InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Mere Digression ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
Disclaimer: Inuyasha and its characters are created by Rumiko Takahashi. This fanfiction had been written for entertainment purposes only and without intention of infringing upon any copyright.
A/N: Thank you so much for your reviews for the previous chapter. I loved reading it all. And since most of you don't mind if there are any lemons in this chapter, I managed to get it out a little sooner than usual, :p. Anyway, enjoy…
A Mere Digression Part 5- by elle6778
Gulping, Kagome willed herself to remain calm.
Did Inuyasha suspect something?
Nerves made her tremble as she pulled on her clothes, her earlier pleasure had dissipated completely, leaving only trepidation. She would not know what to do, what to say if Inuyasha really found out what was going on. Should she deny it or should she just admit the truth? How would he take it?
Fully clothed now, she turned to the direction Inuyasha had gone to earlier. Slowly, she picked her way through the forest to her hanyou friend. When his tense red form came into view, her steps faltered.
Then she saw the small, unmoving body nearby.
With a gasp, she ran towards the unconscious Shippou. What did Inuyasha do to him? Shippou had been okay just a while ago. She bent down to pick him up, only to find that he was too big for her to lift up easily.
“Shippou!” she called as she shook the small form gently.
A muffled moan escaped the kit, but he did not wake up. Growing angry at Inuyasha, Kagome snapped towards him.
“Why did you hit him so hard?” she shouted as she straightened.
Inuyasha's shoulders were tight, and his voice strained when he spoke. “What were you doing back here, Kagome?”
Her anger immediately deflated. Swallowing past the dryness in her throat, she replied, “Bathing.”
She stared at him as he slowly turned to face her. His expression slowly switched from disgust to pain, and it instantly brought forth a sick feeling of guilt within her. A derisive snort sounded from the hanyou as he gestured to the hotsprings.
“Bathing? That's what they call it nowadays?” he jeered.
Something fell to the pit of her stomach at his cold words and Kagome paled. So he knew. There was no mistaking his tone or that expression of disgust gracing his features. Right now, he was just waiting for her to confess.
For a long, tense moment, they simply stared at each other. Her pulse picked up as her anxiety grew. She felt choked by all this, by how things had gone so wrong, by how she could not fix it. There was no doubt that this would affect things between her and Inuyasha. Their relationship was already shaky at the best and she knew that this was not going to help matters.
“Inuyasha… Let me explain.”
His face twisted in anger and he hissed, “You're going to lie to me again? I'm not stupid. I can smell Sesshoumaru. And I can smell what the two of you have been doing. So, you still want to explain?”
Her breath began to come in broken gasps as her stomach twisted painfully. “Inuyasha…” she began haltingly.
His voice cracked when he asked, “H-How? How could you do this? How could you do THAT with Sesshoumaru?!”
There was a strange ringing in her ears, in her head. Why was he accusing her like this? Could he not tell that she did not want it to turn out this way in the first place? Why could he not hear her out first?
She inhaled deeply, trying to calm herself enough to find the correct words to explain. “I was poisoned.
His eyes widened in surprise, and then suspicion. “Poisoned? When?”
“B-Back when we Mukotsu kidnapped me.”
“That was weeks ago,” he ground out.
She nodded. “I don't know what it is, but it made me want to… to…” she swallowed, unable to get those words out. Forcing herself to continue, she forced out, “Sesshoumaru found me and I just… I just couldn't… I couldn't stop myself…”
Inuyasha cheeks reddened in fury, his fists clenching by his side.
“You couldn't STOP YOURSELF?” he bellowed. “You couldn't stop yourself from fucking Sesshoumaru?!”
She winced at the harshness of his words. “I told you, I was poisoned,” she defended desperately.
“And what about him? He can't stop himself either?! What the hell is this all about?” Inuyasha snarled. “Sesshoumaru is an ice-block! Why can't he stop it?”
Getting a little angry at Inuyasha's refusal to even try to understand her predicament, Kagome glared at him. “I don't know, alright! Things were all mixed up and blurred at that time, and I wasn't thinking too clearly.”
“So you just gave in,” he spat.
