InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Regret and Choices ❯ Chapter 4 ( Chapter 4 )
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By: DawnFire_ice1 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Action | Type: Crossover | Uploaded On: 03.27.2011 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.7K | Visits: 499 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Action | Type: Crossover | Uploaded On: 03.27.2011 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.7K | Visits: 499 | Status: Work In Progress
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“Hiei, I thought you were never going to come back,” she said quietly. He looked at her closer. Her eyes were red around the rims and he could smell the salt of tears
The intensity of her pain lashed at his soul and he quickly closed the Jagan fully to mute the feelings before he disgraced himself and allowed the tears pricking the back of his eyes to surface. The girl would not judge him that he knew from her words and actions but to show such a weakness in front of any being was just not something he was ever going to do. “Onna, I am a youkai of my word. To do otherwise would be dishonorable.” he said quietly.
Kagome smiled then as he relaxed marginally against her windowsill and pulled one leg up while the other rested on the floor. She sat in the chair near by. “I know that Hiei, but I thought I had made you uncomfortable and even an honorable being should not have to endure a place or person that makes them ill at ease,” she rambled a little while looking away. Truthfully she didn't want him to leave but still she would give him an out if he really did not want to be here.
Hiei gave himself a mental kick. He'd never discussed with her what he had wanted after she told him that she liked him. This whole week he'd left her to wonder if he was angry or uncomfortable with her confession.
“Onna, shut up and go to bed. I know you need it. I don't stay anywhere I don't wish to,” Hiei said firmly as he pushed her lightly towards her bed. Even though he'd watched over her for the entire time he'd been around he knew she had not been sleeping. It had probably been worse while he'd been gone.
Kagome went without a fight and after she was in bed with the blankets around her Hiei walked over and turned off the light before settling back on the windowsill. “Hiei?” she asked softly in the dark. He didn't answer but she obviously knew she had his attention. “Would you come sit on the end of my bed till I fall asleep?” she asked shyly and yet comfortably, as though she'd known him forever instead of barely three months.
Hiei nodded slowly knowing she could not see and moved to the mentioned place, cursing mentally as he did. The shift of his weight caused her scent to waft around him and he subconsciously inhaled. Kami she smelled good, like fresh rain and the slight trace of lightning like ozone that was her power. Lightly over that was the scent of her shampoo, a light floral he couldn't place, but he was pleased that it complimented her scent instead of hiding it. He watched her silently as her eyes drifted closed and swallowed heavily as she licked her lips with her small pink tongue.
Dammit why was a simple gesture like licking her lips, making him feel like he was an adolescent with his first female? He was a full grown youkai well passed his first heat. So the woman shouldn't be affecting him like that but she was. Every movement, every sigh as she settled in to sleep made him want to be beside her holding her, loving her. He froze as the last thought slowly registered with him.
Impossible.
He was not in love with the onna. It had to be a strange reaction to her tears and her words. That had to be it because the Kinshi-ko, the Forbidden Child was not going to be swayed by a simple human onna, was he? The very fact that he was questioning himself made him feel confused. Had he indeed 'fallen' for the woman?
Even if he had it was of no matter, she was never going to know about it and neither would the fools he called teammates. He would simply be her shadow forever and protect her in his own way, as he had been doing. But even as he thought about it he knew he would never be able to not be close to her now. Even though he knew nothing would come of it. After all, something so pure would never be interested in something as evil as himself, so it really didn't matter. Before a week ago he would have believed that, but she had changed everything when she told him “I like you”.
In that moment Hiei had felt like she had given him a gift and yet he was afraid to open it for fear that it was too good to be true. The whole time he'd been gone he'd thought of her, replaying over and over the words she'd said until he understood them. Kagome hadn't meant, “I like you as a friend,” no, she meant “I like you as more”. She was attracted to him. He wasn't entirely sure how to feel about that. Oh, he was happy about it, but that's what confused him. He was happy. He wanted to say something but words were not his specialty.
Sensing that she was asleep Hiei moved soundlessly from his spot at her feet and closer to her side, looking down on her. He was entranced by the way her thick dark eyelashes fanned across her creamy skin and he stared at her face silently for a long moment before sinking down against the wall where he could watch her sleep.
