InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Being In Pain ❯ Part 1 ( Chapter 1 )

A/N: This is a story that came into my head lat night that I had to write about. It’s just another story about what happens after the jewel is created. I only plan on making it two chapters long. I don’t want to make it to long because I’m already working on one story and I really don’t want to have to worry about posting for two stories, because I’m to busy and I want to be able to finish them.

Disclaimer: I would pay to own Inuyasha, but I’m broke. I don’t own Inuyasha, someone else does. Sadly. L

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When I dreamt of Inuyasha he always held me and told me that he loved me. He always told me that I was the only one that he wanted to be with, and he wanted to be with me fore the rest of our lives. As I looked at the disaster left from our final battle with Naraku, that we had gladly won. I was willing to bet that time was running out for that dream to become a reality.

I didn’t expect my dream to come true. If I did I think I would wonder if Inuyasha was taking something. I didn’t want it to be perfect, and I didn’t want Inuyasha to become love sick. I had seen how he acted around Kikyo and I really didn’t want that, thank you very much. I only wanted an “I love you.” That sad truth was though that he loved Kikyo and not me.

It would never be me.

I wasn’t holding my breath for his “I love you” because otherwise I was likely to turn blue and die.

“I can’t believe that it’s finally over,” Sango said sounding amazed.

She had been the one to say what we had all been thinking. She was taking in the disaster around us like we all were. It was surprisingly little. Except for the remains of Naraku and the ones that had followed him, there was little else proof of the fight. The clouds that had become dark with evil we’re quickly fading, and the weather was going back to it’s earlier perfection.

Miroku put a hand on Sango’s shoulder, “We’re all very sorry that we couldn’t save your brother,” he apologized.

Sango had tears in her eyes, “He was gone a long time ago.” she admitted sadly, “I just couldn’t let go,” he voice cracked and she turned into Mirkou’s shoulder so no one would see her cry.

I watched Miroku go comfort Sango. I was amazed how much the two loved each other. Miroku hadn’t even checked his wind tunnel, that was for sure long gone. I wanted what the two of them had more then anything else in the world, but knew I knew that I would never have. It was only a matter of time before they were married.

I knew that Kikyo was around even before I saw her soul collectors. I think I noticed even before Inuyasha. He must have been as caught up in the scene between Miroku and Sango, because he for sure had better senses then me. I wasn’t even paying all that much attention, but when Kikyo was trying to kill me I always noticed .

She had been trying for almost six months now, and I was used to it. For the last six months she had been becoming more and more weak, and she was always trying to steal more of my soul so that she could live longer. I was stronger now then I was even six months ago, and I didn’t even have to concentrate to prevent her efforts. I knew that if she were stronger, I would have to work harder, but she was weaker then ever, and I was stronger then ever. Kikyo was screwed if she really wanted to live, because I wasn’t going to let her take anything from me.

“Inuyasha, my time in this world is almost expired. I need you to come to hell with me now.” Kikyo said as she finally came into view.

It never ceased to amaze me that she would try and kill me, and get her man back all at the same time. If you didn’t know her then you wouldn’t guess that she was becoming weaker because she did not let her weakness show. I really don’t even think that how long you knew her had anything to do with it. It had to do with being able to feel her desperation. She was really desperate now.

Sango and Miroku stood back, and just watched the scene in front of them. Sango who was no longer crying looking on with red eyes. Both knew that this was between Kikyo, Inuyasha, and me. Not them. I wished that my friends in the future could understand space as well as them. Miroku for sure knew that Kikyo was trying to take my soul to prolong her life, but he said nothing as I had asked him to.

When Kikyo had first started trying to take my soul, he had been the one to notice and later ask me why I had stopped him from saying anything. Even then I was strong enough to prevent Kikyo, and I had told them that there wasn’t a need.

“Kikyo, I can’t leave now,” he argued looking at Shippou, who was in his line of view.

Shippou had been hit in the fight with Naraku. He had gotten in the line of fire. Although, I was sure he was fine, because the hit had been minor. He had passed from the hit, because he was still so little and weak. He was with Kirara now. Inuyasha’s worry for Shippou was touching. He might deny it, but he cared for the kit. He looked around at us all, and I did little, but smile sadly when his eyes landed on me.

It must be frustrating to want all of Inuyasha’s attention, and have it stolen by a copy of yourself even if it is just for a second, I thought with a smirk on the inside.

“Inuyasha, my time is running out,” Kikyo repeated, almost sounding desperate.

Everyone else would have missed the desperation, but she was trying harder to kill me so I took a wild guess that she wanted Inuyasha to leave with her now.

“Kikyo, I have things to do here. I have people I have to protect. Can you wait awhile longer,” he negotiated, sounding torn.

Well, I would be torn to I guess, I thought sarcastically. Burning in the pits of hell always sounded fun to me. Not.

