InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ All That Time Allows ❯ The Choices I Make ( Chapter 13 )

All that Time Allows

By mishi

 

Chapter 13

The Choices I Make

 

Inuyasha was glaring at Miroku as he waited for the monk to find the courage to jump into the well. “Hurry up, Miroku. We have to think of something else if this doesn't work.” Inuyasha was being impatience as always.

 

“I don't think this is going to work. It didn't work for Shippo.”

 

“I put a tree in the well. There's no tree there now, so jump.” He crossed his arms over his chest to make the point that he was serious.

 

Miroku's mind clung to its doubts despite Inuyasha's assessment of the matter. He stood looking down into the well. Finally out of frustration, as well as a desire for pay back, Inuyasha walked up behind him and gave Miroku a push. The way Inuyasha had seen it, Miroku deserved a little pay back for interrupting him and Kagome several times. But after learning that Miroku had had sex before him, he decided that Miroku deserved a lot of pay back.

 

Miroku hit the bottom of the well with a thud. “BAKA!!!!!!!”

 

Inuyasha made an evil chuckle as Miroku struggled to make his way up the side of the well.

 

Sango stepped forward to stand beside him. “Inuyasha, could you please be careful with my husband. I would like to keep him for a little while at least.”

 

“Feh, he has a hard head. I am sure nothing was damaged.”

 

Miroku was tried to remind himself that he deserved some payback as he pulled himself from the well. It was more important that he swallow his pride and focus on the task at hand. With all the patience he could muster, Miroku looked up at Inuyasha's grinning face and asked, “Next plan?”

 

“Yep,” Inuyasha replied. His grin was now twice its original size as he turned and walked away.

 

Sango bent down and whispered, “You really need to do something about that twitching eye or we will have to look at that grin all day.”

 

The real plan would take more effort on behalf of everyone. They were going for the over kill. The plan would consist of each person having a shard and holding on to Inuyasha. Kaeda would be going through first, so Miroku was to sit by Goshinboku and pray. They were calling on God, the Miko of the Shikon no Tama, and Goshinboku. With all the bases covered, someone had to help them with their task.

 

With Kaeda on his back, Inuyasha jumped into the well. His eyes were closed and he was mentally chanting, `work, work, work…'

 

Inuyasha ended up flat on his stomach as when he hit the floor of the well. The fall had seemed to be too long for it not to have worked, but he wouldn't know for sure until he could look up. If he didn't see sky, he had a reason to be happy. As it was, he was flat on is face with Kaeda on his back.

 

“It worked Inuyasha.” Kaeda announced gleefully.

 

“Hey, Kaede-baba, get off my back already. You are not a little girl anymore.”

 

“But you're still a punk,” she moved off his back as his legs started to twitch, “I'll be under Goshinboku.”

****

 

By the time Kagome had noticed Kaede under the sacred tree, Sango and Shippo were already standing beside her. Kagome happily ran out the door to greet them. Mama was not far behind her. It took several minutes, but Miroku and Inuyasha had finally joined them beneath the tree.

 

Kagome introduced everyone to her mother as Inuyasha stood by silently and watched. When everyone had been introduced she walked over to stand in front of him. “Don't leave me again without saying good bye,” she said softly while looking at the ground between their feet.

 

He had expected her to yell, but was glad that she hadn't. He put his arms around her and apologized. It felt good to hold her. For that moment, there had been no sexual energy between them. It had been only warmth. It was such a nice feeling that he nuzzled her neck with his nose. Having everyone watching made it easy for him to stop before the power could build between them.

 

Mama would be spending the day with Kaede so she could explain the details of the wedding to her. Grandpa was going to act as the priest if Kaede had not made it, but having Kaede there would help cover things up better. She would be there at Inuyasha's request, since she was a long time friend of his family. No one knew her, so there would be no way to question the legality of the ceremony.

 

Kagome and Inuyasha were left to talk to Sango and Miroku under the sacred tree. Kagome was trying to explain all the details the best she could, as well as, get caught up on what had been happening with them in the Feudal Era. Inuyasha and Shippo were already bored with the conversation and looking for a way to escape. After all, Inuyasha had been ear deep in wedding stuff for some time now. He knew everything he needed to know.

