InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Away From the Dark ❯ Chapter 32

WARNING (this story contains the following): homosexual relationships, (verbal, physical, sexual) abuse, descriptive sex scenes, (major) OOCness, uke Sessh, and it is AU. If you oppose reading about any or all of these things then do not read this. Please, do not complain to me about the things I've just listed because we all know that you didn't have to read my story. That covers the warnings. I will add any new ones as the story progresses

 

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Chapter Thirty-Two

 

It was about two in the morning. Inuyasha and Sesshomaru had moved to the bedroom upstairs. Inuyasha was holding the other close to him and combing his fingers through his hair. Sesshomaru's eyes were closed but he was far from asleep. He was concentrating on listening to all the outside noises. It was windy so he had to strain his eyes to hear over it. Suddenly there was a loud crash, the sound of a gate slamming shut. Sesshomaru's eyes flew open and Inuyasha felt him jump.

 

“What was that?” Sesshomaru asked, his body trembling.

 

“The side gate was open. The wind must've just slammed it closed,” Inuyasha told him, desperately hoping to calm him down.

 

Sesshomaru looked at him with wide, frightened eyes. Naraku's finally coming to get me.

 

“I'll go outside and check, okay?”

 

Sesshomaru nodded. He was scared to be left alone but he also wanted to know what was lurking outside.

 

“Alright. I'll be right back.”

 

He listened as Inuyasha went downstairs then outside. A few minutes later Inuyasha came back to find Sesshomaru curled up on his side. His eyes were tightly shut and his arms were wrapped around himself.

 

“Sessh,” he said gently. He got into the bed behind him and put an arm around him. “Sessh, it was only the wind.”

 

“A-are you sure?” Sesshomaru asked.

 

“Yes. I swear that's what it was. No one else is here besides me and you.” Inuyasha moved his hand to rest over Sesshomaru heart. It was beating fast. He felt horrible for Sesshomaru. It was so sad to see him this scared. “Would you feel better if we stayed at Kagura's tonight?”

 

“Would she be mad?”

 

“No, of course not. Let me call her first to let her know.” Inuyasha grabbed his phone and dialed her number. Soon, he was hanging up and standing to leave. “Alright, let's go.”

 

He picked up Sesshomaru and carefully went downstairs. They left outside across the lawn and walked right into Kagura's house.

 

“You can carry me so easily,” Sesshomaru mumbled.

 

“You're very lightweight,” Inuyasha told him.

 

Kagura appeared and went over to Sesshomaru. She hugged him being careful of how hurt he was. “Hey, Sessh. How've you been holding up?” she asked, the concern clear in her voice.

 

“I'm scared,” he told her. “Inuyasha is helping me a lot though.”

 

“We're both here for you always.”

 

“Is…is Rin asleep?”

 

“Yeah, upstairs in my room.”

 

“Can I see her? I won't wake her up…”

 

“Come on, we'll help you upstairs.”

 

Sesshomaru couldn't handle the stairs so Inuyasha carried him. Once they were in Kagura's room he put him down. They both helped support him and he was able to somewhat walk. He ignored the pain and sat on the bed carefully so he wouldn't wake his daughter. She looked so peaceful like this though he knew the thoughts in her head were anything but. And he knew it was his entire fault.

 

“I'm so sorry, Rin,” he whispered as tears gathered in his eyes. He leaned down and kissed her cheek. She stirred slightly but didn't wake up. He smiled sadly before attempting to stand again. Kagura and Inuyasha came to his side and took him back downstairs. As he sat down Kagura saw the pained expression that passed briefly on his face.

 

“Sessh,” she said.

 

“Yes?” he asked quietly.

 

“Does it hurt to sit?”

 

He hesitated before nodding. “At first it does and sometimes if I shift around.”

 

“I know you're going to hate this idea but will you consider seeing a doctor?”

 

“No!” he answered immediately. “I'm fine!”

 

“What if there's damage we didn't catch? It's best to take you.”

 

“I said no. I'm not going. There's no point.”

 

She sighed. “Sessh, please. Consider it.”

 

He shook his head stubbornly.

 

“I really think you should. Don't you want to get better?”

 

“Are you going to force me?”

 

“No…”

 

“I'll get better on my own. Just please don't make me go…”

 

“Shh, it's okay. We're not making you go anywhere.” She gathered him in her arms. She and Inuyasha glanced at each other. They both really wanted Sesshomaru to be looked at by a doctor. Neither wanted to force him though. With everything he had been through, they thought it might traumatize him more.

