InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Absolution ❯ Slow Like Honey ( Chapter 7 )

Emily: Hi folks, Emily here. This chapter will be set to Fiona Apple's "Slow Like Honey". I also wanted to remind you that today is 'Rate and Review Day'! Ok, not really, but if that'll make you kids drop me a line, then…

Inuyasha: Maybe your desperate, whiny voice will make them want to review…

Emily: Inuyasha, dear… don't make me scratch your ears again. I know how much you hate it, and all.

Inuyasha: ::blushes:: Um, yeah, I hate it, all right… ::leans head toward Emily's hands almost imperceptibly:: I hate it so much…

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Kagome was in heaven. Really, truly, in heaven. The chills she could not control were racing up and down her arched spine as Sesshoumaru's hot breath seared her skin. She had been startled at fist, when he'd all but thrown her to the ground, but shock turned to pleasant surprise when he kissed her. His arm was planted in the dirt now, claws flexing and un-flexing as he rained nips and wet kisses on her exposed throat. God, this was wonderful. Better than any dream she had ever had. And, unlike in her timidly sexual dreams, he had come to her. She shivered, hands roaming over his back, up to his silky white mane. So beautiful…

You moved like honey in my dream last night
Yeah, some old fires were burning
You came near to me and you endeared to me
But you couldn't quite discern me

Does that scare you? I'll let you run away
But your heart will not oblige you
You'll remember me like a melody
Yeah, I'll haunt the world inside you

And my big secret - Gonna win you over
Slow like honey, heavy with mood

Sesshoumaru was nearly quaking with restraint. His brain was on fire, along with every inch of his skin. It seemed so wrong to him, this abandoned display of desire, but he was at a loss as to a reasonable explanation. Before Rin, the taiyoukai would have tossed these thoughts aside with a flip of his delicate hand. Indulgence in matters sexual was something that lower, baser creatures prided themselves in. He was far above such primitive urges, and had been so his entire life. But now here he was, straddling a female, a human female no less, and he was enjoying it. The idea that he might be losing the iron grip he'd retained on his will for so long frightened him just enough to make him open his eyes.

I'll let you see me, I'll covet your regard
I'll invade your demeanor
And you'll yield to me like a scent in the breeze
And you'll wonder what it is about me

It's my big secret - Keeping you coming
Slow like honey, heavy with mood

When Kagome opened her eyes, Sesshoumaru was staring down at her with the utmost intensity. Had it been possible to set things ablaze with a look, Kagome knew she'd be running for the water right about now. His gaze traveled down the length of her body, back up, and into her eyes. So much like Inuyasha…came the unbidden, traitorous thought. A pained sigh escaped her mouth, and the taiyoukai above her stiffened. A small hand lifted to rosy cheeks and lips, touching the burning evidence of her body's desire. Don't I love…Inuyasha? How can I do this to him… to us? Her mind screamed. Sesshoumaru noted her uncomfortable stare, and placed his hand over hers on her flushed face. A dark whisper seeped into her thoughts like oil onto the sea. Because he will never see you like this. He will never want to see you the way his brother does. He made his choice long ago, and now, you must make yours…

Though dreams can be deceiving
Like faces are to hearts
They serve for sweet relieving
When fantasy and reality lie too far apart

So I stretch myself across, like a bridge
And I pull you to the edge
And stand there waiting
Trying to attain
The end to satisfy the story
Shall I release you?
Must I release you?
As I rise to meet my glory

Yes, a decision was imminent. But it was so hard let go of a first love. To let go was to forget, wasn't it? Kagome didn't want to forget. She loved him, she loved Inuyasha, in whatever sense. They'd been traveling through the world together for so long that it seemed ludicrous that she could just stop. She had promised him, once, that she would be with him forever, and she wanted to keep that promise more than anything. She also wanted him to reciprocate the love she offered him so often, and so freely, but she knew it was pointless. She couldn't blame him, really. He had pledged his heart to another such a long time ago, and he was determined not to let that love die, even if his lover had. It was admirable, she supposed, but what was right for him was tearing her apart. She knew it as certain as she knew that the sun would rise in the east. She had to let him go, she had to move on…

… and Sesshoumaru was presenting quite an enjoyable release.

But my big secret
Gonna hover over your life
Gonna keep you reaching
When I'm gone like yesterday
When I'm high like heaven
When I'm strong like music
'Cuz I'm slow like honey, and
Heavy with mood

Sesshoumaru could almost see the jumble of thoughts running through her mind. He also knew what she was thinking. He was not his brother. She was in love with the pestering hanyou, and he realized this, but she was debating something inside her skull. Making a choice, no doubt. Pain or pleasure? Happiness or heartbreak? Not to say that he was offering her happiness. He was Inu no Taishou… Taiyoukai of the Western Lands, great demon Lord, he was… he was… cracking. The icy façade he had so cleverly hidden behind his entire life was chipping away, and this girl was holding the ice pick. This simple, innocent, human miko was making him question things he had taken as certainties his whole life. Happiness was for the weak, satisfaction was for the strong. Fools fell in love, leaders made 'beneficial arrangements'. And humans were the weakest and most foolish of all, weren't they? So why did he not find this girl weak or foolish? How was it that she could make his blood rise with but a glance? The answer still eluded him, but he was in no hurry to discern it just yet.

He let his thumb run over the girl's bottom lip, and she looked up to meet his eyes, finally.

"Whatever decision you make, Kagome… let it be the right one."

And then there were no more words, no more thoughts… just two people in the moonlight, lost in each other's touch.

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Emily: ::dreamy sigh:: Well, that was my first attempt at a song-fic. And honestly, who wouldn't give their left arm to be in Kagome's position right now?

Inuyasha: ::Snicker:: Well, Sesshoumaru already gave his left arm…

Emily: Oh, you are pushing it, mister! You wanna eat some more hallucinogenic fungi? 'Cuz I can make that a reality…

Inuyasha: ::backs away slowly, hands up:: No, no! That's all right. I'll be good, I swear! ::twirls hair in fingers timidly:: Do you, uh… wanna scratch my ears, maybe?