No one moved. No one did anything. The day was clear again. It was warm, and the sun was shining. If I had the power I would have made it rain.

I lost my concentration for a second while I worried if Inuyasha was going to leave or not, and that gave Kikyo a better grip on my soul. Her grip told me how much I wasn’t concentrating, and I got pissed, and pulled back. Her paleness made me feel better, and told me that I had gotten my point across.

But it did upset Miroku to try and say something, “Kikyo,-”

I cut him off, “Don’t,” I demanded.

I would not let Inuyasha find anything out. He loved Kikyo and no matter what anyone said about her it wasn‘t going to change what he felt for Kikyo. It would just make it harder. It would be cruel to tell him. He didn’t need to know that Kikyo was trying to kill me. I could take care of myself.

Inuyasha didn’t notice anything.

“Kikyo, I don’t know if I can go to hell with you at all,” Inuyasha said finally.

“My time in this world had almost passed. I have to move on. I don’t belong here any longer.”

She was telling half lies, and making it sound like she had a choice. Kikyo was making it sound like she had realized that her time in this world had come to an end, and that she was leaving, but in truth she was holding on more now then she ever had. Even as she tried to make it sound like she was ready to move on she was trying to steal more time. It was to bad that she had to steal it from me.

I wouldn’t let Inuyasha know what was going on, but I had little choice because I was getting mad.

I came up to the both of them, but stayed behind Kikyo, “Stop it,” I demanded softly in her ear.

Kikyo didn’t say anything to me, but for the time being she once again stopped. I would have let her to continue to try and take what wasn’t hers, but it did drain me somewhat even if it didn’t take much to prevent her from doing what she did. I was also getting pissed that while she tried to woo Inuyasha she was betraying him to. He may not show it when she was around, but I still knew it would kill him if he found out what was going on. It was sad that it was only a matter of minutes before she would try again. Kikyo didn’t want me mad because she knew that I wouldn’t kill her, but she knew that I could hurt her, and she didn’t want that either.

Kikyo didn’t allow Inuyasha to ask what was going on, “Do you not love me anymore? Is it that you love someone else?”

Although Kikyo asked the question so that Inuyasha would continue to stay in the dark it didn’t mean that his answer wasn’t any less important.

“No,” he denied quickly.

I died inside a little when he said it. I worked hard to keep my face neutral and not show my pain, at Inuyasha’s declaration , but Kikyo did notice and quickly took what she could while I didn’t try and stop her. Why bother?

“Kagome, you must stop,” Miroku announced.

It made me feel bad that he wasn’t allowed to tell anyone what was going on. Like he wanted to so badly. I felt bad for making him do it, because he was such a good friend. Because he sounded more desperate then before both Sango and Inuyasha seemed to know and want answers.

“What’s going on?” Inuyasha said.

It was then that I truly cracked.

Ignoring Sango’s worries.

I lashed out at Inuyasha, “Why?!” I screamed,” I have no life anywhere but here!”

I calmed myself. I turned to Inuyasha, “I care for you more then anyone else here. I wonder why, but even if I-” I stated sadly, confused.

“Kagome,” he cut off,” Kikyo-”

“Kikyo! Kikyo! Kikyo! If I here that name one more time I don’t know what I’m going to do! Kikyo is dieing because what she has of my soul isn’t enough!”

“You don’t know-”

“Inuyasha-,” Miroku tried

“Don’t!”

“Inuyasha we know each other inside and out, and are suppose to be best friends, but when Kikyo comes around I swear to the Gods I could be on fire and all you would see is Kikyo,” I shouted.

“I love her,” he stated.

I got angry, Your more obsessed then anything,” I blurted.

“How can you say that? She gave up her life because of me.”

“Which proved how much she cared for you,” I lied, “But that doesn’t she what you care for her. She tried to kill you, or does this totally leave your train of thought when you see her,” I demanded livid.

I wasn’t acting like myself, but I didn’t know how much more of this I could take. I was always there for him. I never fought for him. I allowed him to hurt me again and again. I had no life on the other side of the well, but that was going to be home not very long from now so what did I really have to lose by acting out of character. Blame it one temporary insanity.

“If she really loved you then she wouldn’t hold that over your head. You want Kikyo back so much yet you avoid every important question. Would she still want you to become human if she were to live?”

I thought that important question since I knew that she did in fact want to live more then anything.

“Does she really trust you now? Does she even love you?”

I closed down on everything slowly. I allowed myself to look around at the scene in front of me. I took in Shipou who was sleeping on Kirara. I watched at Miroku once again grabbed Sango’s hand and held it tightly. I watched as Sango watched out so as not to get groped. Even in the middle of crisis Sango always waited to have to hit him. Finally I took in Kikyo who was standing in front of me. She looked stronger to me now that she had more of my soul. I had let her take enough of it, but not all. Inuyasha looked so torn and angry.

“I need to go home,” I said finally.

