InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bestfriend's Love ❯ My Life, A Dreaded Cycle ( Chapter 2 )

-A/N: Hello minna-san! ^__^ I would just like to thank the following for reviewing my story!

Dbzgurl 34: Don't worry! This isn't the end! I have many more ideas in my mind for this story! What do pairing do you think this story should have? Inu/Kag or Sess/Kag? Just wondering though. Anyway, thank you very much for reviewing! ^__^

Mystical Dreamers: Did I really made you cry? Awww…I'm so sorry, but that's just how I feel for this fic. ^^ But hey! I updated! I guess, I escaped your Ninja Squirrels this time! Thanks for reviewing! Hope you like this one!

By the way, I would just like to ask, as to what pairing this story should have? Sess/Kag or Inu/Kag? Anyway, let's go on with the fic! Chappie two, My Life, A Dreaded Cycle~

~Here I am hoping you'll see me. . .see me more than a friend. . .see me as a person you can love. . . but you can't. . .you didn't. . .you won't. . .~

Morning, the start of another day. . .how I hate it. . .dreaded it. . .because. . .because I would again take part of my life living in a lie. . .live in such a daily, practiced routine. . .Go to school, meet my friends, study, learn, meet him, make my lie look like a truth, then go home. . .pained, broken and still hoping.

It was stupid. . .wasting everyday of my life, waiting and hoping for my wish, even if I know it would never come true. . . But still, I got up, finally starting the dreaded cycle. I bathed for a half-hour and then clothed myself in my school uniform. I looked at the full-length view mirror, surveying myself.

`Am I not good enough? Not pretty enough? Not enough? They tell me I'm beautiful. . .then why can't I feel that way? I feel like I'm the ugliest person on earth. . .Then why? Why can't I just feel content? Why can't I feel complete? Why? Maybe. . .maybe. . .I AM not complete. . .without him. . .without him. . .I feel incompetent. . .I feel broken. . .

I sighed, and stopped the upcoming nonsense going in my head, because I'd be late for school. I walked out of my room and went downstairs. As usual, there was no one. . .no one to greet me. . .no one to say "Good Morning" to me. . .no one. . .

Mom always get up early for work, Ojiichan is often at the hospital due to his sickness and old age. Souta at the meantime, always manages to go to school earlier than me. . .alone. . .I'm always alone. . .but I don't mind it anymore. . .In fact, I think it was better this way. . .much better. . .at least, I won't have to wear my fake and cheerful mask. . .at least, I was spared from acting my deceitful ways. . .even if it was just here. . .or should I say, only up to here. . .

I then proceeded to go to school. . .walking on the same streets, thinking the same thoughts, and dreading the same things. Finally, I arrive at school. Students were already filling inside. As I walked into the gates, my heart flopped. There, I saw him. . .talking to his girlfriend, Kikyo. . .Kikyo. . .I wonder what it's like to be Kikyo. . .to be his girlfriend. . .even just once. . .I wish even just once. . .even just one day. . .I'd like to know what it feels to be in her place. . .just once. . .

Kikyo. . .many people say that we look exactly alike. . .twins even. . .but I disagree on that. . .For me, we're the opposite. How do we look alike anyway? She has perfectly straight and tamed hair, a perfect pale skin, a gorgeous body. . .While I. . .I have long and wild hair, an uneven complexion, and heck! My body never even came close to the word `gorgeous!'

Besides, she's popular, has many influential friends and guys adore her. I could never be like that. . .I'm always the `girl-next-door type' or maybe the `one-of-the-boys type.' I could never be like her. . .never. . .

I stood there and watched them for sometime. I could see him smiling sheepishly at her while they talk. . .I wonder. . .could he also smile like that for me. . .I did not have the time to answer that question, because I then realized, that he was already saying his goodbyes to her. . .I collected myself from my stupor and slowly walked toward the school. . .I don't really like him to know that I was watching them. . .As I was about to reach my destination, I heard it. . .I heard him. . .calling me. . .

"Yo, Kag-chan! Ohayo!"

"Uh. . .Hello, Inu-chan! Ohayo!" I replied in a practiced, flawless routine. I was again putting up my mask. . .my mask of deceit for him. . .just for him. . .

"You want to go to the cafeteria or something before classes start?" he asked me.

"Hmmm. . ." I said, trying to fake that I was seriously thinking about it. . .Even if I would be going anyway. . .Anything for him. . .anything. . . "But classes will start soon an I'll be late again! This will be the fifth time this month you know!" I protested.

"Who cares?!? I already got eight tardiness in total this month! Besides, that's the fun part of it! We'll only be late for homeroom anyway!" he gruffly stated.

"Hmm. . .Only if you treat me!"

"Nani!?! I just treated you last time!"

"Check you brain again stupid! I treated you last time!"

"Okay! Okay! I'll treat you already! But you'd better treat me next time!" he give in.

"Don't I always?" I innocently replied as we headed together for the cafeteria.

As we arrived at our destined place, I sat on a chair, while my bag occupied a part of our table. He at the meantime, merely plopped his bag on his chair and then took out his wallet.

"So, what would you like?" he asked me.

"Anything you'll get. . .only make mine large!" I replied.

"Large?!? You are sooo greedy when it comes to eating you know! And I do mean greedy!"

"As if you're not also like that! Besides, we're not eating! You only buy drinks anyway in the morning!" I jubilantly proclaimed.

He didn't answered me anymore, instead he huffed off to buy our drinks, finally surrendering to defeat. After sometime, he returned carrying our orders.

"Here!" he said, as he handed me my `so-called-large' drink.

"Hey! Where's my straw?"

"Go get it yourself!"

"Hidoi!" I said, faking that I was hurt. "How could you say that to your own bestfriend?" I again stated, knowingly he'll soon give in.

"Hai! Hai!" he replied as he stood up to get it.

"Here you go, madam!" he said in a sarcastic tone.

"Thanks Inu-chan! You're the greatest!"

"Feh!"

I slowly slurped my drink, before asking him.

"So, Inu-chan. How are you and Kikyo doing?"

"Oh, we're fine I guess. . .sometimes having arguments. . .but we patch up easily. . .But you know what, I think she doesn't love me anymore. . ."

"Huh? Why do you say that?"

"Um. . .I don't know, but it feels like she's neglecting me lately. . .like she doesn't have time for me anymore."

"What are you saying? Maybe she's busy or something. . .With the school activities coming up, it certainly will be hectic for us all. . .so you never know!"

"You think so?"

"I'm sure so! She wouldn't think of leaving you for even a minute! So, stop worrying already! She'll never do that!"

`At least, I won't'

"I guess so. . .Thanks Kag-chan!"

"Sure thing!"

We passed our time, talking an finishing off our drinks, when the bell rang. We hurriedly run off to our respective classes, knowing to well that we were already in trouble. Before I parted off to my way, I called him.

"Oh, Inu-chan thanks for the drink!"

"Yeah, yeah!"

"Well, bai bai!"

"uhm. . .Ja ne!"

I ran off until he was out of my sight, and just merely walked down the school hallways. Alone, I let go off my mendacious mask and returned to my normal, pained and troubled self.

I knew it hurt so much when I assured Inuyasha on the Kikyo problem. But I just can't sit there doing nothing, while I see him hurting and suffering. . .I AM his bestfriend after all. So no matter what it takes. . .I'd do anything to make him happy. . .anything. . .just for him. . .

~A/N: Please tell me what you think! As usual, comments, suggestions and questions are always welcome! Oh, by the way, please tell me the pairing you'd like to see here! Arigatou! ^__^ Until then, Ja ne!

chibi-chan ^^