Even if all he could ever do was watch her from a distance he was not going to deny himself any opportunity to be close to her when no one would discover him. He'd done this every night since promising her he'd be around but to his knowledge she didn't know that he was ever there. She shifted and her hair fell across her face hiding it from his eyes. Silently Hiei moved closer and pushed the hair from her face, letting his touch ghost over her cheeks.
This was foolishness... but he couldn't help himself. Dammit, he wanted to touch her and her to know it. He wanted to stop haunting her steps and walk beside her. Kamis it had been hard trying to be close and yet far away from her, when all he wanted to do was take her far away from everything and never let her go. Yes, he loved her. He was unafraid to admit that to himself now.
Still, he had told her practically nothing of himself and knew that she wished to know more about her silent protector... But honestly what could he say? That he was a spirit detective and that he protected her kind from his daily, like some kind of hero? No, that would be a lie. He in all ways, with her being the only exception, held little but contempt for her kind, feeling that they were spineless and honor-less creatures who lived rather like parasites. He protected them because it was his job and his duty to do so since he was still a Reikai dog.
No, he could no more tell her that than he could confess to her his feelings, or tell Yukina his identity. It would be the same. But this taste of purity had changed a few things in him, making him long for her to see him as her hero and not just a friend. He wanted all of it, her love, her mind, her very soul. Yet it was that very longing that made him push her away so forcefully. He loved her too much to condemn her to a life that he would give her. His enemies, and there were many, would try to hurt her to get to him.
Hiei was so wrapped up in his thoughts that he had not even seen the dawn break over the horizon nor the gentle look of relief in her cobalt eyes as she saw him still sitting against her wall. A soothing wave of her power had him on his feet and to her side without a thought of what he was doing. She soothed his soul and he cared little for the reasons he should leave. Bending at the waist he leaned over her as he dipped his head towards her lips. A mere inch before they connected he shook himself and swiftly departed her room. He'd gotten too close again. Dammit, how long was he going to keep tormenting himself with the one onna he could not have? It was a good thing that she had been asleep when he'd nearly kissed her as it would save him from answering questions that he wanted left alone. Or at least he was fairly certain she had been asleep.
Kagome, for her part was still trying to catch the breath that she'd lost as she'd felt him lean over her. She had managed to keep perfectly still and keep her breathing normal but her heart beating erratically was just something she hoped he wouldn't catch... She had obviously failed though because he left as swiftly as every other time. The disappointment Kagome felt was acute and sharp as she turned over and buried her head in the pillow. What was wrong with her? Why was it that the males in her life wanted her only when they thought she wouldn't know? Was there something horribly wrong with her while she was awake? Did they just not like the color of her eyes? Was that it? Did she project some weird vibe that wasn't present while she slept? Tears began to fill her eyes as more hurtful thoughts filled her head.
Hiei froze on the branch outside her room as her thoughts filtered to him. Oh sweet kami she had been awake and she had to know now of his attraction. Guilt hit him like a ton of bricks as her thoughts took a self depreciating turn. He'd never dreamed that she would take his quick exit as personal deficiency.
What was with this onna? Surely she didn't think so little of herself? Dammit, he was caught. Oh, he knew what he should do was to walk away and let her work it all out herself and that way avoid having to confess himself to her. However hearing her cry because she thought that he didn't want her cut him deeply. Dammit, he loved the onna, so why was she crying like that? And why was he just standing here? He took an involuntary step towards her room...
His communicator buzzed in his pocket and he uttered a low oath as he jerked it free. He listened to the message and closed it with a forceful snap. It was time to return to work. He had only returned for the night to check on her.
Kagome could feel him standing in the tree but she could not fathom as to why he had not left. She hung her head in shame. She had tried so hard not to let him know how much she liked him, too. After her confession at her campsite and his reaction she had assumed that he hadn't been certain of what she said and so she had tried to play it off as friendship. But he had to know now that it was so much more. What must he think of her for hiding such feelings about him? Had he somehow discovered her desire for him? Yes, she was a virgin but she was still no stranger to the concept of sex. His crimson eyes did sinful things to her insides when he fixed them on her with that look of longing or any look for that matter.
