InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Being Normal ❯ I Can't Move on Without Her ( Chapter 16 )
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By: lettheinkbleed 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 07.31.2013 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.3K | Visits: 211 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 07.31.2013 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.3K | Visits: 211 | Status: Work In Progress
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As night fell Inuyasha ventured to the sacred tree again. “Ka…gome.” He whimpered, lying his palm against it. The girl followed, watching the man she loved suffer.
He stared at the band on his finger before hitting the tree with his the side of his fist. “Damn it all the fucking hell!” Kagome’s cheeks heated with a blush at his colorful language. “I know you are here Kagome, I know you are…” He slammed his fist into the ground, staying in a crouched position with his fist in the small crater he’d created.
“I AM!” She screamed as her tears ran down her face. Inuyasha cried, covering his face with the sleeve of his robe.
Miroku sat up in Keade’s hut with a confused look on his face. “What is it?” Sango asked looking over at him. “It’s…” His eye brows knit together, “It’s Kagome. It has to be.” He stood and walked outside heading to the sacred tree where he could sense Kagome’s spiritual energy. He heard soft sobbing and stopped, sitting behind a bush and pulling Sango down with him as she tried to walk by. The girl gave him a glare before looking over the top of their hiding spot. Her face grew sad and she waved for Miroku to look as well. The monk’s heart twisted at the sight of their friend; his back shaking with sobs with his head leaned against the tree. Sango touched the man’s shoulder, his sad eyes turned to hers. “We should go. This is personal.” She mouthed. He nodded and stood with her.
The hanyou’s ears twitched and Kagome turned to find Sango and Miroku. The hanyou wiped his face before turning to look at the pair. “What are you guys doing out here?” He asked, his voice watery with tears. “We were looking for you.” Miroku answered as Sango opened her mouth to tell him about Kagome’s spiritual energy. The monk gave her a sharp look and shook his head. “I’ll be back soon. Just leave me.” The hanyou said before turning back to the tree. Miroku nodded before taking Sango’s arm and leading her back to Keade’s hut.
As soon as they were through the flap the slayer rounded on him. “Miroku, why did you lie to Inuyasha!?” She shouted. Miroku smiled before answering, “are you sure we sensed Kagome’s spiritual power?” The girl’s anger subsided and she gave him a questioning look. “Why?”
“It’s important we are sure that it was Kagome. After fighting alongside of her we know the feel of her miko powers. This was very similar but it was not exactly hers. What if we just felt a spike in Kikyo’s miko power and mistook it for Kagome’s? You see where the problem arises?” The slayer nodded and sat down in front of the fire. “If we aren’t sure why get Inuyasha’s hopes up?” She asked. The monk nodded and joined her at the fire. “Inuyasha is very fragile right now. He loved Kikyo at a time we all knew this, but we knew he loved Kagome as well, I don’t know if Inuyasha will admit to this… I’m not even sure he has admitted it to himself yet…” The monk froze, his face lighting up. “That may be the key! He needs to admit to himself how he feels!” The man stood, running out of the hut leaving Sango sitting at the fire watching with questioningly.
Inuyasha’s ears twitched as he heard the hurried footsteps coming up behind him. He raised his head from the sacred tree and looked over his shoulder at the monk approaching. “What?” The hanyou asked quietly, turning back to the tree. “Inuyasha, I may have figured out why you cannot talk to Kagome.” The hanyou turned quickly. “Why monk?!” He asked breathlessly. “You need to be honest about your feelings for her. You need to confess how you feel in your heart. The connection is still there but it’s weak which is why you can’t hear her.” The hanyou nodded and looked back at the tree. “It’s just a theory Inuyasha.” Miroku said before walking back to the hut.
