InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Away From the Dark ❯ Chapter 25

WARNING (this story contains the following): homosexual relationships, (physical, verbal, sexual) abuse, descriptive sex scenes, (major) OOCness, uke Sessh, and it is AU. If you oppose reading about any or all of these things then move on to a different story. Do not complain to me about the things I've just listed because we all know that you didn't have to read this. That covers the warnings. I will add any new ones as the story progresses

 

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Chapter Twenty-Five

 

Inuyasha's jaw almost dropped in surprise but he was able to control himself. “Y-yes.”

 

Sesshomaru bit his bottom lip. He was scared of what Inuyasha's reaction would be. “When I'm bad…Naraku, he…”

 

“It's okay, Sessh. Take your time.”

 

“I'm bad,” he whispered, “so he punishes me.”

 

“Punishes you? How?”

 

Sesshomaru brought a shaky hand to Inuyasha's face. “Sometimes he'll slap me.” He then slowly moved his hand to Inuyasha's stomach. “Or he'll punch me here.” He moved up to his chest. “Or here.” He then trailed his hand down to Inuyasha's thigh. He couldn't find the words to continue though. He just looked into his eyes.

 

“Does he hit you there too?” Sesshomaru shook his head. Inuyasha tensed. He knew what he was trying to tell him. He didn't have to say it. Inuyasha brought his hand to Sesshomaru's face but frowned when he flinched. “It's okay. I'm not going to hurt you.” He cupped Sesshomaru's cheek then slowly got closer to him. As he hugged him Sesshomaru burst into tears again.

 

“I shouldn't be telling you this…I'm awful. I just should have kept my mouth shut.”

 

“No, you shouldn't have kept quiet. I can help you, Sessh. Don't you want to get away from him?”

 

“I can't.”

 

“Why not?”

 

“He'll find me! No matter what, he'll find me. He'll take Rin and ruin my life. There's no reason to leave him. Things are fine. It's only when I misbehave that things turn bad.”

 

“Do you really believe that? You can fight for Rin in court. You'll win custody easily. Misbehave? That's not how relationships work. One person doesn't `punish' the other when they do something they don't like. What kinds of things would be considered bad? Would talking to me be one?”

 

“Yes. He doesn't know who you are. He thinks I'm at Kagura's.”

 

“He shouldn't control you. Sessh, please. Let me help.”

 

He pulled away. “I don't need help!” He calmed down again though when more tears threatened to spill. He put his head on Inuyasha's shoulder and closed his eyes. “Inuyasha, please…I need time to think about everything.”

 

“Okay, I understand.” He kissed the top of his head. “Night. You know where I'll be if you need anything.”

 

“Night…”

 

He stood up and walked to the stairs. “Thank you…” he heard Sesshomaru whisper.

 

“You're welcome.”

 

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Sesshomaru stayed up most of the night. He kept replaying what happened with Inuyasha over and over again. He shouldn't have told him. Two people knew now and that was two people too many. Naraku would eventually find out. He had his ways. And when he did, Sesshomaru would definitely be in for it. He'd be punished worse than ever before and that frightened Sesshomaru. He wished Inuyasha were with him. There was no one to comfort him. The only things he had were his terrifying thoughts. He wouldn't go upstairs though. He didn't want to be a nuisance yet again. He stayed awake staring at the wall.

 

Inuyasha decided to come down during the middle of the night. He just wanted to check on Sesshomaru and make sure he was alright. With the help of the moonlight shining through a window he was able to see Sesshomaru staring back at him.

 

“You're still awake?” Inuyasha asked.

 

“Yes,” Sesshomaru answered. “I can't sleep. What are you doing down here?”

 

“I just wanted to check on you. Are you alright? Do you want to come up with me?”

 

“No…I'm fine.”

 

Inuyasha walked over to him and knelt beside him. He laced his hand in his. “Are you sure?”

 

“Yes. Don't bother worrying about me.”

 

“I can't help it. I care too much about you. Come on, I want you to come with me.” He began placing light kisses on Sesshomaru's knuckles.

 

He was surprised when he felt lips on his hand. He really did want to go with Inuyasha. “…Okay.”

 

He smiled. “Okay, come on.”

 

He brought Sesshomaru to his room and had him lay down. He got into his bed and turned on his side. He extended his arm as an invitation for Sesshomaru to come closer to him. The older male was hesitant at first but gave in to his urge to snuggle up next to Inuyasha. His head was below Inuyasha's chin and he felt an arm wrap comfortably around his chest. He tried not to think about what would happen tomorrow or the days after that. He wanted to enjoy this moment and wished it would last a lifetime. For once he felt truly cared for and loved.

 

Inuyasha softly stroked his hair until he fell asleep. He had been thinking a lot since he had come upstairs the first time. He thought mostly about what his feelings were for Sesshomaru. They were friends, no doubt about that. He cared for Sesshomaru, his heart broke at the information he found out tonight. He wanted to protect him, he didn't want Naraku to lay another hand on him. He wanted to show him what love truly was, it wasn't the cruel twisted relationship he and Naraku had. There was more to life then being afraid. Sesshomaru could be happy and Inuyasha would be the one to show him that.

 

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Inuyasha looked down at the being still sleeping in his arms. It was still the middle of the night but he was awake. Sesshomaru suddenly started making a low whining sound. His body tensed and his face contorted to an expression of pain. It worried Inuyasha so he shook him awake. He wasn't prepared for the reaction. Sesshomaru's eyes sprung open, he took one look at Inuyasha, then he bolted to the opposite side of the bed. He brought his knees to his chest and sat there, looking down.

 

“S-Sessh?” Inuyasha said gently. He slowly crawled to him and put a hand on his arm. He frowned when he flinched. “Sessh, it's only me. What happened?”

