InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Betrayed ❯ The Room ( Chapter 3 )

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Chapter Three: The Room

                Sesshomaru quickly made his way down the winding halls of his estate caring Kagome to the room next to him the whole time giving servants orders. The healers his three best had been called to the girl’s side as he laid her on bed.  The healers had then taken over ushering him out of the room so that they may do their work. That had been over a month ago and the girl had yet to wake from her seep. It had been a whole month that Sesshomaru had been forced to remain inside the walls of his home and that was a moth to long for him.  Nor he or the healers could understand it. Her body was healed and in better shape than it had been before and the healers would reassure him daily that there was nothing physically wrong with her. The oldest of the three healers that were attending to the girl had told him that her mind must still be too weak for her to wake. She had said that sometimes when you suffer great physical and emotional trauma that the mind needs more time than the body.

                She had told Sesshomaru that she had seen this many times in her years as a healer within the walls of his estate. So there was nothing left to do but wait for the girl to wake. It was taxing but most of all it was annoying and Sesshomaru despised being annoyed.  “My lord!” speaking of annoying he heard Jacken’s voice screeching as he came closer to his door. Sesshomaru had to resist the urge to leap from his window to avoid the toad but for once the toad may be bring good news. So Sesshomaru stayed put safely seated behind his desk in his study.

                Not even bothering to knock the small toad burst through the door falling face first into the stone floor. Quickly gathering himself to his feet the toad began to screech once more. “My lord. The girl she has awoken.” Without a word Jacken Sesshomaru ran past him in a flash of with eager to hear what the woman had to say. This was what he had been waiting for now that she was awake things could start moving forward.

                In mere seconds Sesshomaru stood in front of the sliding door that lead to her room. To his surprise the door slid back to revile his head healer. It was the first time that Sesshomaru noted how old that she looked now. Even though daemons aged much slower than humans they still feel pray to the hands of time, just like a wilting flower her skin had started to wrinkle and there were lines that had started to appear on the old bat daemons face. He could see that her black hair was starting to shine with small gray strands.

                “Now you listen to me Lord Sesshomaru. The girl is still very weak. She can barely talk and ye do not need to be gruff with her.” The old bat had known Sesshomaru from the time he was a pup and he was pretty sure that she had served at the castle for centuries before he was borne. She was one of the few who dared teal him what to do.

                “Yuri I will not be harsh with the girl I simply wish to know what happened to her.” Sesshomaru stated quietly.

                “Keep in mind that the girls mind is still weak. Do not push her to hard or ye may have to deal with many setbacks.” Yuri’s warning rang in his ears. He couldn’t afford any setbacks with the girl, she had wasted enough time already.

                “Yuri this Sesshomaru is no longer a child for you to correct.” With that Sesshomaru made his way through the door and into Kagome’s room. The site that meet him for some reason did not sit well with him. He could see that the girl was awake and sitting on edge of here bed, but what did not sit well with him was the look in her eyes. They were dull and void of all emotion. It was unnerving to see that look in her eyes after all the times he had seen the fire burning in them.

                “Miko.” Sesshomaru spoke and the girl did not look up she didn’t even make any indication that she had heard him. “Miko.” Sesshomaru spoke louder this time. He could see her eyes sift to meet his and even Sesshomaru was shocked by the lifelessness that he saw with in them. InuYasha had truly destroyed a rare creature. ‘How could he put out the fire that once lived within this girl?’ Sesshomaru asked himself. She has survived so much in the time that she had released his brother from the tree and now hear she lay with a sickly look to her. Her once shiny hair now dull and lifeless, matted together from seat, blood and mud. Her skin now healed a ghostly white tone and if the healers had not told him she would be fine Sesshomaru would have thought she was on deaths door. It angered Sesshomaru to see her like this even though he would never admit it out loud.

                “Why?” Her voice was so weak that he almost missed her small question.

                “Why what miko?” He knew what she was asking but Sesshomaru wasn’t one for giving answers feely. If she wanted to know then she would have to ask the right question and even, then he may still not answer.

                “Why, did you save me?” It was a question that he knew she needed an answer to but she would not get her answer today. She need something to be angry at he could see that, something to bring the fire back into her eyes.

                “Why matters not Miko.” He could see her eyes narrow as he saw the first flash of emotion in her eyes. ‘So there is some fight left in her.’ Sesshomaru thought. “Now tell me how did you come to be in this condition?”

                “Why do you even care? I won’t be your problem much longer.” Kagome shot at him and she had no plans on staying with the ice lord.

                “Miko, whatever plans you have brewing in that head of yours don’t even think about it. You are under this Sesshomaru’s care now weather you like it or not. Now you will tell this Sesshomaru what happened to you.” Sesshomaru could see her flinch a little as he raised his voice to her and defeat washed over her face again.

                “To make a long story short InuYasha wanted to bring Kikyo back to life and my death would give her soul the opportunity to take over my body.” Sesshomaru watched as she hissed in pain as she turned to face away from him and he gave her no reply as he moved to leave the room. “You can’t keep me hear.” Her voice stopped him mid stride.

                “Miko you are not going anywhere until Naraku is gone from this world. Weather you spend your stay here as a guest or as a prisoner is up to you.”  Sesshomaru then left her to think about his words as he left her to herself.

