InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A New Life ❯ The Truth of a Love that once was ( Chapter 14 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

The Truth Comes Out
“Ohayo Kagome-chan” Miroku said with a lecherous grin on his face but with an innocent gleam in his eye.
“Ohayo Miroku-chan” Kagome said as she blushed deeper because she knew what Miroku was thinking due to the lecherous grin on his face.
“Are you okay Kagome-chan?” Sango ignoring the glares she was getting from Sesshomaru, ran up and embraced Kagome in a hug. It had been hard on her because she had been the only female in the group and it was a little unnerving especially when Miroku kept spying on her while she would bathe though she would take care of him in her own way. She never wanted to lose the girl that had become her little sister in the three years they had spent searching for the shards and Naraku.
Sango would bring herself to tears at the thought of when the Jewel was whole once again and Kagome would return to her own time and she would never see her again. She pulled back from her friend with a worried expression adorning her usual passive face as she thought about all the heart break Kagome must of gone through between Inuyasha and Kikyo.
“I’m fine Sango, Miroku hasn’t been groping you again has he?” Kagome asked with a twinkle in her eye as she watched Miroku inch closer to Sango with his arm outstretched towards her bottom. Sango watching where Kagome’s eyes were, slapped Miroku across his right cheek before he could succeed in grouping her. Miroku brought a hand up to nurse his stinging face as he put on his most innocent smile and said; “Why did you do that dearest?”
“Hentai” Sango said turning her back on the perverted Monk.
“Bout time you made it here” Inuyasha interrupted in his usual gruff and angry way.
“Come now Inuyasha you know us humans do not have the strength a hanyou has,” Miroku said jokingly as he turned to Inuyasha.
“Keh” Inuyasha crossed his arms over his chest like he always did when his pride was wounded.
“Okaa!” an orange ball of fluff hurled himself at Kagome at an alarming speed. Kagome got the breathe knocked out of her as Shippo collided with her chest; she stumbled back until a hard muscular chest that was standing behind her stopped her body from retreating any further.
Looking up her face turned a brighter shade of red as she saw the looming eyes of Sesshomaru watching her with amusement and lust sparkling in them. Kagome just couldn’t pull herself away from Sesshomaru because she felt like her feet were glued to the stone floor. Staring up into his eyes she couldn’t help but feel that she was loved. He sparked feelings inside of her that she didn’t even know she possessed. She thought back to her father’s words in her dream and wondered if Sesshomaru would be the one to love her forever.
‘Ridiculous, no one could ever love me; I’m ugly, weak, and stupid no one wants me’ as these sad thoughts came back to her mind she pulled abruptly away from Sesshomaru’s arms that had come to rest on her waist.
“Gomen” she whispered so low that Sesshomaru had to strain to hear it. Her companions and Sesshomaru watched as Kagome walked out of the room with her eyes downcast to the floor and Shippo still in her arms.
“Kagome?” Sango was ready to go after her but a hand held out stopped her from following her. Looking beside her she saw Sesshomaru holding out his hand stopping her as he continued staring at the door Kagome had left through.
“She needs to be alone” he stated with a hint of sadness in his cold tone.
Slumping her shoulders Sango made her way out of the door and outside the castle until she came to the flower gardens where she sat down on the soft green grass with Kirara in her lap, stroking her.
‘Kagome I want to help you, why can’t you come to me?’ Sango asked herself as she continued stroking her fire neko that purred in pleasure and contentment. She knew how Kagome must feel though their situations were completely different.
Kagome’s heart was broken by the one she thought she loved but had betrayed her leaving her doubting herself and not having the strength to go on. Herself had lost her entire family to Naraku’s evil plans and now her brother Kohaku was now a puppet to Naraku and once he was through with Kohaku then he would cease living.
The memories brought sadness to her heart that she couldn’t run from though she desperately wanted to. She was grateful for the distraction Miroku presented to her when he would try to stroke her bottom. She knew that she was falling in love with Miroku but she didn’t want to be hurt again if something should happen to him so she would always hide her feeling deep within herself. Sango sighed in frustration as she lay down in the soft grass as Kirara curled up on her flat stomach and fell into a light sleep. Sango feeling tired and drained of energy closed her eyes in contentment as she too drifted off into a light sleep.
