InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Cold Heart For a Dead Soul ❯ Starting to Give Up... ( Chapter 8 )

Chap.8

My heart pounded in my chest as it had never done. He had come, my thanks to Kagura for getting a hold of him. I opened the door right before he knocked again. His eyes met mine, and his smile was soft. "Milady, you summoned me."

I threw my arms around his neck and held him like I had done the day before he left. "I missed you so much. I could not bear to go see you at your home, for I…" he stopped me with his hand.

"Don't talk. It's not needed."

"Kouga, a lot has happened." I said as he moved his hand away, kissing my cheek in greeting.

"Yes a lot has, actually I need you to meet someone, and she should be here any minute."

"She?" I asked almost feeling hurt.

"She is my fledgling, my first." He lowered his eyes slowly, sensing the pain in my aura.

"Her name?" I nearly spit out the words into his face, as he raised his eyes on my new feeling of anger.

"Kagome please don't anger at me for loving another, but she is not like you, she is like a daughter to me. Her name is Rin."

I stopped and turned away for a moment to recollect my thoughts. I never thought this day would come, but I had been expecting it. He had said as a daughter but by his voice I knew he meant something deeper. I walked into the house letting him follow me. I plunged onto the couch partly because my legs gave out, and partly because the girl entered my house so angry the aura knocked me off my feet.

"Master Kouga, that hentai followed me all the way to Main. Hello, Milady Kagome." The girl said. I looked at her, yes, a girl. Black hair made fair skin look pure white.

"You do not rush into Kagome's home like that, Rin apologize." Kouga said his cheeks flushing in embarrassment.

"I am very sorry Lady Kagome." Her politeness made me answer.

"No harm let the girl go, Kouga. I have more than one person who barges in." I said sourly scanning over her again. She caught my eyes and then looked away quickly.

A very nerve wracking silence fell in the house, making me search for the slightest sound of anything. I heard the girl sigh and then as she moved to Kouga's side I picked up on her slight breathing. "Human habits die hard." I said breaking the silence.

"Huh?" Kouga asked not understanding. Rin, I believe she called herself, looked at me.

"I'm breathing; she said human habits die hard." She pushed some bangs back from his face. He chuckled at my joke. The girl leaned her head on him, another silence taunting me. "I have things to do, if this is what we're going to be doing all day I'm leaving."

"You were always impatient."

"No I'm busy. I have a friend I have to meet at Amber Night." I said willing myself to stand.

"You mean the hanyou that was climbing out your window when I showed up? Needless to say he was an ass…"

"You didn't…"

"Didn't what? Kill him? Of coarse not. I let him run…"

"Thank Kami." I pressed a hand to my heart.

"A hanyou?" Kouga's voice was low, dangerously low.

"Kouga, you left… you're not my responsibility anymore, and I don't care what you think. He's just a friend…"

"That's why you invited him to the deadliest vampire club in this cursed town? You know what you're doing by sending him there."

"He's a hunter, if he has to defend himself he will, with out hesitation."

"You sent a hunter into one of our clubs? Are you stupid?"

"Are you? I could kill you in a split second if I felt like it. Don't make me angry Kouga, take your bitch and get out of my house. I'll call on you if I want you next time. Just leave me the hell alone for now." I left then, only leaving with a thought.

~*~*~*~

I arrived at the bar she wanted me at. I was a little late, it was past ten. I hoped she wouldn't mind. I entered, fighting the tingling to grab my knife from its hiding place and jamming it into their hearts. They were all vampires. Several of them noticed me, only the strong ones looked concerned that a hunter was in their midst.

Kagome looked up and stood. She looked so in place here it was scary. She moved towards me and wrapped her hand in mine. Meeting the eyes of each person that was staring at me, she made them look away. "I told you nine."

"Sorry…"

"I told you nine because of this exact reason. The crowd is mostly human then. You would have been unnoticed. It too late for an apology, so save it for later." She slid easily into a booth. I sat across from her keeping my eyes on her for any sign of what she was about to tell me.

"I've been thinking. Am I what they call the undead? Did I really truly ever die? I had an obituary in the paper. But I didn't crawl out of the ground; I was never buried, just simply missing. And then I saw that paper. I don't feel dead. I feel alive, more alive than you'll ever know. Souta will grow and die, grandfather will too. I will loose my family all over again, and find a new one. I have the power to change anyone, but I do not want them to die like I did. My heart died, my body just didn't follow. I will never love again. I can never be in love again because all my heart is is an organ that will never beat again, and will never be warm again. I had a dream and I thought about it so much that it doesn't make sense." She paused; I watched her face as it flashed confusion. "You… you were there, dying… I was pregnant. The question is… was it the past or is it the future?"

"What do you mean?"

"I have dreams of the past not of the future, I'm not a seer. It must be the past. This means we were together at some time. I'm just confused; don't take me seriously right now."

I couldn't talk. I knew what she said was true. I wanted to tell her, I wanted to blurt it out. I wanted to, but I couldn't. My voice had stopped and my throat had dried. I just stared at her tears welling in my eyes. She wiped the one that steamed down my cheek away. "Inuyasha? Do you know something I don't?"

I nodded, and then buried my face in folded arms on the table. I cried, for only a few minutes, showing weakness. "Inuyasha?"

She had moved to my side lifting my head and brushing away bangs. I pulled away, but I had no where to go, so I let her play with a strand. I felt I could speak now. "You are correct."

"Huh…"

"About the dream. It's the past. We were married; the hunters came after me because I fell in love with you, a Nighter. I got you pregnant, and they came to the house. Kagome they took my soul from me, they took you. Slaughtered you, they made me promise to come back to the agency, so I did. I have been trying to find you ever since. I can't do this. Forgive me."

She had moved back to her side so I slid out and took off. "Inuyasha!!" I heard her scream but I was gone. I couldn't do that to her again. I couldn't kill her like that.

I went down an alley, and stopped to cry for an instant. Just as I got to the end two men appeared in front of me. "Great…" I rolled my eyes as they pushed me back into tow others. Four people appeared to my sides.

"You made Kagome angry. We don't like hunters in our bars either. You will perish for being so rude."

"I deserve it. Kill me, I'll be better off like that, I won't be able to hurt her any more. It's for the better." I accepted his terms with ease. His blows felt like relief, my soul let go. I felt like I was falling, falling into a blackness that I could never leave.

~*~*~*~

I found him in an alley, with twelve guys pounding him into the ground. "Stop!! Leave him alone." I ran into the middle of the group. They all stopped abruptly. I covered his body with my and growled. They left with a thought. I pulled him to my body. "Inu, you can't leave me here. You can't…"