Her eyes began to water with the mix of disappointment and anger. She was telling the truth and he was reacting in the worst way possible. Her voice was shaky when she finally spoke. “You weren't there, Inuyasha. So don't start judging me like this.”
“No I wasn't there, but why Sesshoumaru?” he shouted, his eyes flashing with anger. “That bastard let Naraku kill Kikyo!”
Kagome's breath caught in her throat. Even at a time like this, Inuyasha was still thinking about Kikyo? Was that how much Inuyasha valued her friendship? That he did not even care about how she felt about this whole thing?
“Kikyo, huh?” Kagome muttered bitterly. “You might have missed it, but Sesshoumaru was not the one who let Naraku kill Kikyo.”
Inuyasha's eyes narrowed. “What the hell do you mean?”
Kagome shook her head slowly. “Kikyo is dead, Inuyasha. She has been dead long before that day at Mount Hakurei,” she said dully.
“Don't say that!”
“But that's the truth, isn't it?” Kagome pressed on, her voice rising.
Inuyasha glared venomously at her, his hands clenching and unclenching at his side. The fact that he did not reply meant that she had gotten her point across, but at what cost? This was the first time she had been so blunt with Inuyasha when it came to the sensitive topic of Kikyo, after all. It was not surprising that he was not taking it well.
“Look, Inuyasha. Let's just leave Kikyo out of this, alright?” she finally said with a resigned sigh. “This has nothing to do with her.”
“Yeah, it has nothing to do with her.” His words were flat.
Kagome grimaced at his uncharacteristic tone.
Then he snorted as he pinned his gaze at the hotsprings. “Keh! So this is what you've been doing every time you said you were bathing, huh? Almost every other day.”
Recoiling at his accusation, she denied vehemently, “NO!”
“So it happened more than once with Sesshoumaru?”
Kagome averted her eyes. There was no point in lying now. Her voice was strained when she replied, “Yes.”
A heavy silence filled the air.
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Sesshoumaru could not comprehend what it was that compelled him to mask his scent and return to the hotsprings. Like everything else which involved the miko, he found himself unable to suppress the urge to do so. It was most unsettling.
When he arrived, he noted that the miko was no longer there, but his senses easily picked up her trail. Without pondering much upon his own actions, Sesshoumaru began to track her scent, which soon mingled with Inuyasha's. Keeping his own presence masked, he made his way through the forest until the sound of a heated conversation reached him.
“Keh! So this is what you've been doing every time you said you were bathing, huh? Almost every other day.”
“NO!”
“So it happened more than once with Sesshoumaru?”
“Yes.”
A long pause followed while Sesshoumaru made his way closer. Once they came into view, he stilled his movement and began to observe the tense figures through the gaps between the leaves.
The argument between the miko and Inuyasha was not unexpected. After all, the hanyou had traveled with the miko for some time, and thus Inuyasha must have developed some amount of possessiveness towards the miko. Unless, of course, Inuyasha's inuyoukai pack instinct was that underdeveloped. If his pack instinct was operating as it should, the miko would be facing a difficult time handling the irate hanyou.
Then Inuyasha broke the silence. “I see… You wanted it.”
“Yes, I want it. He didn't force me. I want it because this thing is too much for me to deal with on my own.”
“Why did you hide it from us?” Inuyasha demanded.
She planted her hands on her hips. “Look at how you're reacting now!”
“How do you expect me to react? This is Sesshoumaru you're talking about!”
“So what?!”
Sesshoumaru was surprised when he heard the miko's firm tones. It appeared that he had underestimated the strength of her character. She seemed to be handling the situation adequately.
Her voice rising, the miko continued, “At least Sesshoumaru helped, alright! Willingly or not, he helped without making it worse, without throwing accusations at me the way you're doing now, Inuyasha! And you call yourself my friend?!”
Sesshoumaru blinked as something which felt oddly like remorse course through him. Perhaps he should have kept a stronger hold on his desire. Still, he was somewhat puzzled by his own concern of the miko's welfare. He could tell that this conversation was upsetting her, even if she was standing up to Inuyasha. And he could not help but feel that he was somewhat responsible for this entire debacle.
But did he wish to do anything about it? Did he wish to involve himself further?