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“Kanna” the vile hanyou motioned for his first reincarnation into the room where he was staring out into the gloomy reaches of his castle. The albino child came into the room bearing the white mirror held in his hands.
“Hai Master?” Kanna said in a chilling and emotionless tone that rivaled Sesshomaru’s cold voice.
“Show me the Miko” Naraku turned his gaze to Kanna’s mirror watching as it swirled with white energy as an image formed on the mirror reflecting the outside world. Effortlessly peering into the glass Naraku watched as he could see Kagome running from Sesshomaru’s study with tears running down her face in rivulets.
‘Disgusting’ Naraku thought to himself as he thought on the many petty emotions of humans but as he watched Kagome he couldn’t but help to feel pity for the girl. Over time he had surprisingly come to respect the Miko that cared for others before she cared for herself and how she would fear him one minute and the next she would be firing a purifying arrow at him.
‘She would be a good ally in destroying the Inu brothers’ as he thought that a form was planning in his evil mind about how he could get Kagome to come to him willingly without having to exert any pressure. ‘You will be mine Kagome’ he motioned for Kanna with a flick of his wrist to leave the room. Thoughts were turning around in his mind until he came to one that would be sure to make Kagome come to him willingly.
Sesshomaru sat in his study surrounded by his brother and his pack as they bombarded him with questions about Kagome. Now the lecherous Monk was speaking; “Sesshomaru-sama why did you take Kagome in the first place?” Miroku was leaning on his golden staff as he looked into Sesshomaru’s icy eyes.
“I found her in the woods and this Sesshomaru would not leave a defenseless Miko roaming around in his lands” he stated, though on part of the truth.
“Then why bring her to your castle and not kill her like you would anyone else?” Miroku knew that he was really pushing his luck but he wanted to know why the human hating Lord would want Kagome in the first place.
“I had intended on her to give this Sesshomaru information on his brother’s sword” he replied truthfully though he never truly wanted the sword in the first place. At the time he had found Kagome his heart had skipped a beat at the find he had come across. He would always be intrigued by Kagome though when her image would materialize in his mind he would try to push it away but would always fail.
He did not really intend for her to get the Tetsusaiga he just wanted to see what made her so intriguing to him so he just simply took her to his castle so he could keep an eye on her. But since she had been staying at the castle he had come to find out that he was falling in love with her though he tried to ignore it. She was the only one who could break through the barrier that he had created around himself for so many years and she had melted the ice around his heart. As he thought these thoughts to himself Inuyasha was asking him a question though Sesshomaru did not hear him.
“Yo are you listening to me!” Inuyasha waved his hand in front of Sesshomaru’s face.
“…” Sesshomaru’s eyes were glazed over making it obvious that he was thinking.
“Sesshomaru!” Inuyasha yelled trying to break through Sesshomaru’s thoughts which he succeeded in doing.
“Hai?” Sesshomaru snapped clearly irritated at being interrupted from his thoughts.
“I asked you why you wouldn’t let Sango go after Kagome?” Inuyasha was now growing impatient since Sesshomaru obviously did not care what he wanted.
“Kagome needs to be alone” Sesshomaru said before gracefully standing up from his seat on the floor and turning his back to his brother, staring out the door that led to his large balcony.
“Did Kagome try to end her life while she was here Lord Sesshomaru?” Sango asked as she had just entered the room. She had still been in her light sleep when she heard Inuyasha practically screaming at Sesshomaru. She walked back into the castle after a thought came to her mind that she needed answered.
Sesshomaru looked at Sango wondering why she would ask that question. He wasn’t sure if he should tell them that Kagome would have succeeded in killing herself if he hadn’t been there. After seemingly a long period of silence Sesshomaru spoke, “Hai she did try to end her life” his voice was quiet so that the humans had to strain to hear him clearly. All the occupants of the room gasped at the news Sesshomaru had just told them.
“What? How?” Inuyasha sputtered hoping that it wasn’t because of him.
“I overheard Kagome say that she would be joining her father soon then when I was in her room she had a thin knife and cut both her wrists.”
“Kagome...” Sango whispered horrified that she had done that.
“How did you stop her?” Inuyasha asked desperately hoping that his brother had helped her.
