InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A First Time For Everything ❯ "Big Girls Don't Cry" ( Chapter 3 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: MIztikal_Dragon 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 08.31.2007 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 1.5K | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 08.31.2007 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 1.5K | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: If I owned InuYasha, Rin and Sesshomaru would have been making it like jackrabbits already!
Well I lied about a few things, one of which happens to deal with which story I posted next, but this one was bothering me and I couldn't get it out of my brain till I finally wrote it out. I think I have a thing for angsty then happy, angsty then happy. lol So we'll just have to see what I come up with next I guess.
This short stoy is more PG or PG-13ish rated so sorry folks, and it's another reason why I said I lied, but once you read it you'll understand what I mean. I just thought it was too sweet and sad to leave out of this so you must suffer! lol well not really, but still.
WARNING!!!: These stories contain strong violence, sexual situations, and/or dirty pouty mouthed people. If you are easily offended or do not like such material please go ride on your little pretty pink ponies and go fly back over to the innocent side of the rainbow! There's a reason why it's rated "M" children!
So please enjoy!
A First Time for Everything
By Miztikal-Dragon
“Big Girls Don’t Cry” --Fergie
“I can’t Kohaku,” she cried trying hard to keep her composure in front of her childhood sweetheart. “I don’t want to settle for this small town and have a small town life. I want more.”
“I can give you more!” He didn’t want to give her up, he loved her too much that he couldn’t bare the thought of a life without her.
Shooting to her feet, Rin outstretched her arms wide and lifted her eyes to the sky. “But I want the world Kohaku. I want to explore, try new things and get as far away possible from this routine life. I want it all and more Kohaku, I want it more than anything else and if I don’t do this for myself then I’ll die!”
“You won’t die,” he was practically pleading now, pulling her hands into his own. “Why don’t you give this life a try? Why do you want to give up what you have so badly?”
She wanted to yell and scream at him until he got it through his thick skull, but yelling at him with anger would be like punching a baby in the stomach. Kohaku was just too clueless about everything. Here he was almost twenty-three years old but still nothing but a junior high boy at heart, and the worst part was that it was killing her to see the confused hurt look in his eyes. But she couldn’t stay and be miserable for him, she was too selfish to sacrifice herself like that, not just for Kohaku but for anyone.
“Please Kohaku - please try to understand,” Rin was near desperation, tears filling her eyes. “There’s nothing in this town for me. No family, no place to call my own and there’s only so much someone can ever expect to do here and I don’t want limitations.
“Kohaku, I wanna be able to reach out and take a star if it moves me. I wanna create something so big that the entire world will think of me as a force to be reckoned with. I want potential, adventure, I wanna meet new people who don’t know anything about my fits or my family’s past. I want a fresh start.”
“So then what am I Rin?” He asked angrily, his hands clenching into tight fists. “Am I not enough fit in with your vision of a new life? Am I just someone you love and leave, if you even loved me to begin with.”
She could feel the tremors building in her legs, but she refused to let it get the best of her. IF she didn’t calm down she was going to let Kohaku bully her and let herself be worked into another nasty fit. It wasn’t fair that he was allowed to be bitter about what she wanted to do with her life, especially when she couldn’t find the heart to tell him how she really felt.
Sure she loved him, she loved him with all her heart; he was always there for her no matter what the circumstances, but it wasn’t the passionate lose your breath and borderline fainting that she craved.
At one time she imagined marrying him and living the simple life with a four bedroom house, white picket fence, and two-point-five kids, and even a dog, but time changed people and it had changed Rin. She wasn’t some parentless child anymore holding the hand of a boy, she was a young lady chasing after her dreams.
Lowering her head, her long ebony hair slid over her shoulders hiding her eyes from Kohaku. Why after so many years did he pick then to be so damn stubborn? Why not earlier when she needed him to be the most? Some people said “better late than never”, but not for Rin in this case, not now.
“Don’t you ever say something like that again.” She said flatly stepping away from his hands as they reached for her. “I love you yes, but I won’t be miserable for you. I’m sorry but I can’t stay here and if you think it’s because of you then you’re wrong, it has nothing to do with you. Grow up Kohaku, I’m getting on with my life and I think you should do the same.”
