InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bitter Sweet Tragedy ❯ Secret Tears ( Chapter 6 )

 

Kagome sat there dazed, fused by his comments that he always seemed to direct towards her. He still held her leg in his lap securely, and his apart of his shirt acted like a bandage to stop the pain and ease her back to health. He was descent and graceful enough to even rip his own shirt from his back and help her after all the times he said he couldn't care about another human being. Her hazel eyes fluttered in astonishment looking directly at the black bandage simply held by a safety pin. His head remained towards the floor, and his bangs overshadowed his mysterious face that intrigued her ever since she looked upon him.His hands flew around in his beaten down jeans as he placed another safety pin in his mouth.

 

Kagome kept her eyes watching, as the water was the only thing that broke the odd silence. She couldn't care about anything else around her, not even the place she was to remain in. Her eyes couldn't look away from him she could never understand why, but the more they stared the more she tried to convince herself to turn in the other direction. His warm hands grasped gently on her tender leg, as she felt the hair on her neck stand up on end and a feeling of trust began to develop inside.

 

 

He felt himself getting stared down, as his eyes appeared from the curtains of bangs he hid behind towards the young women who laid injured and feeling so confused about him in everyway possible. When she thought she knew who he really was, something else shined through that proved her completely wrong. Kagome felt his cold eyes glaring at her, as her eyes stared back trying to pull away as best as she could.

 

“ Why won't he look away?”

 

She felt her stomach tie in knots that made her feel unease, as she swung her head around the moment words were ready to run off his lips that would make her feel smaller than she appeared. Her black hair rested gently on her shoulders, and he placed the last safety securely at the bottom of his rag cast. Her eyes remained looking at the water ruined walls, as she felt herself stop in a moment, as her eyes opened wide when she felt something else completely unexpected. Her train of thoughts suddenly came to a stop. She felt warmth all over her legs, when her eyes gazed upon what was truly happening. His hands were massaging her legs, as her eyes remained shocked and her feelings continued to confuse her more and more about him.

 

“ Kagome, don't give me that damn look alright? I'm simply seeing if your leg is actually broken! I'm just trying to ease the pain alittle bit and see if your able to stand.”

 

His words lashed out on her, as she placed her hands to her hips and yelled when he hit the most sensitive spot on her leg.

 

“ Damn it that hurt!” She cried out ready to feel tears dripping down her cheeks but instead she kept them in. His face went red with anger, he was ready to bash her more with words but instead something nice managed to get in the way of his cussing. “ Look I'm sorry…Let's see if you can stand…”

 

Kagome's eyes began to blink, as she calmly shook her head like she knew she was going to endure pain and it was impossible for her to. Kagome winced in pain, as his hands dragged away from her injured leg and back into his lap. He rose from the cold concrete, as his eyes watched over her like a hawk soaring the skies. He released his hand bringing it towards her reach as he gave a hidden warm like smile she felt she could trust.

 

“ You kidding me!? My leg is broken! How the hell am I gonna just stand up!? It's broken for god sakes broken”!! Kagome screamed out at the top of her lungs as tears began to form, thinking she'd broke it for sure and she'd die here and never make it out ever.

 

He began to laugh at her saying it was broken, but he knew more than she realized.. He felt sympathetic towards her pain and the tears he shed as he wiped the tears from her corner of her hazel eyes.

 

“ Don't give me that god damn attitude Kagome! Your just being a baby about this! God damnit just get off of the floor, or I'll I pull you off! So take your pick!”

 

He began to yell viciously in her ears, as her saddened smile transformed into a heartless glare hating his cussing words, and how he seemed like almost he controlled her. She didn't understand why she felt the way she did about him, but she knew that feeling suddenly vanished into thin air. She hated his poor attitude, and acting like he knew all about her in a nutshell when he truly didn't. The pain was pretty bad and she was positive if she couldn't move it, it was for sure broken. Her hands charged into fists, as she slowly began to rise to his little challenge after feeling weak and hopeless around him. She didn't want him to have that satisfaction to continue calling her weak and useless when she knew she could try and pull through.

 

“ God damn it fine!”

 

His deep voice ventured from his throat coaxing her to bring herself back to her feet in his own twisted way trying to make her strong and understand that life wasn't always fun or full of happiness. Her hand hesitated to grasp his, as his darkened eyes began to mock her continuously.

 

“ Your such a freaking baby. It isn't broken so I don't know why you decide to play this little girl in distress. So grab my hand and see if it isn't…I'll bet ya money it isn't Kagome.”