“I tore the knife from her hands and closed her wounds with my healing saliva” Sesshomaru said wincing at the memory.
“Go find Kagome Sesshomaru, we don’t need to leave her alone she might try it again!” Sango yelled frantically because she knew that since Kagome was alone than her thoughts would become the same.
Sesshomaru knew that Sango was worried about Kagome but he didn’t think Kagome would try to commit suicide again after he heard her talking in her sleep to her father. Knowing that their fears wouldn’t be calmed until he saw if Kagome was all right he walked out onto his balcony and leaping off the rail landed in the flower garden where he was sure she would be at.
Picking up her scent on the light breeze that flowed towards him and slightly swayed his silver hair he followed her scent until he came upon her in the clearing where she had her first Miko training with Tora. Her adopted kitsune, Shippo was reaching out his tiny paws in the koi pond trying to touch one of the multicolored fish that bit at his fingers thinking they were food.
Kagome sat further away from the koi pond with her legs pulled up with her chin resting on her knees. Sesshomaru felt a stirring in his loins since Kagome was now wearing her sailor green uniform with the short skirt that left his mind to his imagination because her legs were left bare up to her thighs. Sesshomaru watched as Kagome watched Shippo. She had red streaks down her cheeks where she had previously cried and she was deep in thought due to the thin creases running across her forehead.
Sesshomaru thought to himself, ‘how can an angel like this creature feel any pain. She would make a fine mate; no, finer than a mate; she is possibly my soul mate. Inuyasha has your heart though, I do not think I shall ever love another. Kagome let me share your sorrow?’ Sesshomaru thought all this while he was silently walking towards Kagome who was still unaware of his presence.
Silent as a shadow he sat down on the soft grass with his long legs tucked under each other as he watched Shippo giggle when the koi bravely nipped his fingers. Sesshomaru turned his head to the side so he could study Kagome. Her eyes were on Shippo though she didn’t really see him he knew due to the glazed over look in her eyes. Her lips were slightly opened, tempting him to take them in a passionate kiss. For a long while he just sat there watching Kagome’s facial expressions and the light way she breathed until she suddenly snapped out of her daze.
Kagome had been in her own world thinking about what she would now do with her life, she knew that she still had to collect the jewel shards but she was having trouble keeping her mind on that. She felt a light prickling in the back of her mind warning her that someone was sitting beside her but she simply ignored it as she thought about Inuyasha.
The prickling in her neck stayed for another five minutes until Kagome began wondering who would sit beside her for so long and not say anything about her daydreaming. She blinked to clear her glazed over eyes and looking towards the demon aura she felt she nearly jumped when she saw Sesshomaru looking back at her with his golden orbs.
‘His eyes are like liquid pools of gold. Beautiful...his eyes show his emotions unlike a human’s face.’ Unconsciously her hand came up to rest on Sesshomaru’s cheek as she studied his eyes that seemingly glowed at her in the afternoon light. Realizing what she was doing Kagome pulled back her hand as the blood rushed to her cheeks making a light blush appear on each of her cheeks. Kagome heard a quiet but distinct chuckle coming from Sesshomaru who was clearly amused that he could make her blush so much. Putting on an angry face she turned back around to face him.
“What’s the big idea sneaking up on me like that?” she asked, putting her hands on her hips and glaring at Sesshomaru who just chuckled louder.
“I have been here for over five minutes utsukusii.” His eyes bore into her eyes as if he could see right though to her soul.
Kagome’s heartbeat sped up and her breathing became shallower as he called her that. This was the second time he called her beautiful. The first time he said that she thought he was just joking but this time as she looked into his eyes she could tell that he was truly calling her beautiful.
She turned her back on him so he could not see the blush that now had changed two colors darker and now covered her entire face. She could hear Sesshomaru laughing out loud now, his voice soothing her instead of embarrassing her even further. Feeling brave she turned back around; “What?” she growled.
He stopped laughing and with snail slowness he inched forward until Kagome could feel his breath on her ear. “You forget my dear that I can tell when you are blushing” he whispered in her ear.