 

“Can we go out front?” Sesshomaru asked.

 

“Yeah, I'll go with you,” Kagura told him. “Stay here, Inuyasha, in case Rin wakes up.”

 

“Alright,” he said.

 

Sesshomaru and Kagura made their way out to the porch. Sesshomaru reached into his pocket while Kagura watched. She frowned slightly without realizing it when she saw the pack of cigarettes.

 

“I already know I shouldn't be smoking,” Sesshomaru said quietly. “I don't care though…” He lit the one held up to his mouth.

 

“What happened to quitting? You stopped for a few years.”

 

He shrugged. “I started back up. I had the urge and gave in.” He held the pack towards her.

 

“No thanks. I'll become addicted.”

 

“Even from just one?”

 

“Yeah.”

 

“Suit yourself then.”

 

They were quiet a few minutes before he spoke up again.

 

“Naraku was the one who made me quit,” he told her.

 

“Really?”

 

“Yeah. I didn't want to but he said he didn't want his bitch dying early on him. I didn't dare argue. By then Naraku had already become a monster. Heh, I thought he did it because he loved me. How stupid…” He killed his cigarette then lit up another. “I thought I was going to die last night. And you know what? Dying didn't scare me. Hell, I wished to for the last five years. But now…now I'm fucking terrified that he'll come and get me. That he'll beat me until I just die, fucking curl up…and die. How is that possible, Kagura? How could I have wanted death but now be terrified of the thought?” He looked into her eyes desperately needing an answer.

 

“You never truly wanted death. What you wanted was an escape and at the time death seemed like the only way. But now you have escaped and you didn't have to die to do it. It'll be difficult but you'll be able to move on with your life and actually live it.” She put her hand on his knee. “He's not going to hurt you anymore.”

 

He looked at her feeling slightly calmer and finished his cigarette.

 

--

 

The sun had barely begun to rise. Sesshomaru had wanted to stay awake until Rin woke up but his friends insisted that he sleep. Kagura told Inuyasha to go with him. They went to one of the spare bedrooms. Despite Sesshomaru wanting to stay up he fell asleep rather quickly next to Inuyasha. Inuyasha soon did the same.

 

Kagura went to her own bedroom and lay down next to Rin. The small girl didn't like sleeping in the guest rooms. She needed Kagura to be there until she fell asleep. Kagura looked at her and wondered how she'd react to seeing Sesshomaru. She prayed she wouldn't be too scared to go near him. It would destroy his already shattered heart. They both needed each other to get through this.

 

--

 

Rin was slowly waking up. Kagura had managed to get a few hours of rest but now that Rin was awake she would get up too. Inuyasha and Sesshomaru were probably still sleeping though. She was snapped out of her thoughts when Rin spoke.

 

“Morning, Kagura.”

 

“Morning, Rin.” She paused a moment before continuing. “Your Papa's here.”

 

She sat up. “He is?”

 

“Yes, but he's sleeping right now. Do you want to see him when he wakes up?”

 

She nodded.

 

“I know he wants to see you too. Don't be scared though when you see him. His face is still hurt.” She figured she should give Rin some kind of warning.

 

“Is he gonna be okay?”

 

“He will be.”

 

“Is Daddy coming?” She hoped not. Daddy had hit Papa and it frightened her.

 

“No, he's not. Hey, you're probably hungry. Let's find you some breakfast, okay?”

 

Rin nodded then followed Kagura out of the room.

 

--

 

Sesshomaru opened his eyes and was fully awake in less than a minute. He saw Inuyasha beginning to wake up also. He waited for him to be up entirely before putting an arm over his chest.

 

“Hey, Sessh.”

 

“Morning.”

 

“How are you feeling?”

 

“A little better since yesterday.”

 

“Good. I think Rin is awake by now…”

 

“Can you bring her? I have to talk to her.”

 

“Are you ready to see her? She'll probably ask a lot of questions. Will you be able to answer them?”

 

He nodded. “I have to. She has no idea what's going on, I have to tell her what's happening. I can't leave her all scared.”

 

“Okay, I'll go get her. Do you wanna sit up?”

 

“Yeah…”

 

Inuyasha wrapped his arms around him and carefully pulled him up. “Does it still hurt to sit?”

 

“Yeah…it's getting better though.”

 

“I'll be right back, okay?”

 

“Alright.”