Inuyasha's voice was condescending when he said, “Friend, huh? Why would my friend fuck my brother? If you needed help, why don't you come to me?”
Voice shaking with anger, the miko hissed venomously, “Are you listening to yourself, Inuyasha? Come to you? You weren't around, remember? You were looking for Kikyo all this time. Your mind was not even with us when you're around. Kikyo is all you can think of.”
“I thought we agreed to leave her out of this,” Inuyasha hissed.
“I can't if everything you do revolves around her,” she shot back.
“That's my business!”
“Then you stay out of my business! What happened between Sesshoumaru and I has nothing to do with you, alright!”
Inuyasha released a mirthless chuckle. “I see. So it's all about you and the bastard now. Last I checked, you were on my side, not his.” His voice cracking, Inuyasha shouted, “All it took was for this thing to happen between you and the bastard to change everything. Is that it?!”
Sesshoumaru's lips thinned. He could no longer stand by and simply watch. Honor demanded that he fixed this. To do this, he had to cease the acts between him and the miko. Unfortunately, there was this issue of the miko's lust - it needed to be assuaged or dispelled. As long as she tempted him with her body, Sesshoumaru knew that they would inevitably find themselves in similar situations.
Therefore, the only way to put a permanent halt to this was to stop the source of her desire. By now, it was obvious that she had not been able to find a cure, therefore to solve this issue swiftly, he had to take control of the situation.
With that thought, Sesshoumaru streaked straight at the miko. In a swift move, he curled his arm around her waist, ignoring the small voice in his mind which pointed out that the little movement felt disturbingly natural.
“S-Sesshoumaru?” she gasped against his chest and he caught a glimpse of her surprised brown orbs before he turned his attention to Inuyasha.
“You will calm yourself,” Sesshoumaru intoned flatly, firmly pushing the miko behind him and holding her there with his Mokomoko-sama.
Glaring at him, Inuyasha sneered, “I wouldn't have believed it if I didn't see it with my own eyes. Are you actually trying to protect Kagome? What happened to humans being lower than you?”
Sesshoumaru's lips tightened slightly. “One must take responsibility for his actions.”
The miko emitted a loud gasp of surprise while Inuyasha's expression turned incredulous. It was clear that they did not expect his words. The hanyou was the first one to recover his ability for speech.
“Responsibility? For fuck-”
“You will curb your foul language,” Sesshoumaru interjected icily. There was a limit to what he could take from his foul-mouthed brother. And Inuyasha was reaching that limit swiftly.
“I'll say what I want to say! You don't have the right to butt in over here!” Inuyasha snarled. “Kagome is my business.”
“And what gives you the right to dictate what this human does, Inuyasha?” Sesshoumaru asked smoothly, ignoring the tightening of the miko's hands around his Mokomoko-sama.
“What the hell do you mean by that?” Inuyasha pointed a shaky finger towards the miko behind him. “She's my friend!”
“Is that so? That was not the impression you're portraying. Or is this simply because you're incompetent in this so-called `friendship' as you are in your pursuit of everything else?” Sesshoumaru's tone was disdainful. “How pitiful.”
Predictably, Inuyasha's eyes bulged and his cheeks reddened in fury. “Sesshoumaru…” he growled, taking a step forward as he unsheathed Tetsusaiga. “All these years, you treated me like some worthless shit. Now you'll pay for it!”
With that, Inuyasha streaked towards him.
“Inuyasha, no!” the miko gasped.
Reacting swiftly, Sesshoumaru pushed her away from him before he faced the hanyou.
“What insolence,” Sesshoumaru remarked flatly as he brought Toukijin forth to deflect the other blade.
Inuyasha sprung back and immediately took on a familiar stance. The air swirled around them, faster and faster as the fang prepared to execute the Kaze-no-Kizu. Then a bright flare erupted from it. Eyes sharpening, Sesshoumaru streaked to the side before the youki-filled wind attack could reach him, drawing a loud curse from the hanyou.
“Why don't you stay the hell out of this, you bastard!” Inuyasha shouted furiously.
“It cannot be avoided,” Sesshoumaru responded blandly as he swung his whip around.
