InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Hanyou's Past ❯ InuYasha's Past ( Chapter 1 )

A Hanyou's Past

by RayJay

rated G

I never fit in among the others as a child. I was different. I never really understood why until I realized I was half human and half dog demon. I was only five then and as naive and as sensitive as ever. I never had a place to belong, to really be cared for. But one person helped me gain some confidence, even though I lost it shortly.

It was my human mother, the most beautiful person who ever walked this earth. She helped me see things in myself I never thought I could and made me feel like I mattered. My older brother Sesshomarou, who was a purebred, would always call me weak, soft, and fragile, and those words got to me every time he said them.

The older demons also liked to use me as their little punching bag most of the time. I was defenseless against them. "That's enough, Tine," My brother said one time after I got a pretty good beating from a bigger, older demon. "I believe he's had enough. Look at him, he's weeping."

"But Sesshomarou-" The demon was starting to object but my brother just glared at him, and then glared down at me because I was weak and a halfling. I hated him. I really did. He didn't care about me. He was just a selfish, self-absorbed demon who had too much pride. But... sometimes... he would be somewhat civil to me and protect sometimes like he did that one time. I was too young to understand, though, and I would go running home to my mother for comfort.

Every time, she'd scoop me into her arms gently and tell me I was normal to her and that I had a heart just like everyone elses. "Inu-Yasha, never let your brother or anyone else bring you down because you are half a demon. You're special that way..." She'd smile warmly and I would absorb her words, being joyful and relieved. Mother was my shelter and my savior. She'd sing me to sleep and tell me stories every night to soothe my hurt feelings, making me fell unalone in the cold hard world. I was such a happy child. Until the day she died.

"Mother? Mottttthhhheeerrrr?" I called out, racing through the woods. She had left hours ago to gather some herbs for wounds. Normally it only took her a little while and she had said, 'Inu-Yasha, if I'm gone too long, come look for me...' So naturally, I went for her, having no luck in my search. All of a sudden, a familiar scent caught my nose. Sesshomarou!

"Sesshomarou, where's my mother?" I asked in worry, hoping the arrogant youkai that was my brother would answer me.

"The mortal wretch that was your mother is dead..." He replied, actually stepping closer to me, as if I wasn't a hanyou.

I couldn't move. Mother... Images of my loving mother played through in my head in a continuous cycle. Tears spilled down my cheeks and I clenched my fists. "YOU did it didn't you!!!"

"Me? What business would I have killing your mother? After all, she was only a human," Sesshomarou said emotionlessly. I ran at my brother in rage and sorry and wildly tried to hurt him, but he evaded my attacks calmly and sighed. "My dear brother. She had to die sometime. Did you think she'd be with you forever?"

I stopped. That was what I had been thinking for the longest time. She couldn't die because then I'd be all by myself. I nodded and began to cry harder.

"Emotions are useless brother. You will be-" But Sesshomarou stopped talking when I buried myself in his robes. He stiffened up greatly. I don't know why I sought comfort from him. Maybe it was because I was alone and he was the only one around... or maybe... he felt sorry for me because I had lost the most important person in my life and so he was staying to TRY to comfort me... "Inu-Yasha... Cease this..." He said hollowly, staring down at me, not understanding why I was so emotional.

I stepped back and stared at the ground, unable to stop the flow of tears. Sesshomarou gazed at me and then sighed, looking away as if he was embarassed. He held out his arms and flinched. I was so confused by this. MY brother, who didn't have a heart... was going to hold and TRY to comfort me???

I ran to his arms and wrapped mine around his waist, feeling him holding me gently. I stopped crying and was baffled by this sudden gesture from Sesshomarou. He cleared his throat and shoved me back, straightening his robes. "Time heals all, Inu-Yasha. Even what we can't face at the time." He turned around majestically and began to leave.

"W-where are you going?" I called after him, starting to follow. He half turned.

"Leave me be. You cannot follow, for you are a useless half-breed. Farewell, my dear younger brother." He walked on and disappeared from my life at the time. From that day on, I was never the same happy naive child ever again.

The End