InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Away From the Dark ❯ Chapter 22

WARNING (this story contains the following): male/male and female/female relationships, (verbal, physical, sexual) abuse, descriptive sex scenes, (major) OOCness, uke Sessh, and it is AU. If you oppose reading about any or all of these things then do not read this. Please, do not complain to me about the things I've just listed because we all know that you didn't have to read my story. That covers the warnings. I will add any new ones as the story progresses.

 

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Chapter Twenty-Two

 

It was later in the afternoon. Kagura had just come over to see how Sesshomaru was doing. He wasn't eating but he didn't feel as horrible as he had been the last couple days. He could walk around some but not too much since he was still a bit weak. When she walked in, he was asleep. She greeted Inuyasha and then he started to wake up.

 

“Hey Kagura,” he mumbled.

 

“Hi, Sessh. How are you feeling?”

 

“Better. I think I'll be able to go to work tomorrow.”

 

“Don't get ahead of yourself. We'll see if you're feeling up to that in the morning. But it's good you're getting better. I was worried.”

 

“Yeah, Inuyasha said you guys were planning to take me to the doctor…”

 

“I know you wouldn't have liked that but Inuyasha wanted to. But it won't be necessary.” The two of them were alone. Inuyasha had just gone up to shower. “Is something bothering you?”

 

“I was just thinking about what Inuyasha said earlier…”

 

“What was that?”

 

“I'm a bad parent.”

 

“No, you're not. Did he say that?”

 

“Not exactly like that. But it's true…I barely even see Rin.”

 

“You have reasons. It's Naraku's fault you stay away.”

 

“If I were a better husband then I would see Rin more. Naraku wasn't like that when we met. I must've done something to make him the way he is.”

 

Kagura wanted to shake some sense into Sesshomaru. It was his fault that Naraku was a sick bastard? That was absolutely insane! “Don't ever let me hear you say that again. It is not your fault that Naraku acts the way he does. He's a sick bastard.”

 

Sesshomaru said nothing. Kagura stayed with him for a long time after that. Both she and Inuyasha took care of Sesshomaru for the rest of the day. He didn't really talk too much. He was kind of depressed. Neither of his friends knew what to do. Sesshomaru needed to get away from Naraku.

 

He slept a lot. When he was conscious, his thoughts kept drifting back to his daughter and husband. They were all negative and made him feel bad so he slept in order to not have to think about any of it. He decided he had to go to work tomorrow and then pick up Rin to spend the day with her. He'd go no matter what, even if he felt like he was dying.

 

Kagura and Inuyasha worried about Sesshomaru. He was currently awake but he was just staring at the ceiling. He was lost in thought and they had a good guess as to what he was thinking about. Kagura decided to talk to him.

 

“How are you feeling, Sessh?” she asked.

 

“Fine,” he answered.

 

“Need anything?”

 

“No.”

 

“Look, I know you feel bad about Rin but it's not your fault. Naraku treats you badly…you have to realize that. What he does is not normal.”

 

“He wasn't always like that though…what did I do wrong?”

 

Kagura sighed. She sat down and moved him so that his head was resting on her leg. “You did nothing wrong. He would've done this no matter what you did. He's sick. You're only putting yourself in danger by staying with him.”

 

Sesshomaru didn't know what to say. Maybe he was putting himself in danger but he didn't really care. He wasn't concerned with himself.

 

“You're also putting Rin in danger…”

 

Sesshomaru bolted up. “No! I'm horrible! I don't deserve to have her.”

 

Kagura felt bad but she knew that he had to hear the truth. If Naraku beat Sesshomaru without mercy then how long would it be before he started directing that anger and violence towards their daughter? Sesshomaru was a mess though.

 

“You're not horrible. But you can't let this continue…”

 

“Stop…please…”

 

She debated on whether or not to continue this conversation. He had to acknowledge the truth but was this moment the right time? Sesshomaru was already depressed. I'll put it off for a little bit…until he's feeling better. She coaxed him into lying back down. “What does Inuyasha know?”

 

“I haven't told him anything but he keeps trying to guess.”

 

“Were his guesses right?”

 

Sesshomaru looked away and she knew Inuyasha had figured it out. He probably didn't know just how bad it was though. “Have you told him anything?”

 

“No, it's not my place. Do you plan on telling him?”

 

“No…he'll think I'm disgusting and awful.”

 

“No, he won't and you know that. He cares about you…he just wants to help you.”

 

“…I'm going home tomorrow.”

 

“Please consider staying. I don't want to see you get hurt.”

 

“I have to…I'll be fine. I'm not weak.” Liar.

 

“I know you're not weak but still. Think about it.”

 

“I want to see Rin.”

 

“Bring her with you.”

 

“It's not that simple…”

 

Kagura knew that but it killed her to see her best friend like this.

 

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Sesshomaru was really tired that night. Kagura had already gone home and Inuyasha was ready to go to bed.

 

“So…how do you want to do this?” Inuyasha asked.

 

“I'll just stay down here…” Sesshomaru told him.

 

“Are ya…are ya sure?” Inuyasha kind of liked the arrangement they had.

 

“Yeah.”

 

“…What? Don't like sleeping next to me?”

 

“It's not that just…” I don't want to bother you anymore.