She could only imagine that his body would be firm and well-muscled from the brief moments that he'd let her hold him. Kagome felt her fingers trailing over her taught nipples under her shirt as she continued to think of her Hiyoukai. It mattered little that he would be able to hear her, all she could think of were the marvelous reactions she would have given his touch as he mapped her body with his fingers. As one hand caressed her breasts the other drifted down to her already sopping core. Touching herself through her soaked panties she moaned out a broken version of his name.
Hiei leaped soundlessly to the window and watched her sprawl over the bed. He couldn't tear his eyes away from the image she made with her midnight hair cascading over the pillow as she writhed with her touch. His eyes darkened with lust as she pushed the material of her panties aside and slipped two fingers in to herself with a hiss. “Oh, Hiei! Oh yes, please don't stop...” she whimpered as she continued the show thrusting her fingers in and out of her core as she worked her clit with her thumb. He couldn't help himself as he shoved his uncertainties aside and moved in to the room removing his clothes as he did. She made no move to stop as he knelt at the edge of the bed by the source of her spiked scent. She screamed as she came when his tongue flashed out to lick her from the bottom of her wet nether lips to her clit in one movement.
When he couldn't taste her he frowned. Growling at his stupid imagination he awoke in the tree he'd fallen asleep in. He had been going over the night he'd gone back to check on her and must have fallen asleep some time through his thoughts. The red sky that met his gaze reminded him immediately where he was and why. He was in season again as evidenced by the erotic dreams he was having of the one woman he wanted and could never have. He sighed. It had already been two weeks since the last time he'd seen her. It had been just his luck that his heat had come on while on his mission. Although he'd promised to be close by he had been unable to stay. He was certain that breaking his promise for an extra week was far better than seducing the onna and having her hate him after... Though certain parts of his anatomy disagreed vehemently.
Settling in to the tree again Hiei determined that he was going to make a plan and then he was going to return to the human world and confess everything to her. If she accepted he'd be the happiest youkai in the worlds... and if she rejected him he was going to find someplace secluded and personally cut out his fool heart.
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My gratitude and thanks to my Beta Darkmousey!
Please let me know what you thought of this chapter as well whether good or bad. Thank you.
Enjoy,
DawnFire_ice
Chapter 4
Flashing back the way he'd come one week before he found the door locked and the lights off but he could feel the upheaval of Kagome's emotions and knew that she was still awake. Following her energy signature with the Jagan he found her in the room where he'd found his katana. Her lamp was on faintly lighting the curtain from the inside. Hiei wasted no time in leaping to the window and tapping lightly. He heard her shift and felt her energy wash over him as though testing him before the window was slid open and she stepped back to let him enter.“Hiei, I thought you were never going to come back,” she said quietly. He looked at her closer. Her eyes were red around the rims and he could smell the salt of tears
The intensity of her pain lashed at his soul and he quickly closed the Jagan fully to mute the feelings before he disgraced himself and allowed the tears pricking the back of his eyes to surface. The girl would not judge him that he knew from her words and actions but to show such a weakness in front of any being was just not something he was ever going to do. “Onna, I am a youkai of my word. To do otherwise would be dishonorable.” he said quietly.
Kagome smiled then as he relaxed marginally against her windowsill and pulled one leg up while the other rested on the floor. She sat in the chair near by. “I know that Hiei, but I thought I had made you uncomfortable and even an honorable being should not have to endure a place or person that makes them ill at ease,” she rambled a little while looking away. Truthfully she didn't want him to leave but still she would give him an out if he really did not want to be here.
Hiei gave himself a mental kick. He'd never discussed with her what he had wanted after she told him that she liked him. This whole week he'd left her to wonder if he was angry or uncomfortable with her confession.
“Onna, shut up and go to bed. I know you need it. I don't stay anywhere I don't wish to,” Hiei said firmly as he pushed her lightly towards her bed. Even though he'd watched over her for the entire time he'd been around he knew she had not been sleeping. It had probably been worse while he'd been gone.
Kagome went without a fight and after she was in bed with the blankets around her Hiei walked over and turned off the light before settling back on the windowsill. “Hiei?” she asked softly in the dark. He didn't answer but she obviously knew she had his attention. “Would you come sit on the end of my bed till I fall asleep?” she asked shyly and yet comfortably, as though she'd known him forever instead of barely three months.
