InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Always and Forever ❯ Confessions Made, Feelings Shared ( Chapter 1 )

Always and Forever

By KeikoDogDemon

It had finally ended. After months of agonizing, excruciating battles, each one leaving Inuyasha and his companions closer and closer to their demises, the demon known as Naraku had been destroyed. Kikyo's previous death fifty years ago had finally been avenged, as well as the fatality of Kohaku, Sango's younger brother.

To Kagome, the destruction of Naraku was a miracle. For the first time in a long time, she was able to sleep at night without worrying nearly as much as she used to. Oh, there were still demons that were after the sacred Shikon jewel, but many of the gem's pursuers were too afraid to even attempt to take it, for the infamous Inuyasha was now its protector. It was the least he could do, he thought, for letting Kikyo die.

Finally giving up on his attempt to become a youkai for now, Inuyasha had decided to take a break from his adventures and remain in the village from whence he came: the village where he and Kikyo once resided together, but where he now felt that he was alone, even though he was surrounded by friends.

In an attempt to make him feel more at home in Kaede's village, some of the townspeople helped to build Inuyasha his own hut to live in. Once it was completed, however, they were utterly disappointed because he spent hardly any time in it. Most of his nights were spent high up in the trees, and during the day, he could be found either roaming throughout the countryside or spending time with Kagome, who he'd grown even closer to after Naraku's death.

Inuyasha had finally come to the conclusion that it was Kagome who had made it possible to defeat Naraku. Without her, he never would have had the inspiration, let alone the strength, to fight against such a terrible creature, and he owed her his life. He could never truly forget Kikyo, she would always be a part of him; but Kagome had done so much more for him than Kikyo could ever hope to do. She'd given him the support, friendship, and maybe even the love he needed to carry on day after day. Just when he'd felt he'd break down, she was there to lend a hand or a kind word to help him on his way.

These things were going through Inuyasha's mind as he trudged along the shoreline of a stream located just a small ways outside the village. The ground surrounding this body of water was made up of mostly white limestone, and he soon realized that this was the very stream that he'd first seen Kagome bathing. Even though it had only been a little over a year since he'd first met her, that time seemed so long ago. Back then, his heart had been cold and hard because of Kikyo's "betrayal", and his only thought was how much he longed to become a full-fledged youkai. Now, during these days of peace, his state of mind had changed drastically, and he was finally content with things the way they were…well, for the most part anyway.

There was still the subject of Kagome. With Kikyo gone forever, never to return to the world of the living, Kagome was his last hope of ever being happy. He had once longed to spend his life with Kikyo, but now that that was no longer possible, he had his heart set on the young high school girl whom he'd come to care for so deeply.

Inuyasha had known for quite some time of her feelings for him. The love she had for him had been made painfully obvious all the times she had embraced him, soothed him, or tended to his injuries. Although she had never admitted those feelings with words, her scent changed drastically every time he was near, and on occasion, that smell had been tinged with desire.

When he had become a full youkai and nearly lost control, she had kissed him. That touch had brought him back to reality, and he returned it tenfold. No other moment in all the time they'd known each other had Kagome's scent suggested so much longing That had been the final clue he'd needed to piece it all together: Kagome was physically attracted to him.

With that thought in mind, he was faced with another problem: letting her know that he felt the same way. Unlike the monk, he never tried to express his true feelings to anyone, even those thoughts that brought pleasurable pain to his loins. But this time around, he felt that it was necessary. As soon as he could get some time alone with Kagome again, he would tell her how he felt. Hopefully he wouldn't scare her away, but that was a risk he'd just have to take.

His wish was granted much sooner than he'd expected, he discovered, when he heard that charming, familiar voice call his name.

"Inuyasha! Wait up!"

He grinned as he turned around to greet Kagome. As usual, she too had a smile plastered on her face as she ran up to him, her backpack on her shoulder as always.

"Inuyasha," she said his name again when she finally caught up to him. "I brought you something to eat. Kaede said you hadn't eaten anything all day, so I brought you some of my instant noodles. Are you hungry?"

"Of course I am," he replied. "I've just had a lot on my mind lately, so I kind of forgot about eating."