“Kagome…?” Inuyasha’s ear twitched to make sure Miroku was out of hearing range. The girl looked down at him. “What?” She asked, sadden further when his ears didn’t twitch towards her. “I wish you were here so badly.” She sat beside him. “I…” He touched the tree softly. “I never show my true feelings because it makes you weak. Even when I found out Kikyo had died I never… I’ve only shown my tears when my mother died… and when you were poisoned by the band of seven and almost died, but now… Gods, I find myself crying everyday… In private in front of your family, in front of our friends.” He shook his head, sighing heavily, “I don’t know what to do without you.” He laid his hand flat on the tree. “I wish you were here, I wish you could tell me what to do… I wish you could tell me everything was okay and I was strong, but without you I’m not strong… Hell, I just want to curl in a ball and cry…” He looked up through the branches of the sacred tree to the full moon. “If screaming your name would bring you back, I’d scream until I was hoarse, if offering blood would bring you back, I’d give it until my body was dry, if giving my life would bring you back, I’d gladly give it…”
“That would defeat the purpose of me coming back. The whole reason I’m still here is because of our bond.” She interrupted quietly.
His back was shaking as quiet sobs came from him. “Kagome, please say something, even if it’s sit, please.” He cried, his voice breaking from his tears. “OPEN YOUR EARS!” She screamed, trying to shake him to get his attention. Her hands went through him yet he offered no reaction.
His ears moved, trying to catch the slightest sound, when he heard nothing he slammed his fist into the crater he’d created, deepening it with a curse. “I need this to work. I need to hear you.” He whispered.
He jumped into the tree, curling into the branches. His hand reached into his robe and when Kagome floated beside him she saw a glimmer of gold. She moved to look over his shoulder. He opened the heart shaped locket and ran the tip of his claw down the side of her face. “I miss you Kagome.” He kissed her picture gently before tucking it back into his kimono, setting it against his chest.
Tears were running down Kagome’s face when he closed his eyes to sleep. “I hope someone figures out how I can talk to you. It’s tearing me apart to see you so hurt.” She whispered, kissing one soft ear before settling across from him. “Sweet dreams my hanyou.” A soft smile crossed his face, “you too my miko.” He muttered sleepily. She turned to him quickly, her eyebrows rising in surprise. “Did you actually hear me?” His ears didn’t move and a quiet snore was the only sound he made. She grinned all the same, his miko? I can be that. She leaned back against the tree to wait until morning.
As night fell Inuyasha ventured to the sacred tree again. “Ka…gome.” He whimpered, lying his palm against it. The girl followed, watching the man she loved suffer.
He stared at the band on his finger before hitting the tree with his the side of his fist. “Damn it all the fucking hell!” Kagome’s cheeks heated with a blush at his colorful language. “I know you are here Kagome, I know you are…” He slammed his fist into the ground, staying in a crouched position with his fist in the small crater he’d created.
“I AM!” She screamed as her tears ran down her face. Inuyasha cried, covering his face with the sleeve of his robe.
Miroku sat up in Keade’s hut with a confused look on his face. “What is it?” Sango asked looking over at him. “It’s…” His eye brows knit together, “It’s Kagome. It has to be.” He stood and walked outside heading to the sacred tree where he could sense Kagome’s spiritual energy. He heard soft sobbing and stopped, sitting behind a bush and pulling Sango down with him as she tried to walk by. The girl gave him a glare before looking over the top of their hiding spot. Her face grew sad and she waved for Miroku to look as well. The monk’s heart twisted at the sight of their friend; his back shaking with sobs with his head leaned against the tree. Sango touched the man’s shoulder, his sad eyes turned to hers. “We should go. This is personal.” She mouthed. He nodded and stood with her.
The hanyou’s ears twitched and Kagome turned to find Sango and Miroku. The hanyou wiped his face before turning to look at the pair. “What are you guys doing out here?” He asked, his voice watery with tears. “We were looking for you.” Miroku answered as Sango opened her mouth to tell him about Kagome’s spiritual energy. The monk gave her a sharp look and shook his head. “I’ll be back soon. Just leave me.” The hanyou said before turning back to the tree. Miroku nodded before taking Sango’s arm and leading her back to Keade’s hut.
