InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bartenders and Brunettes ❯ Promises ( Chapter 19 )

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Chap. 17- Promises

Inu kept the questions in until closing time. I knew it was hard for him, I knew it would be torture for me later. The drive home was a long one but still he kept his questions in until we hit the stairs on my porch. “Hey…” He whispered. “Sit with me would you?”

I stopped, and looked at him sitting down. “Inu, I can't.”

“Please. I need to know what happened.” His voice sounded desperate. I could do nothing but comply. I sat slowly in front of him. Inu's back was against the banister, and I laid back, my head landing in his lap. “So what happened?”

I swallowed hard. It was hard enough for me to tell him off earlier like that, it was hard to even look at his face and remember. I looked up at Inu, pain in my eyes. He looked back with understanding.

“I dated Kouga about four years ago. He wanted what I wouldn't give.” My eyes looked away from his. “He came into my room, I knew he was there before he even touched the door. The bed moved and he planted him self beside me.” I sighed, and took a deep breath. “He turned me over, thinking I was still asleep, and took my innocence.”

Inu leaned down and stole a kiss from me. “And this was before or after Kikyou and your brother?”

“Before, far before.” I looked back to him as he nodded. His eyes were deep in thought. “Inu, I don't tell many people what happened. I haven't even told my brother or grandfather that I'm unclean.”

“But you didn't consent to it. Essentially, you are still clean- You didn't want to do it…”

“But I am unclean Inu.” I turned over leaning up on my elbows. “I enjoyed it as much as he did.”

Inu looked away at this, hurt in his eyes. “Oh.”

“Inu…” I caught his attention and he looked back. “I love you. Not him. It wasn't what I wanted. I wasn't ready. It was never supposed to happen.” I sat up, leaning forward on my hands, my face level with his. “If I had known he was that possessive would have been gone far before that.”

“Or you knew and didn't care.”

“Inu, I would much rather it have been you, or someone else. That wolf is no good.” I didn't understand why he was being such an ass about it. I was the one that was supposed to be bitchy right?

“Inu what's wrong?” I looked deep into his eyes when he did the same to mine.

“You couldn't understand how much this hurts Kagome.” Inu's eyes teared up, and I couldn't help but wipe away the ones that fell.

“I do too know how much it hurts. It happened to Sango when she was younger, before we went out. I know exactly how you feel.” I leaned forward and kissed the corner of his mouth, then the corner of his eye to make him turn toward me. “I don't want you to feel like that. Promise me you won't pity me.”

“I promise.” He caught me, pulling me to him in a hug. “But I can't promise not to feel bad that I didn't know you then. I would have killed him.”

“No you wouldn't have…” I buried my face in his shoulder. “I know you wouldn't unless he did something worse…”

“That's bull shit Kagome. You know I'd kill him.” He kissed the top of my head. I felt it more than saw it. His warm breath flooded down my neck. “I'd never have let anyone harm you.”

“Okay, maybe you would.” I whispered into his skin. He shivered in my arms.

“Kagome, promise me something?”

“Sure.” I replied leaning back and looking up at him.

“Promise me that you won't leave me.”