"Well, it's a good thing I found you, then, because it sounds to me like you're malnourished. Come on, I'll lay out a blanket for us somewhere and we can have supper."

Inuyasha followed her deeper into the forest until they reached a clearing, where the Sacred tree still stood. There, Kagome laid out a patchwork quilt onto the ground and brought out her battery-powered boiler to cook the noodles. Ten minutes later, they were chowing down.

After they'd finished eating and Kagome was putting her things back into her bag, Inuyasha noticed that the sun was almost completely blocked from sight by the rolling hills. The orange and purple colors of dusk were taking over, and Inuyasha laid back on the grass to await the arrival of the first stars.

When Kagome finished packing, she turned around to see Inuyasha gazing up at the sky. She moved on over and sat down next to him. It was quiet for a while until Kagome broke the silence.

"Inuyasha?"

"Hmm?"

"What are you thinking about?"

He turned to look at her. "I'm thinking…of how nice it is to be alive, and…even with all the hardships I've faced in my life, I've managed to overcome every one of them."

Kagome smiled at him. "I'm glad to hear it, Inuyasha."

All of a sudden, something told him that now would be the perfect time to tell her how he felt. He tried to shake it off, afraid of what it might result in, but he couldn't get rid of the overpowering urge. So, he decided to do what he should have done from the very beginning: He was going to tell her everything before the night was through.

Sitting up to where his weight was supported on his elbows, he asked, "You know what else I'm thinking?"

"What?"

"I'm thinking of how nice it would be…to hold you right now."

Kagome's breath immediately caught in her throat and her cheeks turned pink.

"Wha-what did you say?"

Leaning over a little, he wrapped one of his arms around her waist and pulled her close into his chest. He then laid back down on the ground, pulling her down with him. The blush never left her face, and he could feel the blood rushing to her face against his neck.

"Inuyasha," she began, "what are you doing?"

"Isn't it obvious? I'm holding you."

"I know that, but…why?"

Sitting up, he sighed and took her hand in his. Almost instinctively, her fingers curled around his as his forehead touched hers. He stared deeply into her eyes, wanting to be able to see into her very soul. When that didn't happen, he kissed her twice on her forehead, once above each eye.

"These eyes," he began, "have seen so much. Blood, death, destruction, people suffering…your eyes saw these things every day. When you first came here, they were untainted. Now, with everything we've been through, these eyes have seen more chaos than should be allowed."

He took both her hands in his. "These hands are the same way. They know what it feels like to have blood run through the fingers from bodies we've had to bury along our journey, and they've almost been broken numerous times. These hands have touched the sacred jewel when it was tainted with Naraku's malice, which is like touching evil itself."

Then he took her hand that was in his and placed it on her chest. "This heart," he began again, "has been through the most excruciating pain of all. It's been broken countless times without being mended, and the one who broke it never even tried to fix it. It's been crying out for the same person for so long, almost in agony, but the person it cried out for didn't have a heart that could answer. That person's heart has been as cold as ice and long since cracked, so it was incapable of returning the love your heart has for it."

Inuyasha put the hand that held hers to his chest.

"Only recently has the other person's heart melted. That heart has finally heard your cries, and now it's here to make amends.

He leaned in and whispered in her ear, "And that person's heart…my heart…finally realizes what it should have known long ago: That it feels the same love for Kagome that her heart feels for Inuyasha. And now…my eyes want to see only you, and my hands want to be the ones to hold you and let you know you're safe…always and forever."

Kagome couldn't hold back the tears. She tried with all her might, but in the end, she buried her face in Inuyasha's chest and sobbed. He just laid back and ran his fingers through her silky hair, holding her close with his other arm.

It took a few moments for Kagome's weeping to subside, but when it did, Inuyasha pulled her up closer to his face and kissed her deeply. She immediately gave in and returned the caresses.

Unlike their first kiss, which to Kagome felt had happened decades ago, this one was passionate. Inuyasha probed her mouth, begging for admission inside. She allowed him entrance, and their tongues began the age-old dance. After a few moments, they pulled away to catch their breath. Inuyasha wiped away the tears that still fell from her eyes.

