought from her mind with a visible shrug of her shoulders; she just went about petting the kitsune.

 

She looked up from where she was staring at the kitsune's golden hues, when she heard Inuyasha make an `hmph' sound, almost like he was jealous that the kit was getting attention.

 

She chuckled inwardly at the antics of Inuyasha, before she looked back into the kits eyes, shivering a bit she inadvertently snuggled into Inuyasha's leg; earning herself a low hiss of disapproval from the kit on her lap.

 

Reaching over to the pack she had beside her, she rummaged through it, a small grin of triumph coming over her features as she pulled out her MP3 player, placing the ear-buds into her ears. Setting the kitsune onto the ground, she got up.

 

Brushing her hands over her hips to remove the dirt from the ground, grinning at her friends before she twisted on her heel. Spinning somewhat to the music that flowed through her from the ear-buds, turning it up completely, until she couldn't hear anything else.

 

She skipped away from the campsite in front of the hut, laughing to herself as she spun on her heels, dancing to the music. Then beginning to sing softly, “Yeah, here we go for the hundredth time, hand-grenade pins in every line. Throw `em up and let somethin' shine, goin' out of my fuckin' mind. Filthy mouth, no excuse, find a new place to hang this noose. String me up from atop these roofs; knot it tight so I won't get loose. Truth is that you can stop and stare, bled myself out and no one cares. Dug the trench out, laid down there, with a shovel up out of reach somewhere. Yeah, someone pour it in; make it a dirt dance floor again. Say your prayers and stomp it out, when they bring that chorus in! I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away, just to throw it away, just to throw it away! I bleed it out. Go stop the show, choppy words and a sloppy flow. Shotgun opera, lock and load, cock it back and watch it go. Mama help me, I've been cursed, and death is rollin' in every verse. Candy paint on this brand new hearse, can't contain him, he knows he works. Fuck, this hurts. I won't lie. Doesn't matter how hard I try. Half the words don't mean a thing, and I know that I won't be satisfied. So why try ignoring him, make it a dirt dance floor again. Say your prayers and stomp it out, when they bring that chorus in! I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. Just to throw it away, just to throw it away. I bleed it out. I've opened up these scars; I'll make you face this. I've pulled myself so far, I'll make you face this now! I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. Just to throw it away, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away. Just to throw it away, just to throw it away. I bleed it out, I bleed it out, I bleed it out!”

 

She took a huff of breath into her lungs, after she was finished singing. Unbeknown to her, she had been followed by Inuyasha, Miroku, Shippou, and the little silver kitsune.

 

She hummed, swaying her hips, as she waited for the next song to begin playing. When it did, she took a deep breath before her form swayed to the beat of the song and she took off singing again.

 

“Crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal. Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real. There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming…confusing. This lack of self control, I fear is never ending. Controlling, I can't seem to find myself again. My walls are closing in, without a sense of confidence; I'm convinced that it's just too much pressure to take. I've felt this way before, so insecure!! Crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal. Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real. This comfort in the sea has pulled itself upon me. Distracting…reacting against my will, I stand beside my own reflection. It's haunting how I can't seem, to find myself again, my walls are closing in. Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced that it's just too much pressure to take. I've felt this way before, so insecure!! Crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal. Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real. Crawling in my skin! These wounds they will not heal! Fear is how I fall, confusing…Confusing what is real!! There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming. Confusing what is real!!”

 

She took a heavy gulp of breath, stilling her movements as she leaned against a tree; this was how she got her anger out, through her dancing and singing. She took in deep breaths, in hopes to still her chest from moving so frantically.

 

She finally caught her breath, still angry with herself for earlier. She pushed from the tree as her new song started blasting in her ears, swaying her hips with this beat also; she began singing.

 

“I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it. I don't believe it makes me real. I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me. I meant all the things that I said. If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know.”

 

She stopped for the moment, to clear her eyes of the tears that were falling, the song reminded her so much of herself that she cried whenever she listened to it. Smiling a bit, thinking of the hug the hanyou gave to her, the holding he did to her, she continued her singing; her voice filled with her happy depression.

 

“Just to see if it would show. That I'm trying to let you know, that I'm better off on my own. This place is so empty, my thoughts are so tempting. I don't know how it got so bad; sometimes it's so crazy; that nothing could save me. But it's the only thing that I have. If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know. Just to see if it would show that I'm trying to let you know. That I'm better off on my own…” Her voice trailed off once more, crying. Sniffling, as she continued to dance her sorrow out, picking back up where she left off.

 

“I tried to be perfect, it just wasn't worth it. Nothing could ever be so wrong; it's hard to believe me. It never gets easy; I guess I knew that all along. If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know. Just to see if it would show that I'm trying to let you know. That I'm better off on my own…” Her voice trailed off at the end of the song, as she all but fell to her knees in tears.