Without waiting for any kind of reply Rin turned her back to Kohaku and climbed down the endless steps down the ladder and off his sister’s roof. If she could have him by her side always she would have suggested him coming with her. She wanted to share her uncharted adventure with someone but the both of them knew he’d never leave his family behind, not even for her and it broke her heart.
It was two weeks later that Rin was ready to leave, two large duffel bags thrown over her shoulders, standing in line waiting for the next Greyhound bus to anywhere U.S.A and a sad smile on her face. She was going to miss the easy life and every memory she had was locked safely in her heart. This had been what she wanted and casting a last parting glance to where she wished Kohaku had been, Rin climbed up the steps and said a silent goodbye to everyone and everything she was leaving behind.
Two years and dozens of unanswered letters later Rin had hit it big. Maybe not in the way that changed the world around her, but changed the world for someone else. All the hope she’d left for Kohaku had all but faded away with time and the hurt from knowing he was no longer in her life was like an arrow in her chest. Always no replies from her letters, never any return mail and she didn’t know when, but one day the world went black.
She’d just gotten home from another long dreary day of work, her feet dragged on the pavement and her body bone tired. The mail box was filled with junk mail, grocery store adds and the various other things, but one tiny envelope slipped out and drifted to the ground. One tiny envelope with crisp clear handwriting and dropping everything else in her hands, she reached for it like it was suddenly disappear if she didn’t. Anxiously she ripped it open and on a small index card was his perfectly written words.
“Big girls don’t cry.”
At first she didn’t understand and flipping over the card she frowned at the local hospital logo. She wanted to scoff and curse under her breath, but she didn’t. If she got too worked up she’d have another fit and though they were manageable, Rin doubted she could handle two in one day - not with how she’d been feeling lately at least. So with a heavy heart Rin picked up her discarded mail and went inside her lonely adventure less apartment.
Life continued on for Rin at a slow pace, some days slower than others and it wasn’t long until she wound up in the hospital with a bad leg fracture from a fall she had after a nasty fit. After a few days in the hospital she was ready to leave, her angry eyes glaring as she hobbled her way down the halls on her crutches and a few times rolling in a wheel chair the nurses often forced her into. It wasn’t an all out bad experience for Rin, after all she did manage to run over a rather young doctor’s foot and got a good laugh out of it.
Well it had been fun until she tried to do the same to an emotionless coroner’s foot. That’s when all her real “problems” began. He had been furious at her, who wouldn’t be, but he didn’t show his distaste with words or expressions with his face, he merely looked down at her and went his own way.
It wasn’t a reaction she’d been expecting; however, it was one that piqued her interest none the less. For Rin it had been the blossoming of a beautiful annoy and get annoyed kind of relationship, but it was one that the both of them needed at the time.
Soon enough Rin was released from the hospital and she spent as much time with the silvery-white haired man as she could. She hadn’t known how difficult he could be until two months after they’d started spending Thursdays and Fridays drinking beer, eating pizza, and watching cheesy zombie movies with him and she’d tackled him to the ground and fished his badge from his pocket in order to finally learn his name. Sesshomaru.
They grew steadily closer and by the end of Halloween night full with pixie sticks and scary movies, a year later, she finally got a real taste of Sesshomaru. His lips tasted like white chocolate and she decided then that he was better than anything sweet.
His breath had been hot against her exposed flesh and his fingers floated on her like a feather’s touch and an innocent moment turned into something so mind blowing that it was etched into Rin’s brain. She became addicted to the cold hospital coroner, his cold amber eyes seeing through to her soul and filling her with a warmth she couldn’t describe.
Spending time with Sesshomaru was something she looked forward to almost everyday and she felt happier than she’d been in years and apparently it showed. With the more and more time she spent at his side or laying in his arms the less and less frequent her fits became until they eventually disappeared all together.
Things were always getting better and a few months later Rin was the soon to be Mrs. Sesshomaru. It sent her into a fit of giggles and after much convincing, Sesshomaru agreed to take time off work so the two of them could go back to her roots and dish out the big surprise.
The trip itself had been a nice one, spending every waking moment next to the man she’d fallen in love with, but what was waiting for her back in the town she’d left behind was something she’d never once in a million years would have expected. She recognized most of the people on the street, her smile brilliantly flashing. Sesshomaru had made a joke that she could power all of California and then some with her pearly whites if she tried hard enough and she could only laugh.
