InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Witch's Spell ❯ chapter 12 ( Chapter 12 )

Chapter 12

The song, "As I Lay Me Down", is performed by Sophie B. Hawkins

Sesshomaru rushed to the nursery. His pup was screaming his head off and his mother hadn't attended to him. He burst through the door as the nanny was picking him up. "Where's his mother?", he demanded.

"I don't know my Lord.", she answered, calming the pup.

He spun on his heel and went to her rooms. Inside, he found her bed unslept in and two envelopes on the dresser.

Sesshomaru opened the envelope bearing his name. The note inside read, "Sesshomaru, Enclosed are papers giving you sole custody of Taji . He belongs in your world, not mine. You can teach him what I can not. Please, don't let him think ill of me for leaving him. I'm doing what is best for him, and when he's older, please give him the CD that is inside." It was signed with a simple K.

He simply didn't understand. Why would she suddenly leave her pup? He had not mistreated her in any way and his house held her with the upmost respect as mother of his pup.

He was trying to do what was right, and he knew what they had together had to be special if they created a pup. He would never consider breeding with just anyone. Curious, he went to his office and put the CD in his computer.

He heard her voice, "Taji, my baby. I don't know if you have ever wondered about me, but, I think of you all the time. You are a part of me, and I will always love you. It was better that you stay with your Father, and that I go away. I know you will never understand that and neither will your father, but, don't blame him. He doesn't deserve that. We were never meant to be together in the first place." He heard her voice crack and silence for a few moments.

"On this disc are some pictures of me and a song that makes me think of you. The song is called "As I Lay Me Down", by Sophie B. Hawkins. Please, never forget that I love you.", she said.

The fist notes of a song began playing and pictures began flashing. Pictures of them together, smiling and in each others arms. Even pictures of him holding her, when she was heavy with pregnancy.

A woman's voice began singing. The words startled him just a little.

It felt like springtime on this February morning

In the courtyard birds were singing your praise

I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright

I carried them with me today, Now

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

I wonder why I feel so high

Though I am not above the sorrow

Heavy hearted

Till you call my name

And it sounds like church bells

Or the whistle of a train

On a summer evening
I'll run to meet you

Barefoot barely breathing

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

It's not too near for me

Like a flower I need the rain

Though it's not clear to me

Every season has it's change

And I will see you

When the sun comes out again

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

The song ended and Sesshomaru was absolutely stunned. He had never seen those pictures of them together, and from the look on his face he had been happy with her. He snatched up the telephone, not caring if he woke them or not.

Inuyasha picked up the phone, "Yeah?"

"Where did Kristen go?", he demanded.

"What are you talking about, brother?", Inuyasha growled.

"Kristen, she left. Where did she go?", his voice low and angry.

"Hang on.", he said. A few moments later, Kagome's voice came on the line.

"Sesshomaru, what's wrong?", she asked.

"Kagome, I would know where Kristen went. She left us.", his answer.

"Sesshomaru-sama, I thought she was going to do something like this, but she didn't tell me, it was a feeling I had. Honestly, the only place I could think of would be her home in America. Have you contacted her friend, Camille?", she asked.

"Kagome, I don't know how to get a hold of her. Kristen never gave me an address. This Sesshomaru doesn't even know what I have done wrong to make her want to leave.", his voice showing his confusion.

"Oh Sesshomaru-sama, you did nothing wrong. She told me that it wasn't the same, that you really didn't want her for her, but because she was the mother of your pup. She doesn't blame you. She said it was something never meant to happen, and that you should not be forced to be with someone you didn't care for.", Kagome told him.

"Why leave her pup?", he demanded.

"Kristen has seen how important he is to you, and knows that she can't teach him what you can. She probably feels he is better off with you.", Kagome answered him.

"A female would never leave her pup behind.", Sesshomaru was getting angry.

Kagome's soft voice reached his ear, "A human woman would, if it were better for the pup. She would tear her own heart out if it were better for her pup. I'm sure that is what Kristen just did, she tore her heart out and left it with you, Sesshomaru-sama."

"Why?", he asked.

"She loves him. That means no matter what, he comes first. It is better he stay with you, so she left him. Not an easy choice, but one she made.", Kagome whispered.