Leaping away to avoid the attack, Inuyasha glared at him. “What, you cannot avoid touching her?!”
Sesshoumaru's lips thinned. As much as he wished to deny it, he could not refute the truth in Inuyasha's claim. He had lost control when it came to the miko, giving into the temptation of her body and her scent. But it did not mean that he would dishonor himself by neglecting his responsibility. Whether it pleased him or not, he would ensure that the issue was resolved.
“That is now irrelevant.” His tone was impassive. “The priority now is to resolve the problem.”
“Keh! What makes you think you can fix this?” the hanyou mocked. “Or maybe you're just using this as an excuse to use her body until you're satisfied, huh?”
Irked by those words, Sesshoumaru suppressed the urge to kill his brother outright. He simply settled for knocking the hanyou down with a lash of his whip. Spitting out a loud curse, Inuyasha hit the ground hard, sending a cloud of dust up into the air.
“She will come with me until she is rid of the poison,” Sesshoumaru declared firmly.
Inuyasha's eyes widened as he jumped to his feet. “I won't let you take her!” he shouted.
“The decision is hers, is it not?” Sesshoumaru intoned flatly.
The hanyou immediately spun towards the bewildered-looking miko. Pointing to Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha asked harshly, “Tell the bastard you're not going anywhere with him!”
Hands clasped to her chest, the miko only stared back at Inuyasha with troubled eyes. Sesshoumaru watched silently. It was her decision. If she chose to reject his aid, he considered himself freed from any obligations concerning the miko. The thoughtful expression on her face told Sesshoumaru that she was thinking it over.
“Damn it, Kagome! Answer me!”
“I-Inuyasha… I don't know.” Her eyes shifted uncertainly. “Sesshoumaru, you really think you can help me fix this?”
“Hn.”
Inuyasha interjected harshly, “So you'll go with him?! I can't believe it! What the hell happened to you, Kagome?!”
The miko winced. “Look, Inuyasha…”
“NO! I don't want to hear it!” the hanyou declared before turning around to face him. “This is all your fault!”
Eyes narrowing as his patience wore thinner and thinner, Sesshoumaru ground out, “Perhaps it is yours for neglecting your own companion.”
Inuyasha's eyes bulged. Then, with a snarl of outrage, he charged.
Deciding that he had graced Inuyasha with enough lenience, Sesshoumaru brought Toukijin before him. Channeling his youki, the blade pulsed once and then twice, before it released a blast of energy straight at the hanyou.
The attack connected directly with Inuyasha, sending him crashing into the nearest tree. With a loud snap, the trunk cracked with the impact and slowly, Inuyasha slid down the jagged surface.
“I… I w-won't let you… take her,” Inuyasha choked out.
Stepping closer, Sesshoumaru stared down condescendingly at the almost unconscious hanyou.
“She will be returned once the problem is resolved.”
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Rooted to the spot, Kagome could only stare wordlessly at the two brothers. Everything was happening so fast that she could not help but feel overwhelmed by all of it. Sesshoumaru was wearing his usual impassive expression and despite his condition, Inuyasha still managed to glare at the taiyoukai. She should go help Inuyasha, but considering what had been said between them earlier, she really did not feel like it.
Sesshoumaru shifted, and in a blink of an eye, he was beside her. Kagome gasped in shock when he wrapped a hand around her waist. It was clear that he was about to lift off into the air with her.
“Sesshoumaru,” she called out, pulling at his wrist in an attempt to dislodge his steely hold.
He ignored her, but she could see his jaw twitching. It was obvious that he was uncomfortable with this entire situation. She did not blame him, really, considering what he had taken upon himself. As strange as it was, Sesshoumaru was trying to help her. He had told Inuyasha that she would be cured, but how? As long as the poison remained in her system, she would be struck by this terrible urge every few weeks.
His innate sense of responsibility was forcing him to do something about her situation, something which he did not want to do under normal circumstances. She understood that much from the conversation he had with Inuyasha.
But he was wrong. Sesshoumaru was not responsible for this whole mess. And much as she wished to be cured, she could not impose on him like this.
“You don't have to do this, Sesshoumaru,” she said quietly. “I'll find the cure myself.”