Hiei nodded slowly knowing she could not see and moved to the mentioned place, cursing mentally as he did. The shift of his weight caused her scent to waft around him and he subconsciously inhaled. Kami she smelled good, like fresh rain and the slight trace of lightning like ozone that was her power. Lightly over that was the scent of her shampoo, a light floral he couldn't place, but he was pleased that it complimented her scent instead of hiding it. He watched her silently as her eyes drifted closed and swallowed heavily as she licked her lips with her small pink tongue.
Dammit why was a simple gesture like licking her lips, making him feel like he was an adolescent with his first female? He was a full grown youkai well passed his first heat. So the woman shouldn't be affecting him like that but she was. Every movement, every sigh as she settled in to sleep made him want to be beside her holding her, loving her. He froze as the last thought slowly registered with him.
Impossible.
He was not in love with the onna. It had to be a strange reaction to her tears and her words. That had to be it because the Kinshi-ko, the Forbidden Child was not going to be swayed by a simple human onna, was he? The very fact that he was questioning himself made him feel confused. Had he indeed 'fallen' for the woman?
Even if he had it was of no matter, she was never going to know about it and neither would the fools he called teammates. He would simply be her shadow forever and protect her in his own way, as he had been doing. But even as he thought about it he knew he would never be able to not be close to her now. Even though he knew nothing would come of it. After all, something so pure would never be interested in something as evil as himself, so it really didn't matter. Before a week ago he would have believed that, but she had changed everything when she told him “I like you”.
In that moment Hiei had felt like she had given him a gift and yet he was afraid to open it for fear that it was too good to be true. The whole time he'd been gone he'd thought of her, replaying over and over the words she'd said until he understood them. Kagome hadn't meant, “I like you as a friend,” no, she meant “I like you as more”. She was attracted to him. He wasn't entirely sure how to feel about that. Oh, he was happy about it, but that's what confused him. He was happy. He wanted to say something but words were not his specialty.
Sensing that she was asleep Hiei moved soundlessly from his spot at her feet and closer to her side, looking down on her. He was entranced by the way her thick dark eyelashes fanned across her creamy skin and he stared at her face silently for a long moment before sinking down against the wall where he could watch her sleep.
Even if all he could ever do was watch her from a distance he was not going to deny himself any opportunity to be close to her when no one would discover him. He'd done this every night since promising her he'd be around but to his knowledge she didn't know that he was ever there. She shifted and her hair fell across her face hiding it from his eyes. Silently Hiei moved closer and pushed the hair from her face, letting his touch ghost over her cheeks.
This was foolishness... but he couldn't help himself. Dammit, he wanted to touch her and her to know it. He wanted to stop haunting her steps and walk beside her. Kamis it had been hard trying to be close and yet far away from her, when all he wanted to do was take her far away from everything and never let her go. Yes, he loved her. He was unafraid to admit that to himself now.
Still, he had told her practically nothing of himself and knew that she wished to know more about her silent protector... But honestly what could he say? That he was a spirit detective and that he protected her kind from his daily, like some kind of hero? No, that would be a lie. He in all ways, with her being the only exception, held little but contempt for her kind, feeling that they were spineless and honor-less creatures who lived rather like parasites. He protected them because it was his job and his duty to do so since he was still a Reikai dog.
No, he could no more tell her that than he could confess to her his feelings, or tell Yukina his identity. It would be the same. But this taste of purity had changed a few things in him, making him long for her to see him as her hero and not just a friend. He wanted all of it, her love, her mind, her very soul. Yet it was that very longing that made him push her away so forcefully. He loved her too much to condemn her to a life that he would give her. His enemies, and there were many, would try to hurt her to get to him.
Hiei was so wrapped up in his thoughts that he had not even seen the dawn break over the horizon nor the gentle look of relief in her cobalt eyes as she saw him still sitting against her wall. A soothing wave of her power had him on his feet and to her side without a thought of what he was doing. She soothed his soul and he cared little for the reasons he should leave. Bending at the waist he leaned over her as he dipped his head towards her lips. A mere inch before they connected he shook himself and swiftly departed her room. He'd gotten too close again. Dammit, how long was he going to keep tormenting himself with the one onna he could not have? It was a good thing that she had been asleep when he'd nearly kissed her as it would save him from answering questions that he wanted left alone. Or at least he was fairly certain she had been asleep.
