InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ All I Have ❯ All I Have ( One-Shot )

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Angel_from_hell_17

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I was missing you

You were miles away

He was close to me

I let him stay
Then I closed my eyes
He almost felt the same
But when the morning broke
I cried out your name

Lying in bed, tears filled my eyes.

I didn't have enough strength to look beside me. Or enough courage.

I knew what I had done. I knew it was bad.

But I didn't know it would happen.

I could believe that the party had gotten out of hand. You had only been away from a week and promised to be back before now. But you were still gone.

You promised…

My 18th was the biggest party that I had ever thrown, loving that I was able to share it with all my friends.

Even Sesshomaru and Kagura took time out of their busy schedules to come along.

But you still weren't there.

And you promised.

His grin was evil as he left, knowing that I was crying for you. He had been the one to push me so far, the one to pull me to him, kissing me and weaving his putrid intentions with fake innocence. I was just stupid not to have seen it.

And I was just another strike to add to his tally board.

 

 

If I'd only known
it would break us
I'd have done anything just to save us

Nothing could erase the betrayal that I had done. Even as you walked in the door the next day, wrapping your arms around me and hugging me close to your chest.

Oh how much I missed you.

Oh how I wished I could have changed the past.

You pulled away as I broke down into tears, falling to the floor and begging for your forgiveness. I hadn't even realised that your senses had been blocked until your eyes grew wide in disbelief.

Your head was shaking as you stared at the floor, whispering yourself into denial. Clawed fingers came up to clasp themselves around your ears as you screamed the same word, over and over again.

No.

 

'Cause you're all I have
When the world comes down on me
You're the one I love
And I'm begging you to see
You're all, you're all, you're all I have
You are, you are the one I love
You are, you are, you're all I have

 

I couldn't pull myself from that spot as you disappeared, running from the room and not turning around. I couldn't blame you for it.

My tears were streaming down my face, my hands not being able to keep the evidence away from any of the bystanders in the doorway. Kagura wrapped her arms around me, turning me to her and rocking us slightly, trying to calm me. I knew that Sesshomaru had already taken off after you.

I still hadn't figured out how the brotherly thing was working between the two of you.

Neither of you came home that night, I remember.

I was waiting for you.

Or for Sesshomaru to come back and tell me that you were on a rampage.

So many bad things were running though my head, images and whispers from my imagination, evil things that you could be doing now.

It took you so long to come back home, even if it was only to collect some of your stuff and tell me that you were staying with Miroku for a little, trying to `figure things out'.

All I could do was nod dumbly and turn away as you walked out the door.

We kept working together, never looking each other in the eye. One of the problems that dating the boss could cause.

Another problem is sleeping with another boss.

I had to listen to his unpleasant invitations, having to nod along in fear of losing my job if I didn't. This just made you more irritated.

 

You've forgiven me
But it doesn't change
the guilt I feel when you mention his name
No more innocence
How to trust again
Wanna believe that you won't do the same

Gaining your trust again was hard.

Having to sit through meetings with his and your eyes on me was harder.

I knew the sick, livid images and ideas that were racking themselves through his head every time he looked at me. It showed in his eyes. The lust and need shown through the bleeding orbs that hardly showed any emotions.

Molten gold was the only colour that I wanted to see any emotions through.

I wanted to see the same love, tender and pure, that used to shine through your eyes before that dreadful night, that night that nearly ruined all my chances with you. Your eyes were the only eyes that I wanted to imagine myself looking into in twenty years… thirty years. They only eyes that I wanted to look into for the rest of my life.

 

And every time we fight
We're gettin' closer
I slowly die inside
I'm scared it's over

 

You still hadn't come back to my fully. You were always there when I needed you but you hadn't moved back into the apartment that we had bought together. You hadn't resumed your position in the king sized bed that you promised would always be filled by you.

I guess that it will take a while before we can go back to the way that we used to be. I wished that it would hurry up.

I cried myself to sleep most nights, wishing so hard that you were beside me.

You were always in my dreams. The same dreams that were filled with terror. You were always fading, fading quicker that I could reach you.

Then I would scream awake as you disappeared. Every night.

Why did I have to hurt you, to lose you, before I realised how much you meant to me?

 

'Cause you're all I have
When the world comes down on me
You're the one I love
And I'm begging you to see
You're all, you're all, you're all I have
You are, you are the one I love
You are, you are, you're all I have

I couldn't be myself at work. So many things running through my head. Every time I looked at you and you were looking in my direction, your head would whip around faster than my eyes could blink, your hair whipping into your face was the only thing that gave you away.

Nothing stopped me from wanting you. I saw you with other women and I burst into tears, worried that I had been pushed to the side after all. I would go hame and look at all the pictures of us, all the photo albums that were filled with our adventures together.

My heart ached.

Then one day it shattered.

 

Your love for me was always there
Maybe too much for me to care
Now that I know I messed it up
I'd give my all to take it back

She came in to work, asking for you. A pretty woman, long dark hair and eyes that glowed black in the light. Just the type you liked.

Miss Kikyo Takinnama.

She had come to steal you.

Nothing hurt more than that day.

That was the day I resigned to keep from having to see you. To keep from having to withstand the pain and suffering that would follow me now.

Now, five years down the track, I see you both, walking towards me in the busy street. She had her nose turned up, looking every part the snobby bitch that I met all those years ago, ignoring all those who she deemed under her status.

You looked the same, though even from a distance I could tell one major difference.

Your eyes showed no emotion.

We passed and I kept walking, holding back the tears as best I could. Since the day that I quit working for you and Naraku, everything snowballed into chaos.

This was my third job this year.

And seeing you again made me want to cry out, clutch to you and tell you how sorry I was. But I couldn't do that. Not with that thing that you were with now.

I just kept on my way.

 

'Cause you're all I have
When the world comes down on me
You're the one I love
And I'm begging you to see
You're all, you're all, you're all I have
You are, you are the one I love
You are, you are, you're all I have

 

A knock on my door, a whisper in the back of my mind.

Something made me want to not answer it.

Something wanted me to curl up into a ball, never to move or breathe again.

But I opened the door.

Just as you whispered;

“Hello Kagome.”

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I don't know how I got this.

I don't even know when I saved this.

Just an old file that I found and thought I would post to see if anyone likes it.

 

Hope you do,

 

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Ciao guys

 

Angel_from_hell_17