InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Feudal Vacation; Secrets Revealed! ❯ Part 2; A Look Into Sesshomaru's Mind ( Chapter 4 )

Completion of the Shikon Jewel

Part 2; A Look Into Sesshomaru's Mind

Warning, definite OOC here! There is some mild angst, vague and short lemon scene, and much, much lime.

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"You can wear a mask and fool the world, but you can never fool your heart."

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Sesshomaru's Journal #1

It was all a lie. I knew it was. But I had to tell her something! I can't let her- or anyone- know the truth. Not until the time that my father deems right. What is the truth? The truth is that all my life I have never tried to kill Inu Yasha. In fact I love my brother as much as anything. But the reason I always antagonize him, and challenge him, is not only to train him, but because I have been feeding a jealousy of my younger half brother. I suppose I am jealous because Father had loved Inu Yasha's mother, but not my mother. Of course, my mother never loved us either. She only wanted power, and that is why Father was forced to slay the power hungry demoness. Also, Inu Yasha has found love in the woman called Kagome. She is powerful- more powerful than any human should be allowed to be, and yet she never fully realizes her potential. Perhaps I should train her as well. Ha! She'd never trust me. Unless…. No! I cannot tell her any of this. Ever! Not until Father gives me a sign. I sound so obtuse! My Gods!

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#2

I walked by my room and heard that girl singing again. From what I gathered in Kagome's mumbling during her time of unconsciousness, the girl's name is Leila. Such a beautiful name. She's rather beautiful herself. Light brown and red hair- slight traces of silver make me question her origin. A rather remarkable mixture of colors in her eyes. The type of eyes that show all emotions. The type of eyes that draw a man in and make him desire… all of her. I sound utterly mad! Crazed! It's scary, really, what I right in this damned book. I still remember when and how I got this book. It was my birthday, and I was alone again. However, I went up to my room and there was a parcel on the mantel. I lifted it and read the card. It said, "To my dearest Sesshomaru. We may not have the same blood flowing through our veins, but you will always be my son." It was from Inu Yasha's mother. That card meant so much to me, that I put it in the safe, and have kept it there all these years. Well, there's a strange scent in the air, so before I really do go mad, I had better check it out.

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Sesshomaru closed the journal and sprang into pursuit of the foreign scent. He traced it into his room. Leila! He threw open the door to find the room was…. Empty. What the Hell was going on here?!

He searched the room for signs of- well anything. He followed his nose, (wherever it goes!^_~), to his wardrobe. He opened the folding doors and saw Leila lying on the floor with blood oozing from her wrist. He swore as he swiftly drew Tenseiga and held it to her wrist. He prayed for her to be healed, and to his surprise Leila's body was enveloped in a blinding white light.

Her eyes fluttered open and before she could focus her vision he had her surrounded her in his arms. Due to the fact that she could not form coherent thoughts at the moment, she put her arms around him. Even after she realized just whom she was hugging, she didn't stop. Instead her eyes filled with tears.

"I'm sorry," she whispered, pulling away from him. However he refused to let go, so she couldn't move.

"For what? For that? That's nothing to be sorry about. Instead you should be thankful that I found you and that I brought Tenseiga," he said.

"Ten-seiga?" Leila questioned.

"My sword. It is a healing sword, and it saved your life," Sesshomaru said, smugly.

"Well…. Thank you." she said, attempting once again to pull away from him. She could not and growled in frustration. "Would- would you let me go?"

"No, I don't think I will," said Sesshomaru, "I rather like this position."

Leila's eyes grew wide and she blushed. He smiled, loving the dominant feeling that was coursing through him. He suddenly bent down low to her face, and for a moment she thought he was going to kiss her again. However, he instead leaned in towards her ear.

"Has anyone told you how enticing you smell. It's enough to drive a man wildly insane with desire," he whispered in a sultry voice. In their closeness he felt her shiver as his warm breath caressed her cheek, and grinned.

"No- as a matter of fact…. Nobody has ever told me that. Would y-you please let me go now, S-S- Sessh- o- maru?" she asked, her voice breaking.

"You'll have to pay the price first," he said, chuckling slightly.

"Heh. Oh yeah? And what's the-" He cut her off when his lips collided with hers. He thrust his tongue forcefully into her mouth, caressing her own tongue with his, encouraging her to do the same. After getting over her initial shock at having her mouth plundered like a mine, she closed her eyes and returned his actions.

A conversation within Sesshomaru's psyche. The pattern is person A, person B. ABAB. And so on and so forth. I told you that so I don't have to go, "asked Sesshomaru," "answered Sesshomaru. Ok.