 

Sesshomaru was nervous. He wasn't sure what to tell her, what she'd ask, how afraid she'd be. He just hoped she wouldn't be too scared to be around him. He'd never do anything to intentionally hurt her…this had all been an accident. His and Naraku's true relationship was never meant to be seen by her eyes. And he knew his face was bruised. He had avoided looking in any sort of mirror but he wasn't dumb. She'd probably be a little scared of that.

 

The door opened and in walked Kagura, not Inuyasha, and Rin. She hugged Sesshomaru then left the room.

 

Rin stood in the doorway with her eyes gazing downwards. Sesshomaru sat on the edge of the bed looking at her for a few moments. “Rin,” he said softly. She looked at him. “I've missed you. Can Papa have a hug?”

 

She nodded then practically ran to him. He wrapped his arms tightly around her as she buried her face in his chest.

 

“I'm sorry,” he apologized. “I'm so, so sorry. You never should have seen that…”

 

“Why did Daddy do that?” she asked.

 

“He…Daddy was…angry with me. T-that doesn't make it right but…” He didn't know what to say. He had no idea why Naraku did all those things to him. The delusion that he did it out of love had already been destroyed. “There's something wrong with him…and he hasn't received the help he needs yet.”

 

“He hurt you…”

 

“I'll heal…but that's why we left. Never should you have seen that.”

 

“Where is he?”

 

He wasn't sure. “He's probably at home. Some things are gonna be changing.”

 

“Like what?”

 

“We're going to move in with Inuyasha for a while.”

 

“You and Daddy are breaking up?” She barely even understood what that meant.

 

“Yes…” This was really happening, he was finally leaving Naraku. He never would have imagined that this day would come. Things would be so different. “We're not going to see Daddy as much as we used to.”

 

She started crying. It was something she rarely ever did.

 

“It's going to be okay, Rin. Everything I do is with your best interest in mind. I would never do anything to hurt you. I promise. Please, forgive me for this. I love you so much.”

 

“I love you too, Papa. But why are you saying sorry? Daddy was the one who hurt you.”

 

He fought against all the tears that threatened to spill. “I promise this will all get better. Don't ever be scared, I'll always protect you.”

 

They both stayed quiet. Sesshomaru continued holding her as she finished crying.

 

“Papa, I'm still tired.”

 

“Go to sleep then.”

 

He lay down and watched her as she grabbed a few strands of his hair. She ran them through her fingers before closing her eyes.

 

“Don't worry,” he whispered. “I'll always be here.”

 

They both fell into a dreamless sleep, one more peaceful than the ones they previously had.

 

--

 

Kagura walked upstairs to check on Sesshomaru. It had been over an hour since she had left him and Rin alone. She carefully opened the bedroom door and peaked inside. She smiled at the sight that greeted her.

 

Sesshomaru was lying on his side with Rin curled up against his chest. She was about to close the door and leave them be but she saw Sesshomaru starting to get up. His eyes opened and focused on Kagura. He motioned for her to come closer. As she did he carefully put Rin on the other side of him so Kagura could sit down. She did and helped him sit up too.

 

“I somehow managed to raise an angel,” Sesshomaru murmured.

 

“How was she?” Kagura asked.

 

“Scared but she still came to me. I told her that things were changing, that we're moving to Inuyasha's. She's strong, she'll be able to move on from this.”

 

“So will you.”

 

“She asked where Naraku was though. I have no idea. He's going to come here eventually…you know that. It's not me being paranoid.”

 

“Yes…I know he will. He won't do anything to you though.”

 

“…Yeah.” He looked down. “I need a cigarette.”

 

Rin started to wake up. “Papa?”

 

“Hey, Rin. Let's go downstairs.”

 

“Okay.”

 

Rin walked in front of them while Sesshomaru leaned on Kagura for support. It hurt but by using the stair rail and Kagura he was able to walk downstairs.

 

Inuyasha greeted them with Rin sitting next to him. “Where you guys going?” he asked when his two friends went to the back door.

 

“Out for a smoke,” Sesshomaru answered.

 

“Can I go?” Rin asked.

 

“No. The smoke's bad for you.”

 

“Then why do you smoke?”

 

“I blame it on the nicotine.”

 

“On the what?”

 

“Nothing. But you're not allowed around me when I'm smoking. It's too unhealthy. We'll be back in a few minutes.”

 

The two of them went out to the backyard and sat down. Kagura watched as he lit up.

 

“She'll eventually want to try.”

 

“I know. I'm not concerned with that yet. I'll quit again…sometime after all this.”

 

“Alright. I'm holding you to that.”

 

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