 

He snapped viciously, amused by her angered expressions yet she was determined to rise and not make an example of herself of a weak young women he loved to laugh at. Kagome's face began to grow red, as her hand grasps his as he slowly pulled her from the icy ground she laid upon. Her eyes began to tighten, ready to endure the severe pain that was might to stroll along right after. His arms whisked her towards her feet, and pulled her forwards as her arms grasped over his shoulders feeling the pain slowly building at once.

 

Her hands held on to him for support and balance, and her tightened eyes opened revealing his face in hers noticing she wasn't falling weakly back to the ground. A slight smile began to rise from the corner of his lips, knowing himself her leg wasn't broken at all just sprained. Her eyes began to dance, as he felt her impact almost taking him down as well losing his own balance. Kagome felt eager to lean in and speak her mind about how she truly thought about him. It had rattled her enough, and so many times she thought it through her mind over and over but the words never seemed to come out. His eyes opened widely as she gracefully brought herself forward aiming towards his ear, to him looked like she was pursuing something else. He felt himself began to panic, thinking something unexpected was going to happen he felt wasn't right. He slowly pushed her back as she danced around weakly on one foot, ready to find herself down towards the ground.

 

Kagome began to blink, as both foot stood tall and proudly noticing her injured leg was fine and the severe pain was stopped by the bandage he created for her. His hands gently lifted up her chin with a devious grin, like a child brewing up evil thoughts in his mind. “

 

Told ya it wasn't broken…Kagome…”

 

He sat back in his corner, with his legs stretched out and his arms crossed and his bowing down towards the ground. She couldn't believe how much an arrogant ass such as himself, could know almost everything that Kagome couldn't see even herself. He simply placed his hand to his chest, feeling his heart pounding through his chest not skipping a beat only going faster than usual. His hands curled into fists as his bangs teaseling touched his forehead.

 

“ Why am I feeling like this? She's just a stupid bitch that's all she is to me…

 

 

 

 

 

Still, she stood as her skirt swayed gently from the gentle breeze that flew through the freedom door. Finally fresh air entered the cells as she lightly breathed it in from breathing in the disgusting smell of them rotting feeling so unclean and disgusting herself. His hands could only touch the window in the cell, as the dust attached to the palm of his hands leaving hand prints. She knew as much as he called this place “Home” he wanted to escape she could read it in her eyes. The way he stared through the window, imprisoned, robbed basically of his own life not living the life he was meant to live. His eyes were glued to the wilderness, and the trees swaying to the breeze. Everything else was free, but why couldn't he be? It had been awhile since he had been out into the fresh air, with another family. But it seemed, whenever he had the chance of being free he always returned back here from where he started. He tried to act so tough, so people didn't understand him and try to him hurt like the rest of the world did. Kagome had no intention to at all, she wanted to help him as best as she could as much as she wanted to save herself. She wondered what caused him to start back here when he was so close to the finish? She thought maybe the past experiences were so great, or the family it's self was too violent or couldn't contain such a child as him.

 

She wish she could help, but they were both useless and vulnerable themselves. They couldn't help each other it get out, accept help each other cope how they felt and she knew he wasn't going to express his feelings that much, he was too stubborn to. He was afraid of getting hurt, but she couldn't see that only he could. The bars covered the windows wishing he had the strength to break through, but he couldn't. He felt like an animal trapped in a cage to watch the world around him grow, and yet ripped away from it. Kagome's held her hands together ready to place her hand on him for comfort, but she was afraid he'd snap back and bitch at her as he usually did. He was trying to hide something about himself, but she was slowly figuring him out step by step.

 

“ He must miss being with his real family, and being in the real world…”

 

Kagome thought to herself, ready to shed tears for his sake. She didn't know if she'd become him, giving up hope and going through as much as he endured. She leaned her hand out slowly reached for his shoulder, as his deepened softened voice shook her that made her arm pull back.

 

“ Kagome?”

 

Kagome gulped, and began to listen when he heard his tone of voice change softly almost like he was in pain and sadness. She began to blink, listening when he saw his hands pressed against the window and his voice altered like he was crying.

 

“ Yes..?”

 

She said calmly, as his head pressed against the window taking in a deep breath. His eyes calmly glanced at hers ready to ask her something important that was brewing through his mind, but instead he held back.

 

“ Nevermind Kagome, it's nothing important.”

 

He lied, he couldn't bring himself to say what was needed. He felt too weak and too emotional and he knew guys weren't suppose to be like that. He wasn't going to allow tears to run down his cheek, he knew it was pointless to cry cause tears weren't worth the time. Kagome nervously walked to his side looking out the window, seeing the world through glass. You could see it, but yet couldn't feel it or touch it and he wished he truly could. Her hands drifted on his shoulder, and giving him a concerned look that brought a hidden look inside his eyes. She thought she'd get her arm bitten off, but instead he relaxed and ignored her hands on his shoulders.

