InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A New Life ❯ Leaving Two Loves ( Chapter 16 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Leaving Two Loves Behind
“Shh it’s all right Kagome” Sesshomaru said as he rubbed soothing circles on her back as he tried to quell her anger and sorrow. ‘How do I stop her heart from breaking and bring her out of this despair?’ he thought as Kagome’s anger died away until she was only sobbing brokenly in his tight embrace.
Inuyasha was watching from the balcony of Sesshomaru's balcony as his brother tried comforting Kagome.
‘What have I done to her? I should have never seen Kikyo after Kagome came into my life. Damn it! I now see that Sesshomaru loves Kagome more than I ever showed her. I’m such a baka!’ Inuyasha turned from the embracing pair and jumped from the opposite side of the balcony into the afternoon sunset. With his demon speed he jumped from tree branch to tree branch until he came to the middle of the forest.
He dropped to the forest floor panting, not from excretion but from the pain he felt that he had caused Kagome pain. Inuyasha ran at the nearest tree in front of him and with amazing quickness brought the large tree down with his sharp claws. He continued knocking down trees until his anger had died down until he was surrounded with only sadness.
“What have I done?” Inuyasha screamed to the heavens wondering what could have went wrong. “I’m sorry Kagome, I’m sorry” Inuyasha whispered as he dropped to the hard forest floor on his knees as a few drops of salty tears escaped his tightly closed eyes and landed with a muffled plop on the hard ground.
“I’m sorry Sesshomaru I didn’t mean to soak your hakama with my tears” Kagome said as pushing herself up from his chest that she had been crying against but was stopped when a hand on her waist brought her back to sit in his lap. Kagome looked up at him confused as to why he would pull her back down into his lap.
“Do not worry yourself for I am glad to have you tears penetrate my clothing” he lightly joked as he pushed a lock of raven hair behind Kagome’s ear. He brought his other hand around until it was resting on her back as he cradled her in his lap. Kagome blushed at the position they were in and was beginning to wonder if Sesshomaru had lost his mind. Reaching up she touched his forehead with her palm face up on his skin seeing if he had a fever.
“Your not sick are you?” Kagome asked playfully concerned, pulling her hand back from his forehead and beginning to blush.
Sesshomaru chuckled at her obvious concern for his health. “Hai I am sick.”
“How are you sick?” she asked as she thought that demon’s didn’t get human illnesses.
“I am love sick Kagome” he whispered nuzzling the side of her neck with affection. Kagome was in shock at his words, never in a million years had she thought Sesshomaru could love anyone other than Rin but now that she was seeing this new side of him she knew that he wasn’t the cold demon lord that she always thought he was.
‘Then Sesshomaru was the one my father was talking about that would love me.’
“I don’t know what to say” Kagome said as she looked up into his golden eyes that were unmistakably shining with love.
“You don’t have to say anything, I know that you still love Inuyasha and if you decide to remain with my brother then I understand.” Sesshomaru once again felt that knife twisting around in his heart, feeling as if he would die if she left him after he had fallen in love with her. Now that he thought about it he knew that he had always loved Kagome but he was too arrogant to admit it to himself, not wanting to become his father and take a human mate.
‘I don’t want you to go Kagome, will you stay with me?’ he thought to himself as looking into her clouded gray blue eyes but not being able to voice it out loud for fear of Kagome becoming angry or sad by those words.
‘What am I supposed to do, I can’t tell him no or yes. If I tell him no then it will break his heart and if I tell him yes then I will break Inuyasha’s heart. I don’t know what to do father, help me.’ Kagome stood up from his lap and turned her back to him as tears gathered in her eyes at not being able to decide what to do.
“Excuse me?” Kagome ran from the garden with the tears finally escaping in a torrent of emotion down her cheeks as she made her way into the castle and up to her room where she slammed the door behind her. Kagome flung herself on her bed and began crying like she had so many times in the last few days. But this time she was crying in happiness because Sesshomaru said that he loved her but she was crying in sadness because she would be hurting Inuyasha if she loved Sesshomaru back. After she had cried all of her tears she came to a conclusion.
‘I will leave both Inuyasha and Sesshomaru and find the jewel shards on my own. Then once the Jewel is complete then I will give the Jewel to Inuyasha and return back to the future.’ “Then everyone will be happy;” ‘except me.’