She didn’t find it odd when she asked an old friend she spotted in the local diner where Kohaku and his sister lived, but she didn’t quite understand the look of pity given to her with the napkin with written instructions on how to get to the new place. She also didn’t find it odd when Miroku, Sango’s long time boy friend answered the door with only a towel on, but what had been odd was the way his smile faltered the moment he’d lain eyes on her and Sesshomaru.
“What’s wrong?” She asked curiously raising her eyebrows. “Where’s Sango and Kohaku?”
He looked paler than he had the moment before and more docilely than she’d ever known Miroku to be as he led the two of them inside and to the living room.
“Rin,” he started unshed tears building up in his beautiful blue eyes. “I-I don’t know how to tell you this-”
“Tell me what?” She could feel her heart pounding in her chest and the grip that Sesshomaru had on her hand tightened.
“Kohaku,” how was he supposed to start? “He - there was an accident.”
“W-what?” Her tongue felt too dry and thick in her mouth.
Miroku hid his face in his hands, his voice trembling as he spoke. “He- he’d been fixing the tiles on the roof of Sango’s old place and somehow slipped off it a-and cracked his head open on the corner of the pool.”
If Miroku had been playing some cruel joke then she would have hurt him as bad as it were physically possible for her to do, but seeing the tears streaming down his face as he continued telling her that Kohaku would have been okay if he hadn’t somehow rolled over and accidentally slipped unnoticed into the pool and drowned. A cruel joke had been one thing, but hearing that Kohaku was dead was something completely different; she couldn’t handle the thought of never being able to see him again.
It was in that moment the world and time seemed to stop for Rin. All of the years with un-replied letters, all the time she’d spent hoping for some kind of answer had all been in vain because Kohaku had been dead for almost two years.
Why neither Sango or Miroku bothered to tell her before she didn’t know and it all hit her hard. Black lined her vision and she could feel a fit coming, this time however, she didn’t have enough time to say anything before she was consumed by the darkness, Sesshomaru holding her face between his warm and strong hands his panicked voice calling - yelling for her as she sank deeper.
“Rin,” hands brushed the hair from her face. “Hey, Rin are you okay?”
Snapping from her depressing thoughts Rin let a small smile spread onto her face. “Yeah, sorry I didn’t mean to drift off like that. Are we almost there?”
He didn’t look too convinced, but nodded anyway, his clear amber eyes never leaving her once. Eight years, it had been eight long and crazy years since she’d allowed herself to come back to the place she’d spent her entire childhood and she felt like it was better late than never, despite what some people believed.
The rental car rolled to a stop, the gravel crunching underneath the sleek tires and Rin sighed heavily as she leaved over and placed a chaste kiss on Sesshomaru’s lips. “I’ll be back in a few minutes okay?”
“I’ll be right here if you need me,” he whispered softly against her lips, his hand cupping the back of her neck and kissing her more firmly completely ignoring the childish giggles.
Savoring the feel of him longer than necessary, Rin pulled away and climbed out of the passenger’s seat, the gravel crunching under her own feet. The need to walk faster tugged at the edge of her mind, but she couldn’t get her legs to move at a faster pace; besides, she would get there eventually so what did it matter?
Rin never like cemeteries and in all of her twenty nine years of life her opinion never once changed. She didn’t like the knowledge of knowing one day everything would end and more of her loved ones would die and leave her, or that she’d end up leaving them. The sight of all the gravestones, their endless sea of death disturbed her and finding the one in particular she’d come to see she forced back her emotions and settled herself on a patch of green.
“Hey there Kohaku,” she whispered fingering the letters of his name on the small plaque headstone. “It’s been a long time huh?”
Her voice hitched and she wrenched back the sob caught in her throat, she had to stay strong, she had to keep calm and composed. It was the only way she could keep talking.
“I wanted you to know that even though I didn’t change the world I caught me a star.” Memories, both bad and good filled her head and the urge to run away was almost too overpowering. “I’ve found two and maybe by next spring it’ll be three.”
Why were the hardest things to say always the kind that needed to be said? Clearing her throat she heard the crunching of gravel and footsteps behind her and smiled softly; the kind that Kohaku had always given to her.