Why the hell am I doing this?

Because any man that's a man would.

Yes, but still….

There could be another reason.

You mean besides the fact that she's beautiful, smart, enticing, and smells incredible?

Yes, exactly.

And what is that?

You love her.

What?!!!!

Hehehe! Just think about it. And remember what Father said.

Yeah, yeah, yeah! His spirit will only appear, when the time is correct.

And when is that time?

When I find my mate.

Your soul mate. It doesn't have to be mate. You may not even know it! So we'll just wait and see.

Oh go away!

End convo. Back to reality.

Sesshomaru didn't even realize how badly his hands were wandering. However, when he stopped talking to himself, (^_^) he had memorized just about every curve and contour of Leila's body. He moved his mouth down to her neck and sucked gently. Leila moaned in response, and he took that as a reason to go on. He moved down to her shoulder, a worked there before moving to the other side. At the same time, his hands were slithering their way up the front of her shirt, where he found a strange silky article obstructing his path. He removed it with a swift flick of a claw, and began kneading her right breast. His left hand held her up, and it was a good thing, for otherwise she would have fallen to the floor.

"Sessho-maru…….-Please, stop. I- I- I can't do- this," Leila panted out.

"Silence," was all that Sesshomaru said in response to her request. He continued his exploits until there was a knock at the door. He picked her up and carried her to the bed, where he laid her down, gently kissing her forehead as he walked to the door. "Yes?" he said when he opened it to find a minion of his standing before him.

"One of the girls we captured is demanding to see you. She has called some words that I never thought females knew…" the little Kappa said.

"Very well, take me to her," Sesshomaru said, walking behind his minion.

"Sesshomaru you God Damned Filthy Son-of-a-Bitch! You fucking Youkai! How dare you kidnap me, and not even bother to tell me why! You sneaky, fucking snake! I swear when I get my hands on you I'm going to shove an arrow so far up your ass that it'll pop out your damned mouth!!!" Kagome ranted as two wolf demons, (NOT FROM KOGA'S CLAN!), held her away from their master.

"Kagome! Stop this raving! I will explain. I brought you here, not only to lure my brother to this castle, but also to give you something," he pulled out the two Shikon shards he had been carrying, and handed them to her. The wolf minions let go of her arms and stared at Sesshomaru. "You two… leave us alone please."

They complied, leaving Kagome to stare at him by herself.

"Why?" she asked. A simple question- yet so very difficult to answer.

"Because, you are the rightful owner of Shikon Jewel. Not my brother, or that monk, or the strange little kitsune, and especially not me." Sesshomaru said.

Kagome blinked at him. Why the devil was he acting like this? "Um, thank you." she said.

"Sure. Now, you and your two companions have free admission to any and all places on my lands. However, know that I have spies everywhere, and should you leave the territory, I will find you."

"Of- course." Kagome said uncertainly. His idiotic minions must have gotten confused and taken me, Sango, and Leila.

"Now, if you'll excuse me…?"

"Of course."

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#3

I do not understand what my problem is!! Could it truly be that I love Leila? It couldn't be, could it? Father has not yet shown himself to me… maybe he will though… but what if he does and I don't love her? Or what if he doesn't and I do? For the first time in my life I am really confused.. I think I do love her! But I can't tell her that. Not yet. I have to admit it's tempting… very tempting. I am going to go for a walk…….. I need to think.

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#4

I thought and I thought, and I know now that I do love Leila. I think I will tell everyone regardless of whether or not Father comes to me. Now that I have that off my shoulders, I think I shall attempt sleep.

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Sesshomaru lie in bed staring at the ceiling when a soft glow enveloped him. He felt a jerk, like he was being pulled in two directions, and suddenly found himself standing before…… his father. He kneeled in respect.

"Stand up Sesshomaru. You needn't show me any respect." his father said. He complied. "Now, I came to talk to you of this miko, Leila, whom you seem to have fallen in love with. She is pure, and I believe she would make a wonderful mate for you. She would help to dull your pain, and cleanse your soul. She's a keeper son, so keep her."

"Yes, Father," Sesshomaru said.

"Now, if you do not mind, I wish to get back to my eternal rest. Farewell, and tell little Inu-kun that I said hello, and Mother sends her love and blessings… to both of you."

Tears sprang into Sesshomaru's eyes and were falling gracefully down his cheeks by the time he was back in his room. He wiped them away and made up his mind to tell everyone the truth. Not him personally- he would let them read the "memoirs" (a.k.a. journal) he has been writing.

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