Suddenly, Sesshomaru wasn't angry anymore. In her own way, she was protecting their pup.

"I still don't understand. Why did she have to leave? She could have stayed.", he said.

Her next words felt like a slap, "Because, she loves you, Sesshomaru-sama." He didn't answer her, but hung up the phone.

He picked it right back up, and dialed. "Satou, where is Kristen?", he demanded.

He could hear the mouse demon swallow. "I..I...I wouldn't know, my Lord.", he answered.

"Tell me why you helped her with these papers?", his next question.

"She said that she couldn't expect you to be with her if you didn't want to be, and she said the pup needed his father to teach him how to be a man. My Lord, she told me she would tell you that she was leaving. I assumed you knew.", he said.

"Now, you have a job. Find Taji's mother and RIGHT NOW!", Sesshomaru bellowed into the phone, slamming the receiver down so hard he broke it and the table it sat on.

A timid knock at the door and his pup's sniffles is all he heard. "Come in.", he said. The nanny came in, carrying Taji.

"See Papa is here. I'm sorry, my Lord, he won't stop fussing. I thought perhaps if he saw you.", she said.

"Come, Taji. Papa has something he wants to show you.", Sesshomaru held his hands out. Taji went into his arms and clung to him. Ignoring the nanny, he sat down at the computer and ran the cd again. Taji laughed and clapped his hands at her voice and face.

They sat that way until Taji fell asleep in his father's arm, growling at the pictures of his mother. Sesshomaru sat thinking all night. He was trying to understand what love was, and why, if she loved him, did she leave? Then there was that one tiny part of him, that cried out for her.

He looked down at his son. "She left him for me.", he thought, almost awed that she did that. He knew of no one who had done that before. Females of his species would keep the pup, just for something to hold over the males head, if they were unmated.

At seven in the morning the nanny came and took Taji to nurse. He called Satou again, and was told that he had a lead. He was hanging up the phone a knock came.

Jaken opened the door, "Lady Akiko wishes to speak with you, my Lord."

"What on earth?", he asked himself, nodding for Jaken to show her in.

Akiko swept in to the room. "Why is everyone in this house acting like death has paid a visit?", she asked. Then her face grew serious, "She did it, didn't she?"

"What do you know?", he demanded.

She sat down on a chair. "Well, I saw her yesterday at the tea house. She told me that she was leaving you. She said that it wasn't fair that you should give up the life you should have had for one you didn't want. I came to make sure that you knew she was planning something like this. Did she take the pup?", she asked.

"No, she signed over custody to me and left.", he said.

"She told me she would.", Akiko stated.

"So why are you here?", he demanded.

"As I said, I wanted to make sure you knew she was planning this. I got caught up with appointments yesterday and could only come this morning. I didn't think she would leave this quickly.", she was hoping that he would forget about her and take up where they left off.

"Why would she presume to discuss any of this with you?", he demanded.

"She told me she over heard the servants saying if she hadn't come along you would have mated with me.", she smiled at him.

It dawned on him, she was trying to put his life back to where it was before she came into it. Kagome's words floated through his head, "Because, she loves you, Sesshomaru-sama."

"Get out.", he growled at Akiko. She looked surprised that he was upset by what she said. She thought he would be happy, his problem was gone.

She stood and looked down at him, "You know where I will be." She turned and stormed out, slamming the door behind her.

The phone at his elbow rang. "Hello?", he snatched up the phone.

"My Lord, I have an address for her. I used her email to get her IP, and traced that to her house.", he said.

"Give me it.", he growled. His thoughts, chased themselves as he wrote down the address. Part of him was happy she did this, but, a small piece of him, buried deep in his heart cried out in pain, saying that they needed her.

"This Sesshomaru needs no one.", he thought.

"You may think you don't need her, but you do. Think about these past few months with her, now envision them without her. No warm smile in the morning, or watching her feed and care for our son. Not to mention that wonderful scent she gives off.", it said.

"Hn.", he thought.

"Well, you will find out. Starting today, she no longer exists for us. Unless, you go get her, that is.", it said.

"I don't think she will come back with us. She has said that we aren't the same person.", he thought. Then it dawned on him, he reached over and picked up the phone to make a call.

He spoke into the receiver, "Kagome, could you and Inuyasha come over? I need to speak with you."