“I-I’m happy Kohaku,” it was harder to keep herself emotionless, but then again, only Sesshomaru could pull it off effortlessly. “You may not have liked it, but you’d like him. We got married underneath a willow just like I’d always said I would; seven years ago this week. I’m finally the adult I wanted to be and I hope you’re proud of me… God Kohaku I miss you so much, and despite what you thought I’ve always loved you. I-”
“Mom!” A girlish cry came from behind her, a pair of short arms wrapping around her neck and a small head resting on top of her own. “Daddy’s no fun, what’cha doin?”
A watery laugh left her mouth as she took the tiny hands and held them tightly to her chest. “Just saying goodbye to an old friend baby.”
The small six year old slithered to Rin’s side, a pair of amber eyes poking out of a mess of brown hair and sun kissed skin flattered freckles. The knowing look in her daughter’s eyes were exactly like her father’s and Rin’s hand flew to her mouth, her eyes shutting tightly. “Did your friend die?”
“Yes baby,” it was all too overwhelming for her to remember.
“Well daddy says that it’s okay for big girl’s to cry,” a sob broke through Rin’s barely holding barrier. “But daddy thinks all girls cry, but he’s weird cause my mommy doesn’t and you’re a big girl too!”
When Sesshomaru’s hand touched her shoulder Rin pulled her daughter into her arms feeling her resolve break and for the first time in almost ten years, Rin cried.
The End.
E/N: Wow... this story was depressing for me to write, and I started crying as I was writing the end because I could visualize the way it could happen. I'm just emotional and my sister gave me a dirty look. Hilarious! I know it wasn't quite a Rin/Sesshomaru centric short story, but technically they still were together in the end. If technicalities count. I have a three day weekend so I'll be working on more short stories. I'm hoping that I'll have another finished before Monday night and have it posted for you guys!
I can never thank you enough for all the comments left! They are like winning the lottery, but so much more fulfilling (well for me at least). So please keep leaving the little goodies for me and I'll do the same for you. (wink wink!) I'm currently working on "Penny and Me" so if I get if finished you'll get something real sweet from me, because it's freaking awesome!
Till Next time I'll be watching "Shaun of the Dead" and thinking of romance.
-Krystal-
Well I lied about a few things, one of which happens to deal with which story I posted next, but this one was bothering me and I couldn't get it out of my brain till I finally wrote it out. I think I have a thing for angsty then happy, angsty then happy. lol So we'll just have to see what I come up with next I guess.
This short stoy is more PG or PG-13ish rated so sorry folks, and it's another reason why I said I lied, but once you read it you'll understand what I mean. I just thought it was too sweet and sad to leave out of this so you must suffer! lol well not really, but still.
WARNING!!!: These stories contain strong violence, sexual situations, and/or dirty pouty mouthed people. If you are easily offended or do not like such material please go ride on your little pretty pink ponies and go fly back over to the innocent side of the rainbow! There's a reason why it's rated "M" children!
So please enjoy!
A First Time for Everything
By Miztikal-Dragon
“Big Girls Don’t Cry” --Fergie
“I can’t Kohaku,” she cried trying hard to keep her composure in front of her childhood sweetheart. “I don’t want to settle for this small town and have a small town life. I want more.”
“I can give you more!” He didn’t want to give her up, he loved her too much that he couldn’t bare the thought of a life without her.
Shooting to her feet, Rin outstretched her arms wide and lifted her eyes to the sky. “But I want the world Kohaku. I want to explore, try new things and get as far away possible from this routine life. I want it all and more Kohaku, I want it more than anything else and if I don’t do this for myself then I’ll die!”
“You won’t die,” he was practically pleading now, pulling her hands into his own. “Why don’t you give this life a try? Why do you want to give up what you have so badly?”
She wanted to yell and scream at him until he got it through his thick skull, but yelling at him with anger would be like punching a baby in the stomach. Kohaku was just too clueless about everything. Here he was almost twenty-three years old but still nothing but a junior high boy at heart, and the worst part was that it was killing her to see the confused hurt look in his eyes. But she couldn’t stay and be miserable for him, she was too selfish to sacrifice herself like that, not just for Kohaku but for anyone.
