InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Aishiteru, Iyageru ❯ Aishiteru, Iyageru ( One-Shot )

Aishiteru, Iyagaru

By Cyfris

Disclaimer: I don't own anything of Inu Yasha, except for an awesome poster of the group. =P They all belong to Rumiko Takahashi. Gomen for any grammar mistakes

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Tears roll down my face as I think of the one who betrayed me. He fell in love with my reincarnation, doubtlessly because she looks like me. But I have seen the looks that He has given her, looks that speak volumes but she never seems to notice.

But I had.

I had noticed and had known that He loved me for a long time before He actually admitted it. Not that He had. But everything gave it away. He deserves so much better then her. I could give Him everything, yet nothing at the same time. I am ashamed to say that I am still in love with Him even though I died hating Him. Even though now I know that it was Naraku that had impersonated him in the first place, I still hate Him and love Him at the same time. I still want Him to die in hell and spend all eternity with me. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.

I wander the whole of the Sengoku Jidai, searching for a purpose other than what has been offered, a purpose other than killing the one I still love and other innocents. Only a few know what I truly am, and fewer still who can accept it. To most though, I am a village priestess, teaching about herbs and medicines, much like I had when I was alive. Except that the burden of the Shikon no Tama has been lifted from my shoulders.

And given to my reincarnation.

I still don't know how it happened, how she could have gotten it when it was burned with my body, but it happened. And it hurts to see Him willing to sacrifice His life for that girl. At first I had thought it was because of the jewel, and maybe that was the case at first, but it soon changed. Soon changed into affection for that…that… BITCH! That bitch who stole Him from me. If it hadn't been for her, He would already have died. If it wasn't for her, I would be rid of this hatred and be able to rest in peace. Yet, that one time when I almost had Him, His lips were so sweet, so soft. I had cast a spell and everything so that He wouldn't notice her, but somehow she had broken the barrier and He saved her, just when I would have taken Him to hell with me. I don't understand how she could have broken it. Even if she did have priestess powers, she was far too inexperienced to use them in such a way. The only other possible way that spell could have been broken, was if they shared a deep bond of any kind. But that was absurd, unreasonable. There is no way that they could have made a bond that strong in the amount of time that they had known each other. For most people, it takes years to form even a small bond. But even though I have thought long on it, the answer still eludes me. But, I am shamed to admit it, He and that girl share something deep. I know not what it is, but for know, I am no longer in possession of His love.

Though I have not given up.

Aishiteru, Inu Yasha. Iyagaru

Note: If you think this is pretty bad, then that's because I wrote it in, like, fifteen minutes. No kidding. -_-; Also, the title and last line say "I love you, [Inu Yasha] I hate you." `Case you were wonderin'.