His brows furrowed slightly, but still, he refused to respond to her words. Letting out a huff of exasperation, Kagome finally decided that there was nothing she could do to change his mind. After all, this was Sesshoumaru. He tended to do what he liked no matter what anyone else thought of it. And it looked as if he was bent on helping her find a cure.
That was what she wanted, wasn't it? So it made sense to go with Sesshoumaru, right? Besides, with Sesshoumaru's centuries of experience, she would probably be cured in no time. And when everything was fixed, she could come back to Inuyasha and explain things properly. Surely Inuyasha would have calmed down enough to listen by then.
“Inuyasha,” she called out.
Her throat tightened when her hanyou friend refused to even look at her. Taking a deep breath, she pressed on, “Tell Sango and Miroku that I'll be okay, alright.”
Still, Inuyasha refused to respond. With a resigned sigh, her eyes shifted towards the unconscious kitsune. She definitely could not leave without Shippou, especially considering how much he had done for her. Not to mention she refused to leave him to deal with an irate Inuyasha all by himself.
But even as the thought crossed her mind, Sesshoumaru's traveling cloud was already forming beneath her feet, preparing to launch up into the air.
“Sesshoumaru, wait!” she pressed, gripping his shoulder hard.
He cast her an impatient look. “What is the matter, miko?”
She pointed at the unconscious kitsune. “Shippou. I can't leave him here,” she said, her eyes taking on an uncompromising look. “I'm not going with you if it means leaving him behind.”
He stared at her contemplatively for a long time before he finally nodded, “You may bring the kitsune.”
Relieved that Sesshoumaru had agreed so easily, Kagome nodded her thanks at him.
Without another word, Sesshoumaru brought her towards the unconscious kitsune and waited until she picked Shippou up, her arms straining with his weight as she did so. To her surprise, Sesshoumaru plucked the kitsune's body out of her arms, depositing the unconscious body on the cloud. Before she could protest that Shippou might fall off, the taiyoukai wrapped the end of his furry Mokomoko-sama around the kitsune, effectively silencing her.
Moments later, they were up in the air. Kagome held her breath as the ground fell further and further away beneath her. Vaguely, it registered that this was the first time she had ever traveled so fast up into the air and it unnerved her a little.
“Where are we going?” she asked.
He did not answer her. Instead, he simply flew onward, obviously expecting her to follow his lead without question. She felt a spark of annoyance at his arrogance, until she remembered that he had gone out of his way to help her.
“Sesshoumaru?” she tried again in a more respectful tone.
Silence was the only response she got from him, but she knew that he had heard her. How could he not? She was practically talking right into his ear. There was something she needed to make clear. Taking a deep breath, she decided to press on.
“I can't be following you around forever. Sooner or later, I'd have to go back to Inuyasha.”
He stilled. Without looking at her, he said, “You will, once the antidote is found.”
“Do you know where to find the cure?”
“Hn.”
Her eyes widened. She waited for him to say more, but he remained silent. Kagome groaned inwardly. Apparently he had said enough to her, so he turned his attention back to his path of travel. Sesshoumaru might have decided to help her, but it was clear that he did not intend to be friendlier towards her than he had done before. She supposed it did not matter because after this, they would be going their own separate ways after all.
With that thought, she pushed her worries to the back of her mind and focused on the landscape below. Treetops flew by at a blinding speed, and Kagome had to yank her gaze back up to avoid being dizzy. Finally, she kept her attention fixed to one of the spikes on Sesshoumaru's armor.
Somehow or other, she managed to doze off, secure within the circle of his arm. She did not know how long she had slept, but the sudden jolt under her feet woke her. Peeling her eyes open, she found herself standing in a secluded clearing that she did not recognize. The faint sound of moving water reached her, telling her that she must be near a river.
“Your kit is awakening,” came the low masculine voice from above her.
As the arm around her retracted, Kagome glanced down to find Shippou stirring at their feet. Immediately kneeling down, she lightly tapped Shippou's not-so-chubby cheeks.
“Shippou?”