Kagome’s breathe stopped in her throat as his tongue snaked out from his mouth and traced the outline of her ear. Kagome snapped her mouth tightly shut trying to suppress the moan that wanted to escape. She was still holding her breathe as he continued with his tongue down the side of her neck and back up to her jaw. Not being able to suppress the moan any longer she released it with her breathe that she had seemingly been holding for a long while though she had only been holding it about ten seconds.
Upon hearing her moan of utter pleasure Sesshomaru pulled back, afraid that he would do something that he would undoubtedly regret especially since he knew Inuyasha was watching from his balcony. He became more aroused as he heard her whimper when he had pulled away from her sweet flesh that tasted of actual honey.
Kagome looked up to Sesshomaru with her eyes glazed over with arousal and the need for him to stay close to her.
“Gomen” Sesshomaru turned his eyes away from her grayish blue ones as he watched Shippo out of the corner of his eye.
“Iie, I’m sorry Lord Sesshomaru” Kagome turned her head also so he couldn’t see the tears that had gathered in her eyes once he had turned away from her.
“Kagome?” Sesshomaru could smell the faint scent of held back tears as he felt her gaze leave him. He brought his hand forward, grasped her under the chin and gently turned her head until she was looking up at him. “Onegai Kagome why do you shed tears?” He cupped her face with both his hands and seeing a tear slide down from her eyes and over her cheek he ran his thumb over it, making it disappear.
“…” She remained silent as she looked off to the side, not wanting to meet his eyes that held love for her in them.
“Onegai look at me Kagome” Sesshomaru once again gently turned her head until she was looking into his eyes. “Onegai tell me what’s wrong?”
Instead of answering Kagome brought her hands up and buried her head in his chest as her tears were unleashed in a torrent of pain and sorrow. Sesshomaru maneuvered himself until he was behind her with his legs on either side of hers. He put his hands around her waist as he let her continue crying until her tears were spent.
Feeling worn out Kagome fell back against Sesshomaru’s warm chest with his hands moving to rest just under her breasts.
“Gomen” Kagome whispered knowing that he could hear her.
“For what utsukusii?” he asked not sure what she was sorry about.
“For being so weak” she said as she lay her head back until she was resting it on his chest, where he rested his chin.
“How many times do I have to tell you until it gets through that think head of yours that you definitely are not weak” he joked lightly but was actually serious. Kagome laughed at his attempt to lighten the mood.
He was pleased that he got her to laugh if only a little; “Now what’s troubling you Kagome?” he asked in a serious tone as he brought one of his hands up from her waist and ran his fingers through her silky hair.
“…”
“Onegai.” Kagome hearing the pleading in his voice couldn’t refuse not to tell him.
“I…I don’t love Inuyasha anymore…since I last saw him with Kikyo I knew that he would never love me like he does Kikyo. But…I feel as if no one could ever love me. Inuyasha has told me how ugly and weak I am countless times that I have started to believe him. My…my father told me in a dream that someone will love me but I don’t think I can ever believe that. I feel like I have no blood in my veins. I am always cold inside of my heart. It didn’t start when I last saw Inuyasha and Kikyo together it started when I found out that I loved Inuyasha but he would never show me love in return. I….I don’t think I can go on in life with this sorrow at never having anyone love me. My heart is shattered. I think I hate myself for being the way I am.” Kagome felt a great weight lifted from her shoulders as she told Sesshomaru how she felt from her heart.
‘How could such an angel succumb to such grieve that she would throw away her life?’ Sesshomaru thought to himself but his thoughts were interrupted when Kagome continued talking.
“I know that I am Kikyo’s reincarnation but does everyone have to remind me everyday of my life. When I see how Inuyasha, Sango, Miroku, Kirara, and even Shippo fight in battle as I hid I feel so weak and worthless. Why does my life have to be so difficult? And then everyone reminds me how I was the one who shattered the Shikon Jewel and how many lives have been destroyed due to its shattering. They don’t realize when they remind me but I can. I don’t want to go on in life, don’t you see?” Kagome now turned towards Sesshomaru. “I don’t deserve to live, I can’t live anymore when I am already dead inside!” Kagome’s voice rose exponentially as she finished. Her anger and sadness had hit its climax that she flung herself at Sesshomaru, her head buried in his hakama with her fist tightened around the silk as she feebly hit his chest with her other hand trying to dispel the anger she had suffered for so long.