Kagome retrieved her yellow backpack from the corner of her room and sat it atop her bed, opening the flap. Stepping over to the wardrobe she took out her extra uniform that she had brought and put it on then she got her old uniform from the wardrobe and put in her bag along with her brush and other accessories that she had brought with her.
After she made sure all of her belongings were in her bag she snapped it shut then with one last look at the room she had stayed in she shut the door quietly behind her. All the while she was doing this tears were constantly coursing down her cheeks that had long ago become crimson red from all the tears. Walking quickly down the hallways she received curious stares from the servants going about their chores until she reached the front doors.
She asked the guards to open the doors, looking back and forth between each other until they decided that she could leave though they did not know why. Stepping into the afternoon glare that was fading fast into night she walked through the main gates and kept on walking until she came to the edge of a forest. Turning around she looked back on the castle and most of all the people she loved that she was leaving behind.
The castle gleamed as the last rays of sunshine reflected off the white marble. She never realized how beautiful the castle was until she actually saw it from far away. She sighed as she thought of the people she would be leaving behind in that castle. Shippo and Rin who she had began considering her two kids, Sango and Miroku who were like an older brother and sister. Inuyasha who was her first love, and Sesshomaru who had come to love her and she had come to love him in return; even more so than she had loved Inuyasha.
Kagome didn’t even notice that she had began crying again until she felt a drop hit her arm that she had crossed over her chest since with the dropping sun it was now getting colder. Looking at the castle one last time she turned around and began walking through the forest that had come unnoticeably quiet as a pair of red eyes watched her from atop a white feather.
Sesshomaru watched with worried eyes as Kagome got up from his lap and ran into the castle with the bitter scent of her tears trailing behind her on the breeze. ‘I’m sorry if I hurt you Kagome’ Sesshomaru thought as he got up from the ground and sensing Inuyasha near by followed his scent until he came upon him in the forest on his knees.
“Inuyasha?” Sesshomaru asked worriedly for he had never seen Inuyasha this way. Inuyasha looked up hearing his brother’s worried voice. Sesshomaru felt his heart clench at the sight Inuyasha was in. He was wearing one of the most pained expressions he had ever seen as if his heart had been ripped from him still beating and there were faint traces of tears that were still slowly slipping down his cheeks.
“Inuyasha?” Sesshomaru dropped to his knees until he was face to face with Inuyasha. “What’s wrong?”
Inuyasha turned his head away not wanting Sesshomaru to see him neither like this nor hear why he was this way.
“Please little brother, tell me what’s wrong?” he asked as he laid a comforting hand on his shoulder hoping he would tell him what’s wrong.
Taking a deep breath Inuyasha gathered up his courage; “I…I made Kagome so heartbroken that she was willing to end her life…and now I’m going to lose her…” Inuyasha stopped as tears collected on the edge of his eyelids.
“Why are you going to lose her Inuyasha?” Sesshomaru asked utterly confused.
“You l-love Kagome and she loves you” Inuyasha couldn’t hold back his tears anymore as they silently flowed down his face.Sesshomaru was more than shocked by this new turn of events.
“Inuyasha?” Sesshomaru said gaining his attention. “I thought I would lose Kagome to you brother since I had come to love her like no other” Sesshomaru spoke without looking Inuyasha in the eyes afraid that he would cry as Inuyasha was now.
“You did?” Inuyasha wiped at his face where the tears had stopped coming.“Hai” Sesshomaru answered as he looked back up into Inuyasha’s eyes.
“She loves you, not me anymore since what I did to her.”
“Iie, she cannot throw away her feelings for you.”
“But I can tell how much more you love her than I ever did, I would always say mean things to her and run off with Kikyo, I was the one who drove her to try to end her life.”
“Brother she loves you, go to her.”
“But what about you?”
“I’ll survive without her for I have for centuries” Sesshomaru once again felt that knife in his heart though this time it was just too much for him to take. Without a second thought Sesshomaru lept up from beside Inuyasha and left into the forest.
Inuyasha sat on the ground for a long while contemplating what had just been said between Sesshomaru and his self. Coming to a conclusion Inuyasha left to go find Kagome and try to ask her which one of them she would chose.