“Please Kohaku - please try to understand,” Rin was near desperation, tears filling her eyes. “There’s nothing in this town for me. No family, no place to call my own and there’s only so much someone can ever expect to do here and I don’t want limitations.
“Kohaku, I wanna be able to reach out and take a star if it moves me. I wanna create something so big that the entire world will think of me as a force to be reckoned with. I want potential, adventure, I wanna meet new people who don’t know anything about my fits or my family’s past. I want a fresh start.”
“So then what am I Rin?” He asked angrily, his hands clenching into tight fists. “Am I not enough fit in with your vision of a new life? Am I just someone you love and leave, if you even loved me to begin with.”
She could feel the tremors building in her legs, but she refused to let it get the best of her. IF she didn’t calm down she was going to let Kohaku bully her and let herself be worked into another nasty fit. It wasn’t fair that he was allowed to be bitter about what she wanted to do with her life, especially when she couldn’t find the heart to tell him how she really felt.
Sure she loved him, she loved him with all her heart; he was always there for her no matter what the circumstances, but it wasn’t the passionate lose your breath and borderline fainting that she craved.
At one time she imagined marrying him and living the simple life with a four bedroom house, white picket fence, and two-point-five kids, and even a dog, but time changed people and it had changed Rin. She wasn’t some parentless child anymore holding the hand of a boy, she was a young lady chasing after her dreams.
Lowering her head, her long ebony hair slid over her shoulders hiding her eyes from Kohaku. Why after so many years did he pick then to be so damn stubborn? Why not earlier when she needed him to be the most? Some people said “better late than never”, but not for Rin in this case, not now.
“Don’t you ever say something like that again.” She said flatly stepping away from his hands as they reached for her. “I love you yes, but I won’t be miserable for you. I’m sorry but I can’t stay here and if you think it’s because of you then you’re wrong, it has nothing to do with you. Grow up Kohaku, I’m getting on with my life and I think you should do the same.”
Without waiting for any kind of reply Rin turned her back to Kohaku and climbed down the endless steps down the ladder and off his sister’s roof. If she could have him by her side always she would have suggested him coming with her. She wanted to share her uncharted adventure with someone but the both of them knew he’d never leave his family behind, not even for her and it broke her heart.
It was two weeks later that Rin was ready to leave, two large duffel bags thrown over her shoulders, standing in line waiting for the next Greyhound bus to anywhere U.S.A and a sad smile on her face. She was going to miss the easy life and every memory she had was locked safely in her heart. This had been what she wanted and casting a last parting glance to where she wished Kohaku had been, Rin climbed up the steps and said a silent goodbye to everyone and everything she was leaving behind.
Two years and dozens of unanswered letters later Rin had hit it big. Maybe not in the way that changed the world around her, but changed the world for someone else. All the hope she’d left for Kohaku had all but faded away with time and the hurt from knowing he was no longer in her life was like an arrow in her chest. Always no replies from her letters, never any return mail and she didn’t know when, but one day the world went black.
She’d just gotten home from another long dreary day of work, her feet dragged on the pavement and her body bone tired. The mail box was filled with junk mail, grocery store adds and the various other things, but one tiny envelope slipped out and drifted to the ground. One tiny envelope with crisp clear handwriting and dropping everything else in her hands, she reached for it like it was suddenly disappear if she didn’t. Anxiously she ripped it open and on a small index card was his perfectly written words.
“Big girls don’t cry.”
At first she didn’t understand and flipping over the card she frowned at the local hospital logo. She wanted to scoff and curse under her breath, but she didn’t. If she got too worked up she’d have another fit and though they were manageable, Rin doubted she could handle two in one day - not with how she’d been feeling lately at least. So with a heavy heart Rin picked up her discarded mail and went inside her lonely adventure less apartment.
Life continued on for Rin at a slow pace, some days slower than others and it wasn’t long until she wound up in the hospital with a bad leg fracture from a fall she had after a nasty fit. After a few days in the hospital she was ready to leave, her angry eyes glaring as she hobbled her way down the halls on her crutches and a few times rolling in a wheel chair the nurses often forced her into. It wasn’t an all out bad experience for Rin, after all she did manage to run over a rather young doctor’s foot and got a good laugh out of it.