 

“ You miss everything don't you?”

 

Her head slightly leaned against his, as he felt something else he couldn't quite describe. Something told him he could trust this girl, and that she could see the hurt and how he truly felt no matter how he tried to hide it the fact was he couldn't. His hands were placed back to his side, seeing how she was so eager to hear his reply actually caring for the arrogant guy who wasn't who he acted or claimed to be. His eyes looked into hers and huffed wondering if he should continue to lie or tell her the truth of how he felt.

 

“ Kagome, I just like looking out through the window that's all is that ok with you!?….”

 

He began to say, as she felt her arm lunge back as much as she tried to help him he continued to pull further back. He just angrily threw himself down watching the night sky and the stars glowing they're brightest. It had only been a whole day she was there, and it seemed like forever for herself. His head laid against the wall as he just growled at her when he felt her lay on her knees trying to comfort, but he didn't care for it. He just violently swatted her hand away.

 

“ Just leave me alone Kagome..stay the hell away from me..”

 

 

 

Kagome held her hand gently knowing he actually didn't mean what he did. She wanted to put in more words but she knew this is where she stood for now. The further she got, the further steps back she'd take. Kagome gently placed her hands underneath her head as a pillow, and began to shake from the coldness. It was nothing like home. No bed to keep her warm, and no family to wake up and greet in the morning. She knew it was a big change, and now she realized things would never go back the way they were. Ever.

Her body continued shaking through out her sleep, as secret tears rolled down her cheek and she felt now it was ok to cry now. He wouldn't be able to see her tears or call her weak, but as much as she tried to go through and show herself as strong, the more she felt even worse about herself.

 

Quiet sobs seeped from her mouth, as she dreamt of all that happened, just wishing she'd wake up in her bed and realize she was dreaming. He stood awake in his thoughts, looking up at the night sky wishing himself he was still with his family, missing them every moment every day. That promise his mother, now he realized was more just a mere lie. He believed it until he was fourteen, saying his mother would return but years passed and he gave up hope and lingered and believed his own mother's lie. He shared the exact same pain as her, even though he'd never admit it to anyone. His hands buried his face when he thought about his mother abandoning him that brought a surprising tear to his cheek.

 

“ Why did I have to grow up here? Believing mother you'd come back..it was all just a lie…”

 

He thought, as he tried to keep his sobs quiet so she wouldn't suspect anything. But instead he heard the faint sobs of sadness and chattering teeth and thought maybe it was the other prisoners in the cell.

 

 

He slowly gotten off of his rough knees, and began to place his feet ever so slowly one in front of the other trying to find where the sound was coming in the orphanage. His hands slowly grasped the bars to hear nothing but people sleeping through out the chambers. He began to hear the sobbing of a young women, as his head tilted towards Kagome noticing her lips barely open and her body continued to shake through out her sleep.

 

“ Kagome…”

 

He whispered softly, as his placed his one hand coldly back on the ground crouching over her listening and watching faintly. Her voice slowly whispered her family's names feeling so guilty for pushing her so hard and that wasn't exactly what he meant to do to her. He could understand she hadn't even been here for a full day, and he understand the pain and the suffering she was enduring. His eyes softly look at her, feeling like a monster for the way he treated such an innocent girl who only wished to go back home and live life the way it was meant to be.

 

“ Kagome…I'm sorry…” He gently whispered as he threw his black shirt to the ground and gently over her body as a blanket.

 

He had forgotten what it was like, to feel completely scared and all alone and slowly losing hope. He had been in there too long to realize and remember what it was all like at first. His hands gently touched her face, as her shaking finally came to a rest when he draped her with his black shirt. He had hope for her she'd at least get out herself, but he had no hope if he would ever get out alive. He began to give a light smile of hope for her, as one tear secretly fell on her cheek. He slowly rose up again as her eyes slowly opened seeing him returning back to his original corner. She was pretty sure she had heard his voice whispering in her ear, but she wasn't exactly sure if she dreamt it. Her hands lightly touched her face feeling a fresh tear wondering if she had cried or if he was by her side and cried. Her eyes kept on his face, wondering if he actually was by her side or not.

 

 

He thought she was surely fast to sleep, as he quietly sobbed and she could hear him faintly and felt so bad.

 

“ I know Kagome you'll be ok and you'll be out soon. But I can't say a lot for me…” He whispered to himself, as the last two tears dropped to the ground. She was witnessing every moment and every tear he could possibly cry. She began to understand he wasn't the monster he acted like, he was hurt inside as badly as she was. But she gave saddened look, and closed her eyes when he gently closed his eyes awaiting another sad day…