Inuyasha looked panicked, “You can’t.!”

“I can and I will.“ I said sadly, “I need a best friend. I need someone who is always going to stay by my side, and always look out for me. I look for that in you and never get it.”

“I always look out for you.”

“Not when Kikyo is around.”

“I’ll work on it.”

I shook my head as I looked at the well that was so close to me. Our final battle had been right by the one place that mattered most to all of us in some way. It was my way back to those who mattered most to me. Kikyo thought of this place at important because she needed me. If I never came back then she would eventually died. There was so many memories at the well. Inuyasha and I had fought so many times….

“Kikyo, Miroku and Sango need Inuyasha for the time being. There is going to be a lot of demons coming to the area looking for the jewel, and there going to need Inuyasha’s power. They need him until they realize that it’s no longer in this world.”

“At sun down I’m gone.”

“I should have the jewel,” Kikyo stated.

I fought down my anger. “No,” I shook my head, “The power of the jewel has corrupter most people. You don’t need that worry.”

I knew what she wanted the jewel for. I knew she wanted to wish something on it. Although at this point I didn’t know what she really wanted. She wasn’t going become human through me. So did she want to wish that? Or did she want Inuyasha to become human? I didn’t know anymore, but I knew that I wasn’t going to allow the jewel to be in her hands. The last time she had given it to Nanraku. He was dead, but it just showed to prove that I really didn’t know what she was going to do.

“The jewel will be safer in my time,” I stated.

“But I am the jewel’s protector. You don’t know what kind of power the jewel can bring.”

She knew what kind of power it held, and that’s why she wanted it.

Inuyasha did looked shocked by Kikyo’s actions, “Kagome is the jewels protector. She knows more then any of us what kind of power the jewel holds. Even Kouga saw that. He gave his jewels up in his legs just the day before today. How can you say that she isn’t the jewels protector. It was given to you to protect. It came out of Kagome’s body,” Inuyasha defended.

You could tell that it really ticked Kikyo off that he was defending me, but I didn’t say anything.

I had no idea what Kikyo’s feelings were towards Inuyasha, and I didn’t want to know. I didn’t feel like I knew much anymore.

I looked at Inuyasha and looked at him. He had matured over the last two years. He looked more like his brother more then ever. I would only say that if I had a death wish though. He didn’t have the markings that his brother did, but he did resemble him more now. He had gained more muscle and his hair was longer. I knew that he would look like he did now for a long time to come.

We weren’t right for each other even without Kikyo to keep us apart. I didn’t belong here, and I was human. I would die long before he did.

I went over to him and took off his necklace. I knew that it bound us together, and I knew that it allowed him to pass through the well. I didn’t want that. As much as I wanted him to come for me. It was better this way. He didn’t love me.

“Kagome-”

“You’re free,” I said softly before he could go on.

I almost cried then, but stopped myself. I really wasn’t allowing anyone to say anything lately now was I.

When night began to fall Everyone met me at the well to say goodbye, even Inuyasha. He sadly ruined his presence by bringing Kikyo. I had diapered to say goodbye to some of the villagers, and Keade and now I wished I hadn’t because I realized now that I wasn’t ever going to see any of them again. It hurt more then I thought anything could.

Shippou cried and clung to me, “I’ll go with!”

“I’m going to miss you so much Shippou. Your like a son to me,” I said all the while my voice was cracking.

Not wanting to, but knowing I had to I put him in Sango’s waiting arms.

“I’m going to miss you,” Sano declared sadly, “Your like that sister I never had,” she cried and I so did I when I hugged her.

“I feel the same way. Us sisters have to stick together. Think of me on your wedding day.”

“Yes Sango. Do that. And think only of my on our wedding night,” Miroku joked.

“You’re such a pervert,” Sango announced.

I laugher as Sango hit him over the head.

I turned to Inuyasha who looked like his normal brooding self. If not a little more depressed then normal.

I heard Miroku laugh, “I may be a pervert, but you love me anyway,” he said joylessly.

Yes, they do love each other, I thought

“You take good care of them while you can,” I said to Inuyasha.

For once he didn’t argue, “I will. Someone has to be able to wake care of the runt.”

He lack of anger let me know how much this was bothering him, and that bothered me because it let me know that he did care about me. Even if her didn’t love me the way he did… her.

I smiled, “Good.”

I kissed him on the cheek and hugged him. I let the scent of him come to me.

“I love you,” I whispered into his ear then I turned and jumped into the well before anyone could stop me.

A/N: I would like to say that this fic is only going to have two parts. If you really want to read the second your going to have to tell me what you think. Let me just say that I hate Kikyo and I think that she is in the chapter way to much. I also thought that this chapter had to be done, because even though I do think she is pure evil she is a major part in the series and I thought that she was an important part of my story. So she’s in most of the first chapter.

The second chapter however… Who knows. Your just going to have to find out. Tell me what you think and your wish will be my command.