The kitsune's lashes flickered, and then lifted to reveal a pair of bleary green eyes. “Kagome?” he muttered, sounding confused. Then his eyes cleared and he jolted upright. “Are you alright? Inuyasha, he-”
“I'm okay, Shippou,” she quickly interjected. Then she gathered the kitsune into a hug. “I'm sorry you got beaten,” she mumbled into his hair.
He patted her head. “It's okay.”
Then he suddenly froze. Lifting her head up, she saw him eyeing Sesshoumaru warily. It was obvious from the expression on his face that he was not sure what to make of the taiyoukai's presence.
“He's helping me find a cure, Shippou,” Kagome explained, rising to her feet.
“But…” Shippou trailed off uncertainly.
“Don't worry, alright.”
Before the kitsune could respond, a loud childish cry reached them.
“Sesshoumaru-sama!”
Kagome spun around to find a little girl dashing towards them, her steps only slowing when she almost reached Sesshoumaru. Then the little girl bowed respectfully before turning towards them to do the same. Kagome could only stare in astonishment. What was Sesshoumaru doing with a human girl?
“I'm Rin,” she introduced with a large smile on her face.
The bushes behind shook and a moment later, Sesshoumaru's familiar retainer burst out of it, looking disgruntled. “I told you not to run away, you stupid human child!”
Rin beamed at the diminutive youkai. “But I won our race!”
Jaken bristled.
“Jaken,” Sesshoumaru called out levelly.
His retainer snapped back to him and bowed low. “Sesshoumaru-sama. This human child, she…” he broke off at the sudden furrowing of the taiyoukai's brows. “Forgive your lowly servant for speaking out of turn, Sesshoumaru-sama.”
“Jaken took care of me like you asked, Sesshoumaru-sama,” Rin chirped. “He made sure I ate well, and bathed everyday.”
Blinking in disbelief, Kagome continued to stare at the scene playing out before her. Beside her, Shippou was doing the same. It was hard to wrap her mind around the fact that Sesshoumaru was taking care of a human girl. On top of that, Rin looked so happy and healthy, which meant that Sesshoumaru was doing a good job of it.
Sesshoumaru turned to his retainer. “You will watch Rin and the kitsune. This Sesshoumaru and the miko have matters to attend to.”
Kagome's eyes widened. Sesshoumaru planned to leave Shippou behind? Obviously, from the looks of the faces around her, the idea did not appeal to everyone. Jaken let out a horrified squawk while Shippou gasped.
Rin, on the other hand, bounced happily and exclaimed, “Oh, I have someone else to play with!”
“I'm not leaving Kagome!” Shippou declared stubbornly.
Sesshoumaru cast the kitsune a stern look. “You will obey.”
Shippou gulped, shrinking back in alarm. Slightly annoyed at the way he was scaring her kit, especially after what Shippou had gone through with Inuyasha, Kagome glared at Sesshoumaru. “Look, can't he just come with us?”
“He will be a hindrance.” His tone was uncompromising.
“But-”
“Do not argue, miko.”
Kagome closed her eyes and willed herself to remain calm. Sesshoumaru was not the type to make rash decisions, so he must have a reason for wanting to leave the kids behind.
“Are they going to be safe here?” she finally asked.
“Hn.”
She turned to the kitsune, who was eyeing the taiyoukai with undisguised trepidation. “Shippou? You'll be okay here, alright. Just stay close to Jaken and Rin.”
“But Kagome…” he whined in protest.
“He'll bring me back once we cure this… this thing inside me,” she explained. “I'll be fine.”
A pair of worried green eyes stared back at her as she stared back, willing the kitsune to understand. For some reason, she trusted Sesshoumaru. Whilst the taiyoukai had threatened her more than once in the past, ever since the start of this entire mess, he had done nothing but to help her in his own way, willingly or not. That told her a lot about the strength of his honor and she wanted Shippou to believe in the taiyoukai as she did.
Finally, after a long while, Shippou sighed in resignation and nodded. “I guess I'll wait here then.”
Kagome gave him a grateful smile. “I'll be back in no time.”
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A/N: Hope you liked it. Please review if you could, okay. And for those of you who are reading A Latent Destiny, I'm very sorry to say that I'm putting it on hiatus until I complete A Mere Digression.
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