When she had composed herself a little, she smiled at him, and he grinned back at her. Then, laughing a little, she stood up and, grabbing her bag, ran back in the direction of the village.

"Come on, Inuyasha!" she called.

His smiled widened as he took off after her.

Back in the village, Kaede got a fire started in her hut to cast some illumination in which to see through the bleak darkness of the night. Outside, she could hear the wind rustling through the branches of the trees and the chirps and cheeps of the night peepers as they awoke from their daylong sleep. Then, a quite different sound came to her ears. She could hear Inuyasha and Kagome headed right toward her, so she spread out a few more blankets upon the floor for their arrival. A few moments later, the two of them walked through the doorway, laughing and carrying on without a care in the world.

"Greetings, Kagome…Inuyasha," Kaede said, bowing her head in reverence. "What honor do I have to be blessed with your presence this evening?"

"We just thought you might like some company," Inuyasha said, crossing his arms over his chest in their regular fashion.

The two of them stayed with the elderly woman well into the night, chatting away with her about nearly forgotten things of the past, reminiscing about the good times they'd shared, as well as the bad. After a while, though, Kaede grew quite drowsy and excused herself, for she needed to rest. Inuyasha and Kagome, however, were anything but tired. They quietly made their way out of the hut, leaving Kaede to get some much needed sleep. Once they were outside, Inuyasha took Kagome's hands in his and pulled her into him, kissing her once again. She returned his affections and caressed his lips with her own.

Kissing her neck, he moved up and whispered in her ear, "Let's go to my hut." He picked her up and rushed towards his "home." Once there, he kicked open the door and placed her on the floor on her feet. Then they commenced sharing saliva. Inuyasha, with his arms still around her, backed her up against the nearest wall and began running his hands up and down her sides, squeezing her hips. Kagome gasped and pulled away. She looked into his eyes, and was almost frightened to see the desire that was so obviously present in the way he was looking at her. Her face flushed and she moaned as he kissed her again.

"Inuyasha," she muttered against his lips.

"Kagome…I love you so much," he managed to say, never wanting to take his lips away from hers.

"I…I love you, too."

Inuyasha, whispering again, "I want to show you how much I love you."

Kagome gasped as his hand lowered to cup her behind.

"Inuyasha…I…we can't."

"Why not?"

"Because I…I've never done that before."

"Neither have I."

"But…it will hurt."

"Just for moment."

"Inuyasha…"

"Please, Kagome. I need you."

"But…"

"Shhh," he said, one hand on the back of her head, the other still on her rear. "Be still. Just tell me how this feels."

Using the hand on her backside, he lifted up her short skirt from behind and caressed her buttocks, causing her to gasp again and cling to him. Then he delved his fingers into her panties and went deeper. He felt around, discovering that she was already very moist from their earlier kissing. He moved his hand farther down until he could stick one of his fingers inside her opening while he stroked a small nub of flesh with his thumb. She bucked her hips against his hand, silently begging for more.

"How does if feel, Kagome? Do you like it?"

"Ye-yes!" she cried, burying her face in his chest, her body shaking.

"Do you want more?"

"I…I don't know!"

"Should I keep going?"

"I…umm…oh!" The sudden addition of two more fingers made her bite her bottom lip hard. She shivered in pleasure, not understanding what he was doing to her body.

"Well?"

"Yes, Inuyasha!"

Grinning, he bent to his knees, pulling her skirt down with him. She stepped out of it and he threw it aside; then he turned back to face her. The panties she wore were just a simple white, not like the ones he usually saw her wearing when she undressed to bathe. Nevertheless, he leaned into her and nuzzled her thighs, planting light kisses up and down the insides of her legs and along the hem of her underwear.

Kagome gripped his head and held it in place. When she felt she couldn't take much more of his teasing, he rose to his feet and, picking her up, carried her over to the bundle of blankets on the floor that was his "bed" and placed her in the middle of them. Then he moved his hands to the ties of his clothes and worked them free, and in no time at all, he was left dressed only in his pants.

Kagome had seen him naked once before, but it was only a fleeting glance before her face had gone crimson and she'd turned away. She'd even seen him half naked on more than one occasion while tending to his wounds, but never before had he looked so enticing without his shirt on. She fought the urge to run her hands over his hard muscles, even though her body was screaming at her to do just that.