Well it had been fun until she tried to do the same to an emotionless coroner’s foot. That’s when all her real “problems” began. He had been furious at her, who wouldn’t be, but he didn’t show his distaste with words or expressions with his face, he merely looked down at her and went his own way.
It wasn’t a reaction she’d been expecting; however, it was one that piqued her interest none the less. For Rin it had been the blossoming of a beautiful annoy and get annoyed kind of relationship, but it was one that the both of them needed at the time.
Soon enough Rin was released from the hospital and she spent as much time with the silvery-white haired man as she could. She hadn’t known how difficult he could be until two months after they’d started spending Thursdays and Fridays drinking beer, eating pizza, and watching cheesy zombie movies with him and she’d tackled him to the ground and fished his badge from his pocket in order to finally learn his name. Sesshomaru.
They grew steadily closer and by the end of Halloween night full with pixie sticks and scary movies, a year later, she finally got a real taste of Sesshomaru. His lips tasted like white chocolate and she decided then that he was better than anything sweet.
His breath had been hot against her exposed flesh and his fingers floated on her like a feather’s touch and an innocent moment turned into something so mind blowing that it was etched into Rin’s brain. She became addicted to the cold hospital coroner, his cold amber eyes seeing through to her soul and filling her with a warmth she couldn’t describe.
Spending time with Sesshomaru was something she looked forward to almost everyday and she felt happier than she’d been in years and apparently it showed. With the more and more time she spent at his side or laying in his arms the less and less frequent her fits became until they eventually disappeared all together.
Things were always getting better and a few months later Rin was the soon to be Mrs. Sesshomaru. It sent her into a fit of giggles and after much convincing, Sesshomaru agreed to take time off work so the two of them could go back to her roots and dish out the big surprise.
The trip itself had been a nice one, spending every waking moment next to the man she’d fallen in love with, but what was waiting for her back in the town she’d left behind was something she’d never once in a million years would have expected. She recognized most of the people on the street, her smile brilliantly flashing. Sesshomaru had made a joke that she could power all of California and then some with her pearly whites if she tried hard enough and she could only laugh.
She didn’t find it odd when she asked an old friend she spotted in the local diner where Kohaku and his sister lived, but she didn’t quite understand the look of pity given to her with the napkin with written instructions on how to get to the new place. She also didn’t find it odd when Miroku, Sango’s long time boy friend answered the door with only a towel on, but what had been odd was the way his smile faltered the moment he’d lain eyes on her and Sesshomaru.
“What’s wrong?” She asked curiously raising her eyebrows. “Where’s Sango and Kohaku?”
He looked paler than he had the moment before and more docilely than she’d ever known Miroku to be as he led the two of them inside and to the living room.
“Rin,” he started unshed tears building up in his beautiful blue eyes. “I-I don’t know how to tell you this-”
“Tell me what?” She could feel her heart pounding in her chest and the grip that Sesshomaru had on her hand tightened.
“Kohaku,” how was he supposed to start? “He - there was an accident.”
“W-what?” Her tongue felt too dry and thick in her mouth.
Miroku hid his face in his hands, his voice trembling as he spoke. “He- he’d been fixing the tiles on the roof of Sango’s old place and somehow slipped off it a-and cracked his head open on the corner of the pool.”
If Miroku had been playing some cruel joke then she would have hurt him as bad as it were physically possible for her to do, but seeing the tears streaming down his face as he continued telling her that Kohaku would have been okay if he hadn’t somehow rolled over and accidentally slipped unnoticed into the pool and drowned. A cruel joke had been one thing, but hearing that Kohaku was dead was something completely different; she couldn’t handle the thought of never being able to see him again.
It was in that moment the world and time seemed to stop for Rin. All of the years with un-replied letters, all the time she’d spent hoping for some kind of answer had all been in vain because Kohaku had been dead for almost two years.
Why neither Sango or Miroku bothered to tell her before she didn’t know and it all hit her hard. Black lined her vision and she could feel a fit coming, this time however, she didn’t have enough time to say anything before she was consumed by the darkness, Sesshomaru holding her face between his warm and strong hands his panicked voice calling - yelling for her as she sank deeper.
“Rin,” hands brushed the hair from her face. “Hey, Rin are you okay?”