 

Souta had just heard that Inuyasha was back. He had been in his room moping and playing his Gameboy all morning. “Inuyasha,” he cried gleefully as he ran across the yard. Inuyasha stood up to meet him. He picked up the small boy and whirled him onto his shoulders.

 

“I haven't been gone that long.” He said looking up at Souta's smiling face.

 

“I'm so happy you came home. You scared me.”

 

With Souta still on his shoulder, he plopped down next to Kagome as he asked, “Why did everyone think I wasn't coming back?”

 

“We just don't want to loose you, Inuyasha.” Kagome said with a smile.

 

Souta slipped off his shoulders and walked over to stand in front of Shippo, “Are you a fox?”

 

Most people confused Shippo for anything but a fox, so the fact that Souta picked up on it so quickly impressed Shippo a great deal. In no time at all, the boys had decided to run off and play while everyone else talked about the boring wedding. Inuyasha saw it as the perfect escape and decided that he would play tag with them.

 

Sango watched in amazement as Inuyasha chased them back and forth around the yard. “That can't be Inuyasha. Who would've thought that he was so good with children?”

 

“Love does strange things to a man,” Miroku smiled as he said it.

 

`I see that things are going well for them. They look so happy.' Kagome thought as she watched Miroku and Sango exchange smiles. `I need to talk to Kaede about what's going on. If I can figure this out then we can be happy too.'

 

****

 

Just before dinner Kagome was able to get Kaede. She pulled the chair away from her desk so that Kaede could set in it while she took a set on her bed. She tried to explain everything the best she could. It was difficult to tell Kaede about something so intimate, but she was the only hope that Kagome had.

 

Kaede sat silent for a moment after Kagome finished her explanation. “You are Kikyou's reincarnation. You were born to be a miko. It would only make sense that you would have this power inside of you.”

 

“But why is it fighting Inuyasha's youkai?”

 

“It is not fighting it,” Kaede said. “What you described to me was that you were fighting the youkai. These energies want to become one. They are trying to push into each other and join each other. That is way it seems so sexual to you. This is an amazing thing. I have heard of legends of mikos who could do such a thing, but I have never believed those stories. The power that makes you a miko has accepted Inuyasha's youkai.” She took a moment to think, “Just amazing. Although, the power that makes you a miko has accepted this…you have not.”

 

“So my fear is causing this,” Kagome looked down at her feet, “I love him. Why am I so afraid? It has never mattered to me that Inuyasha isn't completely human.”

 

“Kagome, you have always accepted Inuyasha for what he is, but you have never accepted what you are. Your power is to purify and bring peace. It is a power that is so natural to you that you have never needed to consider it until now. But his youkai is not peaceful. It is a mad thing that is trapped in chaos. That is what you are fighting against. It is the chaos and darkness within him. By nature, you are to be servant to the gods and destroyer of evil. You have not accepted that. The youkai is trying to look for the peace that you can give it. The only way to end Inuyasha's suffering is to accept who you are. So you can tame his youkai.”

 

“Are you sure that is what it wants...to be tamed?”

 

“It wants to be a part of you, and you are calling out to it. You want his youkai more than you are afraid of it, but your mind is not letting you fulfill your desire. If you do not accept Inuyasha's youkai you are going to hurt him. He has already faced his youkai, and he has kept you safe from it. You need to trust your abilities, because it is your turn to protect him from your unwanted side.”

 

“I never said that I didn't want to be a miko,” Kagome insisted.

 

“Yet you refuse to face the choices necessary to be who you were born to be. You cling to your school work as if it were a boat in a stream. You believe that you would drown if you let it go. You know how to swim to the shore, but you would rather sink with the boat than trust your ability to swim.”

 

Kaede stood and reached out a hand to Kagome. Kagome returned the gesture by taking it. Kaede cleared her throat before continuing, “Kikyou would not have been able do this for him. She would have used the Shikon no Tama to make him human, because she could only love the part of him that was human. She also wanted to be free. I was only a young child, but I could see that. She might have been attracted to him because he was not fully human, but she could never have accepted him as anything else. You already have. You have to face this now, or you will loose him.”