As soon as they were through the flap the slayer rounded on him. “Miroku, why did you lie to Inuyasha!?” She shouted. Miroku smiled before answering, “are you sure we sensed Kagome’s spiritual power?” The girl’s anger subsided and she gave him a questioning look. “Why?”
“It’s important we are sure that it was Kagome. After fighting alongside of her we know the feel of her miko powers. This was very similar but it was not exactly hers. What if we just felt a spike in Kikyo’s miko power and mistook it for Kagome’s? You see where the problem arises?” The slayer nodded and sat down in front of the fire. “If we aren’t sure why get Inuyasha’s hopes up?” She asked. The monk nodded and joined her at the fire. “Inuyasha is very fragile right now. He loved Kikyo at a time we all knew this, but we knew he loved Kagome as well, I don’t know if Inuyasha will admit to this… I’m not even sure he has admitted it to himself yet…” The monk froze, his face lighting up. “That may be the key! He needs to admit to himself how he feels!” The man stood, running out of the hut leaving Sango sitting at the fire watching with questioningly.
Inuyasha’s ears twitched as he heard the hurried footsteps coming up behind him. He raised his head from the sacred tree and looked over his shoulder at the monk approaching. “What?” The hanyou asked quietly, turning back to the tree. “Inuyasha, I may have figured out why you cannot talk to Kagome.” The hanyou turned quickly. “Why monk?!” He asked breathlessly. “You need to be honest about your feelings for her. You need to confess how you feel in your heart. The connection is still there but it’s weak which is why you can’t hear her.” The hanyou nodded and looked back at the tree. “It’s just a theory Inuyasha.” Miroku said before walking back to the hut.
“Kagome…?” Inuyasha’s ear twitched to make sure Miroku was out of hearing range. The girl looked down at him. “What?” She asked, sadden further when his ears didn’t twitch towards her. “I wish you were here so badly.” She sat beside him. “I…” He touched the tree softly. “I never show my true feelings because it makes you weak. Even when I found out Kikyo had died I never… I’ve only shown my tears when my mother died… and when you were poisoned by the band of seven and almost died, but now… Gods, I find myself crying everyday… In private in front of your family, in front of our friends.” He shook his head, sighing heavily, “I don’t know what to do without you.” He laid his hand flat on the tree. “I wish you were here, I wish you could tell me what to do… I wish you could tell me everything was okay and I was strong, but without you I’m not strong… Hell, I just want to curl in a ball and cry…” He looked up through the branches of the sacred tree to the full moon. “If screaming your name would bring you back, I’d scream until I was hoarse, if offering blood would bring you back, I’d give it until my body was dry, if giving my life would bring you back, I’d gladly give it…”
“That would defeat the purpose of me coming back. The whole reason I’m still here is because of our bond.” She interrupted quietly.
His back was shaking as quiet sobs came from him. “Kagome, please say something, even if it’s sit, please.” He cried, his voice breaking from his tears. “OPEN YOUR EARS!” She screamed, trying to shake him to get his attention. Her hands went through him yet he offered no reaction.
His ears moved, trying to catch the slightest sound, when he heard nothing he slammed his fist into the crater he’d created, deepening it with a curse. “I need this to work. I need to hear you.” He whispered.
He jumped into the tree, curling into the branches. His hand reached into his robe and when Kagome floated beside him she saw a glimmer of gold. She moved to look over his shoulder. He opened the heart shaped locket and ran the tip of his claw down the side of her face. “I miss you Kagome.” He kissed her picture gently before tucking it back into his kimono, setting it against his chest.
Tears were running down Kagome’s face when he closed his eyes to sleep. “I hope someone figures out how I can talk to you. It’s tearing me apart to see you so hurt.” She whispered, kissing one soft ear before settling across from him. “Sweet dreams my hanyou.” A soft smile crossed his face, “you too my miko.” He muttered sleepily. She turned to him quickly, her eyebrows rising in surprise. “Did you actually hear me?” His ears didn’t move and a quiet snore was the only sound he made. She grinned all the same, his miko? I can be that. She leaned back against the tree to wait until morning.