Inuyasha stared down at her with a grin. Then, crouching down, he pulled her sweater over her head until she was left only in her undergarments. He tried to take the thing called a 'bra' off of her like he'd seen her do so many times before when she wasn't looking, but he found it easier to just tear it off of her. Once that barrier was gone, he lowered his mouth to her chest and suckled on her breasts, using his hands to knead them at the same time. When she again moaned in pleasure, he slipped her panties off her and threw them onto the rest of her clothes.

She now lay before him more exposed than she'd ever been. Still incredibly modest, she used her hands to cover the place between her legs, mortified at the why she must have looked. She turned her head to stare at the wall, too ashamed to look him straight in the eye. He tried to pull her hands away, but she refused to let them budge.

"Come on, Kagome," he said. "Don't be shy now."

"Inuyasha," she began, "you once told me that my body didn't interest you."

He leaned down and kissed her forehead. "I was lying."

"You mean it?"

"Kagome…I love your body." He gently pulled her hands away from her secret place and kissed her fingers. "You're so beautiful." He then turned her over onto her stomach and pushed her up onto her hands and knees.

"Spread your legs for me, Kagome."

"But…"

"I promise, you'll like this."

She obeyed, and slowly but surely spread her knees so far apart that she could almost have been doing the splits. Inuyasha slid underneath her until his face was right beneath her heat, and then leaned his head up to have better access.

He sniffed her and was met with the strongest scent he'd ever smelled. It nearly drove him over the edge, and his erection was getting bigger because of it. He licked her opening to get a taste, and nearly keeled over from that as well. She was like a drug, intoxicating him with her scent.

"Inu…Inuyasha!" Kagome nearly screamed, tightening her thighs around his head. Her head had suddenly been filled with blinding flashes, and she couldn't think straight. All she could do was feel: feel the overwhelming sensations that came from her soon-to-be lover giving her the ultimate pleasure between her legs.

When she was almost to her climax, he stopped his ministrations. Sliding out from underneath her, he removed his pants, giving her a point-blank view of his hardened penis standing at attention. Unable to resist, Kagome sat up and reached out her hand to touch him. He let out a low hiss, and she quickly pulled her hand away.

"Sorry…I didn't hurt you, did I?"

"No…not at all. It felt great. Do it again."

She obeyed and this time, she gripped him in her hand, and in response, he let out a low groan. She began slowly pumping him, watching his face as she touched him. His eyes were tightly shut and his mouth hung open as his hips bucked slightly. Wanting to return the earlier favor, she lowered her lips to the tip of his member and began licking and sucking him. He cried out and quickly pulled himself out of her grasp, gasping for breath.

"Inuyasha…did I…did I do something wrong?"

"No," he said, still trying to catch his breath, "you did it exactly right. It's just that…if you'd on kept doing that…I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from forcing myself on you. I don't want our first time to be like that."

She gasped. "First time?"

He grinned. "Of course. I plan on doing this again. You don't think I'll be done with you after only one night, do you?"

She smiled back at him. "I would hope not."

"So are you ready?" he asked.

"For what?"

"To finish what we started."

Laughing, "Yes, please."

They both literally fell onto the blankets, kissing each other deeply. Inuyasha used his fingers to spread open her folds. She was already incredibly wet, her juices were flowing down her legs; so he positioned himself at her entrance and pushed in a little ways. He covered her mouth with his and pushed the rest of the way in, using their touching mouths as a way to muffle her whimpers of pain.

"I'm sorry, Kagome," he whispered in her ear. "I promise never to hurt you again. Please forgive me."

Even with tears in her eyes, she smiled. "It's all right, Inuyasha. I'm fine. Just, please, keep going."

He did as she said and started a slow, steady rhythm, pumping in and out of her. As their pleasure heightened, he began to move faster, until the waves of an orgasm washed over them both. When it settled, they collapsed into each other, their skin covered in sweat and body fluids. Inuyasha rolled off of Kagome and pulled her close. They eventually fell asleep in each other's arms, drifting away into a silent slumber that assured pleasant dreams for them both.