Snapping from her depressing thoughts Rin let a small smile spread onto her face. “Yeah, sorry I didn’t mean to drift off like that. Are we almost there?”
He didn’t look too convinced, but nodded anyway, his clear amber eyes never leaving her once. Eight years, it had been eight long and crazy years since she’d allowed herself to come back to the place she’d spent her entire childhood and she felt like it was better late than never, despite what some people believed.
The rental car rolled to a stop, the gravel crunching underneath the sleek tires and Rin sighed heavily as she leaved over and placed a chaste kiss on Sesshomaru’s lips. “I’ll be back in a few minutes okay?”
“I’ll be right here if you need me,” he whispered softly against her lips, his hand cupping the back of her neck and kissing her more firmly completely ignoring the childish giggles.
Savoring the feel of him longer than necessary, Rin pulled away and climbed out of the passenger’s seat, the gravel crunching under her own feet. The need to walk faster tugged at the edge of her mind, but she couldn’t get her legs to move at a faster pace; besides, she would get there eventually so what did it matter?
Rin never like cemeteries and in all of her twenty nine years of life her opinion never once changed. She didn’t like the knowledge of knowing one day everything would end and more of her loved ones would die and leave her, or that she’d end up leaving them. The sight of all the gravestones, their endless sea of death disturbed her and finding the one in particular she’d come to see she forced back her emotions and settled herself on a patch of green.
“Hey there Kohaku,” she whispered fingering the letters of his name on the small plaque headstone. “It’s been a long time huh?”
Her voice hitched and she wrenched back the sob caught in her throat, she had to stay strong, she had to keep calm and composed. It was the only way she could keep talking.
“I wanted you to know that even though I didn’t change the world I caught me a star.” Memories, both bad and good filled her head and the urge to run away was almost too overpowering. “I’ve found two and maybe by next spring it’ll be three.”
Why were the hardest things to say always the kind that needed to be said? Clearing her throat she heard the crunching of gravel and footsteps behind her and smiled softly; the kind that Kohaku had always given to her.
“I-I’m happy Kohaku,” it was harder to keep herself emotionless, but then again, only Sesshomaru could pull it off effortlessly. “You may not have liked it, but you’d like him. We got married underneath a willow just like I’d always said I would; seven years ago this week. I’m finally the adult I wanted to be and I hope you’re proud of me… God Kohaku I miss you so much, and despite what you thought I’ve always loved you. I-”
“Mom!” A girlish cry came from behind her, a pair of short arms wrapping around her neck and a small head resting on top of her own. “Daddy’s no fun, what’cha doin?”
A watery laugh left her mouth as she took the tiny hands and held them tightly to her chest. “Just saying goodbye to an old friend baby.”
The small six year old slithered to Rin’s side, a pair of amber eyes poking out of a mess of brown hair and sun kissed skin flattered freckles. The knowing look in her daughter’s eyes were exactly like her father’s and Rin’s hand flew to her mouth, her eyes shutting tightly. “Did your friend die?”
“Yes baby,” it was all too overwhelming for her to remember.
“Well daddy says that it’s okay for big girl’s to cry,” a sob broke through Rin’s barely holding barrier. “But daddy thinks all girls cry, but he’s weird cause my mommy doesn’t and you’re a big girl too!”
When Sesshomaru’s hand touched her shoulder Rin pulled her daughter into her arms feeling her resolve break and for the first time in almost ten years, Rin cried.
The End.
E/N: Wow... this story was depressing for me to write, and I started crying as I was writing the end because I could visualize the way it could happen. I'm just emotional and my sister gave me a dirty look. Hilarious! I know it wasn't quite a Rin/Sesshomaru centric short story, but technically they still were together in the end. If technicalities count. I have a three day weekend so I'll be working on more short stories. I'm hoping that I'll have another finished before Monday night and have it posted for you guys!
I can never thank you enough for all the comments left! They are like winning the lottery, but so much more fulfilling (well for me at least). So please keep leaving the little goodies for me and I'll do the same for you. (wink wink!) I'm currently working on "Penny and Me" so if I get if finished you'll get something real sweet from me, because it's freaking awesome!
Till Next time I'll be watching "Shaun of the Dead" and thinking of romance.
-Krystal-