 

Sesshomaru lifted his head. “It…it was just a dream. It wasn't real…” He sounded like he was trying to convince himself of that. “Naraku…”

 

Inuyasha gathered him in his arms. He sat down with his back against the headboard and Sesshomaru sitting sideways in his lap. “He's not here. He can't get you.”

 

“I have to go home eventually.”

 

“…No, you don't. You don't have to stay there. You can leave him.” Sesshomaru shook his head. “Why not?”

 

“I don't want to talk about this right now.”

 

“Fine…but you can't keep avoiding it. It won't disappear. We'll talk another time and figure out what to do, okay?” He nodded. “Okay, good. Now go back to sleep. Nothing will hurt you, I'm right here.”

 

Sesshomaru wrapped an arm around him. He was reluctant to fall asleep because he didn't want to have another nightmare but the man holding him was comforting. He eventually drifted to sleep feeling safe against Inuyasha.

 

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Sesshomaru woke up early. The sun had just risen but he was unable to rest any longer. He sat up. Inuyasha had moved them to a laying position sometime during the night. He walked downstairs so he wouldn't bother the still slumbering Inuyasha. He had a lot to think about.

 

Inuyasha made it seem like he could just leave Naraku and that would be the end of it. He didn't understand that Naraku would find him and when he did he'd probably beat Sesshomaru within an inch of his life. He'd take Rin from him and use her against him. He'd try to brainwash her and fill her head with lies about her Papa. Sesshomaru would be left jobless and broke. Naraku would tell Bankotsu to fire him and he'd listen. He had no savings or anything. What would he do? If Kagura or Inuyasha let him stay with them…he'd have to leave as quickly as he could. They would get sick of him invading their lives. It would be tough getting enough money so fast for a place to live though. No…things were fine the way they were now. I'm always misbehaving, that's why I get punished. I bring this upon myself. If I were a better husband then this wouldn't happen…

 

Sesshomaru once again managed to justify Naraku's abuse. He had done so for the last five years but this time…he didn't believe his reasoning as much.

 

Inuyasha came down a while later. He wanted to try and convince Sesshomaru to leave Naraku for good. He knew it wouldn't be easy…it'd be very difficult in fact, but he had to do this. He couldn't pretend nothing was happening and that his friend wasn't getting hurt.

 

“Sessh, are you ready to continue our conversation?” he asked. He didn't receive any objection so he continued. “I think it would be best for you to leave Naraku. I know it's not simple or easy but you would be so much happier. You'd be better off, your daughter would be better off. You don't have to do it alone. I promise I'll be by your side to help you. You and Rin can stay here as long as you want. I want you to be happy. I want to show you how great life can be.”

 

“You want to show me…I-I have to think about all this. I…thank you…”

 

“You're welcome. I understand that you have to think about it.”

 

“It might take some time.”

 

“When you figure it out, let me know.”

 

“I will…Inuyasha?”

 

“Yeah?”

 

“What are we to each other know?”

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“Are we simply friends?”

 

“I'm not sure…you being with Naraku complicates things.”

 

“And if I weren't with him?”

 

“It wouldn't be so complicated. I care for you, I want to protect you, I want to spend time with you. I'm closer to you then people I've known for years. And I don't know what I would do if I ever lost you. Though my feelings towards you would have to be returned. How do you feel about me?”

 

“I don't know. Naraku…I'm married to him, I'm supposed to love him…”

 

“But do you?”

 

“…I…did.”

 

“Do you still love him?”

 

Sesshomaru always tried to tell himself that he did. He told himself that he loved his husband and if he didn't then he was an awful person. Eventually he actually believed it. For a while anyways. There was only so much lying that could be done. He did truly love Naraku at one time. That was nothing but a distant memory now. The man who punished him was not the same Naraku he met ten years ago. Sesshomaru thought he did something wrong while they had been together and that had been the cause of Naraku's drastic change. He was unaware that it had nothing to do with him. No matter what the circumstances, no matter what Sesshomaru did, Naraku would turn out the same. There was no way for him to fix it. But did he love that bastard now? If he would admit the truth, the answer would be no. He didn't love the creature that yelled at, beat, and raped him. He loved the memories of the man he married.

 

“Do you?” Inuyasha asked again.

 

“If he changed…”

 

“He won't change…it has nothing to do with you. Naraku is sick. It's nothing you did or didn't do. The person who is at your house right now, that man, do you love him?”

 

“I…no.” He whispered so quietly that Inuyasha almost didn't hear him. “I don't know how I feel about you though.”

 

“We don't have to worry about that right now. We'll just focus on getting you away from Naraku.”

 

“I care about you though…a lot. You've treated me so well and have done so much for me. I wouldn't want to lose you either.” Sesshomaru hugged him and Inuyasha wrapped his arms around him in return. He never thought he was a person who liked to be touched but it was so much different when the hands doing the touching weren't there to cause harm. Inuyasha confused him. He wasn't supposed to have feelings for anyone but Naraku…but he couldn't help it. There was a feeling there that was more than just a desire to be friends. He wanted more. More gentleness, more of Inuyasha's nonviolent touches. “Inuyasha…would it be bad if I kissed you?”

 

Inuyasha was surprised. “N-no…it wouldn't be bad.”

 

Sesshomaru closed his eyes and pressed his lips to Inuyasha's. The kiss wasn't rough or bruising or demanding like Naraku's. Inuyasha kissed him in a completely opposite way. It was gentle and Sesshomaru felt loved. They pulled away for air and locked eyes for a few moments, trying to read the other's expression. Inuyasha carefully grabbed Sesshomaru and had him sit on his lap. He stroked his hands up and down his back before kissing him again. He'd show Sesshomaru that he deserved love and not violence.