Kagome, for her part was still trying to catch the breath that she'd lost as she'd felt him lean over her. She had managed to keep perfectly still and keep her breathing normal but her heart beating erratically was just something she hoped he wouldn't catch... She had obviously failed though because he left as swiftly as every other time. The disappointment Kagome felt was acute and sharp as she turned over and buried her head in the pillow. What was wrong with her? Why was it that the males in her life wanted her only when they thought she wouldn't know? Was there something horribly wrong with her while she was awake? Did they just not like the color of her eyes? Was that it? Did she project some weird vibe that wasn't present while she slept? Tears began to fill her eyes as more hurtful thoughts filled her head.
Hiei froze on the branch outside her room as her thoughts filtered to him. Oh sweet kami she had been awake and she had to know now of his attraction. Guilt hit him like a ton of bricks as her thoughts took a self depreciating turn. He'd never dreamed that she would take his quick exit as personal deficiency.
What was with this onna? Surely she didn't think so little of herself? Dammit, he was caught. Oh, he knew what he should do was to walk away and let her work it all out herself and that way avoid having to confess himself to her. However hearing her cry because she thought that he didn't want her cut him deeply. Dammit, he loved the onna, so why was she crying like that? And why was he just standing here? He took an involuntary step towards her room...
His communicator buzzed in his pocket and he uttered a low oath as he jerked it free. He listened to the message and closed it with a forceful snap. It was time to return to work. He had only returned for the night to check on her.
Kagome could feel him standing in the tree but she could not fathom as to why he had not left. She hung her head in shame. She had tried so hard not to let him know how much she liked him, too. After her confession at her campsite and his reaction she had assumed that he hadn't been certain of what she said and so she had tried to play it off as friendship. But he had to know now that it was so much more. What must he think of her for hiding such feelings about him? Had he somehow discovered her desire for him? Yes, she was a virgin but she was still no stranger to the concept of sex. His crimson eyes did sinful things to her insides when he fixed them on her with that look of longing or any look for that matter.
She could only imagine that his body would be firm and well-muscled from the brief moments that he'd let her hold him. Kagome felt her fingers trailing over her taught nipples under her shirt as she continued to think of her Hiyoukai. It mattered little that he would be able to hear her, all she could think of were the marvelous reactions she would have given his touch as he mapped her body with his fingers. As one hand caressed her breasts the other drifted down to her already sopping core. Touching herself through her soaked panties she moaned out a broken version of his name.
Hiei leaped soundlessly to the window and watched her sprawl over the bed. He couldn't tear his eyes away from the image she made with her midnight hair cascading over the pillow as she writhed with her touch. His eyes darkened with lust as she pushed the material of her panties aside and slipped two fingers in to herself with a hiss. “Oh, Hiei! Oh yes, please don't stop...” she whimpered as she continued the show thrusting her fingers in and out of her core as she worked her clit with her thumb. He couldn't help himself as he shoved his uncertainties aside and moved in to the room removing his clothes as he did. She made no move to stop as he knelt at the edge of the bed by the source of her spiked scent. She screamed as she came when his tongue flashed out to lick her from the bottom of her wet nether lips to her clit in one movement.
When he couldn't taste her he frowned. Growling at his stupid imagination he awoke in the tree he'd fallen asleep in. He had been going over the night he'd gone back to check on her and must have fallen asleep some time through his thoughts. The red sky that met his gaze reminded him immediately where he was and why. He was in season again as evidenced by the erotic dreams he was having of the one woman he wanted and could never have. He sighed. It had already been two weeks since the last time he'd seen her. It had been just his luck that his heat had come on while on his mission. Although he'd promised to be close by he had been unable to stay. He was certain that breaking his promise for an extra week was far better than seducing the onna and having her hate him after... Though certain parts of his anatomy disagreed vehemently.
Settling in to the tree again Hiei determined that he was going to make a plan and then he was going to return to the human world and confess everything to her. If she accepted he'd be the happiest youkai in the worlds... and if she rejected him he was going to find someplace secluded and personally cut out his fool heart.
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