 

“What?”

 

“Nothing.”

 

“Come on, Sessh. What's wrong?”

 

“I'm a nuisance! I'll leave tomorrow…”

 

Inuyasha frowned. Sesshomaru was far from a nuisance…did he really believe that about himself? It was sad to see someone with such low self-esteem. “You're far from one. Are you really leaving tomorrow?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Well, you're still up for Friday, right?”

 

Friday? Then Sesshomaru remembered. Inuyasha had a `date' with Souta and he said he would go too. “If you want.”

 

“Yeah, I want. But do you want to come?”

 

Yes, but he wasn't sure if he was spending too much time with Inuyasha. He enjoyed it but what if Inuyasha was getting sick of him? But if he still wanted to go on Friday then maybe not… “Yeah.”

 

“Okay then.” He headed for the stairs. “Now are you sure you want to stay down here all alone? It'll probably get awfully lonely.” He knew Sesshomaru didn't want to really stay downstairs.

 

“Um…” Inuyasha walked towards him and stuck his hand out. He grabbed it and was pulled up.

 

“Come on. I'm fuckin' tired and you probably are too.”

 

It was cold in Inuyasha's bedroom. Even with blankets Sesshomaru was still cold. They were both lying down now.

 

“Hey, Sessh?”

 

“Yeah?”

 

“Will you ever tell me what Naraku does to you?”

 

“Please…I don't want to talk about him…”

 

Inuyasha turned on his side to face him. Why not? Is it because you don't want to admit that he treats you badly? He looked into the older male's eyes. They held such a sad, pained look. Not physical pain but emotional…he looked mentally drained. He reached his arm out and pulled Sesshomaru close to him.

 

Sesshomaru was surprised. He had done this the night before but that had been because of the pain he had been in. Why was he doing this now? “Inuyasha?”

 

“Everything's gonna be okay. Just rest for now.”

 

Sesshomaru closed his eyes. It wasn't often that someone cared about him this much. He had Kagura but now Inuyasha was showing care and concern too. It felt nice. He said nothing. He was tired of everything in his life and just wanted these few moments of peace for tomorrow would be hell. That he knew for sure. But he didn't have to face it just yet so he moved closer to Inuyasha and drifted off to sleep.

 

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Sesshomaru woke up in the morning just as Inuyasha was. He was still in Inuyasha's warm embrace and he didn't want to leave it. Is that a bad thing?

 

“Morning, Sessh,” Inuyasha yawned.

 

“Morning,” he told him and smiled.

 

“Ready for work?”

 

“No…”

 

“Ha, you've had like how much time off and you still don't wanna go?”

 

“Ugh, don't remind me. When I get there I'm sure I'll get bitched at.”

 

“What time do you have to be there?”

 

“I'm going to go in at seven so I can get off by three and pick up Rin from school.”

 

“Oh, well you still have time before you have to actually get dressed.”

 

“Do you work today?”

 

“Yeah but I don't have to go until nine. So we have time to still lay here.”

 

“If I fall back asleep wake me up in twenty minutes.” Sesshomaru closed his eyes again. He was feeling somewhat lazy today though that was probably because he was still getting over being sick. He sighed contently when he felt a hand in his hair. He always loved that.

 

Inuyasha realized what he was doing when Sesshomaru sighed. Is it okay for me do be doing this? He's married…but to some fucking jerk and it's not like we're actually doing anything bad. And as long as Sesshomaru had no problems with this then why should he?

 

Twenty minutes later Sesshomaru showed no signs of getting up. Inuyasha was tempted to stay quiet and just let him rest another day but…he would've gotten really mad. “Sessh? Sessh, are you awake?” He just groaned in response. He really didn't want to get up. “Come on, you told me to get you up, er, awake. Trust me, I'd rather still stay in bed for a while but you are the one that wants to go to work. Now get up!”

 

Sesshomaru slowly sat up. He wanted to go get ready (not really) but a hand decided to come and massage his neck. “Are you trying to get me to stay here?”

 

“Maybe. Is it working?” Sesshomaru stood up. “Hehe, I take that as a no.”

 

Sesshomaru smiled. “Yeah but you were close.” He went and got ready no matter how tempting lounging around was.

 

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“I'll see you tomorrow then,” Inuyasha said. It was time for Sesshomaru to leave.

 

“Yeah. What time should I meet you?” Sesshomaru asked.

 

“Come here around seven.”

 

“Okay…thank you for all you've done for me. How can I repay you?”

 

“You don't have to. I was happy to do it.”

 

He frowned. “You put up with me way more then you had to. I feel bad for just taking over your house and making you miss work…”

 

“You know what you can do for me? Just come with me tomorrow and make Souta stop crushing on me.”

 

“Haha, okay then. Bye, Inuyasha.”

 

“See ya, Sessh.” They hugged. “And hey…there's one more thing you can do for me…”

 

“What is it?”

 

“Be careful when you go home today. And if you need anything or something happens call me. Promise me you will if you need to.”

 

“Okay, I promise.” He knew what Inuyasha had meant to say…`Call me if Naraku beats you.'

 

They let each other go and Sesshomaru left. He tried to keep his mind blank as he drove to work but it was difficult. He knew what he was going home to.

 

Please, just let this day end quickly.