InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Bittersweet Affinity ❯ Prologue ( Prologue )

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha… Honestly, if I did, would I be spending my time writing fanfiction?

Warnings: This story contains M/M, yaoi, lemon…I think you get the idea.

Bittersweet Affinity

Prologue

I have longed.

I have pined.

I have desired.

I have wished.

I have craved.

I have hoped against hope.

And I have fought all of these dreadful, weakening feelings every step of the way. These feeble emotions chisel at the barrier surrounding my melancholic heart. It begins to crack at the edges, barely holding back the onslaught of emotions stirring against it.

My feet resolutely carry me onward without my consent, pulling me toward you. Struggle and resist as I might, I press forward. You call to me.

I have hated you.

I have resented you.

I have searched within me for the power to destroy you.

I have attempted to end your life before the feelings you evoke in me become the end of me.

However, I could never find the strength to do what I felt was needed. I curse myself for the pity that hid itself somewhere within, what I thought was my impenetrable heart. How do you manage to affect me so, even when I put great distances and lengths between us?

You abandoned me.

You discarded our ties at the one time I was willing to call upon you.

You deserted me.

You left me…alone.

Don't you see? There is no one else. You and I were all that remained. It pains me that I neglected that fact before, but when I was willing to repent, your selfish deeds denied and betrayed me.

Still, I travel ever closer to you from the west, as you wait in your endless sleep for me. I feel your aura practically singing to me; its enchanting call tempts me closer as it wishes to comfort me and ask forgiveness.

How I've missed you…

How I've been lost without you…

How could I have been so foolish to think I didn't need or want you by my side…

Without you and your boorish activities to terrorize the peaceful lives of those around you and pestering me endlessly, I found myself with little to do each day. Time is endless for our kind, meaning very little to me. But with your noticeable missing presence, the days and months stretched into an eternity.

However, time is certainly non-existent as I near you, my final destination.

I've had the power all along.

I could have freed you at any time.

I knew that no miko's spell, despite its power, was a match for my own spirit.

I chose not to save you…and as a result, we both suffered for our mistakes.

You betrayed me as you threw your affections to the wind and believed to feel something for the very miko who sought to change your noble blood, despite it being soiled by your human heritage.

In return, I betrayed you by ignoring your plight, thinking it a befitting end for you…but we both suffered—you with your endless prison and me with my suffocating loneliness.

My feet have stopped and planted themselves firmly to the earth beneath them. I have reached you…and you're still waiting…just as I left you…

tbc…