 

Not being able to help herself, she curled into a ball having fallen to her side. Staying there for a few moments, before she pushed herself to a stand once more, determined to get all of her pain and suffering out tonight. She began to sing once more, not necessarily dancing with the music.

 

“And this will not remain, forever. However, it's beautiful. Your eyes, hands, and your warm smile; be my treasure. It's hard to forget. I wish there was a solution, don't spend your time in confusion. I turn back now and spread. With broken wings, still strong enough to cross the ocean with. With broken wings, how far should I go drifting in the wind? Across the sky, just keep on flying.” She stopped singing, taking in a deep breath, calming herself, not noticing the viewers she had.

 

“Did you ever, chain me down to my heart? Because I was afraid of you, now I can't hold any longer. Love is not a toy, let go of me now! The time we spend, is broken now. Our future is not real, so I leap into the air. With broken wings, still strong enough to cross the ocean with. With broken wings, how far should I go drifting in the wind? Across the sky, just keep on flying...” As she finished singing, she smiled to herself, the song clearly reminding her over her relationship with half the males she knew.

 

Taking in a small sigh, she finally noticed her audience, and clearly blushed.

 

“Lady Kamina, please…Continue singing, it is very lovely” Miroku spoke softly, from where he had seated himself on the ground along with the silver kitsune. Shippou was also found seated on Miroku's shoulder.

 

“Oh…” She said softly, her blush deepening as she spun about slightly to hide it. Her black mane of hair rushing down her back in a cascading motion, her arms coming to link behind her at the small of her back, taking in a deep breath before the song changed.

 

Then beginning to sing softly once more, “There must be a soul, that you have left behind, hidden somewhere, in the deep, deep of the forest. Hidden among the trees. People who are too tired, they just don't look around any further. They disappear into the eternal darkness, of a foreign place. Could we still have seen it, if we were there? Could we've seen if we were little?” She stopped singing for the moment, and found Miroku and Shippou clapping lightly and Inuyasha thinking about something in the tree above.

 

Then picking up where she left off, “We go on with our lives, and lose those things behind. Wrapped around in lies, we stand there voiceless. We wander and live our lives, until we find a way. Searching for the light, for eternity. Things are passing and changing, and moving around but the colors of the sky. Still remain the same as we used to know, every single day. We are running so free, now ignoring the risk, the limits that we had. We leave our fears behind; take another chance, our souls will live again.” Once more she stopped her singing, looking at her audience, finding herself liking the sight of them listening to her sing.

 

She picked it up again, “If we catch the rhythm of time, we could probably fly so high! We go on with our lives, and lose those things behind. Wrapped in lies, we stand there voiceless. We wander and live our lives, until we find a way. Searching for the light, for eternity. We go on with our lives, and lose those things behind. Wrapped in lies, we stand there voiceless. We wander and live our lives, until we find away. Searching for the light, for eternity. We go on with our lives, and lose those things behind. Wrapped in lies, we stand there voiceless. We wander and live our lives, until we find away. Searching for the light, for eternity. We go on with our lives, for eternity. Searching for the light, for eternity.” The song finally came to an end, her chest heaving somewhat as she spun around to look towards her audience, giggling softly at the look of awe in Shippou's eyes, smiling brightly at him.

 

“Like my singing guys?” She had to ask, it earned her a generous nod from Miroku and loud clapping from Shippou. Hearing Inuyasha then, “It was gorgeous, Kamina…” it made her smile, brightly.

 

Then she noticed the silver kitsune nudging her leg. She picked it up into her arms and danced around with it cradled, almost like a baby. She giggled at the mewls she was getting from the small fox demon, before she set him back down onto the ground, searching through her song list for another.

 

She found one to her liking, and then began to sway her hips. Singing softly, her voice being carried to their ears “Why do you tell me all these lies? I just want to live my life. I didn't want to leave my dreams behind. Tell me why, am I only getting older, my patience getting shorter? I'm running out of time, and I know that I get what I wanted. This time's for real, is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all? This time's for real, is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all? Why do you make me feel denied, always pushing me aside? You do not decide what's wrong or right. Tell me why, am I feeling so much pressure am I searching for the answer? I'm running out of time, and I know that I get what I wanted! This time's for real, is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all? This time's for real, is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all?” She stopped for the moment, looking back up to Inuyasha, a look of longing in her eyes, before she began again. “This time's for real, is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all? This time's for real, is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all? Is there anything I wanted, is there anything I needed, anything at all?” The song had stopped, so had she, her voice carrying across the clearing.

 

The song stopping the movements of everyone, so they could listen, she chuckled softly at the silver kitsune jumping onto her shoulder to rub his nose lovingly into her cheek.

 

Her hand came up to pet the kitsune, as she looked around to them all, “I guess it's time to head back, `eh?” She smiled brightly, her singing had done the trick; it had gotten all her anger and sorrow out for the night. She began to walk back to the camp they made in front of Kaede's hut, reaching her destination; she sat down, and waited for the others to follow closely behind her.