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                A whole week had passed for Kagome but not much had changed. They physical danger had passed other than that she was a little soar. It was the mental damage that no one could seem to break though. It had been a week since she had died and been brought back to life and she was still no closer to any answers. Kagome was paged during the day with so many questions. Why wasn’t I good enough? What’s wrong with me? Why am I even still alive? And at night she was tortured by nightmares forced to relive that horrible night over and over again. Hear heart ached like nothing she had ever felt before.

                She missed them all so much Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kirara hell she even missed Koga. Kagome longed for a familiar face just someone that she could talk to. And as stupid as she felt even after all the pain that he had caused her Kagome still couldn’t help but love InuYasha. It wasn’t just some switch that she could just flip off. After all, that they had been through together after all the times he had saved her acted as if he cared for her, all of that couldn’t have been fake. It just couldn’t have been because if it was then her whole time hear had been a lie. How could she trust anyone ever again if the man she had loved had just been a lie. A lie to use her for his own gain.

                Kagome couldn’t help feeling like some cheap whore who had been used up and for the first time in her life she felt truly filthy. Just the thought of any place he had ever touched her made her skin crawl. Kagome just wanted it all to be over, she didn’t want to be haunted by these feelings any more. And she had tried several times to end it all but the healers had caught her every time. After the first time she had been placed on a form of lock down. The curtons had been taken away and they had stopped sending silver ware with dinner but that didn’t matter Kagome had stopped eating not that it mattered any way. They would just come in and force feed her like they had the past few days.

                But in the end Kagome had come up with a sure fire way to end her life. She was going to do the one thing that could get any one killed. She was going to piss off lord Sesshomaru. She knew he had killed for less. Sadly, since the last time he was hear she had not seen him.  It was then that the door to her room flew open and a servant that Kagome had never seen before made her way into the room. Her arm filled with Kimonos of all different colors and styles. Bowing to Kagome the girl made her way over to the wardrobe in the corner of the room and began to hang the kimonos.

                Kagome could tell the girl was young she looked too young to be away from her family and working in this place. With her light pink hair and small frame, she looked to be about thirteen, but Kagome knew she was older. Daemons aged so much slower than humans and back when she thought there was a hope for InuYasha and she to have a life to gather she even envied them. Whishing that she could have that long life and spend all those days with him but now all she could do was pity how long they had to live in misery.

                Kagome took note of how the girls eyes shined wide with wonder. Kagome could see the same wonder that used to shine in her eyes once up on a time and it make her sick. ‘Did I really look like that? Was I really ever that oblivious to the ways of the world? No wonder he chose her over me. I was useless like that.’ Kagome couldn’t help the thoughts that crept into her mind and the rush of pain that stabbed in her heart.

                “What are you doing in hear?” Kagome barked and the girl jumped at her harsh voice

                “The master of the house wished for me to hang these for you my lady. He also wished for me to escort you to the bath and dress for dinner.” The girl never once lost the cheer in her voice as she spoke. Once again a wave of nausea washed over Kagome, her cheer was sickening.

                “You can tell your Master that I have no intention of meeting him for dinner.” Kagome huffed as she folded her arms over her chest. “What’s your name anyway?”

                “The lord will not be happy to hear that you have disobeyed his request, and my name is Kiki my lady.” There was a hint of worry in Kiki’s voice and Kagome wasn’t sure if the worry was for her or if she would be punished for not completing her task.

                “Well Kiki I could care less what your Ice lord wants me to do! He can kiss my ass for all I care.” Kagome almost laughed at the shocked look on Kiki’s face. It was obvious that she wasn’t used to people talking about her lord in such a manor, but Kagome didn’t care. The whole point was to piss him off.

                “My lady you should not speak of the lord in such a manner! He saved your life out of the kindness of his heart!” Kagome could see that Kiki was frantic trying to defend her lord.

                “Well you know what Kiki I didn’t ask to be saved! I wanted to die! He did me no favors except prolong my misery in this Kami forsaken life! So he didn’t save me out of the kindness of his ice cold heart he did it because it would benefit him. He saved me just so he could use me like everyone else in my life has and the only hope I have is that when he’s done with me that he will finally let me die!” Kagome’s voice grew with anger with every word that feel from her lips. “Your young and so innocent it so disgusting I can barely stand to look at you. You know I used to be that way, that hopeful I can see why InuYasha wanted me gone. All those years I wasted.” Kagome couldn’t stop the tears from falling in a heavy river down her face.

                “My lady…. Are you ok?” Kiki asked as she rached out her hand to place it on Kagome’s shoulder and Kagome violently slapped it away.

                “Don’t touch me!” Kagome scramed at her.

                “Do you wish me to go get Lord Sesshomaru?” Kiki was at a loss now. This was supposed to be a simple task and now it was turning into so much more.

                “No I don’t not want you to get Sesshomaru! I don’t want to be hear! I don’t want to be alive and I am because of him! He is the last person I was to see next to InuYasha!” Kagome couldn’t stop yelling it felt so good to finally be taking out her anger on something. Even though she knew it was wrong at this moment Kagome didn’t care.

                “My lady what do you wish me to do then?” Kiki gasped

 

                “I want you to get out!” And with Kagome’s last angry words Kiki rushed from the room and down the hall.