InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Always Waiting ❯ Always Waiting ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha and Co. but I wish I did…=[ So don't sue.

a/n: By the way, this story is from Kagome's point of view, and she is talking to Inuyasha. (In her head.) I'm sorry if this is really crapped up, since I wrote it in about 5 minutes. I just had the idea for it, and had to scribble it down before I lost it. Thanks for reading though, if you do. Review if you like, and flames are tolerated.

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Always Waiting

 

We had chosen a place to camp for the night and I had just put Shippo to sleep. You and he just had your nightly quarrel, leaving him exhausted. You, on the other hand, seem to have bottomless energy. I wonder where you get it all.

 

 

But at that moment, for some reason, my thoughts drift to a certain undead miko. Kikyo has been plaguing my mind a lot lately. I don't know what it is, but whenever I look at you, I can't help but see you kissing her. I know I sound like a jealous fool, but it really has been hard for me for the past few weeks.

 

 

I'm always second to Kikyo. I shouldn't mind, after all, you guys fell in love first, but I do, I mind very much actually. I've come to care for you greatly, and I wouldn't change you for the world. I slowly crawled out of my sleeping bag, as to not wake Sango, Miroku, and Shippo, but mostly you, and walked slowly to a stream nearby. I took off my shoes and dipped my feet into the water. The cool currents felt so refreshing in this hot summer air. But my mind kept drifting back to you and her…

 

 

I guess in the end, if you chose Kikyo, I would let you go. Anything to make you happy. But the thought just killed me inside. It hurt so much to look at you now, afraid that I would see rejection in those golden, butterscotch pools. Afraid to get any closer before fate tears you away from me. Why was my life so complicated? Normal teenagers just don't have to deal with problems like mine. I guess that's what I get for messing with time.

 

 

I sighed and gazed at my reflection in the water. People said that I looked like Kikyo's twin, almost identical. But I never thought so. It's not like I thought I was uglier or prettier, just really different. I sighed again. Too bad no one else thought so. A tear reached my lips. I was surprised at first, since I didn't even know I was crying. I licked the salty drop of water away, another one falling into the water. I watched the ripples my tear created until they faded away and looked back at my reflection. I gasped when I saw your face next to mine. I quickly wiped my eyes and murmured a small “hi”.

 

 

We sat in awkward silence next to each other for about a minute when I heard you ask “Why were you crying?” Your voice was more gentle than usual but still sharp. I didn't answer. I heard you take a breath, probably preparing to ask again when I whispered “Do you still love Kikyo?” You looked completely taken back by my sudden question. I had even surprised myself by being so forward, but I needed to know. It has been an aching question, and I needed to know.

 

 

“I guess…I used to, but this isn't really the Kikyo that I knew some 50 odd years ago. I just…don't know how somebody can change so much.” I see you glance at me out of the corner of your eye. I took a deep breath. “ So do you love me Inuyasha?” You looked shocked. Forwardness usually wasn't my nature, but I continued anyway, before I lost the courage. “Because I love you, with all my heart. I finally admitted it to myself not too long ago, and I guessed that it was time I finally admitted it to you.“ I kept my tearful gaze on the water, unable to look in your direction.

 

 

After a while, I heard you sigh and move closer to me. You gently wrapped your strong arms around me from behind and laid your head on mine. I pulled my hands up to rest on your arm. “I don't know…I owe Kikyo my life. Because of my lack of trust, she died a painful death, and that sent me on the biggest guilt trip ever. And you…I want you to stay even though, I'm not sure how I feel, if that's okay. I know I'm being selfish, but, it's just that, every time I'm with you, it feels like time just stops. I've never been able to enjoy peaceful moments like that before. I'm sorry Kagome, I can't say it yet, but someday, I will be ready…someday.”

 

 

I smiled. I turned in your arms and kissed you gently, pouring all of the love that I bottled up inside me into this one gentle kiss. I wrapped my arms around you and rested my head on your firm but comfortable chest. We just stayed like that for the next few minutes, peaceful silence wrapped around us like a comfortable blanket. Pretty soon, I felt myself drifting off, my eyelids getting heavier by the second. Before I fell asleep, I sighed and murmured, “I love you Inuyasha, and I'll wait. I'll wait for an eternity if you want, just for you…”